He didn't feel pain, not at all, fear numbed him, like he lost his senses. He shouted loudly, knowing to himself that it was useless for him to scream in his throat, but he continued to shout until his voice was hoarse.

There was still no one to rescue him, and he was unconscious in his terror. Mr. Jin thought that he was dead, and it was good to be dead, but at the last moment, Mr. Jin told himself, and warned himself that if people really have reincarnation and the next life, they must remember to choose good parents in heaven and choose a good family to come to this world again.

He was too bitter in this life, and he didn't want to be like this in the next life.

After a while, Mr. Kim woke up again. He thought he was in another world, but the clarity of his perception and touch soon told him that he wasn't.

No.

It's still the world he hates so much, but he can't do anything about it. He didn't believe it, and stretched out his hand to try to caress it, but the surroundings were still closed, and the tentacles were cold, and there was no hole at all.

Mr. Kim's sweat came down again, he was a little desperate, he opened his mouth, there was a salty taste in his mouth, he didn't know where he was bleeding, he didn't know what the reason was bleeding, everything didn't matter.

"Help!" Mr. Kim shouted weakly. But the voice that came out was like a snake spitting out letters, only hissing. No one would hear him, and even if there were, the man would not come to his rescue, and he began to hammer the walls again.

"Let me out."

Mr. Kim was dizzy.

"Let me out. Even if I beg you. ”

He had never been soft with anyone before, Mr. King cried, and then he found out that he was still peeing, the crotch of his pants all the way to the back of his buttocks, a large piece of cold and wet, and a strong stench.

Mr. Kim wanted to die at that moment.

He tried to stand up, but his head "banged" into the upper wall. He lay down, wheezing violently until he was exhausted again. He felt his life slowly slipping by, little by little, little by little...... Little by little, leave yourself.

This time Mr. Kim did not faint, and in fact he himself did not quite know whether he fainted or fell asleep. But when he woke up from his slumber again, nothing changed.

Nothing has changed.

He thought he had died many times, but each time he was reborn and resurrected, and he was trapped in a small, confined space, unable to get out no matter how hard he tried. Every time he opened his eyes again, Mr. Jin despaired.

Until, he was no longer afraid.

Mr. Kim first felt the food and water inside, and then he let his eyes learn to adapt to the darkness, and he found that the space was not completely narrow. Because sometimes he can lie down completely, sometimes he can sit, he is excreting on one side and eating on the other, there is no time calculation to calm Mr. King's mind, he sometimes falls into long meditations, meditation makes him wiser, let him learn to adapt to the darkness, let him learn to discern things in the darkness that ordinary people can't discern.

When Mr. Kim came out of it, he even fell in love with the darkness. The darkness became his best cover, and in the darkness, he was still him.

Some people are no longer themselves after changing their environment.

place

Some people have been defeated by circumstances and fate, unfamiliar circumstances have left them at a loss, and the sense of failure, helplessness, and powerlessness has made them restless, like trapped beasts. People always lose their rules first, and then lose themselves, and once they really lose themselves, the whole world is no longer about you.

Mr. Kim doesn't want to be a bystander, he wants to dominate.

Mr. Kim knows that everyone wants to be in charge, and he takes the lives of certain people, and in a sense, this is a kind of domination. Fate seems to be in everyone's own hands, but it is not. Natural disasters, accidents, conspiracies, anything can take people's lives. Human life is actually as brittle as paper, and every day is as dangerous as eggs.

People themselves sometimes don't realize it.

Since then, Mr. Kim has felt that he has become impeccable. He defeated his fears. At that time, Mr. Jin never thought that people's fear would be regenerated, and fear was like their own enemy, you destroyed one, thinking that the other party would be wiped out, but in fact, there is another enemy waiting for you somewhere in the future.

For example, now, Mr. Jin sometimes begins to be impetuous, he forces himself to calm down, forces himself to calm down, and in the dark night, Mr. Jin peels himself off layer by layer. Afraid of what? Afraid of what? Afraid of what?

He kept asking himself, he pushed himself into a corner, and the two Mr. Kim confronted each other until he saw a woman in the eyes of the other Mr. Kim.

Woman.

No.

Women will not be his soft coercion.

He didn't fall in love with her, she was just one of his goals, his mission, and he was ...... to her

Mr. Jin fell into thought, and he convinced himself more than once that the reason why he looked at the woman named Wan Qian differently was because -------

She was her first time.

For the first time.

He had never been in contact with women before, and they were the most taboo in their relationship. Before carrying out this mission, Mr. Jin thought that he would play with women and women's feelings, but he did not expect that he would be the first to sink.

It was an unexpected surprise for him.

And he didn't know what he would eventually be ordered to do with Wan Qian? Kill her?

No.

He could now be sure that he wouldn't be able to do it.

And yet don't kill her?

No way.

No one can disobey the orders of the organization.

Mr. Jin thought of Wan Huan again.

Wan Huan.

Lee shaves his head.

For so many years, he has never missed. There is no room for error this time. If...... Mr. Jin thought, what if Wan Qian took the initiative to leave him? What if Gao Tiancheng and Ah Dong rescued Wan Qian back to China and protected her?

