"What did you say?" I asked. "Be louder, I didn't hear it."

Gao Tiancheng lowered his head and was silent, "If you let you go, you will go, and you will not hear anything else." ”

I don't speak.

"What the hell are you ------," he asked. I don't know what he was trying to ask.

"What the hell?"

Gao Tiancheng turned around, "What." Why the hell are you with me? ”

In the end, he was slurred by the rest of the sentence, and this time I really didn't understand it.

"What do you say," I leaned my ear over to try to hear more clearly, but he turned around like a girl.

"It's ---- you to the end...... Because of what? Is it because of Mason, what else are you doing....... Think about that who doesn't? ”

That's when I realized what he was really asking.

"Who?" I asked.

"You know who I'm talking about." He looked up and looked at the room's neatly folded diagonal.

"I don't know."

Gao Tiancheng threw down the cigarette butt in his hand, turned around, and faced me in the face.

"Meizi, if Zhang Ruolei is awake now, and he takes you away, will you go with him or stay with me? If Ah Dong takes you away, will you go with him or stay with me? ”

"No, no, no." He went on to deny all his questions: "I don't really need answers. Perhaps, you should go? He lifted his brown eyes and looked at me eagerly, but tried to hide, and for a moment, I tried to understand something.

I lowered my head and looked up at his face from the bottom up, looking for his eyes, wanting to know more.

"Gao Tiancheng." I call him by his full name.

He let go of my hand and pulled another pack of cigarettes out of his bag. What made him so unconfident? Or was it ---- he was never really confident? Everyone may not be sure, we all live in uncertainty, but in our bones we all want to get a seemingly standard answer, we all want a perfect and definite answer. But life is a process of exploration, and there is never a right answer.

About the answer sheet of life, every minute and every second, everyone is giving the answer all the time, but who can really get 100 points?

It's quiet outside, and Ah Dong may be gone. Can he really let Ah Dong go? Or the question he asked me, if Zhang Ruolei is sober now, if we can still turn back, if Adong asks me to go with him, what choice will I make?

Please forgive a woman's greed, it turns out that I want everything.

Knowing this answer, I suddenly had an inexplicable relief for Huaihai back then. I always feel that Huaihai scum, in fact, in the face of so many choices, or in the face of better choices, there is no one who is not greedy. The Buddha said, greed, hatred, ignorance, and suspicion are the root of human inferiority, and greed bears the brunt, who does not have greed in their hearts, how much joy has this beast swallowed? ! No one is clean, like Cao Gong wrote the Red Mansion, no one is clean.

Pure love, how good! But who can guarantee that they and each other are pure love?

And, is there a real purity?

I went home with Gao Tiancheng, but he changed

has to be silent, the one who pays more in love will have a lot of uncertainty, it turns out that between him and me, he is the one who pays more. I know that for a day there will be no answer, and his heart will not be at peace for a day. I also know that even if I give him the affirmative answer he wants now, he will be skeptical.

Suspicion is the knife given to him by human beings themselves.

Adong did not go. Gao Tiancheng asked him to live back, but he insisted on not allowing it, it is said that the brothers drank a meal, and they both drank too much, and the words were opened, and they disappeared like this.

One day, the lawyer came to me alone. I thought there was something new on Zhang Ruolei's side, but I didn't expect him to say no, he said that Zhang Ruolei wanted to see me and let me arrange it.

"The case was not adjudicated, according to the rules, I can't see people in the detention center."

The lawyer nodded. "I told Zhang Ruolei the same thing," the lawyer muttered, "but he insisted, saying that he would regret not seeing him." He added------ "The lawyer's eyes were full of uncertainty," adding that if you don't see him, you'll never see Mr. Zhang. ”

"How?" I was a little surprised, "He's going to kill himself?" ”

The lawyer shook his head, "No. The original thing he told me was that he said that he was not Zhang Ruolei. ”

"Not Zhang Ruolei?" I stood up suddenly. "Is he crazy?"

When the lawyer saw me stand up, he also stood up.

"But Mr. Mei, I have reservations about this. You know how advanced technology is now, and ---- do you remember the last time the hospital wanted to do a full body examination for him, he did not hesitate to sneak up on the nurse. I always felt that there was an article in this. ”

I sat down, my body sinking into the sofa, the soft skin wrapped around a part of my body, but cold sweat was dripping down my forehead.

"And," the lawyer sat next to me, "he instructed me to speak to you alone, saying that if anyone else knew, Zhang Ruolei would never have escaped from Ascension." ”

I looked back at the lawyer, speechless, not knowing how to react.

"Lawyer Chen, let me think about it." I waved my hand tiredly. Lawyer Chen nodded, walked out of the room quickly with his bag, and happened to meet Wan Qian, who saw that my face was wrong, and asked me, "What's wrong?" Zhang Ruolei had another accident inside? ”

I opened my mouth, but suddenly remembered my lawyer's instructions, and I swallowed a breath of air silently.

"It's fine."

Wan Qian glanced at me suspiciously, "I don't believe it either?" ”

I shook my head.

"It's not!"

"What not?" She sneered.

"That's right," I looked up, "Wan Qian, Xiao Han, she...... Where did you put her? ”

Wan Qian was drinking water, and almost choked on a mouthful of water.

