But now I really don't feel like I have the strength to love anyone else. It takes too much energy to love someone.

When I went back to school, most of my classmates were young people in their twenties, they were very energetic, their expressions were as rich as their feelings, and their attitudes towards love were slightly different from ours. Most foreigners have a correct and not ignorant view of love. They pay more attention to each other's hearts and souls and their own fit, and there are not so many entanglements in separation and integration, and few people like middle-aged uncles and talk about year-old love.

Separation and reunion do not have much added value and meaning for them, and they will be sad to break up, but they do not like to go to extremes.

On the contrary, many little girls in China like to be older than themselves, looking forward to marrying each other, and want a name. Uncles often drag on, and the little girls force them tightly, and the uncles often don't hesitate to break up.

When I was young, I thought that such an uncle was very cheating people, but now I don't think so, when people reach a certain age, they will really look down on many things, love will really not become all of the parties involved, they look down and see through the troubles caused by those hormones, they will no longer fall in love with anyone very hard.

In fact, this is not ruthless, but it is better to understand the world, and one day, you may be like this.

Those who can walk around the court must have had thunder in their chests. Thousands of mountains and rivers have passed, and the mountains and rivers are all idle scenery, and nothing can make you linger or breathtaking.

The world seen is different, the world in each other's eyes is different, and people from the two worlds, no matter how accommodating they are to each other, they can't get to the same heart.

People abroad look more free and easy, which has nothing to do with their education, social environment, and things that have survived in their bones since they were young.

Some people say to see the world, what is to see the world? Looking at different cultures, customs, different people and things, and different concepts, you can also see it on landscape TV.

Weekends are family days, and everyone rarely works and spends time with their families. Me, Haiping, Elaine, we formed a temporary little family, on the weekends we would go out on an outing or go to the neighbor's house to sit down, bring Elaine's own baked cake or turkey, and the neighbor would contribute their own meal, drink beer together, sing songs, and play some small games. I also learned a few of Elaine's specialty dishes, and sometimes I went to the kitchen to try my hand at it, but my talent was limited, so I was often disliked by Elaine and Haiping. I said they weren't interesting enough, did you know? To compliment, the least politeness.

Elaine laughed and said that our politeness is to tell you the truth.

Do you want to hear and see something real?

I want to.

Really, things are becoming more and more scarce in the world.

Haiping was more sincere, saying that I didn't want to abuse my stomach like this. My stomach is not easy, I don't see the light of day all my life, I don't need to be paid to deliver nutrients to me, I don't treat it better, it's not as good as a beast.

I think Haiping has a point.

Every evening, after dinner, we sat on rocking chairs in the courtyard to watch the sunset, sometimes talking about school, sometimes discussing life, sometimes also involving current affairs and politics

I wasn't very interested in my private life, and he never asked me any personal questions.

Later, I thought, I'm so old, people naturally don't have much interest in my private life. Maybe I have a beautiful soul, and the world is the only one that attracts me or can last forever. Otherwise, you see why those famous books can go back to life for a long time, and they have been handed down because of thoughts.

I asked him about his family, and he said he had a mother, a stepfather, and two half-brothers. But not living together, he came out on his own very early, he has done everything for so many years, his mother insists on letting him study, the two often quarrel because of reading, and his stepfather is relatively tolerant of him and rarely forces him to do things he doesn't like.

Haiping himself thinks that life is a long journey, and he is very grateful to his stepfather, and he has been wandering the world alone for ten years, doing whatever he wants, and all the thunder is carried by his stepfather for him. Of course, he endured a lot of hardships, and finally understood that people have to have a home, and as he grew older, he finally understood the difference between arming himself with knowledge and a white Ding entering the accounting association, so he decided to return to the campus to study, and his stepfather spent a lot of money to help him hire a tutor, and later he was admitted here, so he came here to study.

"What about your biological father?" I asked him.

"I had an accident and died." He was calm.

"Actually, I have a son who is about your age. How old are you? ”

“27.”

"27 Actually, it's not small, you used to be really willful, and having such a stepfather is your creation. I'm actually not an enlightened mother, it's okay in the past few years, and there was a time when I had a particularly bad personal mentality, you just said your mother. Forcing you to study, I did that kind of thing, and now you young generation call this? Emotional kidnapping, really, I was really emotional kidnapping to him at that time, if you don't read it, it's better to die. I lowered my head, not without sadness.

"I really regret it now that I think about it, but it's too late."

"What's wrong with him?" Zhang Haiping asked.

I looked at him, and decided to talk about it.

"Later, the pressure was too great, he ran to take drugs, became addicted, couldn't quit, and also sent him to the drug rehabilitation center, thinking that he had recovered, but I didn't expect it to be all fake, he didn't dare to tell me the truth since I was a child, because I would be in pain, and I would be hysterical, he didn't like me like that, he was too young at that time to digest the emotions I imposed on him, and then a person died outside, I guess he didn't forgive me until he died, I was his biological mother, however, I gave him too little."

"What about his father? Leave him alone? Zhang Haiping asked.

