Chapter 18 Gains and Losses

Such an arm is enough to give her a sense of security, Jiang Li stood behind Li Qianfan, pretending not to see anything, but in Jiang Li's heart, he was like a thief who was peeping.

"Xiaoli." Li Qianfan suddenly spoke, but he didn't expect to startle Jiang Li.

Jiang Li shivered unconsciously, and then the clothes he was holding in his hand fell directly to the ground.

"You're nervous?" Li Qianfan turned around, faced Jiang Li, stretched out his fingers and gently picked up Jiang Li's chin, with obvious teasing in his words, looking at Jiang Li's flustered eyes.

Li Qianfan lowered his head, and had an impulse to kiss this pink lip directly.

Jiang Li subconsciously stepped back, wanting to avoid Li Qianfan, but Jiang Li didn't know what to do.

Until his body leaned against the wall behind him, Jiang Li could no longer retreat.

"Are you scared?" Li Qianfan opened his mouth lightly.

"I didn't ...... No. Jiang Li's eyes were misty, his curly eyelashes were trembling, and under the illumination of the light, a faint shadow was left at the corners of his eyes.

In the next second, Li Qianfan directly kissed the lip flap of his longing for a long time.

"Hmm!" Jiang Li didn't want to refuse Li Qianfan, but in such an environment, everything seemed to have changed, which made Jiang Li a little restrained and even a little ignorant.

Li Qianfan's arm propped up on the wall next to Jiang Li's ear, lowered his head and kissed seriously, and slowly moved his palm down, encircling Jiang Li's waist, forcing Jiang Li to get closer to his body.

Jiang Li subconsciously held Li Qianfan's shoulders with both hands, feeling the heat on Li Qianfan's body, Jiang Li panicked, and vaguely felt that something might happen next.

But she was very worried in her heart, and she was not ready for this at all.

"Hmm...... Modest...... Every. Jiang Li's hands rested on Li Qianfan's chest, and pushed Li Qianfan away hard, although his cheeks were already crimson and his eyes were blurred, Jiang Li still reined in time at the last moment.

"Humility! Wait a minute! I'm not ready, I don't want this now! Jiang Li didn't know how to face Li Qianfan, he just lowered his head and looked at the ground.

"Xiaoli, don't you love me?" Li Qianfan didn't understand why Jiang Li would reject him, they obviously loved each other, but now there always seemed to be a sense of distance, lingering.

Li Qianfan was working very hard to cross the domain in their hearts, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't see Jiang Li's efforts, as if as long as he went further, Jiang Li would take a step back, and they always kept a distance between them.

Jiang Li raised his head, "I love you, in the past four years, I have been thinking about you every moment, and no one knows better than me how I have loved you in the past four years." ”

"But...... I'm scared, just thinking about the four years we've been apart, I'm scared, I'm not sure if we'll leave each other in the future because of the slightest misunderstanding. ”

"You won't understand the uneasiness in my heart, I'm sorry, it's not your responsibility for this matter, it's me who is not good enough!" Jiang Li pushed Li Qianfan away, turned around and ran outside.

Li Qianfan stood in place, he didn't understand why they loved each other so much, but he still couldn't give Jiang Li enough security, which made Li Qianfan feel very frustrated.

Squatting on the ground, Li Qianfan vigorously ripped off the bath towel wrapped around his arm, and looked at everything around him very irritably.

When he saw Jiang Li's facial cleanser on the sink, he raised his head, Jiang Li's towel was still on the shelf, and Jiang Li's slippers were placed at the door, and it seemed that Jiang Li's shadow was everywhere.

Walking out of the bathroom, Jiang Li's water cup, Jiang Li's books, Jiang Li's coat, it turned out that unconsciously, Jiang Li had been integrated into his life, and he always wanted to give Jiang Li a sense of ritual.

wanted to clearly ask Jiang Li to give him an answer, but he didn't know that in daily life, Jiang Li had already given the answer he wanted.

Since he knew that Jiang Li was seriously insecure, why did he keep persecuting Jiang Li?

Li Qianfan was annoyed by the impulse just now, turned around and chased out of the apartment, he definitely couldn't let Jiang Li disappear from sight again.

"Xiaoli! Where are you? Li Qianfan called Jiang Li's name loudly, with obvious eagerness in his voice, looking around the apartment downstairs, but Li Qianfan didn't see Jiang Li's figure.

"Xiaoli! I know it's wrong, forgive me, okay? Li Qianfan didn't care about the different eyes of people passing by, he just hoped that Jiang Li could see his sincerity.

If he loses Jiang Li again this time, then he will really regret it for the rest of his life.

Around the entire community, Li Qianfan ran desperately, looking for Jiang Li's figure.

Suddenly turned around, Li Qianfan saw Jiang Li standing across the road, his eyes were a little red and swollen, Li Qianfan rushed to the other side of the road without hesitation and hugged Jiang Li in his arms.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I won't force you anymore, I won't force you anymore, no matter what you want, I promise you, don't leave me again, okay?"

"Xiaoli, I really can't live without you." Li Qianfan's voice was trembling, with obvious fear.

Jiang Li felt Li Qianfan's fear and hugged Li Qianfan tightly, "I don't want to leave you, I just want to be quiet alone, I know this is my problem, you are not wrong." ”

Because she was afraid of losing, Jiang Li didn't dare to give all her feelings easily, and in the past four years, she had truly experienced the pain of losing after getting it.

So she told herself that there should never be a second time.

"No, Xiaoli, I understand your fears, I really understand them, I give you time, I give you enough time to think clearly, I will wait for you until the day when you are willing to accept me."

Li Qianfan made a decision, if they were destined to be together for the rest of their lives, then he didn't need to rush at this time.

Hearing Li Qianfan's words, Jiang Li felt extra warm, stood on tiptoe, and took the initiative to kiss Li Qianfan's side face.

"Why don't you wear a dress when you come out, and when you are seen by others, you think you are a psychopath!" Jiang Li blamed Li Qianfan, but his tone was full of distress.

Falling in love with someone, maybe that's it, not wanting to leave, and being afraid of losing it when you get closer.

Jiang Li admitted that she had gained and lost, but there was no way, and she couldn't control this inner feeling.

Li Qianfan took Jiang Li's hand, turned around and walked towards the apartment, "It's a neurosis, it's also your neurosis." ”