"Xiao Han?" Wan Qian stroked her chest and calmed down.

"What a joke! She disappeared into thin air, what does it have to do with me? What's more, I don't have that much ability, I don't have the ability to make her disappear out of thin air. ”

"I'm hiding it too?" I asked.

"What are you doing? Don't say I really didn't do it, I really did it, can you know? Something really happened, will you go in the future? ”

Wan Qian!

That's when I found out that she didn't

Let me know that she wants to choose me out, there is always one in a thousand miles in life, and she thinks that one will be kept for herself.

I stood up and walked over to her.

"Wan Qian!" I whispered her name. Wan Qian turned sideways to avoid me, "What are you doing?" Don't come with me to the meat and hemp thing. I'm not great, I still remember my own hatred, Wan Huan. I will never forgive her for the rest of my life, and I will not be able to resolve my hatred with a thousand cuts. ”

I had been too empty all day, Gao Tiancheng looked at me several times, I said that I was going to come to my aunt, I was not feeling well, he called and told the maid to help me make soup.

The years are tranquil, the sun is sunny and the wind is white outside, looking down from dozens of floors, people are like ants, but each of them has the world in their hearts, and their hearts are either chaotic and tangled or have grand plans. People always live and forget that they are small and mediocre, and they are actually powerless in front of many people and many things.

Yu fate always wants to block the army with his mantis arm, a common disease of human beings.

We sometimes feel that life owes us too much, but what have we really given to life? What does life owe us? The greatest tragedy of people is to live as a creditor, and to see that everyone is bitter and hateful.

When I got home and ate, Mason seemed to have grown taller again. It's really the nature of father and son, he has a very good relationship with Gao Tiancheng, every night after dinner, the two of them play crazy together, only then Gao Tiancheng looks like a child who has not grown up, he looks at Mason, his nose and eyes are happy, and he has to sleep with him, every time Mason falls asleep, he gently pulls his index finger out of his son's palm, and then leans over to kiss it, sometimes I am a little jealous.

Once I leaned against the door to watch this scene, hugging my shoulders, not without jealousy.

Say, "How?" People say that father and son are about to become enemies.

Gao Tiancheng smiled: What people say is not necessarily right.

He gently pressed Mason's bedside lamp. Tiptoeing out of Mason's room and closing the door. Since we met again after a long absence, he has never mentioned the past to me.

It was night, the night was low, the wind blew through the window, and it swept the lights of the whole city helplessly. I put my head on his arm, which had become a habit, and sometimes I would leave his arm for fear of his soreness, but after a while, he would put my head on his arm again.

"Is there no shortfall?" I asked.

He doesn't speak. In a short time, my breath was quiet, sinking into the night, sinking into my ears, and the world sounded peaceful, as if there was nothing in this world that should displease me.

But I can't sleep anymore, the white wall on the ceiling looks down quietly, the chandelier is silent, silent, does it have its own story? Or, is it only responsible for listening?

I got up and went to the living room, and walked barefoot towards the door, the floor was a little cold, but when my feet fell, the floor was hot, and it was sticky and ambiguous to the skin, so I had to slow down, slower and slower, trying to tear the skin off the floor gently.

Hold the cold room door button in my hand, and then I heard an exclamation next to me, it was Gao Tiancheng's voice, I was stunned at first, and when I looked back and saw him, I sat up straight from the bed, waving my hand in the air. I ran back and realized he was hair

It's a nightmare, the world promises us ordinary people a happy time, and at the same time gives us nightmares.

"Gao Tiancheng." I called his full name and turned on the light.

"Don't turn on the lights!" He held his head. Dig your head into the crook of your arm.

Such a powerful man, I thought that all the wind, frost, rain and snow in this world were not under his words. But like a helpless child, he deliberately adjusted his breath, and he woke up from a nightmare. But he didn't want me to see his embarrassment. I hugged him from behind and felt the coldness behind him, what kind of dream scared him like this!

I hugged him tightly. Suddenly I felt sad.

The same is the end of the world.

Now, has he also fallen?

My God!

At that moment, I suddenly became conscious. I don't know how long he grew into an omnipotent god in my life, and he is actually a totemic being in my life. I just didn't realize it.

Even if you are vicissitudes and broken, you are still my totem.

I hugged him tightly and said, Gao Tiancheng, don't be afraid, there is me.

I said, I love you.

Gao Tiancheng's slightly trembling shoulders froze in my arms, like a sketched still life, dignified and soft, and then, he shook lightly twice, turned his arms, and covered his face with his palms.

He's crying!

But I love his tears.

Gao Tiancheng turned around and hugged me, gasping and tears, and the two big hands hurriedly tore and searched.

"Plums! I thought I'd never see you again in my life. You don't know how much I love you! I've come back no matter how far I've come, I've got to come back, I'm afraid I'll not see Mason, and I'll have no result with you. ”

How so? Oh, how come?

I put my hand around his neck, and there was nothing left between heaven and earth.

Then let me fall in love with this vast piece of nothingness!

Can I make him forget? I don't want to know about his experience. How did he get out after all? Zhang Ruolei, where are you? Who is the one in prison?

I closed my eyes, and the joy of nothingness instantly grabbed me.

(End of chapter)