"I'm going to lock the door." The aunt in the dormitory shouted at us.

The goldfish let go of my hand, and he had no reason not to let me go. I looked at him, the lipstick on his lips was very harsh, I motioned for him to wipe the lipstick off his mouth, he motioned to me that he wouldn't erase it.

The last time I looked back at him, he was still standing looking at me, and I couldn't help but smile at him, knowing that if I smiled at him, he would smile back at me.

I saw him smile, I saw his side, the gentle and lonely side.

When I walked into the dormitory, my aunt closed the door of the dormitory, and the clock hanging on the wall showed the time: 23 o'clock.

The dormitory aunt wanted to say something to me, but the words came to her mouth and swallowed back. She looked at me the way my mother looked at me.

She is about the same age as my mother, and I know why she looks at me like that, and my mother has told me that the most important thing for me now is to study hard, and never fall in love, and everything else is wrong.

She looked at me like that, but it was because she, like my mother, thought what I was doing was unbelievable and wrong. She wanted to educate me, but she thought it had nothing to do with her, so she shut up.

I deliberately slowed down, hoping that she would say something, that she would think about saving me, but in the end, without saying anything, she walked into her room and closed the door.

When I got back to the dormitory, the lights weren't even on. I saw that the quilt on Roy's bed was gone, and I thought she was going to sleep with Mei Dai.

I was the only one left in the dormitory, I locked the door, I was lying on the bed, looking at the ceiling in a daze, the message on my mobile phone rang, it was a text message from Song Zhiyu, the content was: Are you back in the dormitory?

The rest of the messages on my phone were text messages from some people scolding me anonymously. It's already 23 o'clock, and someone is still scolding me.

I didn't reply to any messages, including Song Zhiyu's, I muted my phone and put it aside, the dormitory didn't turn on the lights, only a little moonlight came in from the window.

I was lying in bed, trying to think about something, but I had no clue. At that moment, I heard another knock on the door.

When I sat up and thought about whether to open the door, I heard Li Li's voice, she said, "Xiaoyan, open the door." ”

I got out of bed and opened the door for her, and when she walked in, she closed the door.

"What? You're the only one, Meidai? She asked me, with a sarcastic expression.

I didn't speak, she didn't want to ask me at all, she just wanted to sarcastically talk about me.

"Look at you, the lipstick is off." She sat on Roy's bed, across from me, looking at me.

She wore her hair draped, the makeup on her face had not been removed, her face was almost porcelain-white, and her lips were red. Under the moonlight, I think she is really beautiful, and her temperament is too beautiful. That kind of temperament that I can't tell at all.

"What are you going to say?" I asked her.

"I don't know, I just want to talk to you." She ruffled her hair, and I saw her white, small ears.

"Say what?" I'll ask her again.

After thinking about it for a long time, she asked me, "Don't you really know that man?" ”

The man she was talking about was especially sensitive to me and her, the rich businessman who robbed her mother.

"What's the use of talking about this now?" I never knew the rich businessman, and my mother knew the rich businessman, just because I knew him.

"Also, there's no point in talking about that now." I looked at my phone next to me.

We didn't speak again, and I don't know how long it took for her to speak again.

"Sometimes I think, if we are still good friends, Song Zhiyu and I are together, you and Xiao Yu'er are together, and the four of us can play together, which is good."

She said the above words suddenly, perhaps, she wanted to let go of her old suspicions and get back together with me. Make peace with? Recreate memories?

I've seen a movie before, the heroine is amorous all her life, but she is sincere every time. She gave every ex a chance, but in the end she was abandoned, and in the ten years from 20 to 30, the only thing she got was vulnerability.

The glass is easy to break, so she uses a clear plastic cup, but in fact, if the plastic cup falls, it can't be filled with water anymore, and those cracks will always exist. Some things, once broken, are useless forever.

Li Li saw that I didn't speak, so she stopped talking, she stood up, and planned to leave.

"Gone." She opened the dorm door, walked out, and closed the door.

I was the only one left in the dormitory, and I thought about what she said, about what had happened between us lately, about how she slapped me, about how she scolded me.

What made her who she was? Such a contradiction? What the hell is she struggling with? Tangled to such contradictions.

The problems she struggled with, the rich businessman, the man who snatched her mother and destroyed her family. All the hatred in her heart was because of that rich businessman, but she couldn't do anything about that rich businessman? Her weak father had already let her mother go.

At that time, she was alone, and she was the only one who was so serious and hated that man so much. All the hatred in her heart, let her take revenge on other people she can take revenge on. She became hated for me.

She is very similar to a goldfish, they both have two sides, two sides of the total. Let them become complex, contradictory children.

The screen of my phone lit up, the goldfish called me, it took me a long time to pick it up, I didn't speak, I waited for him to speak first.

"Xiaoyan, I miss you and can't sleep." The first thing he said.

My nose was sore, and I thought about him not being able to sleep because he had a lot of things on his mind.

"I miss you too." I replied to him that the late night wind was blowing in through the window, and I felt a little cold, so I nestled under the covers.

"Really? Do you miss me too? "He's a little excited.

"Really." I replied to him, and what I said was true.

"I see a lot of people scolding you on the Internet." When he said this, he was careful.

"It's okay, I don't care." I replied to him that I really didn't care.

"Don't take it to heart, no matter how they scold you, I will be with you." He comforted me by saying this.

I didn't say anything more, just mumbled.

In the following time, he talked a lot more. Talking about what happened to us this past summer, he was swimming with me in his arms at the beach, and he was leaning on me, basking in the sun.

He also talked a lot about him when he was a child, he said that when he was a child in kindergarten, he was actually in the same class as me, but he was too timid at that time, and I shouldn't remember him.

We seemed to have been talking for a long time, I felt that he couldn't talk anymore, I glanced at the time on my phone, 0:12.

"Are you sleepy?" I asked him.

"Sort of. But don't hang up on me. He said this in a very small voice.

"Okay." I answered him.

He said a few more things, all from when he was a child. His voice grew softer and softer, until at last only the faint sound of breathing remained.

"Goldfish?" I whispered his name.

He didn't reply to me, and I think he might have fallen asleep.

I hung up the phone and I saw the time on my phone: 0:20.

I turned off my phone screen and closed my eyes.