Chapter 461: Emotional Fear and Helplessness

Song Qingtian said: "Emotional things, since they have hearts for each other, there is always someone to say it first sooner or later, is it possible that you want Sister Yuhua to say it first?" ”

Song Xifeng was silent.

That night, he barely slept all night.

Somehow, he thought of Jiang Xiaoyan, Chen Xue, and even Liu Meixin.

These women with different personalities want to compare with Deng Yuhua, he thinks Deng Yuhua has a charming temperament, a sassy and heroic military temperament? Or is it because of the innate superiority of city people brought about by the family environment?

Song Xifeng can't say, in his heart, although this temperament is very attractive, it seems to be far away from himself.

The feeling in his heart is so good, once he wants to reveal his heart, he always feels that there is an invisible wall between the two of them.

What is the reason for this?

suddenly thought of Deng Yuhua's age, should she be 26 or 27? Song Xifeng is not sure at the moment, the woman is six or seven years older than the man in this era, and the tolerance of society does not seem to be so great.

However, Song Xifeng didn't seem to care about Deng Yuhua's age.

In fact, this matter is also very simple, as a native, my ancestors have been facing the loess with their backs to the sky for eight lifetimes, and they are rural people who are digging in the crops, and they like a woman with a provincial household registration, and they are deeply imprinted with a natural inferiority complex in their bones.

Even Deng Yuhua is now setting up a stall, even if Song Qingtian is now successful in his career.

There are some things that can never be shaken off in a short period of time, and this is also a psychological problem that exists in the hearts of all "phoenix men".

Just because he was in this mountain, Song Xifeng couldn't figure it out.

Fortunately, Song Xifeng was not bothered by this problem, and when the sky was hazy and the east was white, he made up his mind, feeling that Shen Hong and Song Qingtian's words were very reasonable, and he always had to give it a try, whether there was a sense of distance in the end, and he would have a deep feeling after communication.

Recently, it has been summer, the weather is starting to get hot, this day at three o'clock in the afternoon, Deng Yuhua, who was sweating profusely, arrived at the place with his clothes, and was just about to start setting up a stall, when he saw Song Xifeng coming towards this side.

Song Xifeng smiled and said, "It's okay today, I came to help you sell clothes." ”

Deng Yuhua said with a smile: "That's a good feeling, I'm lacking a strong person to help." ”

The two cooperated to arrange the clothes, and some customers came to see the clothes.

In these years, setting up a stall is a new thing, many people are embarrassed to put down their faces to set up stalls on the street, and even the countryside people feel that it is a faceless thing, Deng Yuhua, a provincial household registration, has put down his self-esteem like this.

Song Xifeng saw her greeting customers warmly, and couldn't help but feel that the sense of distance he thought was not an illusion.

Song Xifeng has been selling liquor for more than a year now, and he is more proficient than Deng Yuhua in terms of sales methods and language, and he can better understand the hearts of customers. He did his best to help Deng Yuhua sell clothes.

By the end of the evening, Deng Yuhua's income was almost twice as fast as usual.

She smiled and said: "Zephyr, it's not a loss to do sales, and you have taught me a little bit of this experience." ”

"This is easy, we have regular training sales staff in the office building, Brother Tao and Qingtian will talk about something, you have to listen to it later."

Deng Yuhua smiled and said, "Okay, you don't have to pay tuition, right?" ”

"Of course not, if you want to go to class, you can go every day, I can't ask for it."

Deng Yuhua heard the meaning of these words, and was a little happy in his heart, but he was as calm as usual.

The experience of these years has made her too rational.

"Zephyr, if it's okay at night, I'll invite you to dinner, thank you for your help."

"Sister Yuhua, you have worked so hard to earn this money, how can I be embarrassed to let you have a treat, I am better than you now, I will treat you."

Deng Yuhua has always been generous, even if she eats with the opposite sex, most of the meals are paid for by her, and few men take the initiative to invite her to dinner, even if it is Tong Xing, she rarely takes the initiative to invite her.

Song Xifeng was so considerate and generous, Deng Yuhua was a little moved in his heart.

In the evening, Song Xifeng chose a restaurant with a good environment and served the food, and the two of them, who were already hungry and empty, first sacrificed to the Five Organs Temple, and Song Xifeng opened his mouth first to find a topic.

"Sister Yuhua, when you went to Guangzhou to buy goods, did you buy in Zhao Leiming's partner Hou Fu's store?"

"That's right, they were all introduced by Qingtian, Hou Fu is a very good person, Zhao Leiming is very discerning, and it is still very promising to cooperate with such a person."

Zhao Leiming's topic Song Xifeng was reluctant to say, but he always had to slowly find an entry point, but he didn't expect to introduce the topic, Deng Yuhua began to praise Zhao Leiming.

"Zhao Leiming has Zhao Juelun's father, how good can it be?"

Deng Yuhua said with a smile: "You are prejudiced, Zhao Leiming was not raised by Zhao Juelun, and he didn't learn badly with a mother like Yao Xiaotao, I don't think he will change in the future." ”

"This kid, I was staring at the sunny sky from the beginning, and I was not at ease."

"When it comes to this, what I want to say is that Zhao Leiming and Qingtian are quite a good match, and I can also see that Qingtian feels good about Zhao Leiming."

"I'm worried that Qingtian will be deceived by him."

A few days ago, Song Xifeng went to Jizhou Province for a meeting, and he didn't know that Zhao Leiming would rather sell the store with excellent business in order to help Song Qingtian.

