I finally boarded my flight home to continue my vacation. Yesterday in the company, the cold face god granted me a week of leave and asked me to make up for my vacation, but a week later I went back to the Shanghai head office to report to prepare for the next job.

After kissing him last night, I jumped into the room like a frightened bunny, refusing to go out alone, pulling a few people everywhere. The cold-faced god didn't make any more moves, and when I returned to the hotel, I was still worried about whether he would come with him or something. Unfortunately, my worries were all in vain, nothing happened yesterday, except for that kiss.

When I got home, it was already afternoon, and my parents were very happy to see me return. Now that the New Year is over, and the fifteenth year is over, I have returned home at this time, and I can be regarded as avoiding the questioning of many relatives. My parents said that they received so many phone calls a year ago, all asking me when I would get married, which made them die of embarrassment.

The feeling of returning home is different, and after sleeping in his familiar bed for a whole day, he remembered to call Su Mei. Lao Bai is now during the school vacation, Su Mei and him are at home, and they have not returned to Beijing yet. Hearing that I was back, Su Mei immediately rushed to our house and hugged me as if we hadn't seen each other for a long time.

"We had a class reunion on the fifth day of junior high school, and everyone thought you didn't get married, so you were embarrassed to come out!" Su Mei sat on the couch and reached for an apple.

I smiled, "I was deliberately hiding, and I was seen by those people, so I don't have to say anything!" I just can't see it, and I can guess what they're saying. Maybe you know better than I do in those people's minds. ”

When Su Mei heard my words, she also laughed, when I was in college, I rejected many people, and then I really didn't have the strength, so I agreed to Zhao Feng, and I have never changed since. I'm afraid that everyone knows the news of my breakup with Zhao Feng, which has greatly pleased many people's hearts and filled many people's minds, just as they thought at the beginning.

"Are you still thinking about Zhao Feng in your heart?" Su Mei could see through my heart from my eyes, we had been together for too long, and we knew each other too well.

"I haven't forgotten it, but if I don't think about it, it's nothing." I shook my head and stood up to the window, "Maybe, I don't love him as much as I thought I would." ”

"Can you fool yourself?" Su Mei also stood in front of the window, "Say that you don't like Zhao Feng, even I don't believe it." Although Zhao Feng is not very good now, he was indeed very attractive back then. Even though we weren't in the same school, I knew his name. People look good, study well, and eat well in their schools, otherwise the city government will select people in their schools, and only one of the thousands of people will choose him? ”

"It wasn't him that I was interested in back then." I leaned my head against the window, the scenery outside was all gray, maybe it would snow tomorrow. But all this is not what I think in my heart.

Seeing me like this, Su Mei seemed to understand my feelings, "I was with Zhao Feng back then, because of Gao Xiang!" Su Mei said, "I heard that Zhao Feng and Gao Xiang are very similar, although I haven't seen Gao Xiang, but I always have a feeling." You accepted Zhao Feng because of Gao Xiang at the beginning, but it's a pity that you are extremely soft-hearted and too easy to fall in love with someone. Xiao Xia, if you do this, you will suffer a lot in the future. It doesn't have to be nice to you, you have to accept it. ”

Seeing Su Mei's current appearance, I really wanted to ask her something, "Su Mei, why did you choose Lao Bai?" ”

"There is nothing wrong with Bai Ziqiang, his family background is also superior, how to say that he will be a doctor in the future, maybe he can go abroad to stay abroad or something, holding him is equivalent to giving himself a future. Love is too extravagant for me, and he likes me, and that's enough. As for whether I love him or not, it's not up to me to decide" Su Mei seemed to be talking about other people's business, not her own.

"So, what about that person?" I knew Su Mei didn't want to mention his name, but if I did, she knew who it was.

"That person has too many last resorts." Su Mei smiled bitterly, "Maybe at that time, just like Zhao Feng now, in front of some things, love can be exchanged equally." ”

Maybe you won't grow up for a long time, so you can live freely! The things we have to face when we grow up are too cruel and far from what we can be prepared for. What else can we have but helplessness?

……

On the weekend, my dad arranged a blind date for me. Although I didn't feel much about blind dates, I was embarrassed to hit my father's kindness, and although I had a little cold on the first day, I also went hard.

