"Isn't there anything at all?" I walked up to Lu Yan and looked him in the eye.

Because I knew that it was the last chance, I was a little bit ruined.

"Shen Ruolin, you still want me to say it a few times, don't be foolish and say that it's okay to dream, everything before was your fantasy, if it wasn't for your father who used business things to blackmail me, I wouldn't have looked at you at all."

"Heh, hehe." I laughed, "Yes, you are Mr. Lu, the only heir of the Lu Group. Eventually, I burst out laughing, and if it was all over, it wouldn't make sense now.

I laughed exaggeratedly, "Lu Yan, you remember for me, even if you have never loved me, but from today on, I will make you inseparable from me, let you fall in love with me fiercely, and then leave mercilessly." I stared into his eyes and said word for word.

I don't know what was going on in my heart when I said these words, maybe I didn't have a heart anymore at this time, and I just had crazy thoughts.

All the unwillingness rushed to the position of the heart, and the whole body trembled with excitement.

"Then it's up to you." Lu Yan laughed directly, "I said Shen Ruolin, you really dare to think about it." Saying that, he and Su Wanyan glanced at each other, "Do you think this woman is crazy?" ”

At this time, Shen Ruolin had completely reacted from what had just happened.

She wanted to say something, but after glancing at Lu Yan, she instantly laughed.

She pretended to be by my side, and she spun back and forth a few times and laughed even more wildly, "I heard me right, right? Shen Ruolin, what did you say? Want to make Ah Yan fall in love with you? I think you're dreaming. ”

Maybe I didn't feel anything when I said it just now, but after the two of them said this, my face turned red directly.

But the water that spilled out of the words said, "You two had better not get complacent too early," I glanced at Su Wanyan, and my eyes returned to Lu Yan.

Looking him up and down, "You'd better remember what I said today." ”

"You'd better remember my words," Lu Yan's hand pinched my chin, "What you just said is a fool's dream, I will never look at you more, never." ”

"If you had the time, you might as well look in the mirror more and not see what you look like now." Saying that, he hugged Su Wanyan and turned around and left the room directly.

"Look in the mirror?" As I uttered these words, I felt a sense of desolation.

Looking at the figures of them hugging each other and leaving, I knew that they were showing me on purpose.

"It's over," I told myself softly, and it was all over.

Even if it was a dream, after all these years, no matter how much I lied to myself, this dream should have woken up.

I smiled wryly and held my heart to the heart, which was now tearing my lungs.

The people who have lived in my heart for more than ten years have left without any delay in the mud and water.

Even if I plead, even if I am stubborn, I can't lie to myself anymore.

"Let's go, get out of here." I told myself after the tears dried.

Indeed, this is just a sad place for me, although I have lived in this city for more than 20 years, but it is also in this city that I have lost my loved ones, my children, and the people I have loved for more than ten years.

Before, I lied to myself, always let myself keep my mind and fantasy, and refused to leave, thinking that as long as I stayed here, there would be a chance to do so, but today, now, I know.

It's time to leave.

I spent a whole night saying goodbye to the past, isn't there a sentence that says, the past is cleared, and the past is not to blame.

I'm so tired, I don't have the strength or the mood to think about what happened before, now that it's over, let's just do it.

Until the next day, when I sat on the plane to a foreign country, I couldn't believe what had happened last night.

Some regrets, but more determination. Tell yourself firmly that the past is all gone.

I learned English well, and with Shen Yu's help, I can be said to be living a prosperous life abroad.

I deliberately locked the door of my heart tightly, built a high wall outside the soft atrium, and devoted all my energy to studying.

I applied for the school I had always dreamed of, in fact, I applied when I was in China before, but because of the delay in marrying Lu Yan, it was naturally impossible in the end. But this time, I'm going to live a wonderful life.

Unexpectedly, I received an offer, and Shen Yu also helped me celebrate on the day I got the notice.

I knew my life was going to be different.

New environment, I've given myself a new name here, Mrs. Jennifer. I am reminding myself that men are cold by nature, and don't think about those things that are not there.

It is precisely because some of them are not angry, angry, and unapproachable, that they have won the love of many people abroad and made a lot of friends.

