When she was eight years old, she fell on the road, it hurt a lot, and when she came home it was already dark, and her mother muttered in the kitchen: it turned out that she was not lost. The tone was contemptuous and nonchalantic.

When I was twelve years old, I graduated from primary school, and when I came home, I heard her mother complaining to her current husband, so I mentioned that Meng Xi was not allowed to study, and the old lady next door began to chatter, saying that now the nine-year compulsory education is implemented, and the child must graduate from junior high school, saying that no one will recruit child labor, who does she think she is? The tube is so wide. Her mother saw the original body, rolled her eyes, and then scolded her and told her to cook.

Later it became more and more excessive.

In short, any complaint, uncomfortable, depressed, just one sentence, "Are you so expensive?" ”。

If you don't do well in the test, cry, "I'm stupid, who do you cry to, are you so expensive?" ”

When you are sick, you are still asked to work, "If you are sick, you can't work, are you so expensive?" Do you think you're a princess? You're the life of a girl. ”

was beaten, "There are no wounds left, why are you crying?" Are you so expensive? ”

Insomnia, are you so expensive?

Headache, are you so expensive?

If you want a divorce, can't you put up with it? In the adult world, who is easy! Are you so expensive? I can't eat any grievances.

After saying that you are so expensive for more than 20 years, the original body has always believed that her negative emotions are wrong, and she is not qualified to be sad because she is not worthy.

Her mother has no fundamental respect for her daughter. often scolded the original body to the point of blood, and had no place to be ashamed of himself to cry bitterly.

So after the original body grows up, she still can't let go, her body can't help herself, and she can't do anything.

The parents' denial of their children's emotions and the pain of the original family are really terrible.

In short, the thought of "let's end it like this" has been circling in my mind for many years, but the original body still survived the trough again and again until it was completely desperate.

Love can't be hidden in this world, does the original body feel love? No.

What is the world like for other children? Many parents look at their children as if they were looking at a perfect work of art. The way her mother looked at her daughter, it was like looking at a garbage, a burden, an oil bottle, and a slave who could be beaten and scolded at will.

Some people use their childhood to heal their whole life, and some people can't heal the hidden pain of childhood with their whole life.

Meng Xi hurriedly went to the bathroom to wash her face, and the cold water hit her face, making her completely calm down.

The original appearance is not similar to his mother, 18 years old, without makeup, he has a white and beautiful slap face, and under the two curved eyebrows, there is a pair of slightly red, wet peach blossom eyes, frowning eyebrows, pale, and a kind of sick and weak state. Even if he thinks that he has seen a lot of beauties, Meng Xi can't help but sigh that this face looks good.

The woman continued to chatter.

"It's a blessing that I can give birth to you."

The logic behind the absurd words "I gave birth to you and you are your benefactor" is simple.

Because she gave the child life, no matter what she does in the future, the child should be grateful to her and grateful. But she could never have imagined the depth of the pain she had brought to her children.

"Girls, the most important thing is to take care of your family. No matter how much you read, you won't be getting married in the future! ”

"The family is not very rich, so they can almost read and write."

The fate of the original body was choked by the ignorant thought that "daughters are all money-losers", and she tried so hard to breathe fresh air, but she couldn't do anything about it.

When it comes to family property, sooner or later a woman will marry out and become someone else's family, if you want money, you are shameless to worship money, and when it comes to sucking blood, it is all a family, you should help, if you don't help, you will be selfish and shameless.

This logic, 0 points is too much.

If you weren't good-looking, you would have worked in the factory for a few years and then married a wife. This is also the common fate of some girls from poor families who prefer sons over girls.

Among the groups that the original body came into contact with, few of them saved money through part-time work, so that they had the ability to study or learn a craft, and then change their fate and change their lives.

Basically, it is for the family, and the level of education is generally not high.

It may not be that there is no money at home, but I just feel that it is unnecessary.

Just like the original body, when she was born, her mother decided to choose one of Meng Zhaodi and Meng Pandi as her name, but was stopped by her father.

After remarrying, my love for her is really limited.

Just look at the house she lives in now.

She can only live in a storage room, there are no windows, she has no sunlight all day, it is damp and cold, and the light is dim. She can't live in a good house, is there no extra room in the house? No!

There is a well-lit room at home, but I would rather be empty than the original one.

Why?

It's a hierarchy! This is to tell her that there is a difference between people, let her know her duty, she is a girl, even if she has a great contribution to this family, don't want to climb on the head of a man and be the master of the elders!

In such a family, no matter how hard you try, if your personality is not independent, you will begin to consciously, unconsciously, be driven to push and push, retreat again and again in a daze, and finally become the next Fan Shengmei.

The word scum was written on the family's face.

The family's experience of eating the original body can be written into a book.

In the middle of summer evening, the breeze brings a hint of coolness and dispels the heat of the day.

It is the time for the family to gather around the dining table and eat together.

Meng Xi went to serve rice, and the rice in the rice cooker was only enough to fill the bottom of the bowl.

"If you have less Miga, you will eat it. Girls have to be slim to look good, and if they eat too much, they won't look good when they grow meat. ”

The implication is that if you gain weight, you can't sell it.

The atmosphere at the dinner table was lively, and there was the sound of chopsticks touching the edge of the dishes and drinking.

Meng Xi went to clip the chicken legs.

Her mother knocked down the chopsticks, and then sandwiched a chicken leg for her son and a chicken leg for her husband.

"I bought less chicken thighs today, this is for your brother, Liangzi, you eat it quickly. Husband, you eat too. ”

Her mother sandwiched a chicken leg for herself, looked at the remaining chicken legs on the plate, and said to Meng Xi: "You are sick, you should eat less meat." ”

"You eat cabbage, cabbage has more vitamins and more fiber, and eating it is good for your body."

The white eyes in Meng Xi's heart almost rolled to the sky.

A family of four, a pot of rice, the son, husband and wife take a big bowl, and the daughter can't even fill the bottom of the bowl.

There are more than a dozen chicken legs, four sons, four husbands, two wives, and none daughters.

The rice is deliberately cooked very little, and the chicken thighs are not allowed to be eaten, is there no rice in the pot at home? Is it because the family doesn't have the money to buy an extra chicken leg? No! Did the original body do the most heinous things? Neither is it!

She was picked up in the trash? Or is it not as good as a dog? Meng Xi didn't have any prejudice against dogs, just purely on the facts, after all, dogs can still gnaw bones and drink broth.