Li Li threw the notebook in his hand on my desk.

"Xiaoyan, this news is very exciting, you promised Xiao Yu'er, you can't go back."

"What happened?" I asked her, and I asked her to tell everyone where the notebook came from.

"Found in the counselor's closet, her diary."

She pulled her phone out again and pointed the camera at me.

"Xiaoyan, let's talk about it, say you're going to be Goldfish's girlfriend."

"Wait a minute." I flipped through the counselor's notebook.

They looked at me, and I looked at the first page of the diary.

"In the summer, the beginning of a new life, I got my first job, as a counselor at Wutong No. 1 Middle School, they told me that in a few years I can really become a teacher in the school, today I met the lovely children, they are very cute, they remind me of when I was in high school."

I read the contents of the journal.

I don't know why they all laughed, they might have laughed at the counselor, or they might have laughed at me.

"Xiaoyan, what are you doing?" The goldfish asked me.

His eyes were so cold, he must have thought I was crazy.

"Isn't this breaking news? When it's over, I'll promise you, be serious. ”

He laughed, and so did his friends.

I flipped the notebook to the middle half.

"I got married, there was no love between us, but I was just old enough to get married, and a teacher with good conditions proposed to me, and I agreed, but I didn't love him very much."

"I was very timid, and he told me to be bold, and I was touched."

"The wedding day was the happiest time for me, most of our colleagues from the school came, and they seemed to be shocked that we were getting married, and they gave us their blessings."

"For the first time in my life, on my wedding day, people complimented me on my beauty. I drank a lot, and to be honest, it was the first time I'd ever drunk in my life, and I didn't drink, but I didn't want to show it in front of them, and it seemed embarrassing to me that I couldn't drink. ”

"In my hometown, people don't seem to drink, at night, the whole family is at home, my mother always has endless work to do, my father sits at the door smoking, and my younger siblings sit on the wooden bench in a daze, although not all days are like this, but most days are like this."

"Today is my big day, they are all here, they have been on the train for more than forty hours. They couldn't talk to these people, they just sat there quietly, like they were sitting quietly at home, and sometimes, I really hated them so much. ”

"No one took the initiative to talk to them, and they all seemed reluctant to talk to my family, and even somewhat deliberately avoided talking to my family. I felt uncomfortable, not because of anything else, but because of one thing that made me feel uncomfortable: they looked down on my family. ”

"The night here is different from the rest of the house, it's very bright, the night is like the day, and some people will drink to kill the long night."

"By the end of the day, I had drunk too much, I felt a little drunk, and I was very tired. I was lying on the table in a daze, it was already late at night, I turned my head sideways, and saw that some of the male colleagues in our school had not left, they were chatting with my husband, they seemed to be having a good time, they were doing some rude movements, hinting at Li Zhong. ”

"I don't know if it's like this at weddings here, but I'm starting to feel frustrated, what I've learned is incompatible with their rude movements, Li Zhong walked up to me and kissed me in front of them, and they rudely coaxed, he picked me up, I didn't understand what I was nervous about, I smelled the wine on his body and made me feel so uncomfortable that I wanted to cry, I saw the group of male teachers laughing maliciously."

"I seem to regret it, I seem to remember, I didn't say I was going to marry him, I just kept silent, but in the end I got married, and I knew that I was wrong, I was wrong about not rejecting him. I watched my family grow farther and farther away from me, and they looked at me, and they didn't want to keep me, and suddenly a feeling came over me that I had never felt before, and I felt sick to all this. ”

When I read this, the classroom was very quiet, and everyone was like a child who likes to listen to stories.

The second half of the diary records her married life: purgatory on earth.

She didn't keep a diary much later, and she didn't write as much as she used to.

One of her passages reads, "I can't write anymore, the last time he saw it, he beat me up again." ”

The diary records that our homeroom teacher used violence and threats against her.

threatened her to use her identity as a female teacher to invite Xing Lu to tutor. There is too little written in the diary.

"He asked me to help him, and he raped Xing Lu."

"Xing Lu, I was beaten hard by him, and I was beaten by him, if she is obedient, no one will be beaten."

The classroom was eerily quiet, and no one spoke.

In the diary, she understated her remorse, and she wanted to express more that she was a victim herself.

She said in her diary, "If this world does not have my parents, younger brothers and sisters, death can take its course." I'm so tired, and I'm so miserable in the face of them. ”

In the diary, she did not scold Li Zhong in vicious language, her soul was gentle, and the only indecent word she had was not written for herself.

It was written for Xing Lu.

"What scares him? It doesn't seem to be. When class was over, he called Xing Lu, and the child was scared like a frightened fawn, and he was like a brute who was stronger than a fawn. ”

Song Zhiyu took the notebook from my hand and threw it to Li Li.

"Alright, stinky sister. You still don't promise goldfish. ”

"I promised him a long time ago." I laughed.

The goldfish laughed too, his friends laughed too, the goldfish hugged me excitedly, and his friends were coaxing.

Li Li was holding her phone, her friends surrounded her, they were also laughing, and they put the video online.

Song Zhiyu walked to the podium to distribute everyone's mobile phones, and he walked away from the crowd alone.

Mei Dai didn't look back at me, and neither did Roy, they both turned their backs to me, so strange.

Some of the classmates watched all this indifferently, and some did not turn their heads back.

"I love you, little smoke." Goldfish whispered, he was a little nervous, and took my hand.

Li Li walked over and looked at me with a smile.

"Xiaoyu'er, I'll have a few words with Xiaoyan."

The goldfish moved out of the way, and Li Li sat down next to me.

She leaned into my ear and whispered, "The video has been posted on the Internet, how do you say those netizens will scold you." ”

"Did you tear up a few pages of the diary?"

A few pages of the journal were torn apart, either by the counselor or by her.

She looked at me in shock, and I looked at her, and her eyes told me that she was the one who tore them.