"Of course." He raised an eyebrow. "You guys here, uh...... I'm not prejudiced, people's guts... Oh no... "It's not a problem ......of guts," he said, "it's definitely a problem of brains, and it's a problem of brains. Love and marriage are not the same thing, sex and love can be separated, but life cannot be joked. It is normal for people to have needs, and sexual desire, like appetite, is a human instinct. But what distinguishes humans from animals is that they have brains, the ability to think, the intelligence, and the ability to think about consequences. youknow？ ”

"Don't make us look like Riba people." I looked displeased.

"Of course, I'm not a territorial attack. This is also one of your great characteristics. He laughed.

My face became more and more ugly.

"You're a territorial attack in itself."

He looked up at me, blinking, lips down.

"I say it's a suggestion, or an intuitive illustration of a phenomenon. I don't shy away from problems, I think that's the best way to solve problems. You tell me? I'm just going to explain this phenomenon and the possible reasons behind it. What does mental development say? I've read a book called "The Giant Baby Country", I don't completely agree with the author's point of view, but most of them make sense, I suggest you also read it, in fact...... Maybe that includes me, we're all super giant babies, and our minds haven't developed to the level of adults. ”

I remembered that book, I had read. At that time, Huaihai and I were already divorced, and the whole person was in an extremely bad state, and I found a lot of books on psychology to read, and I thought he was ...... I didn't expect him to have this hobby as well. Objectively speaking, what he said is not unreasonable.

When he saw me, he couldn't help but fall into deep thought, and busily beat the snake with the stick.

"I think ......," he pretended to be deep, "if a man and a woman patronize themselves when they are happy, and shirk responsibility when there are consequences, uh... I mean, abortion is tantamount to murder. He raised his chin, "You know, a lot of local legislation doesn't allow abortion, it's a crime. I think in the near future, people will gradually wake up to the fact that we will have the same legislation here. ”

He stood up and gushed.

"Of course, probably not anytime soon. But I don't think you're an ignorant woman. And," he said, looking straight at the floor, "to tell you the truth, the doctor told me if you insist on this baby," he said in a low tone, "and it is very likely that you will never have a baby again." Of course you are the mother of the child, and you have the right to decide. But at the same time, I am the father of the child, and I also have the right to decide whether he lives or dies. ”

He looked at me quietly, I didn't speak, I looked at him dumbfounded. It seems that everything he said is true, and he has made all the preparations and arrangements for it.

I lowered my head and glanced back at the food on the bedside table, suddenly losing any appetite at all.

In the middle of the night, I looked up.

"Gao Tiancheng."

"Huh?" He stood in the middle of the earth.

"Do you have children?"

He looked at me for a long time, and swayed

Head.

"Once upon a time. But you know, back then," he shrugged his shoulders and spread his hands. "I'm too young. I don't want to tell you a story, in short, it's complicated, and then the child didn't survive. This incident hit me hard, and I deliberately never had children again. Of course, he has never been involved in marriage. At first, it was because I wanted to fight for my career, but later I found that when I wanted to get married, when I was older, there were fewer and fewer people who were suitable and suitable. You don't know those Hong Kong women, they can't be realistic. It's not that there are no good ones, and I'm not denying them. Maybe fate hasn't arrived. ”

He walked over to me.

"How? Question: Baby, what else do you want to know? ”

I turned my gaze back to the end of the bed.

"But----- I've been taking birth control pills."

I looked back at him.

"That means that even if I'm really pregnant, I can't have this baby. He's going to be unhealthy. ”

"In foreign countries, there are many parents who know that the child they are about to give birth to is cerebral palsy, and they will not give up on him. That's a life. He frowned and waved excitedly in front of me, but the volume of his voice was very soft. I knew that in me, or in this child, he showed the best patience he could.

I really didn't expect such a person to like children so much.

I bowed my head. At a loss.

"You make me think again."

"There's no hurry." He said, reaching out for the porridge from the bedside table. I took a mouthful of porridge from it with an enamel spoon and ate it myself, "It's okay, the temperature is just right." You eat a little. ”

The spoon was brought directly to my lips, and I opened my mouth mechanically, partly because I was really hungry, on the other hand, because it was too late, and because it was so sudden that I didn't have time to think carefully before reacting to all his actions.

Very delicious porridge, I like the taste, salty and moderate, the temperature is just right, and that bite undoubtedly opened my taste buds, he took one bite after another, I didn't feel embarrassed to be served by him like this, and I ate it quite fragrant one bite after another.

The two large bowls of porridge and the dish of creamy baby cabbage quickly bottomed out, and I felt that there was still a gap in my stomach.

I lay down, but it only took five minutes to lie down, and I felt nauseous in my stomach, so I hurriedly lifted the quilt and got out of bed, ran to the bathroom, and hugged the toilet.

Well, everything I just ate was spit out before it could fully integrate with the gastric juice, and Gao Tiancheng handed me water and patted my back on the side, and sometimes helped me pick my hair. Attentive and gentle.