"I can't say that I don't care, I'm young, at that time, my father and I didn't know how to love our children, and his father also divorced me, and I will take the children, so what he can do is limited, and because he remarried before me, he may not be able to take care of him."

Zhang Haiping smiled, put his two hands on the wooden fence, the sun plated his whole person with a layer of gold, nature gave the best light, this is a picture of close to perfect people and dusk.

It's a pity I'm not a photographer

Shadow enthusiasts.

"He won't blame you." Zhang Haiping seemed to be talking to me, and it was like talking to himself.

"I hope so."

Elaine's music wafted out of the room, and the wind blew my and Zhang Haiping's hair.

"Let's eat cake."

Ai Lian called us, and Zhang Haiping and I turned around in unison, and saw Ai Lian's huge body blocking the door, almost blocking the entire gate. She wears a snow-white apron. I could see her smile, kind and warm.

"Oh my God, I've had a lot of food at night." Zhang Haiping whispered to me, and I glanced at him, smiling on my face, squeezing out the same words from between my teeth.

"Who's to say it isn't! If I continue to eat like this, I don't know if I can succeed in my studies, but it is true that I will become a big fat man when I return to China. ”

I sketched a picture in my mind as I walked towards the door, imagining what Chen Nian and Mason would do if they met a mother like Elaine, and what would happen to Ah Dong when he saw me like that? What about Zhang Ruolei?

However, Elaine's cake can't help but be popular, firstly, Elaine's cake making skills are really amazing, it is really delicious, and secondly, it is also difficult to resist.

"Honey, can you stop doing this?" I reached out and took a small piece of cake from the tray. "If you do this again, I will definitely be fed a big fat man by you. I think we're going to have three chapters of the law, and we're only allowed to bake cakes once a week, oh no, once a month. Elaine didn't speak, just smiled and watched as we devoured the cake one bite at a time, with a satisfied expression on her face.

At the end of the first semester, Zhang Haiping and I made an appointment to return to China together, and then we talked about each other's hometowns, how small you say the world is, it turns out that we are from the same place, so I bought a ticket for the same flight, and with him by my side, I saved a lot of things by doing everything I could.

In short, he was a good classmate and a good companion.

When I got off the plane and went out of the gate, Mason ran towards me, I haven't seen him for half a year, he has grown taller again, Wan Huan is also here, of course Chen Nian is also here, Adong is also here, Adong and Chen Nian's performance is naturally much more restrained.

Especially Ah Dong, made fun of me, saying that he really wanted to pull up a banner at the airport: welcome Ms. Meizi to return from a certain country.

I didn't see Zhang Ruolei coming.

It is also normal that the best start of a relationship is for two people to pick up the relationship at the same time, and the best end is for two people to let go at the same time.

Although we are not at the same time, the general direction is also considered to be the same frequency.

Knife face also came to pick up my machine, she is getting older and less productive, crying when she sees me, no matter how you persuade her, she can't persuade her.

"Come, come, I'll introduce you." I said, "This is Zhang Haiping, my classmate, roommate and friend in a certain country. Come, Haiping, let me introduce you, this is ......"

I wanted to send Haiping, anyway, the driver came with one, but he insisted on refusing, so the two of them left each other's addresses, and I asked him to come to the door three days later, and we got to know each other in detail and had a light meal together.

Haiping gladly agreed.

Three days later, he did as promised, and brought a souvenir, and was in such a hurry at the airport

He remembered all of us very clearly, each of us had different gifts, and he really did what he liked. I think Haiping's father must be a high-ranking man who educated his son so politely and thoroughly.

And Haiping likes children very much, he played very well with Chen Nian, Mason, and Wan Huan, and Zhang Ruolei did not appear as usual.

To be honest, I'm not without a little loss, and I talked about this after chatting with Wan Qian after the meal.

"He's just a little instrument, he can be friends even if he is divorced, why doesn't he show up on such an important occasion?"

Wan Qian scolded me directly, saying that if you want someone, just say it, call someone, and say that the little slave is in the deep boudoir, empty and lonely.

I ate and laughed and made a gesture to hit Wan Qian, but Wan Qian smiled and dodged. I said that I am much older than you, but you, it is a good time, energetic, I really can't find a little fresh meat by myself, don't carry it.

The two of them laughed together, and Mason ran over and asked us, "Mom, what are you talking about so happy?"

Wan Qian and I looked at each other and smiled, telling a lie.

Wan Qian asked me, Xiao Xianrou, I have a bad mouth, so I'll be exempted. But some people have good teeth, such as someone, who is a classmate and a cohabiting friend, and the relationship should not be simple.

"Well, it's not simple, it's not describable."

The two of us were playing haha.

It was very late at the end of the day, I was in my own home, the layout of three rooms, Chen Nian and Mason did not leave, stayed with me, and when Zhang Haiping came to say goodbye to me, I said a word: Otherwise, you don't leave tonight, anyway, there is a free room, the two of them sleep in one room, and you sleep in one room by yourself.

To be honest, I was just polite, but I didn't expect Zhang Haiping to think hardly: "Okay!" ”

(End of chapter)