Such a low-level mistake, but also a white bone spirit! I just want to find a crack in the ground now, never to appear in front of this man again, and I want this man to suddenly die or die violently, and never appear in front of me again.

I'm going to have to do this to make him do this.

Zhang Ruolei walked away, and I called a taxi at the door of the hotel and went home directly.

picked up Huaiping and sent him to school.

In the past two years, he has been accustomed to my frequent late return and occasional business trips, Huaiping is very sensible, and I don't have to worry about anything after I go to elementary school. Wake up in the morning and fold your own quilts to tidy up the house, and the desk must be organized every night before going to bed. I washed my own clothes on weekends, I was afraid that he would be busy with his homework, in fact, I was afraid that he would not be able to wash cleanly, and I was afraid that he would work too hard, but he insisted on doing it. In the morning, he either went out to drink a bowl of soy milk and eat two fried dough sticks to solve his stomach problems, or he got up early to make a porridge and order pickles.

It's just that we talk less and less, sometimes I'm too busy, and when I come back, I'm too tired, and my whole body seems to be falling apart, not to mention that doing business is constantly talking to customers, talking too much to others there, and I'm too lazy to say anything when I go home.

At that time, I would think of Huaihai, thinking that he was reluctant to go home at that time, and it was understandable that he was unwilling to speak when he returned home.

Huaiping knew that I was tired, so he didn't pester me and let me accompany him, and he digested a lot of joys, sorrows, and sorrows by himself, like a little adult. But sometimes I look melancholy, and I occasionally worry, but then I also give myself relief.

Tony Leung also had melancholy eyes, but he fascinated a large number of women.

So it shouldn't work.

There are often personnel disputes in the unit, you do well, do bad people often put small shoes on your back, and the departments sometimes eat and take the card, at first I was not very adaptable, and then the goal was single, to get the salary and raise it as their own responsibility, and the side should be waiting for idlers, waiting for idle things, and people are a lot easier.

Life is short, if you can give yourself relief, don't block yourself.

has been separated from Huaihai for more than two years, and love has not been put on the agenda.

First, there is Huaiping, and second, I am busy with work. What's more, I'm still in the recovery period, and I haven't completely come out of that failed relationship. But there are still gains, such as after a long time, I finally found a little bit of the doorway in love:

I used to think that love was the wind and snow, but later I realized that love is just firewood, rice, oil and salt, and red and white, just as snobbish.

I used to think that love was born from feelings, but later I learned that good love needs to meet opponents in chess, and the wrists are equal.

In this world, if you are backward, you will be beaten, and there is no iron law in any relationship. Everywhere is the law of the jungle.

The one who loves more in love is always the weaker and always more vulnerable.

sent Huaiping back to the company to re-issue a contract. This time, Zhang Ruolei didn't say a word, and quickly signed the contract, and immediately stamped the official seal. I didn't give him a good face, he smiled, the kind of smile that gives and takes, and everything is under control. I'm all too familiar with that kind of laughter, the situation is controlled by him, he holds the power of life and death in other people's hands.

When I signed the divorce with my ex-husband, my ex-husband used to smile at me like that.

I hate that smile. But at the same time, I also know that I have nothing to argue with others. We are not of an order of magnitude at all. I feel sorry for myself, I feel sorry for my weakness.

At that time, I can remember what Xiao Han once said to me, she said: I know what I want, and I will pay any price in order to get ahead.

It's no wonder that since I have come out of society, I can understand Huaihai and Xiao Han better, and I don't hate them as much as before. Sometimes I even wonder if in the near future, I will be able to do whatever it takes to become a woman like Xiao Han for money, power, and status.

In the past few years, my work has gradually improved, but the money I make can never keep up with the speed of spending. When I got divorced, I vowed in my heart that I would show them a different person.

But now I heard that Huaihai and Xiao Han both quit their jobs and went to the sea to do business, and they opened a company together, and the benefits are not bad. Look at me again? also rented a house with his children to live, so he barely had enough to eat.

I have a full schedule every day: work, do housework after work, accompany Huaiping, he studies or watches cartoons, I also study, and I enroll in an on-the-job graduate class, which is the kind of study that can be studied with a bachelor's degree and spending money. I didn't have any ambitions at the beginning, but I wanted to mix up a higher education. But knowledge is like this, any form, as long as you are willing, you can learn new things.

On the day of Huaiping's accident, I was out of town, and when I rushed to his school, his small body was squatting under the table, and the teacher said that it had been several hours, and no one could call out.

What's wrong with him?

I shouted, "Huaiping, come out, what's wrong?" Mommy is coming. ”

But he wouldn't look at me.