If ----- my mind wanders, I immediately advise myself to brake. Women are like this, they are too eager for a stable life in this world, especially when people like me reach middle age, they have already reduced their thoughts to almost zero, and they are even more hungry and thirsty for a stable and secure life. But in fact, there is no real stability in life.

Nine times out of ten, life is unsatisfactory.

But no one said that young people's lives are unsatisfactory only nine times out of ten.

In the face of life,

The only meaning of age is that it means years and the passage of time.

So much for.

I can't help but feel sad when I think about it.

Thinking of the last few pregnancies, none of them were stable and proper, and I didn't know how much I envied those big-bellied women who were like jewels by their husbands and held by the stars of their families.

On the other hand, what a "regret" for me!

Needless to say, Huaihai is busy every day; originally thought that it would be time to come to Zhang Ruolei with all the hardships, but who knows what national hatred and family hatred he is carrying; Later, the misunderstanding dissolved, and we couldn't go back; Although the current situation is also very bad, at least this Gao Tiancheng takes the child in my womb and me who is pregnant seriously!

I sat on the stone floor of the bathroom, and Gao Tiancheng gently stuffed a soft cushion under my buttocks.

I took the glass of water he handed me, took a big sip of it, rinsed my mouth, got up and washed my face, he was always by my side. It felt so good to be taken seriously, and I was a little excited, and I didn't know why I wanted to cry. When he raised his head and looked at himself in the mirror, his face was haggard, and he looked a little sickly.

Bad joy! The ancients called pregnancy a joy, which is not unreasonable.

Hair hung down long from the cheeks of his face, Gao Tiancheng reached out and took the white soft towel, which smelled of laundry detergent, he handed it to me, I wiped my face, and then the two of them returned to the bed one after the other.

He pulled the quilt open and covered it for me.

But I couldn't sleep, staring at the ceiling with wide eyes, in fact, he didn't fall asleep either, I knew that he was a shallow sleeper, and besides, maybe he and I needed time to digest it.

But do you want this child? I knew in my heart that he was right. I also hope to have a child of my own, if I don't have it, I'm afraid it will be difficult to have it again in the future, and loneliness is not a very auspicious thing for a woman like me, and it is not a very auspicious thing for the society I am currently in, and this idea is also deeply ingrained. Don't mention it when I gave birth to my first child with Zhang Ruolei, and my second child was not saved, the fetal image was already unstable at that time, and my career, family, relatives, and lovers left me one after another, and the pressure was too great. Right now......

My hand was on my stomach, and I couldn't calm down for a long time. There's a magical little life being born there, and he's going to call me mom. I think of when Huaiping was a child, I actually liked children. The little pink face, snuggled in your arms, with fleshy hands.

My heart is soft and peaceful. Gao Tiancheng cautiously stretched out his big hands from behind me, and tentatively placed them on the back of my hand that was on my belly, neither of them spoke, but everything seemed to be silent.

I sighed, his hand tightened a little firmer.

"Sleep!" He said, "I'll think about it tomorrow morning." Sleep deprivation is not good! ”

I nodded.

Close your eyes, anyway, if you don't sleep all night today, you won't solve any problems, so it's better to leave everything to tomorrow. I moved slightly, adjusted myself to a more comfortable position, and fell asleep.

Unexpectedly

Continuing the unfinished dream of the day, the white light entered my body, and then came out and transformed into the appearance of a man, and suddenly the lights around me brightened, and a handsome adult man stood in front of me, opened his mouth, and shouted, "Mommy." ”

I'm a spirit. This dream was too terrifying, I thought I hadn't slept for a while, but the morning light was already brilliant outside, and there was no one around, reaching out and touching it, there was still residual heat left by his body temperature, I hugged the quilt and got up, probably knowing that I was pregnant, I felt heavy inexplicably, and wanted to vomit.

I supported my body with my arms and laughed at myself for being hypocritical, I didn't react yesterday, but today the pregnant woman's shelf was upside down, and Wan Qian knew that she was going to laugh at me again.

I wiped my face, got up, pulled my hair back in a loose bun, and went in to wash.

He looked at me with a look of surprise and sadness, patted me on the back and said that pregnancy is like this, and he was at a loss for both hands and feet, and didn't know where to put it. I have heard in the past that men and women can't grow old and have children, and they will care a lot. It seems that the rumors are true.

I turned pale, waved at him in the mirror, and said that it might be chronic pharyngitis, I have such a problem, I know, it is not necessarily a matter of pregnancy.

His eyebrows furrowed. "How so? Once upon a time it was just a few retchings, you see you now. ”

I looked back at the toilet and thought to myself, what are you looking at, that little thing that spitting has the rancid smell of the night, and it has already been flushed down by you, what should I look at now?

I had the heart to laugh, and I did. He was more nervous than me, and said nervously, this can't be done, I have to find a good Chinese medicine doctor to think of a way, and I don't eat it if I vomit.

I didn't bother to argue with him, and in fact we hadn't reached any valid agreement on the fate of the little life in our womb.

(End of chapter)