Chapter 59: I am also a human being, a man of flesh and blood
In the second half of the night, the wind became more and more cold, blowing the residual leaves of the big trees in the courtyard and gradually scattering.
Yun Jin was disturbed by the sound of the wind, and his heavy eyelids struggled for a while before he slowly lifted up.
The crystal eyes regained their clarity and shone like stars in the darkness.
I tried to move, but I felt weak.
After a long spin in his drowsy mind, Fang remembered an inn in the wilderness deep in his life, and after nightfall......
Suddenly remembering the hideous face of the villain who broke into the room, Yun Jin couldn't help but gasp.
hurriedly stood up, but found a man lying on the bed, lying on his long side, with a bright jade face facing her.
Although the candle flame has been extinguished, and there are only a few faint rays of light from the window in the room, Yun Jin can still distinguish the picturesque eyebrows, who can there be besides him?
As she got up, the man's arms around her waist fell on the bed, and his eyelashes moved slightly, which frightened Yun Jin's heart, for fear that he would wake up at this time-
Fortunately, the man just moved and showed no signs of waking up, and his breathing was a little heavy, as if he was extremely tired.
Yun Jin crept to sit up, neatly picked up the clothes hanging on the bedside, and tidied himself up temporarily.
After that, he sat quietly on the bed and began to sort out what had happened that night.
Before she was confused, she still had some impressions of what had happened in the room.
also vaguely knew that it was Chu Liyuan who appeared in time and drove away the villains with bad intentions, and then ......
Men speak ill of themselves and trample on themselves.
Those unbearable words still lingered deeply in her mind, piercing like pins and needles, and the pain was severe.
His words were perhaps more vulgar than those of a vulgar country man.
His actions may be even worse than the villains before.
But he is obviously Chu Liyuan!
It was the Beihou of Youzhou Town, who was admired and worshiped by the people and made the enemy frightened......
She had gone to him wholeheartedly, not hoping that he would be pitied, but only wanting to hide under his aura and be the closest person to him.
Even if she could occasionally see him from a distance, it was enough for her to be happy for a long time.
However, how did the character who lived in her heart all the year round, like the flower of Kaolin, become a different picture later?
From the very beginning, when he humiliated her for the first time, she should have known that she was just a stand-in for Slender from beginning to end, and it also happened to be an outlet for his hatred of the North Vietnamese.
It's sad that she's stupid, and she can't see through it for a long time!
Before the tears fell, Yun Jin had forced himself to get up, his steps were weak, but he walked out firmly.
Even if she climbs today, she has to leave this man......
No looking back! Never!
With the greatest strength, she quietly opened a crack in the door, Yun Jin paused, and did not hear a strange sound behind her, so she opened the door again, and the cold wind quickly poured in from outside, making her shiver for a while.
Tightened up, looking at the dark night outside, she thought about it slightly, and was about to step out of her legs, but she heard the wind whistling in her ears, and an elegant male voice came leisurely-
"Madame, where are you going?"
“……”
Although he didn't want to admit it, Yun Jin's heart still tugged at his throat at that moment.
She was afraid of him, like a small animal that saw a natural enemy, and even when she heard the other party's voice, she couldn't help but be frightened.
The weakness and humility in front of that man, like the most incurable stubborn disease, followed her like a shadow, causing her to constantly lower her posture and lose her last dignity.
"Huh?"
The man obviously gradually moved towards the door, "I didn't say goodbye before, it turned out that I was traveling with the "Black Virtuous Brother", which is really a surprise to the husband. ”
“……”
After being silent for a while, Yun Jin forced himself to close the crack in the door, turned around and bravely faced him.
In the darkness, the man's expression was not clear, Yun Jin took a deep breath, and mustered up the courage to whisper to the blurred shadow: "Have you forgotten that you and I have no relationship with each other for a long time?" ”
"What do you mean, ma'am?"
It didn't seem that the little wife who ran away with him behind his back had a bad attitude towards him, Chu Liyuan's tone was cold, "Isn't it, I've been smoked a lot by the incense of this wild shop, and I'm talking nonsense?" ”
Hearing the meaning of his words, Yun Jin also sneered, "What about Yedian, it may not be much dirtier than Your Excellency's Youzhou City!" ”
"What did you say?"
The tone suddenly rose, and Chu Liyuan, who had always been indifferent, actually had a sense of impatience.
"Am I wrong?"
Finally seeing a trace of Chu Liyuan's anger, Yun Jin did not retreat but advanced, and he had more and more thoughts of resisting, "As the Marquis of Zhenbei who is personally sealed by the monarch of Changping State, and as the city lord of Youzhou City who is admired by thousands of people in the north, can you condone the people in the city and rape the women of good families?" ”
“……”
Chu Liyuan, who can speak well, finally has a time to be silent.
