Chapter 196

Su Li looked up at Su Rui a few times, looking at Su Rui's joyful appearance, but he was not happy because of himself, the bitter taste in his heart became stronger and stronger, and the eldest brother should not have himself in his heart.

Su Li raised his glass and wanted to take a few sips of wine, since he drank alcohol to kill his sorrows before, he had been greedy for the wine syrup, as if this was his only emotional sustenance, and he just wanted to use wine to eliminate the irritability in his heart.

"You're a girl, what are you doing drinking!" As soon as Ding Shi turned around, he saw Su Li holding a cup with pale yellow syrup, and said in a low voice.

Ding Shi has been paying attention to Su Rui's body, and for a while he didn't realize that Su Li didn't know when he poured wine.

Su Li's hand was held, the glass was also dangling a little, the wine slurry was tilted out a little, and on the back of Su Li's hand, there was a feeling of wetness, and he couldn't put the wine glass to his mouth at all.

"I just want to taste it." Su Li couldn't tell his mother that he would have drunk before, so he had to come up with a random reason.

Ding didn't find Su Li's abnormality, so he believed what Su Li said, frowned, and said dissatisfiedly: "It's not good to taste it, where are the girls going to drink, and it makes people laugh when they say it." ”

Ding put the wine glass in Su Li's hand to the side, took a glass of hot water and put it in front of Su Li, and said with a little complaint.

"Got it." Su Li's mood was extremely bad, he was not happy at all with this meal, he held the tea brought by Ding's in his hand, drank a few sips, and put it on the table, which was bland and tasteless, and he couldn't relieve his mood at all.

"When you grow up, but you're out of luck, and when you think you're still so old, even walking is worrying." Su Jinghong drank a little too much, and he was also very excited when he looked at it, stretched out his hands, gestured a few times, and said to Su Rui.

When he mentioned what happened when he was a child, Su Rui's face was slightly red, and he looked a little embarrassed, "That's all in the past, what do you want to mention now." ”

"Hahaha, Rui'er is embarrassed sometimes." Su Jinghong seemed to have discovered a new continent, and laughed at Su Rui mercilessly.

This meal is more like the intimacy between Su Rui and Su Jinghong, Su Qi looks very uncomfortable, it is also as a son, but Su Rui gets the treatment, no matter how hard he tries, he can't get it, so how can Su Qi be willing.

Ding's expression is okay, Su Rui has nothing to do with him, now he is helping Su Rui more, and when Su Li is looking for a husband in the future, he may have to rely on Su Rui, not to mention, there is no harm in helping Su Rui for Ding.

Su Li was stared at tightly by his mother, and he couldn't drink at all, but when he saw the dishes in front of him, he didn't have any appetite to eat, he was uncomfortable all over, and his eyes unconsciously followed Su Rui.

Obviously, he has no blood relationship with his eldest brother, Su Li really wants to say this sentence, and he wants everyone to know that he is not related to his eldest brother, and wants to stand by Su Rui's side in a bright way.

But Su Li knew that this was just a thought, it was impossible for him to say it, as long as he said it, he and his mother would be finished, and everything would be ruined, after all, he was not the daughter of the Su family.

Su Li's spirit was actually a little trance, looking at Su Jinghong's open and closed mouth, he couldn't hear anything in his ears, and his mind just kept thinking about these things.

Big brother, big brother. Su Li almost couldn't hold back, he almost screamed out, Su Li's eyes were full of struggle, why Su Rui must be his eldest brother, why can't he say it even though he is not related by blood.

Everything seems to be arranged, everything is so unsatisfactory, Su Li hates the arrangement of fate, but he can't change anything, he can't do anything now, he can only watch Su Rui marry someone else, and he can't stop it.

"What are you thinking?" Ding gently patted the back of Su Li's hand, a little puzzled, since the banquet, Su Li has been in a state of mind, and he hasn't eaten anything.

"No, I don't have much appetite." Su Li was touched by his mother, came back to his senses, pulled a bitter smile at the corner of his mouth, shook his head, and said.

"Eat a little bit." Ding didn't know what was going on with Su Li, but now was not the time to delve in, he just stayed on Su Li's body for a while, and then moved to other places.

Su Li still didn't have much appetite, his eyes kept moving with Su Rui, and he almost couldn't suppress the impulse in his heart, and now he just wanted to hold Su Rui and tell him all the thoughts in his heart, hoping to get Su Rui's response.

Su Jinghong drank a lot, the first time he drank so happily, he didn't pay attention, he was a little drunk, but his mouth kept talking about Su Rui's upcoming wedding, it can be seen that Su Jinghong is full of expectations for Su Rui.

Until the end of the banquet, Su Jinghong was already a little drunk, and was helped back to his room by his subordinates, and the rest of the people also dispersed one after another, Su Qi had not left, he was still sitting in his place, holding the wine bottle and drinking non-stop.

"Who made you drink!" Zhou has long been dissatisfied, but because it was not easy to speak just now, he temporarily suppressed the complaint in his heart to the bottom of his heart, and now everyone is almost gone, Zhou said with a bit of scolding in his tone.

