It was really a false alarm just now, Zhu Yanman was scared enough, Jiang Xiufan is a keen and intuitive person, as long as she is wrong, he can immediately detect it.

"I'm scared to death, I was almost found out by Jiang Xiufan just now." Zhu Yanman patted his chest.

Deng Jinxi's expression was a little strange, and she looked at Zhu Yanman without saying anything.

Zhu Yanman noticed her eyes, "What's wrong?" ”

Deng Jinxi smiled helplessly, "You just said that the child's affairs are the most important, what does he mean by knowing?" She still couldn't help but ask about Jiang Xiufan.

Zhu Yanman let out a long sigh, is it too long, so long that Deng Jinxi even forgot that he left a child with Jiang Xiufan.

"After losing you, Jiang Xiufan lived a very hard life alone." Zhu Yanman didn't know what happened to Deng Jinxi and him, but he felt that there might be some misunderstanding between the two, and wanted to tell her everything, maybe he could help them solve the misunderstanding.

Although Deng Jinxi usually pretended not to care, Zhu Yanman could still see that she still cared about Jiang Xiufan in her heart, otherwise she would not ask her like this.

Zhu Yanman asked tentatively: "What's wrong with you?" Deng Jinxi didn't answer, put down the dishes and chopsticks in her hand, and smiled awkwardly, she didn't know how to speak.

Zhu Yanman is not a fool, so he naturally knew that he might have asked something he shouldn't have asked, so he didn't ask any more.

"You know what? When everyone thought you were dead, Jiang Xiufan was always by your side, and that was the first time I saw the loneliness in him since I met him. Zhu Yanman said seriously, "I used to feel that this man didn't seem to have any emotions, I felt that he was very powerful and invincible, and when you were lying in the ice coffin, his eyes were full of sadness." ”

Hearing this, Deng Jinxi felt a little complicated, "He... How are you doing? She thought so in her heart, but she didn't expect to say it unconsciously.

"Not good." Zhu Yanman seemed to be talking about a big event, and his face and tone were rare and serious.

Deng Jinxi frowned lightly, didn't speak, and waited for Zhu Yanman to continue.

"In order to take care of your children, he went to a tutoring institution, which is the kind of tutoring that specializes in teaching people to take care of children, learning how to put children to sleep, how to choose milk powder and diapers for children, when to give children what to eat... He was the only man in the class. She said, as if she was a little distressed, it was indeed the case, she watched Jiang Xiufan change from a business elite to a dad over the years, and she couldn't help but feel sad.

Deng Jinxi was silent, a trace of bitterness appeared in her heart, she couldn't imagine Jiang Xiufan's appearance.

"When the child was young, he didn't worry about taking care of others, and he did it himself every day, and when the child was older and didn't need him to be by his side every day, he began to work day and night, and the whole person changed." Dancing Chinese

Zhu Yanman sighed as he spoke, "Every year on your death day, he will go to Shangxiang to visit, and then sit in front of the tombstone for a whole day. You may not know, at that time, your parents knew about your death and went to Jiang's house to make a big fuss, Jiang Xiufan felt guilty in his heart, he was such a proud person, and he knelt down directly to his uncle and aunt in front of so many people to blame himself for not protecting you. ”

Hearing this, Deng Jinxi's eyes filled with tears, "How come?" She whispered.

"When my uncle and aunt left Jiang's house, they said that they would never see him again, and wanted to take away your things before their death, Jiang Xiufan almost turned red, even if he tore his face, he would never let them take your things. In the past few years, his uncle and aunt have never forgiven him, but every time he celebrates the New Year, he still brings a lot of things to visit them, even if he is locked out every time, but he still insists on going. Sometimes he stood at the door all day, and then silently put his things at the door and went back, and the things he sent were thrown into the trash by him, but he was not angry, and he still went, rain or shine. The more Zhu Yanman spoke, the more sad he became.

Deng Jinxi felt uncomfortable in her heart, and her brows kept furrowing, as if something was blocked in her throat, and she couldn't say a word.

"Jinxi, let's not talk about anything else, but do you feel guilty about that child in your country? He was left behind by you as soon as he was born, and you are doing well now, and you have a new child, but occasionally you dream back at midnight, don't you think about him, thinking about the child who has never seen his mother. Zhu Yanman didn't blame her, she just felt sorry for Jiang Xiufan and the child, and felt that she was a little ruthless, no matter what, the child was innocent.

She witnessed a series of changes in Jiang Xiufan after Deng Jinxi's fake death, when Deng Jinxi was there before, although Jiang Xiufan rarely smiled, she could vaguely feel the gentle side of this man, he was not as cold as he appeared, but since Deng Jinxi left, Jiang Xiufan always had a sense of loneliness, and became like a stubborn stone, like a hedgehog, no one dared to approach.

Deng Jinxi's heart was moved, and his head went blank in an instant, and he was overwhelmed by Zhu Yanman's words.

Guilty? She didn't know.

Only occasionally when she sees someone holding her child on the street, she thinks of him; Occasionally seeing Ran Ran smiling so happily, she would wonder if he was having a good time...

The atmosphere was a little dignified, Deng Jinxi was in a bad mood, and Zhu Yanman didn't have the heart to stay any longer, "Jinxi, it's not too early, I'll go back first, don't think too much." Zhu Yanman also realized that his words might hurt Deng Jinxi.

"It's okay, I know, you stay safe." Afraid that Zhu Yanman would be worried, Deng Jinxi reluctantly squeezed out a smile.

Zhu Yanman patted Ran Ran's head, "Auntie will come to see you tomorrow, you have to listen to your mother." After saying that, he left Deng Jinxi's house.

Sent to Zhu Yanman, Deng Jinxi's mood was at the bottom, Zhu Yanman's every word was beating in her ear, and she felt her heart hurt.

Afraid that her emotions would affect Ran Ran, she put her to sleep very early.

Lying quietly on the bed, those memories of the past appeared in front of her one by one, Jiang Xiufan is such a noble and cold person, she is willing to endure the insults and scolding of her parents for her, when Zhu Yanman said, she even couldn't believe it, is that still the Jiang Xiufan she knows?

She once also looked forward to the days when the two of them would grow old together, and she remembered that he was the most troublesome and afraid of dirty, so it was even more difficult to imagine the scene when he was alone with the child to change his diapers every day.

She began to doubt herself, only to realize that she was so selfish and had never considered Jiang Xiufan. She left the land of right and wrong, but left him a child to take care of, and it was her responsibility to leave him alone.