Deng Yuhua went to Guangzhou and learned about it from Hou Fu, so he told Song Xifeng about it.

Song Xifeng was a little surprised, "Zhao Leiming really treats Qingtian like this?" ”

"That's still fake, I can't lie to you."

Song Xifeng couldn't help but say, "Who lied to me, and I also believe that you won't lie to me?" ”

Is this a sign of the heart?

Deng Yuhua felt in his heart that it should be, since Song Xifeng came to help today, Deng Yuhua vaguely felt that Song Xifeng seemed to have something to say, and he wanted to invite himself to dinner at night, and his words seemed to be starting to show some signs at the moment.

She was happy and a little uneasy.

Deng Yuhua is a person with life experience and brains, she seems to have foreseen what Song Xifeng wants to say tonight, rather than hiding it, it is better to be honest.

"Zephyr, do you have something to say to me?"

Song Xifeng had never confessed to a girl, especially a woman like Deng Yuhua, who he liked, and his face suddenly turned hot.

He thought about Shen Hong and Song Qingtian's words, and plucked up the courage to say, "Sister Yuhua, how do you plan your life in the future?" ”

Deng Yuhua didn't expect Song Xifeng to ask this question, "I set up a stall, and when I save almost money, I will open a store, and when the time comes, I will buy goods from Hou Fu and wholesale clothes in Zhengzhou." ”

"No, I'm talking about your love life. You know, I've always had an admiration for you. ”

In the end, there is some level of culture, Song Xifeng's words are very subtle, Deng Yuhua also understood the meaning, and she responded to Song Xifeng very calmly.

"I already knew, and frankly, I didn't have a bad impression of you."

Song Xifeng felt a burst of excitement in his heart, it turned out that it was not difficult to talk about it at all.

"Sister Yuhua, then we ......"

Deng Yuhua smiled and shook his head.

In front of her, Song Xifeng is not a mature man, he has not experienced emotional tribulations, and he has not experienced the ups and downs of feelings.

"Zephyr, I've always understood you, and I've had a longing for you, but ......"

"But what?" Song Xifeng clenched his fingers a little nervously.

Deng Yuhua smiled faintly, "Sometimes, some things may not be wishful thinking, you can do what you want." ”

"Why not?"

"You are young and have a great future, and I am a married woman, 7 years older than you, the world will not tolerate us together, your family will not agree, and you will face more ridicule in the future. Since I have a good impression of you, I don't want you to be embarrassed, and two people who are not blessed will not be happy. ”

"Sister Yuhua, I have never disliked you."

Song Xifeng said categorically, he always felt that there was an invisible distance between the two people before, but at this moment, hearing Deng Yuhua's sincere and honest words, he was still thinking about him everywhere, and he couldn't help but boil his blood in his chest, such a woman is a good woman, she is not a person with a high-ranking provincial household registration, but a person who can live a real life.

"Thank you, Zephyr, it is a blessing in my life to meet someone like you, I don't want to have a happy love life now, let alone think about the unspeakable pain when my love life is not understood by others."

After experiencing two unpleasant relationships, Deng Yuhua developed a sense of fear of emotions.

"Sister Yuhua, there won't be any of this."

Song Xifeng felt a trace of pain spreading in his heart, which was bred by Deng Yuhua's experience, and he suddenly felt that as a man, he should cherish the woman he liked, cherish her, care for her, and give her a stable life.

couldn't help but reach out and grab Deng Yuhua's hand tightly.

"Sister Yuhua, since I first met you, I felt that you were different from other women, and then I learned the reason why you were in Sanchuan Town, I felt very sad in my heart, I heard the news that you and Tong Xing were having a partner, I didn't sleep well for several nights, sometimes, I even thought, looking forward to you and Tong Xing breaking up early.

However, you are still married, and that night, if it wasn't for Grandma Deng's accident and going to the hospital, I really can't believe how I would have spent that night? Although I didn't go back until midnight, I didn't close my eyes that night.

Now that you are alone again, I dare to say these words to you. Please believe me, what I say is from my heart, I hope you can understand my mind, I believe we will be fine. ”

No matter how rational Deng Yuhua is, in the face of Song Xifeng's sincere confession, he can't help but have tears in his eyes.

Faced with such a sincere man to himself, Deng Yuhua was struggling in his heart.

If I had met him earlier, if I had been younger, if I hadn't known Tong Xing......

Deng Yuhua thought of this, and slowly withdrew his hand from Song Xifeng's hand.

"Zephyr, I really can't promise you? I don't want to delay your good future, there will be a good girl for you. ”

"Why can't you do that? With you, I can have a great future as well. ”

A tear slipped from Deng Yuhua's eyes.

"On that day, I drove Tong Xing away, we didn't go through the divorce procedures, and he came to me two days ago and proposed that if he wanted a divorce, he would pay off the bank loan for him. I am working so hard to set up a stall now, just to make money to pay off the loan and get my real estate certificate back. ”

"There is such a man who is not as good as a beast!"

Song Xifeng gritted his teeth and slammed his fist on the table, "I'll teach him a lesson for you, I heard that his loan in the bank is 100,000 yuan, and I will help you pay it back." ”

Deng Yuhua shook his head, "Although I am a woman, I am an independent woman, and I will never let anyone help me solve my own affairs." ”

"Sister Yuhua, I'm not anyone, I'm Song Xifeng, I like your Song Xifeng in my heart!"