Zhang Ruolei said he didn't know where she went. No one could answer this question, so I had to take it home. After dinner in the evening, my son Huaiping obediently returned to his room to do his homework, I cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks and returned to the bedroom alone, standing in front of the window for a long time, looking at the night outside like ink, there are stars and neons near and far, but it is not enough to compete with the long dark night.

Huai Ping came behind me at some point.

"Mom."

His voice was so small that I didn't hear it at first.

"Mom"

He screamed a little louder, and I turned around in shock.

"Mom."

Tears began to fill his eyes, and crystals rolled down his cheeks. I reached out and gently swung it on his cheek. His eyebrows and eyes were indeed more and more like his father's, and he hoped that his temperament would be contrary to his. But why do I want to do this? His father was not necessarily guilty of any great sin.

In that moment, I finally understood the dumb riddle that fate had been playing at me. It has been tirelessly trying to tell me that there is no sin, no innocence, we are all involved in our own desires, no one is wrestling with fate, no one is wrestling with darkness. We're all fighting ourselves.

I think of when I was in my twenties, when I put on my wedding dress for the first time, for the first time I gave myself over in bed, I dreamed all day long, true, false, actual, unrealistic, I lived in the clouds all day long, and never really looked at the world and real life with my feet on the ground. At that time, I always thought that getting married would be a lifetime, a woman could only be with one man in her life, and the most important thing for people was family, husband and children.

That's what life is all about.

It wasn't until life was really revealed before my eyes that I realized that it was just the tip of the iceberg.

Life, how many people have only been born in their lives, but have never really lived. The years finally gave me a little wisdom.

Huaiping clenched my hands at this moment and gave me courage: forget it, no matter what the future holds, we must go on firmly!

I lifted my chin, and suddenly I realized that there were fewer and fewer things in the world that scared me, and there were fewer and fewer things that forced me to run away and face them.

My son looked up and I looked at him with a smile.

"Mom, I shouldn't blame you. If you don't have that painful experience, you wouldn't be so sad as to go to drugs. ”

"I ......" I wanted to explain, but in the end I couldn't put it into words. Should we tell the truth?

No, no, no, this truth is probably more painful than the truth he thinks it is, so let time cover up all the so-called truths!

Early the next morning, my son went to school and I went to work.

In the morning, I received a call from my college classmates at work. People who haven't been in touch for a long time found my contact information, informed me that there was a small class reunion, and asked me if I knew Xiao Han's contact information.

"In college, you two are the best, you are simply not separated from Meng, Meng is not out of focus. What now? You must still be the same as you were in college. ”

I was at a loss for a moment, and I didn't know what to say.

If Xiao Han is found, will she go? Will they find Xiao Han's contact information? As soon as I was distracted, I was fed several times.

I smiled apologetically, as if my old classmates were right in front of me. I calmed down, cleared my throat, and whispered, "I had contact a few months ago, and now I can't find her." ”

The other party was surprised, "Oh? "With a sigh, promise me that she will take Lei Feng's gun and continue to work hard, and she must make this first gathering in many years indispensable.

I then wished her success on the phone.

Hanging up the phone, I can't help but think of the scene last evening, I am really familiar with that figure, but why did Zhang Ruolei lie to me? Who is telling the truth and who is false? What do they want? I stretched out my hand and pressed my hand on the internal phone, trying to ask Zhang Ruolei directly.

The hand pressed the phone button and retracted it. If he wanted to hide it from me, how could he be honest with me because of a phone call?

With my hand retracted, I felt that the air conditioner was a little cold, so I turned it off and pushed the window open. The air outside was as hot as if it had just been steamed, and it was desperately crowded and rushing into the room.

After thinking about it for a while, I closed the window and turned on the air conditioner again, which was a big deal to raise it by a few degrees.

In the afternoon, I went to Zhang Ruolei's office to have a meeting with him, this day I paid special attention to him, this person looked like usual, and like that, hanging a child, today he wore a linen white, Chinese homogeneous top, buckles. When I entered, his legs were resting on the edge of his desk, and the back of his chair leaned back slightly, to be honest, he was just a big smoking gun or a folding fan, and he looked like a traitor dog landlord in the past.

He tilted his head back slightly, his eyes half-closed to listen to my report. When I finished the report, he woke up like a dream and sat upright, and his feet were taken off the table, I handed him the report, and he took it, and read it one by one, and his expression was so focused that he was like two people just now.

After reading it, he threw the report on the table, showed a mouthful of small white teeth, and smiled at me, laughing so inexplicably and creepy.

"Say it! Look at me as soon as you walk through the door. What's wrong? Got a crush on me? ”

Talking like this forever, not serious.

"No, you're fine, then I'll go back first."

"Gotta get it, pay it back, took the wrong medicine? I know what's going on with you, isn't it Xiao Han? Yes, she appeared in the company with so much fanfare, and so many people in this company know her, and grassroots employees love to chew their tongues when they have nothing to do for a day, and it's strange if they don't come to your mouth. ”

I sat down. "It's really not them, I saw it myself yesterday, and it happened that she came, and I was passing by the monitoring room of the security department."

Zhang Ruolei's face froze: "You read it right, it's really her." ”

I didn't expect him to confess to me like that.

"According to her, she came back to go through the divorce procedures with your ex-husband."

"She doesn't have a conscience like this."

When Zhang Ruolei heard the word "conscience", his face showed disdain.

"Who is worthy of whom these days?"

I glanced at him: "Of course you think so, you would rather me bear the people of the world than the people of the world bear my master." ”

Zhang Ruolei knew what I meant, and most of his arrogance fell.

"What are you doing when you're divorced? I'm going to marry you? ”

Zhang Ruolei glanced at me again: "You think I will want her?" ”

"You're a man, you always slap yourself in the face when you talk. You don't want her? Who told me last time that people's bodies, the mountains, the waters, ......"

Zhang Ruolei leaned forward to me, his eyes provocative: "Then you should tell me, what mountain?" What water? ”

I smacked him, got up and turned to leave.

"Hey, hey, you'll be there."

"No, I've waited for a man in my life, and I'm wrong. From then on, except for my son, I didn't wait for anyone with a handle. ”

Zhang Ruolei shook his head behind me: "You're finished, look at how rough you are, and a little like a woman?" Open and close the mouth with a handle. ”

When I got to the door, I turned my head again: "What's the matter with the handle?" You're not the one with the handle? ”

Thinking about it, I went back and closed the door.

"Is she still gone?"

"How do I know that? I'm not her husband. ”

"Then what did she come to you for? Just tell you she's divorced? ”

"She'......"

Zhang Ruolei looked at me vigilantly: "Get out!" Work goes. ”