The other party used to be the apprentice of my father's old friend, and now he works as a technician in a very famous winery, twenty-eight years old, and his appearance is also thoughtful, with thick eyebrows and big eyes, all the characteristics of northern men, he has. The character is also hearty, and it does not cool down the atmosphere. My dad accompanied me, and I didn't say much, but they talked about making sake together, and it was very speculative.

So, in the end, it became them chatting on the side, and I sat there with them, hiding at the angle to wipe my nose. After I came back, I didn't even remember the other party's appearance anymore, which made my dad sigh, but fortunately, my mother said that I was not old, and there was no need to worry, so my dad let go of this matter.

A week passed quickly. I'm going back to Shanghai, and I'm going back to Beijing, as if my hometown will always be just a place for us to meet. The night before we left, we went clubbing together! Lao Bai proposed, saying to find a place to drink two glasses and then play poker. Find out how you felt when you were in school.

When I arrived, Lao Bai brought a friend of his, I didn't recognize him, but I could see from Su Mei's eyes that the purpose of bringing him here was not so simple. So I had to pretend not to understand, and I was pretty good at pretending to be confused, and I could save a lot of trouble.

"This is Xiao Wei, a top student of Peking University." Lao Bai introduced it like this. "This is Xiao Xia, Su Mei's sister, and my high school alumnus. Now I work in Shanghai, a foreign company, a white-collar worker. ”

This Xiao Wei is a typical "academic" person, thin and tall, always looking like malnutrition, lack of sleep, and excessive fatigue, which can be seen by the bags under the eyes. But the clothes are still very clean, and the people are still Sven, which is compared with Lao Bai.

"Xiao Wei's father is from the city bureau." Lao Bai added another sentence.

I glanced at Su Mei, who just shook his head slightly, suppressing what I wanted to say. A few of us had just sat down for a while, and before the wine we wanted had come up, we met an acquaintance. The disadvantage of a small city is this, the size of an egg ball, the more people you don't want to meet, the more you can see it in a circle.

"Lao Bai." The voice came from behind me, and I didn't need to look back, just from the smell of him approaching my back, I knew that that person, the person I couldn't forget when he turned into ashes, was Zhao Feng.

"How did you meet the two of you?" Lao Bai stood up, and Su Mei and I also turned our heads, originally thinking that it was Liu Qing who we saw, but found that it was Shi Xue who was following Zhao Feng.

"We also met at the door. I had just sent off a few leaders, and I happened to pass by here, and when I saw Shi Xue, I came in together. Zhao Feng also saw me, but he didn't have a surprised expression, and he was very indifferent.

"Let's do it together! Everyone knows each other. "Shi Xue likes the mud very much, and as soon as she opens her mouth, she can make everyone not know what to say.

"Natsu-chan." Lao Bai looked at me, with a little embarrassed look in his eyes, and he didn't pretend to treat him as a friend.

So, I could only smile and whisper, "I don't care." ”

Seeing that I didn't object, the six of them sat down on a table, Lao Bai called the waiter, ordered a few dishes, and made up two dozen beers, two pokers, and red A.

Although I didn't feel very comfortable, I hadn't shown it in front of everyone, and I didn't want to ruin the fun of other people when a group of people were playing together. When playing poker, Lao Bai intentionally or unintentionally mentioned Xiao Wei's home, but Shi Xue paid attention, and when she came back from going to the bathroom, she sat between Xiao Wei and me, and talked with Xiao Wei. Being messed with by her like this, I happened to be directly opposite Zhao Feng, Zhao Feng was normal, and his eyes fell on me from time to time, but relatively speaking, I was uncomfortable.

"You know Wei Guo!" Shi Xue chatted with him about family life, "Wei Guo is the son of the City Liu Bureau. ”

Of course Xiao Wei knows, they are still Xiao'er, "How do you know Wei Guo?" He didn't go to be a soldier, and now I heard that he is in the Guangzhou Military Region! ”

Shi Xue put on her special charming smile, "Wei Guo chased Xiao Xia back then!" When we were still in high school, Wei Guo liked Xiao Xia very much, and he didn't know how to hear Xiao Xia from several floors, and then waited at the gate of our school every day, so that Xiao Xia didn't dare to go home from the main gate. ”

"Hahahaha!" Xiao Wei was quite interested. "This kid, I can't see it! And then what? ”

"Xiao Xia liked Gao Xiang at that time, and he didn't even look at Wei Guo, do you know why Wei Guo went to be a soldier? The sad ones can't do it anymore, saying that as long as Xiao Xia is there, he will no longer appear. "Shi Xue seems to be commenting on a book, and she doesn't take me as a client in her eyes at all.