After a long time, when Yun Jin's breath became more and more rapid because of the silent sense of oppression, Fang heard a clear voice and sighed in a low voice, "You still complain about me after all...... That's right, it was ...... in the bamboo forest that day."
As soon as he heard the word "bamboo forest", Yunjin's breath suddenly stagnated.
"The one who blindfolded you...... It's me. ”
Finally hearing him admit the crime himself, Yun Jin's tears finally fell silently!
Yes, what an obvious fact!
Who else but him would have happened to be behind her at that time?
Apart from him, who would dare to do evil in the inner city of Youzhou without worrying about the deeds being revealed?
Even if she bit her tongue and committed suicide, he never told her whether he severely punished the "bad guy" that day......
For so many days and nights, she was tormented by that nightmare all the time, and felt especially painful for the scene of humiliation and loss of virginity.
Therefore, she couldn't raise her head in front of the man......
Even the flesh and blood in the womb have been repeatedly doubted and worried by themselves......
She didn't dare to talk to the child in her belly, and she refused to listen to Sanniang's advice and prepare clothes for the child in advance.
In the first few days when she was diagnosed as pregnant, she washed her face with tears all day long, and hit her lower abdomen with her hands, hoping that the piece of meat in her belly would fall off!
She was afraid, she was afraid that the child in her belly was really the evil seed of the beast!
This child was born of her hands tied to the bamboo, and the whole person was repeatedly tormented in hell, and the pain is still clearly imprinted in her mind!
If it's really a wild seed, what should she do! How to do it!
But the child's life is big, no matter how she jumps or fights, he is still strong and stays in her weak body, in Sanniang's words, it is a miracle.
Yes, she finally accepted this child and survived, but he appeared in front of her again!
is as tender as water, and takes care of her meticulously, which makes her have an illusion of happiness!
That delusion and the humility in the depths of her heart tortured each other, and she was about to go crazy!
No one knows how many tears she shed in the middle of the night, no one knows how she screamed in pain deep in her heart.
Wild seeds, husbands......
Wild seeds, husbands......
He carried someone else's child in his belly day and night, but he enjoyed his service in peace.
She felt so dirty, really dirty!
But tonight, he said what he really thought, and Yun Jin knew that these pains, these despairs, were all thanks to that man!
Xu was on a whim, Xu was deliberately evil, no matter what, he never treated her as a human being, let alone his wife!
She has no identity, no self-esteem, she is just for him to play with, a most humble plaything!
The long silence was particularly heavy in the silence of a winter night.
A couple who have been strangers for many years, to unexpected entanglements, then to guard against each other, test each other, and then reluctantly get together in one place, in this heavy silence, gradually peeled off the cover, faded the disguise, and only left a heart full of holes.
"I'm sorry, I didn't expect you to ......"
Chu Liyuan lowered his posture and said words of apology without dodging.
However, this belated "I'm sorry" fell on the ears of the poor man who had already been broken by him, and it was not so sincere.
"Of course, you didn't expect that."
Hurriedly wiping away his tears, Yun Jin began to mumble to himself, "I didn't expect that a dissolute Beiyue princess would bite her tongue and commit suicide because she was violated by a man, and you couldn't end the game......"
"Jin'er!"
Hearing that the little woman who was noble and elegant by nature used such harsh words to describe herself.
In the dark, the man's handsome face tightened, and he stepped forward with two long arms, trying to hug the woman who was pretending to be strong despite her voice trembling slightly.
"Don't touch me!"
The woman looked like a wounded she-animal, with sharp barbs erected all over her body, and waved her arms hysterically.
"Am I wrong? In order to cover up the fact that the world-famous Beihou raped women and bullied the weak, he secretly hid the North Vietnamese woman who deserved to be violated! Let the woman who should not occupy the ridiculous position of "Mrs. Hou" disappear from this world from now on! ”
"Jin'er...... Don't say it......"
Chu Liyuan's hand shook twice in mid-air, and finally didn't go back behind him.
"Why don't you let me say it!"
The more Yun Jin spoke, the more excited he became, tears poured down like raindrops, and the grievances that had been held back for several months found an outlet at this moment, "I am also a human being, a person of flesh and blood!" I'm not a plaything you call and go! Although I am a North Vietnamese, I also have self-esteem, and I don't want to be used as a tool and a sacrifice for revenge......"
"I see."
The man spoke quietly, interrupting the woman's excited words without a trace, "I used to be foolish. But these days, I have treated you, haven't I made any progress? ”
His tone was still faint, but his words revealed a bit of appreciation, like a child who wanted to be praised by adults, earnestly, waiting for the woman to praise him for his performance.
“……”
Yun Jin was speechless for a while, full of anger and preaching, and was swallowed back into his stomach in an instant.
Hearing her silent breathing, Chu Liyuan immediately became energetic, and asked tightly: "In this hometown of poetry and wine in the south of the Yangtze River, you and I respect each other like guests, Qin Se and Ming, aren't you doing well?" ”