"Do you get scared when you use water?" Li Lingli asked.

"Not really. It's okay to wash your face, brush your teeth, wash your clothes, and so on. In short, the description is not so detailed, only picking out the key points, "When I take a bath, I basically take a shower, and I dare not use the bathtub." ”

"It's the fear of going into the water." Li Lingli looked at Jian Yan and said, "Water is the source of life. Generally speaking, no one is born afraid of water. ”

She is almost certain that this fear of water is an acquired factor.

Cao Hongguang on the side said: "Brother and sister, have you had an accident before..."

"Don't interject!" Li Lingli interrupted his words, fierce and incomparable, but smiled softly at Jian Yan, "Let's go out and talk." Otherwise, let's go to the beauty salon and do the spa. I know there's a nice beauty salon and I'm a member there, I'll take you there. I think you'll like the environment. ”

Li Lingli mainly wanted to find an environment where Jian Yan could relax.

When people are completely relaxed, they will not have so many worries and will open their hearts.

Although Li Lingli wanted to help Jian Yan overcome the psychological barrier, she didn't want to treat Jian Yan as a patient.

In the beauty salon and steam room, there are only two people, Jian Yan and Li Lingli.

At first, Li Lingli didn't ask Jian Yan about the reason for her fear of water, just like chatting between girlfriends, and asked about her personal love life.

Li Lingli learned from Jian Yan that the relationship between her and Ji Yang was not as good as it seemed.

"You took the initiative to file for divorce? Does it have something to do with your fear of water? In addition, Li Lingli really couldn't imagine that Jian Yan would take the initiative to give up such a good man as Ji Yang for any other reason.

"It's probably a big part of that." In short, while speaking, she weighed which side of the two people's love life was a little more wrong, she and Ji Yang. But the more she thought about it, the more she felt that she was the one who was very wrong. "I'm with him... Actually, he's not that complicated, he didn't do anything wrong. Mostly me... I've got a hurdle I can't get over..."

"It's better to say it." Li Lingli encouraged her on the side.

Lying in the most relaxed position for him, he unconsciously remembered a lot of things that happened a long time ago.

"I wasn't like this before..."Jian Yan's voice was not very full, and there was nostalgia and mourning hidden in the fluttering powerlessness, "When my parents and my grandfather and grandfather were here, I wasn't like this... Maybe they protected me too well, and I was very timid and cried at that time. I'm scared when people talk to me loudly. They were gone, and one by one they disappeared from my life. Maybe it was in an instant that I grew up and became fearless...

Ji Yang and I were married for the first year. During the Spring Festival that year, Ji Yang was originally going to come back to have a reunion dinner with his family. As a result, he did not return ... As his wife, I had to face his parents, his father, his stepmother, and his stepmother's son alone. I know that his stepmother's son, Liu Zaihui, has always had ill intentions towards me...

That day, after the break, I was leaving. Liu Zaihui chased me to the pool... His dad had a habit of winter swimming. The whole pool was full of water. Liu Zaihui did something to me on the edge of the pool, and I resisted him. As a result, we both fell into the pool. I was wearing very thick clothes, and because he was chasing me, he didn't have much weight on him.

He quickly swam ashore and ignored me. I used to be very watery, but on that day, it seemed that something on my body kept dragging me down and down, and something was slowly draining from my body... Now I'm very impressed, as soon as my body touches the water, the feeling of that day will come back... I'm pregnant... When my life almost ended in the pool, I found out I was pregnant. ”

But the baby in her womb, which was less than three months old, was gone on the day she fell into the water...

"You..." Seeing that Jian Yan's face was pale, but his eyes were red, Li Lingli couldn't help but redden. Does Ji Yang know about this? ”

"Except for me and my best friend, there may be a doctor in the hospital who performed uterine evacuation surgery on me, and you, no one knows about it." Jian Yan smiled miserably, "Anyway, since that day, I am very afraid of water and cold." I wanted to try to overcome this fear by myself, but today I almost drowned in the hotel bathroom. Sister Li, you won't tell anyone else what I told you today, right? ”

Li Lingli raised her hand and swore to the sky, "I won't tell anyone without your consent!" Including my love! ”

In short, I am relieved.

But Li Lingli was a little puzzled, "Why don't you let Ji Yang know about this matter?" ”

"He can't know!" As soon as I talked about this, Jian Yan's emotions were a little high. "If he knew, it must be his responsibility, and it is very likely that he will give up everything and return to me! I don't want that! ”

Li Lingli nodded in understanding, "Actually, I can see that when Ji Yang is in front of you, his state is different from that outside. He really cares about you, and if you get hurt, he will fly back to you as soon as he knows it. I think you probably didn't tell him about it because you took care of some of the elders in his family. ”

That's true.

If Ji Yang knew that it was Liu Zaihui's miscarriage, then the Ji family might not have peace again, unless Liu Yutao and Liu Zaihui's mother and son were swept out of the house.

Li Lingli said: "In fact, between mother and child, there is also fate. You may not be ready to take on the role of motherhood right now. You are still young, and you will have opportunities with Ji Yang in the future. ”

"Sister Li, you may be right." Jian Yan said slowly, "When I'm alone, it's easier to think a lot. Sometimes I think that I may not be unprepared to welcome a new life, I don't want to add a burden to Ji Yang, I don't want him to be an extra burden. When we got married, it was the beginning of his career. I don't want his career to suffer, I don't want him to get involved in anything more. So, since my miscarriage, with him... I've been quietly using contraception. ”

Li Lingli sighed, "A woman really can't be too independent. You think so, so have you ever thought about what Ji Yang thinks? If two people's relationship goes wrong, it's not all one person's responsibility. You can't carry so many things alone, in short! If you can't talk about it from the bottom of your heart, the knot will get bigger and bigger, and you will get more and more uncomfortable! ”

"I know." Simply repeated, "Sister Li, I know." There are some things in my world that are too heavy, and I don't want him to come into my world and bear them with me. So... I wanted to put myself in his shoes and stand in his place and see the glorious world he was in. This may be my original intention for entering the entertainment industry..."

What touched Li Lingli was that these two loved each other very deeply.