Su Qi drank a lot of wine, his brain was dizzy, and now he couldn't listen to anything, his body was a little shaky, and his eyes moved to his mother's body without focus.

"Just drink a little, a little." Su Qi stretched out his finger, shook it a few times in front of Zhou's eyes, and said with a little slurred speech.

Looking at Su Qi's current appearance, Zhou was both angry and distressed, but what could he do, it was useless to reason with a drunk person, Zhou took a deep breath and suppressed the anger in his heart.

"You two, take the young master back to the room!" Zhou's face was not very good-looking, and he commanded the two subordinates standing behind him.

"Yes." The two subordinates who were pointed out by Zhou hurriedly walked over, one of them helped Su Qi's side, pulled him up from the chair, and walked out slowly.

The banquet on this side has already ended, and on the other side, Su Li, who left with Ding's in advance, wanted to stop several times.

"What are you thinking, go back and rest early, I'm very tired today." Ding frowned, looked at Su Li, who was walking very slowly behind him, and said.

"yes, got it." Su Li's eyes kept searching for Su Rui's back, wanting to see if Su Rui was there, and was urged over and over again by his mother Ding, so he reluctantly moved his steps.

There is also a small road that turns around, and it will go to Su Li's residence, the courtyard in front of it is faint, Su Li sighed, he has come here, and he doesn't expect to see Su Rui much.

As soon as Su Li withdrew his gaze, a familiar shadow fell into his eyes, Su Li was excited, and hurriedly raised his head, could it be that he was dazzled by excessive thoughts.

Sure enough, not far from Su Li, Su Rui and Su Jinghong were talking and laughing, and they should have walked to their courtyard, not noticing the existence of Su Li and Ding at all.

Big brother, big brother......

Su Li only dared to shout in his heart, his eyes kept following Su Rui, faintly expecting Su Rui to see himself, not asking for anything else, as long as the eldest brother still had himself in his eyes.

But Su Rui didn't see Su Li and Ding who were not far from him at all, and left in a hurry without stopping, and Su Li's heart was indescribably lost.

What would happen if he said it, Su Li's thoughts in his heart became stronger and stronger, and he desperately wanted to get close to the eldest brother, to get closer to Su Rui, to get closer.

"What are you doing in the back of the ink." Ding's tone was dissatisfied, and when he saw Su Li in a daze behind, he couldn't help but urge again, Ding didn't even see Su Rui and them passing by just now.

Su Li smiled bitterly, feeling very uncomfortable, he was obviously so close to his eldest brother, but he couldn't touch it, there were too many things between the two of them, so much that Su Li didn't know where to start.

Putting away his thoughts, Su Li hid the expression on his face to prevent Ding from seeing her unnaturalness, and hurriedly returned to his room with his head down, locking himself in the room.

Ding felt that Su Li's behavior in the past few days was a little abnormal, but he didn't know why Su Li was like this, maybe he was tired of playing today, Ding looked at the confined door, and returned to his room without thinking too much.

When it was darker outside and no one was out to walk around, Su Li came out of the room alone and walked to the abandoned kitchen with a familiar car, in a really bad mood, except for drinking, Su Li couldn't think of any other way.

Fortunately, almost no one came to this kitchen, so Su Li took advantage of the loophole, because no one had cleaned the kitchen for a long time, as soon as he pushed the door open, a musty smell came to his face, and some cobwebs hung obliquely on the wall.

Su Li didn't care much, and it wasn't the first time he had come here, the leftover wine jars from the previous drinks were placed crookedly on the ground, and there were some unopened ones, and the position of the seals on them was tightly wrapped.

This is the most festive day of the year, it should be the most relaxing moment in a year, but Su Li didn't feel the joy at all, the joy at this time belongs to himself, and only loneliness belongs to himself, and the boundless loneliness swallows Su Li's whole person.

From not being able to drink at the beginning, to using alcohol to dispel his sorrows, Su Li has adapted to using wine to relieve his emotions, and more often, he pins his unspeakable feelings on wine.

For the first time during the Chinese New Year, Su Li was not accompanied by Su Rui, but by countless wine jars, which can be imagined.

"Why is it so hard, it's so hard." Su Li had just drunk a little, and he was already drunk, and he muttered to himself.

Every time Su Li gets drunk, all his words are always inseparable from Su Rui, and now all his emotions are closely related to Su Rui, every move, every look, has already affected Su Li's mind.

Su Li kept crying for a while, tears made all the makeup on his face cry, and kept wiping his cheeks with his sleeves, no matter how he complained about the unfairness of fate, he couldn't change it.

Then Su Li didn't know what he thought, the tears on his face hadn't dried up yet, so he laughed, laughed and laughed and tears came out, how ironic, he lived in the Su family, and he was not the daughter of the Su family.

"What should be done?" Su Li's eyes widened, his eyes were full of tears, and he looked at the front blankly, not knowing what he should do or what he should do.