I whimpered like a she-wolf who had lost her cubs, while Zhang Ruolei quietly hugged me and didn't say anything. The sky darkened little by little, and the sun received its last rays of light, sinking into the horizon without nostalgia.

Except for my grief, the room was dead silent. The city has not entered the darkness, and the people's hearts have not entered the shallows of the city, and the people's hearts have become shallower than the shallows.

Only Zhang Ruolei and I are close to each other, no one is left, there is no credibility, there is nothing to rely on. I can even take time out in a moment of grief to blame the resentful Huai Ping--- why did you leave me? If you're not so willful, why are you where you are today?

However, all the blame is like an old fist pounding on cotton in the end, and it doesn't make any sense.

The computer screen on the desk had gone black from a long period of inactivity, and the darkness and time were enough to freeze my emotions, and I gradually stumbled out of that terrible feeling. There are no lights on, and the outdoor light and shadows are more than enough to enter the interior, and everything is blurred.

My tear-soaked hair was cold and sticky to the side of my face, and it was a little hard to touch. I walked lightly to the computer, clicked on the computer screen, and the mail was still lying alone in my mailbox. I resisted the excitement and urge to read it again. This time, I seemed to see a little detail, the room was not big, but it was not small, it was well-equipped, and it seemed to be worth a lot of money.

Zhang Ruolei turned on the light, and the energy-saving lamp made a sizzling ballast above our heads. He walked behind me gently, I looked at the computer, my eyes were glued to it like a fly, my expression was focused, I didn't look back, and called Zhang Ruolei lightly.

"Ray, you see, doesn't look like being imprisoned." I finger the picture.

Zhang Ruolei pulled over a chair, the wheels of the chair rubbed against the floor and made a squeaky sound, he pulled another one, and the two of us sat in front of the computer, our heads almost touching our heads.

"You see," I said. "He looked calm and calm, without a trace of trepidation and fear, could he have intended to report peace to me?"

Zhang Ruolei stretched out his hand to hug me, and there was emotion in his tone.

"You're finally back."

His vocal cords tightened. I'm always a bad guy, and I'm ashamed of all the performances I just had. Zhang Ruolei saw that I was ashamed, and hugged my shoulder tightly.

"Fool, I understand. If I were you, I would lose my mind if something happened to you one day. ”

I couldn't help choking, after so many years, I was fortunate that he never left me. Who else do I have? When people reach middle age, they find that life is just a person's journey, and when we are young, we can't wait to enter marriage, because we have too high expectations for it, and we all think that with marriage and life, it is like a double insurance, even if it is not foolproof, at least someone shares the risk and advances and retreats together. But most people walk into marriage and suddenly discover the truth of marriage: lacklustre. We thought that marriage could help us fight loneliness, loneliness, danger...... But who knows, sometimes loneliness, loneliness, and danger often come from marriage.

I downloaded the video, opened it over and over again, and Zhang Ruolei and I couldn't take a look at it

Look closely.

"Ruolei, you say, what should we do now?"

He was silent.

"As you said, you really shouldn't have called the police. For first, he did not warn inside; Second, on the surface, it does not look like being coerced at all; Third, even if there is really danger, if the enemy is dark and we are clear, if we call the police, I am afraid that it will be unfavorable to him. ”

Zhang Ruolei pulled me over the shoulder and touched my forehead with his forehead.

"If you know, it's good."

He burst into tears.

"Do you know, I'm most afraid of seeing you hurt others and yourself in anger, but I can't do anything about it. At that time, I felt like I was nothing, so incompetent. There is a particular sense of frustration. ”

"I'm sorry."

I have a deep nasal voice, and I can't express my apologies just in case. I am too willful to him, too true to him, in front of him, only in front of him, I can be the most true self wholeheartedly.

I thank him. I hugged him, tears falling silently, soaking through his clothes, his two big hands in my hair, I felt his strength and strength, and the tenderness wrapped in the night.

Think long way. It was our final agreement.

That night, the sky was cloudy, there are few sunny days in the northern winter now, even if it is sunny, it will be ravaged by the haze, a branch or thick or thin chimney emitting billowing smoke, straight into the clouds, covering the sky and the sun, sometimes the air is pungent, people can't bear to walk through it, I am really afraid that after a long time, I will be poisoned and die.

At the dinner table, neither of them had a good appetite, and I could see that he and I were both forced to laugh and laugh, and we were forced to stuff more things into our mouths and stomachs, just to support this early broken heart and body, and we could walk in the world tomorrow with all beards and shadows, and we could still have the spirit and strength to fight and fight. Of course, they also want each other to be at ease with each other, and don't want each other to worry too much about themselves.

It is difficult for people to live in all aspects, and it is easy to indulge in willfulness.

To mature is to finally learn to control your emotions and feelings.

The two of them went upstairs arm-in-arm, during which they talked about some gossip and said a few words, and both of them felt happy.