I finally realized the seriousness of the situation and asked the teacher what was going on at school. Only then did I know that a few children had been bullying him at school, and he was afraid that I would cause trouble, that I would worry about him, and that I would not have time, so he had been holding on to himself like this.

Today, he probably felt like he couldn't hold on any longer.

That year, Huaiping was in the second grade of primary school.

After listening to this, I brushed my tears and came down.

I didn't have time to blame the school or the unlucky kids, I squatted down, and just wanted to call him, but my throat seemed to be choked by something, and I didn't say a word.

I had to reach out and try to pull him out from under the chair, but as soon as my hand touched his skin, he slammed his head on the table leg with his dull eyes.

He refused to come out, believing it was the safest place.

I cried and said, "Son, what's wrong with you?" I'm my mother, my mother is here, look at my mother, my mother loves you, my mother can't live without you. Why don't you tell your mom about something? Mom can protect you.

But he didn't react, his little hands clasped his knees tightly, like the whole world had abandoned him.

I was at a loss and knew how to figure it out, but all the circuits in my head were a mess. I even called Huaihai, but he stopped, and the automatic voice kept repeating the same sentence, and all the teachers and principals looked up at me and waited for me to make a decision.

But I didn't know what to do.

Later, the school's mental health teacher called his teacher, who was said to be one of the best psychiatric counselors in the city. He was half-lying on the ground and chatted with his son for a long time, while the rest of the people were helpless and silently waiting outside.

Then my son came out and there were cheers, and I walked over and opened my arms to him, and he threw himself into my arms, his soft, thin hair rubbing my chin.

He hugged me and cried, saying Mom, I don't blame you for the divorce. I know. If you don't love each other, you can separate, and I will always be your son. I just mind if he doesn't come to see me once! Without Dad, who will protect you? Who will protect me?

I choked up and cried bitterly. I thought to myself, even if I really want to sell it on the street in the future, I have to give him the best. I love him and can't live without him. He frightened me out of the day, and I didn't want to, couldn't, and couldn't lose him.

I took a week off and I took him to the playground. This was the first time I took him there after the divorce, and I used to convince myself that I didn't take him because I didn't have the time, money, or didn't want him to remember that I had come to touch the scene. In fact, I know that all of them are excuses, and I am selfish, and I am more reluctant to face the past than he is.

The person who should be most responsible for his emotions and everything he is doing now is me, I am not a good mother.

On that day, the sky was particularly sunny and the leaves were shining green in the sun. My son sat on the merry-go-round, raised his little face and smiled at me, like a sunflower, very beautiful!

I decided to transfer him to the best school, and now he is attending this school for the children of migrant workers, and there are too many people. But after running a long lap, I realized that transferring schools was not an easy task. begged grandpa to tell grandma that even if I wanted to spend money on gifts, I couldn't find the temple gate, so I had to be cheeky and beg Zhang Ruolei.

Zhang Ruolei received me, but as soon as he heard the intention, he raised his hand and flatly refused.

I want to sigh at the hot and cold world, but if I am still lamenting the hot and cold world at this age, it can only mean that I am really not very good.

If I can't think about it, I'll go to my ex-husband to help, this is also his son, why doesn't he ask? If it weren't for him, how could our mother and son end up in such a field?

But I can't even find him now, I have Xiao Han's phone, she has hands and eyes, and she is beautiful. I know that this idea is somewhat dirty, why do you think that a woman can be like a fish in water in society as soon as she is beautiful?

After a long time, that lonely afternoon, I finally peeled back a dark and secret psychology in my heart: I was angry at others for scolding her for being a bus, but in fact, in my heart, she was.

With Xiao Han's cleverness, she should see me more thoroughly than I can see myself, so she interfered in my marriage back then, so I can't talk about how sorry I am.

Who can say who is sorry for whom first?

The phone rang, and as soon as I answered from the company, I was told to go back to an emergency meeting. When I arrived at the company, I found that only a few days later, the company's personnel management actually had a big earthquake. The original boss was directly opened by someone who reported embezzlement of public funds, and the new one, who is in his early 40s, is well-maintained, kind-eyed, and looks a bit like an old eunuch.

The new official took office three times, and the people below did not find out the details of the new official, and everyone was silent.

The meeting was very short, the old eunuch spoke slowly, shot vigorously, came up with a new commission plan, announced some personnel changes, in addition, a sales manager position was vacant, the company decided not to recruit, to adopt an internal competition system.

Twenty minutes after the meeting, everyone chattered and whispered while walking out, I was thinking about Huaiping's transfer in my heart, and when I went out, I took out the phone and found Xiao Han's number, and my colleague elbowed me: Say Meizi, how is it? Sales manager, you're good enough in terms of qualifications!

I?

I called haha and dialed Xiao Han's phone: It's me.

I say.