"My family, like fake flowers in a vase, looks beautiful. For as long as I can remember, the two of them have been arguing all the time, and when they argued, their voices were low, their eyes were cruel, and they said curse words to each other. Well-dressed but not human-like, I often feel that these are two large beasts playing my parents. ”

"Later, I learned that the source of their quarrel was because of my mother's infidelity." Su Mei smiled miserably, "Turning your back on marriage - this is the source of our family's tragedy." "More than 20 years ago, my parents graduated from medical school. They were in love for a few years, and naturally they got married, and after the marriage, the two were assigned to the same hospital. At that time, my mother had a lot of suitors, she was arrogant, and my father doted on her, but she always felt that my father was too soft and had no big ambitions, so the two often quarreled. Later, my mother got along with the vice president of their hospital, and it was said that they fell in love. Later, when my father found out about this, he was so angry that he beat the vice president half to death, and if it hadn't been for my mother kneeling down and begging him, he would have beaten the vice president to death. He threw a bowl at my mother's head with a flick of his hand, smashing her into pieces, and now has a scar on his forehead. The vice president had someone in his family, and after this incident, he was transferred to another hospital, and after that, he suppressed my parents everywhere and spread the adultery between my mother and him. My mother couldn't help it, so she left the hospital, and the two of them separated. But unfortunately, my mother was pregnant – that child was mine. ”

Su Mei took a deep breath and said, "My existence is like a scar, a moving shame. But for the sake of face and stability, they insisted that I was their child and gave birth to me, but my father was always skeptical about this. Both of them studied medicine, but none went for a simple paternity test. ”

"I don't feel love. I don't even feel disgust and disdain, I'm ignored, and I'm like air at home. Su Mei said, tears falling silently, "Later, they reconciled. Real life requires them to maintain the appearance of a loving couple, or rather, the rigid requirements of reality satisfy their heart's desire, and they still want to be together. However, the problem is that no one can forget the humiliating past! Because I'm still alive. ”

Later, Su Gui was born. My days are even harder. It's not about materiality, it's about the barrenness of the heart. Because Su Gui's blood is pure, they love her and don't hide their love for her. Compared to Su Gui, I am like a clown under the fence. I also wonder if I was adopted by them! I went to ask my grandmother, and she told me with certainty that I was their own child, and I felt that my only way to live was also broken. ”

"They are all busy with work, and I spend a lot of time with Su Gui. She was small, but she was very sick, and her parents surrounded her when they came home from their busy work. They all like her. I loved Su Gui very much at first, but after a long time, I was unwilling to do so. When she grew up and stuck to me, I scolded her, scolded her, and said that she must have been a big villain in her last life, and she had no asshole in this life. Su Mei covered her face and began to cry.

"I shouldn't have said that about her, she didn't know anything, she didn't do anything wrong, but I passed on all the unhappiness, all the dark side, all the negative energy to her!"

"I don't let her call me sister, I don't let her use my things, I don't eat what my parents bought for her, but she secretly left me things. I said she was sick, she was disgusting, she was like a monster. I didn't let her call me my sister in front of outsiders, and I told one of my classmates the biggest mouthful about her illness, and I never cared when she was subjected to cold violence on campus, even if she looked at me with pleading eyes. I'm not good to her at all, I'm not a good sister. We didn't even sleep in the same bed and talk all night like normal sisters. Su Mei crackled and cried.