There are boys and girls among them, and there are not a few who pursue me and even explicitly express their intention to marry me, but because I have already suffered a loss, I don't care about these things at all.

When they saw me cold, they thought it was funny at first, but they stopped mentioning it after many times and hit a wall, and they didn't have the idea of beating me after a long time.

But that's exactly what I want.

I know that the most important thing for a woman is to learn, and only by allowing yourself to keep learning can I ensure that I am closely related to the world. It is precisely because of this attitude that I have received special attention and love from my mentors.

In some academic research or conferences, they always give me the opportunity to speak, and slowly I finally stopped dwelling on the past, and I knew that I was slowly coming out.

Four years passed in a flash, and I finished my graduate school and was admitted to the Ph.D. of my favorite supervisor, and I have seen the bigger world and have more knowledge in my head.

Occasionally, when I think of what happened before, I smile slightly, and I just think it was a dream.

Sometimes I don't understand, I don't know if the woman who died and came back to life for Lu Yan is me, or if I am the one who is now concentrating on academics and walking with the wind.

It's just that every time I receive an email from Ye Yao, I will sit in the room for most of the night, staring at a place with empty eyes, and often when I come back to my senses, the sky has already revealed the white of the fish's belly.

Yes, I have always been in contact with Ye Yao.

I know that since I left, Lu Yan and Su Wanyan quickly got a marriage certificate, and I also knew that the relationship between them was not as good as I imagined after they got married, and I knew that Su Wanyan had begun to be careless about Lu Yan, and I also knew that what happened to them before.

That time, when I received Ye Yao's email, I worked in the room for twenty-four hours, and I didn't pay attention to anyone knocking on the door, and finally it was Shen Yu who forcibly opened the door, and I barely drank a little water.

Ye Yao said this in the email:

Ruolin, I found something and I don't know if I want to tell you. After thinking about it for a long time, I still think you have the right to know about it.

I was having dinner in the mall that day, and I saw a woman who looked like that, no, it should be her, to be exact, she was shopping with another man, and the two of them looked very intimate.

I took a photo of the two of them together and showed it to Lu Yan. Lu Yan didn't believe it at first, but in the end he questioned the woman, and of course, the woman deceived Lu Yan.

But I'm pretty sure it's her.

Ruolin, do you know, in fact, Lu Yan is not doing well at all now, and even a few times he chanted your name after getting drunk, he said that you only knew how good you were after you left, and now he is very busy with work, who knows that the woman is even busier after going home, always busy with parties and shopping, never see anyone, every time he goes home is late at night.

I know that you still have Lu Yan in your heart, and now that woman is pregnant, but I suspect that the child may not be Lu Yan's, Ruolin, this is your last chance, and I don't know if I should tell you these things, but I know that you want to know in your heart.

You don't blame me, and don't be impulsive. I know you're doing well now, or maybe it's time to forget about the past, no matter what, I'm on your side, Ruolin, I hope you can do well.

Ann, don't read it.

This is the whole content of Ye Yao's entire email, but I read it back and forth dozens of times, and finally my eyes were fixed on the words "I didn't know how good I was until I left".

I know that Lu Yan drinks a lot of alcohol, and he never drinks too much, whether it's socializing or whatever.

Lu Yan knew that I had a good relationship with Ye Yao, and he should have guessed that there was still a connection between us, and he said this to Ye Yao through wine, didn't he just want me to know?

Thinking of this, a smile appeared on the corner of my mouth, a little miserable, but also a little proud.

The events of these years have been replayed in my mind over and over again, the despair in my heart when I left, the ups and downs of these years, do you really want to give up all this, just because Lu Yan knows how good I am when I leave? ’

I don't know, and I can't think clearly.

I arrived at the office early the next morning.

Tom has been my mentor for so many years, he is young and promising, and he has tried to express his affection for me more than once.

After I refused either tactfully or directly, we still became good friends and started a company together, of course, there is also a lot of Shen Yu's credit.

Looking at the dark circles under my eyes, Tom screamed in surprise, "Oh, My God! What's wrong with you? ”

He spoke Chinese very badly, but he still learned a lot for me.

Looking at his exaggerated expression, I couldn't help but laugh out loud.

He put the breakfast he brought on the table, I had long been used to him bringing me breakfast every day over the years, but today, I have more important things to say.