They are also human beings, and the people in the organization are human beings, they are not gods, so why can't there be failures? He had never tasted defeat, but this time Mr. Kim wanted to try it.

What kind of punishment will the organization give for failure?

He will suffer all kinds of punishments, and he will double his life for the organization, isn't that okay? His life should be worth silver in the organization, after all, he is loyal, his combat effectiveness is off the charts, and he has use value.

He can try to convince the organization, but where to find it? He had never even seen his own superiors, let alone his boss.

The organization has always been a one-line contact with them.

What's more, for a woman!

Woman.

Woman.

Mr. Kim pulled out his cigarette and looked at the woman lying beside him. is such a woman, she has been married, she has had a son with someone else, her background is not pure, and even her posture of having sex with herself is endless.

He wondered why he had fallen in love with her. It may be that there are no women. It must be so. Mr. Jin got out of bed in a ghostly robe, and Wan Qian asked him in a daze, "What are you doing?" ”

"What?" He didn't know either.

"Go out and find a woman." What the man said was true. Women always think it's a lie when a man tells the truth, and they tend to take it seriously when a man lies.

Wan Qian chuckled, which made the man feel more and more angry.

What is she laughing at?

How? Don't believe it? Do you think he is the only woman in his life? Will no woman but her take a fancy to him?

He also despised his surname Jin, and he also valued himself.

The man walked out angrily, thinking that the woman would come out to chase him. Mr. Jin deliberately slowed down when he left the house, and Mr. Jin sadly realized that he was afraid that he would walk too fast, and the woman would not have time to dress neatly and catch a cold. It turns out that people are all cheaper like this.

The yard was very quiet, there happened to be a moon that day, the white moonlight sprinkled into the courtyard, illuminating almost everywhere, the wide broad-leaved plants swayed in the night breeze, casting huge shadows on the ground, the moonlight stretched his shadow so long, Mr. Jin looked at the deformed self on the ground, and secretly laughed like a child.

Doesn't he look like a child?

also played and gambled on running away from home.

Besides, who is he gambling with?

with yourself.

He quickly realized.

He's gambling with himself.

Mr. Jin didn't dare to turn back, so he had to hold his breath, so that Wan Qian could clearly hear her footsteps when she chased after him, and she must not run too fast, he was afraid that she would trip somewhere and fall, so he would feel distressed.

When you fall in love with someone, the other person will really become a child in your eyes.

What does it mean to care? To worry is to care. Worry about the other party's lack of food, clothing, and what to do without yourself. However, in the many years before I met myself, people froze to death or starved to death?

Whether it's a matter of matter or a person, caring is chaotic.

The night wind is a little colder, and this is the case close to the sea, the oceanic climate heats up and cools quickly, and the warm currents brought by the ocean, and they land here, so that the comfort of the ocean currents is the first to be felt, but the cold air is also the first to visit this place. He regretted that he didn't wear an extra one, and even had the heart to turn back.

If Wan Qian comes out, he will be like him......

Mr. Jin had long forgotten why he was angry, and asked Liu? Or is it fun-seeking? One cannot base one's happiness on the suffering of others, that would be too mean.

Mr. Kim is not a mean man. His outstretched hand

It stopped in mid-air, and then the hand withdrew itself. The hand may think that his master is too much to go out at this time. And Mr. Kim decided to follow the decision he had made for himself.

He turned around and prepared to greet Wan Qian, but Wan Qian didn't even have a ghost.

Mr. Kim began to mentally count the time.

Maybe she had just gone to the bathroom, only to find out that her husband had suddenly disappeared.

She's getting dressed, changing her shoes, and maybe turning back to get a hat. Or she would worry that her man wasn't too prepared when he went out, so she helped him bring out a coat.

Yes, it must be.

But Wan Qian waited for a long time.

Mr. Kim was a little unable to sit still.

Is she in danger? When I was in a hurry to find myself out, I tripped and fell until I fainted on my head?

The more he thought about it, the more likely it became.

Wan Qian is an adult!

So what? Some people choked to death by drinking cold water.

Mr. Kim sweated profusely on his forehead. At that time, he finally realized in despair that he was really in love with the woman named Wan Qian. Since when? Maybe it started when he started to worry about her, maybe it started when he started to guess whether the other person loved him or not, maybe it started when he started to find a reasonable excuse for all her actions, maybe it started when ----- first saw her, or not, or maybe it went back to earlier. For example, when you first saw her in the photo?

Mr. Jin took a few steps forward and decided to sit on a rattan chair in the small garden in the courtyard and wait for Wan Qian.

If she came, he would go into the house and make a pot of rose tea for her, which was said to be especially good for women. Take out a few more snacks, she loves sweet, people who live too hard, and they prefer sweet when they grow up. I heard that Li shaving her head was not good to her at all, I heard that her past was full of twists and turns, and I heard that she had suffered a lot.

Why didn't she meet me earlier?

I can give her happiness.

Can I give her happiness?

The rattan chairs were slightly damp, like a layer of salty and wet mist, and the wind from the sea was wet and sticky.

(End of chapter)