And the beginning of my friendship with Li Li was a long, long time ago, when we were only 5 years old, and our mother was very good friends, and it seemed that we would become good friends in the dark. I'm the kind of child who is shy and has low self-esteem, and she is a child who is as confident and enthusiastic as the sun.

I am like ice, she is like fire, and the two who were originally inappropriate became friends. At that time, my parents were often away from home, so I always went to her house, her parents were always at home and always cooked a big table of delicious meals, and I liked to go to her house because I liked the feeling of her mother being at home.

My relationship with Li Li is also getting better and better, sometimes I even spend the night at her house, I will like to have other people sleeping in the house besides me.

I had a physical ailment, I still peed my pants uncontrollably when I was 6 years old, and I remember that night, Li Li and I were lying in bed, and we were talking super quietly, like there were other people in this room besides us who thought we were talking and we didn't want anyone else to know about our conversation.

The second our bed got wet, the moon hung in the sky outside the window, and it saw it, and I was so ashamed that tears fell from my eyes.

At this time, Li Li hugged me, "Xiaoyan, don't be afraid, I won't tell anyone, it's a secret between us." ”

She pulled me out of bed, found me a new pair of her pajama pants to change into, brought me new sheets to change into, and then pulled me back into bed.

She hugged me gently, I felt her light breathing, I felt the warmth of her body, she was really nice, I don't know why I wanted to cry.

"I know you're sick, but it's not your fault, it'll be fine." She closed her eyes and whispered in my ear. My tears slid down my face, and she gently wiped them away with her hand.

"It's not my fault, why are my parents separated because of me?" I looked at her eyelashes, and I was going to tell her something I couldn't understand.

"Are your parents separated? Why? She opened her eyes and looked at me.

"They used to argue because of my illness, and they didn't want me to know that they were arguing anymore, and then they never came home. They said they were busy and asked my uncle to come and accompany me. I stepped over her tiny shoulders and looked out the window at the moon.

"My aunt told me that they were divorced a long time ago, but she didn't want me to know, and my aunt said they loved me, but they loved themselves more." That night, the moon was crooked.

"Maybe your aunt lied to you." Li Li brushed my hair back to my head.

"My aunt won't lie to me, she's dead." I moved my gaze back to Li Li's eyelashes, which were long and curved.

"They love you, they just don't want you to be sad and don't tell you." Li Li's voice was very small, but I heard it very clearly.

They love me, I believe they love me, they just don't love each other anymore. But the reason why they don't love each other is because of me, which makes me feel inferior the most.

My tears were still flowing uncontrollably, Li Li gently wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, and she said, "You can treat her as family, and her and my parents as your parents." ”

"If you cry again, I'll let you die." She pouted her little mouth, I don't know why she wanted to say it, it was a secret between us.

"It's an expression of how much we love each other," she told me. If you don't listen to me, or if I don't listen to you, say, 'I'll let you die.'" ’”

From that night onwards, time passed like this, and our relationship got better and better, and I couldn't even stand the days when she wasn't with me, and she couldn't stand the days when I wasn't with her.

Sometimes, she would always do something wrong, and I would say, "If you don't obey, I'll let you die." "She'll be obedient soon.

When did our relationship start to change? I think it was also one night, at that time, we were already in junior high school, we were in her room, Li Li's parents were arguing outside, at that time, we already knew a lot of things, especially sensitive.

I knew from the words of her parents' quarrel that her mother had cheated, that her mother could no longer stand her current life, that she was leaving, that she was in love with a rich businessman, that her father was begging her mother to stay, and that her mother was slamming the door.

Li Li sat on the bed expressionlessly, she looked at me and looked at her, so she said, "Actually, I already knew. ”

"If you tell me you don't know, I won't believe it at all, you know who the rich businessman she said is, right?" Her eyes were cold, I've never seen them before.

"I don't know." I'm not lying, I don't know at all who the rich businessman who fell in love with her mother is?

"Don't you know? Come to think of it, how could your mother let you know, she didn't even dare to let you know the news of the divorce. Tears fell from her eyes.

"But why did you do this to me, why did you destroy my family, your mother said righteously, 'If you don't love you, you can leave.'" She herself thinks that why she is stirring up the relationship between my parents, how much I hate your mother, how much I hate you now. She spoke louder and louder.

"Don't pretend to be innocent and pitiful, I'm more pitiful than you now, I'm the child who lacks love." She suddenly jumped out of bed and yelled at me.

When the words fell, she opened the door and walked out, helped her father, who was sitting on the floor, to his feet, and then walked back to me and asked me to leave. I looked at the items scattered all over the place, this 30-square-meter warm small living room has changed, the person I used to like has changed, and the life I like is a rotten life in Li Li's mother's mouth.

From that day on, she and her father left Tongcheng, and it wasn't until I was in high school that I met her again in my high school class, but she had completely changed, completely changed as a person.