"I know you're not happy, so you don't have to hold on. In front of me, you can be yourself. ”

The older I get, the shallower my tears become, and this sentence taught me to cry.

He sighed and muttered to himself.

"There are so many fulfillments in life, and nine times out of ten, they are unsatisfactory."

I cried and protested to him.

"What about one, two? I didn't see it either. ”

"Am I not?"

He reached out and pressed the elevator.

I burst into tears and laughed, unable to find the words to refute it. When I entered the house, my mind was still full of Huaiping, and his room still retained the appearance of when he left. Life is ridiculous, and I have always hoped that he will come back, or be frustrated, surrender to me, and live the way I like from now on. Or become famous, suddenly grow up, and finally stand alone.

I've thought about it countless times, he's coming back and going back to school, it's not too late, I'm not going to be too late. On the contrary, he will feel that it is precisely because of such a life episode that he is more likely to cherish and cherish, and he will have more targeted efforts.

He went back to school, which may not be Huaiping's dream of life, but I may never be one

The wish of being fulfilled. I touched my fingers to his desk, and I remembered many times in the past, he sat like a poplar with his waist straight, and always finished his homework before doing anything else when he got home. He never cared if I wanted anything or anything, and he never clamored to watch one more episode of a cartoon. When I was sick, he brought me tea and poured water, and sometimes his hands were scalded by hot water, and he used the faucet to rush and hide his little hands behind his back, just for fear that I would feel distressed when I saw it, or that I would be hysterical.

"Huaiping!"

Some relatives have no fate. is destined to be a mother and son, and they always stay together. There are many regrets in life, and there is helplessness in life.

Zhang Ruolei didn't bother me at such a time, he allowed me to sink into memories, into dreams, and completely into my own world. He is not the spectator or visitor of my life, he is there to watch, and when I turn around and stretch out my hand, his big warm and powerful hand will give me the most solid response.

People must know how to cherish the present.

I was desolate, with endless sadness and loneliness in my eyes, and when I walked out of the door, I saw that he had already served a white fine enamel bowl, which was red dates and gouqi soup.

"Codonopsis has been added."

He said.

"Codonopsis is not so easy to get angry, but not so much prince ginseng."

He said. "I originally wanted to stew a chicken for you, you like to drink chicken soup with some cordyceps in it, but it's too long, forget it, it's the weekend, I'll stew it for you on the weekend."

I took the bowl, and the heat floated on the surface of the bowl, and my eyes were clouded. I really don't know what he likes about me? He gave me too much, I received too much because of him, and against him, I gave him too little and gave him too little.

"You drink too."

"Red dates. I don't drink anything for a woman to drink. ”

I smiled at him and walked to the table with the bowl, and the two of us sat at the table. Zhang Ruolei put one hand on the back of my hand, and rubbed it carefully and timelessly.

"Meizi, don't worry, Huaiping is not by your side, I will be more concerned about you. I'm not going to let you be wronged in the slightest. Don't be ......."

He carefully deliberated on his words, and finally did not find a safe adjective to express his heart.

I know what he's going to say, and I'll take care of you without my son around.

I gave him a "I understand" look in return.

Brown sugar was added to the soup, and I felt a sense in my heart, these few days just happened to be after the cycle, and he was a man who ironed his lungs intimately.

There are gains and losses in life, and they are all gains, I'm afraid God won't allow it.

"Don't worry about Huaiping."

He shook my hand.

"I'll follow up and let you know as soon as there's news."

I looked up and gave him a grateful glance.

"As long as he lives, you and I have seen him, the room he stayed in is not bad, it seems that he has not been wronged outside, don't worry too much."

I nodded, knowing that this was the only way to do it for the time being.

I don't want Xiao Han to suddenly ask about Huaiping the next day. I didn't tell her the truth, I responded lightly, only said that he went out to work, and the current children are not easy to manage, and he always wants to make a career on his own.

I also added, saying that Zhang Ruolei and Huaiping get along well, and I have nothing to worry about.

Xiao Han was silent, it was true, I thought I had seen him, I seemed to see a boy in this city a few days ago, and his back looked quite like Huaiping.

I didn't care about my inconsistencies, and I grabbed her wrist in a gaffe.

"Where did you meet him?"

Xiao Han was taken aback by me, and his eyes were full of inexplicability. We realized how out of control we were. Sit back.

With Xiao Han's ice and snow cleverness, it is estimated that she can see the clue, but she is still pretending there.

"I must have lost my eyes, am I getting older? You said. We're all getting older day by day. You'll have to count on the children in the future. ”

"Your son is quite old, isn't he?"

I said coldly. Only then did I see that Xiao Han's face changed, and the two sides were silent for a long time, and I pulled back the words again.

"You said you saw someone who looked like Huaiping? I'm afraid that this child is short-faced and thin-skinned, and he doesn't understand it outside, and he is embarrassed to go home. Where did you meet him? ”

(End of chapter)