Su Mei couldn't stand it anymore from the side, looked at Zhao Feng, didn't have any reaction, and finally looked at Shi Xue. Su Mei has a strong mouth, she is very famous in our university, I don't like to argue with people about anything, she is just the opposite of me, Su Mei sighed first, and then said: "I heard that you were the most popular person in your high school back then!" Xiao Xia had a crush on Gao Xiang at most, and he didn't even dare to say it. But I heard that you confessed to the boys in front of the whole school. What's that boy's name, Zhao Feng, you should know about this! ”

A sharp arrow attracted everyone's attention to Shi Xue, Shi Xue's confession to Zhao Feng at the school's graduation dance back then can almost be written into the school history. After Shi Xue was rejected by Zhao Feng that night, she got drunk and made a big fuss on campus, tossing for a night, but the three men didn't stop her, and in the end I pulled her back to the dormitory.

Hearing Su Mei reveal her old bottom, Shi Xue's face was also a little unbearable, and she retorted: "If you like it, you have to say it, is there anything wrong?" Unlike someone, he likes boys who have girlfriends, and he is happy when the two of them are separated. ”

Su Mei raised her eyebrows, seeing that it was about to turn into a war, I didn't want to spread it to others, so I stood up, "I'm going to fly back to Shanghai tomorrow, and I have to pack my things at night and leave first." ”

Xiao Wei saw me stand up, and also stood up, after all, he was introduced to me today, "I'll send you!" I came by car. ”

"No need, you can play for a while, my house is not far away, you can walk back." I picked up my coat and patted Lao Bai on the shoulder, "Lao Bai, you bought this order, and I will treat you next time I come back." ”

Lao Bai nodded, as the owner, he can't leave, and after I leave, there won't be any more wars! "I'll call you when I get there. We'll talk online when we have time. I patted Su Mei on the shoulder again and said goodbye to her.

At this moment, Zhao Feng stood up, "I'll send you!" ”

Everyone was stunned, they didn't think that Zhao Feng would make such a move. Just before everyone could calm down, Zhao Feng had already pulled me outside. He took my hand and walked out, without saying or stopping, so that I did not know his purpose for a while, and I could not break free from him.

Finally, as he passed by the high school wall, he turned around, pressed me against the wall, and kissed me without warning. When his lips caught me, I reflected and pushed him hard, but after all, there is a difference between men and women, and no matter how hard I try, I can't break free from his embrace. In the end, I got tired and gave up the struggle, grabbed his neck, brought myself closer to him, and let him do whatever he wanted.

I thought I could forget the smell of his kisses, I thought I could stop thinking about everything I had with him, but when it really happened, I realized that I couldn't say no at all. I miss his lips, I miss his arms, I miss his taste, really, I miss it very much, I can deceive others, but I can't deceive my own heart.

"Come back to me!" Zhao Feng let go of me for a long time and put it in my ear, so he said.

I looked at him, trying to see him through, "I'll come back, what about your her?" ”

Zhao Feng frowned, "Maybe I can't give you a name, but you are the only one I love the most in my heart." As long as you give me a little time, maybe three years, maybe five years, not more than ten years, and I will definitely give you happiness. Believe me. ”

Listening to his words, I couldn't help but laugh and burst into tears. "Zhao Feng, you believe in your charm too much. Who do you think I am? will wait for you for ten years regardless of your reputation. Even if I don't want anyone for the rest of my life, I won't hang myself on your crooked neck tree. I shook off his embrace and threw him two words, "Goodbye." ”

Zhao Feng seemed to want to step forward to stop me, but he was slapped in the face by me, and after the fierce and crisp sound, he was stunned. After years of getting along, we have never done anything, not even jokingly.

"Maybe I should say goodbye." I turned my head and left directly, I didn't care what kind of expression Zhao Feng had behind me.

My hand hurt, it hurt so much that I just shook it off. That's who I've ever liked? I secretly scolded myself, idiot, your eyes have grown on the donkey's head all these years, how can you mix with such a rotten person, liking a donkey is better than liking him!

When I got home, it was already one o'clock in the middle of the night, and my parents had already fallen asleep, and I put a full tank of water in it, soaked in it, and sunk myself in it, my tears mixed with water, and my mood was gray, just like the gloomy sky outside the window.