I thought it was Gao Tiancheng, but no, a strange man, who looks in his twenties, what age? He actually wore a denim jacket, he looks ---- please forgive me, I'm a little face blind now, and I don't feel the facial features of many men and women, but after all, I want to be thankful, but the foreigners didn't say anything, the foreigners are enthusiastic and unrestrained, and what can people do to me an old woman?

I smiled at the boy, who winked mischievously at me.

"Go to the bathroom." He said this seemingly casually, but I didn't say anything.

On the way back, he passed me again and greeted me again. I can't say it, this young man, my face is slightly red, but I haven't moved any girl's heart, but I feel that I am so old, and I have the ability to think crankily, which is quite embarrassing in itself.

Speaking of which, I want to make a joke, it was my first time on a plane, I didn't understand anything, the security check was honestly afraid, I couldn't find anywhere, and I felt inferior when I looked at a flight attendant.

My first business trip with Zhang Ruolei, he took me, I don't want to show timidity, I will do what I see him do, the two of them found a place to sit down, and when the plane took off, he joked with me: Miss, where are you going?

-----Shanghai.

------Where are you going?

------ Guangzhou.

------ this plane will take off after it stops in Guangzhou?

Later, I realized that he laughed at me, I was poor at that time, and people were poor and inferior, but I was not inferior in front of him, and I didn't say anything when I was ridiculed by him.

As soon as I turned around, there was no trace of the young man, I remember reading a report about a rich woman in Hong Kong, what is the name of Britney, so I found a boyfriend who is much younger than myself, otherwise, I will also find one?

This idea itself is really decadent, originally going abroad said that it was a requirement to learn, and there was no need to learn, so I thought about it first, and it was really full of lust / desire.

"What are you laughing at?" The foreigner in the seat next to him once again showed a mouthful of small white teeth.

I smiled and shook my head, "No." ”

In order to avoid unnecessary entertainment, I lay on the seat and pretended to sleep, but I couldn't sleep, to be honest, I really don't have insomnia in recent years, I used to have insomnia, I didn't sleep enough, I thought that insomnia had to follow me for a lifetime, I didn't want to sleep better and better as I got older, I slept at a fixed time every day, and woke up basically at the same point the next morning, and sometimes I could squint for a while at noon, and my living habits were so healthy that I was terrible.

After getting off the plane, I began to figure out how to get to school, and I didn't have any friends here, and I didn't know much about the language, so I started to scratch blind after getting off the plane, and I thought to myself, it was a very awesome thing to come to study abroad and rebuild, but there will always be a distance between the truth and imagination. Standing at the airport, looking at the airport full of people of different colors and races, my heart was very broken.

At this time, a man came from behind and gently patted me on the shoulder, and when I turned around, I saw that it was the foreigner.

“HELLO

.” He said.

I dragged my luggage, "Hi. ”

"Where are you going?"

He asked me.

"Go to a certain university. I'll call a car, I'll still be the name of that university. OK, no problem. There is also an airport and a bus to the city, I feel that I have done a strategy before I came, but as soon as I arrived at the scene, I was immediately blind. ”

"Catch shrimp?" The crooked Chinese people were puzzled, "What shrimp to catch?" Where are the shrimp here? ”

I was about to explain to him, but I found that his eyes were full of urgency, and then I realized that I had fallen for a foreigner. But it's also a wonderful feeling in itself, I used to put myself in a state of entanglement and anxiety, and my whole life was so tense, but now it's much better. I used to feel bitter and hateful, I felt that the world was unfair, I also felt as if the end of the world was in front of my eyes, and I also felt that everyone in the world seemed to be against me......

After so many years, I feel a lot better, and I finally learned to stop taking it to heart, and the years are quiet and exist in everyone's expectations, but remember that not every expectation will not be disappointed.

At the end of the road, people will live harder than others, and they will live more nervously than others. I remember Zhang Ruolei said to me at that time, I really can't remember if we were together at that time. I forgot about any occasion, as if I was talking about the problem of being rich and unkind. Zhang Ruolei said that he himself does not admit that there is anything rich and unkind, and that poor mountains and bad waters sometimes come out of the people, and people are poor and short-minded, and horses are thin and long-haired. Zhang Ruolei said at the time that the poor are sometimes not bad people, but the bad people will be poor nine times out of ten.

I don't understand, Zhang Ruolei further explained to me, saying, this is not prejudice, and this cannot be said to be completely the problem of the poor group, but as long as a person is poor, in fact, he can do anything.

Now there is a word called dimensionality reduction attack, which is the same thing. People do everything for money, any indiscriminate means can be used, and they don't think it's wrong, this is a very terrible social phenomenon, and it can't be eliminated, care if this kind of behavior really becomes a norm, people's living environment is obviously bad, then what will good people face? Either you become worse than the bad guys and completely lose your bottom line and guidelines, or you can only be beaten passively.

Your kindness should be a little sharp, this is the argument that modern people often put forward. But what does it mean to be really sharp? Again, this is a very embarrassing topic. I found that it is not easy for people to walk the rivers and lakes of life, especially those who are kind and have a little bottom line, and most of the time they are really in a dilemma when facing this world.

If you want to be sharp, someone will definitely say that you are calculating.

If you want to hide your edge, there will definitely be people who will take advantage of the situation and use you as a soft persimmon to pinch you, and you will not be drafted if they hurt you.

When you are hurt, someone will definitely jump out and let you bear with it, but a knife on the head of the word forbearance, sometimes it is really unbearable, not to mention that sometimes the situation is unbearable. What's more, sometimes our tolerance only fuels the meanness and tyranny of others.

In fact, what does human nature say? Sometimes, yes

I can tend to be a little more evil. For example, bullying, such as cupping, human beings have to encounter many such things from childhood to adulthood, when a person is boycotted, other people will join in even if they have no conflict of interest with him, people's hearts are ugly and ugly.

In 2019, I saw a report that there was a well-known performance artist abroad, a woman, who was doing some kind of street performance art on the street, and signed a statement that no matter what harm was suffered, the other party would not be held responsible.

At first people just watched, then they tried to get closer, then they occasionally touched her, they touched her, then they started trying to make a small cut in her skin with a knife, and then people got worse and worse until the performance artist stopped doing it.

I want to say that the human heart can sometimes be evil without a bottom line. The weak are sometimes not used to be sympathized, they are used to bully, when you lower your bottom line, it means that more people can hurt you with less risk, more often, and without any fear.

So people really have a bottom line.

In the past, people said that there should be a bottom line, and people said that they couldn't easily lower their bottom line, and I never understood why. Now I finally understand that the bottom line may be the last layer of armor on a person, take it off, you are naked, and you are slaughtered.

I think of divorcing Huaihai, I re-entered the workplace, sometimes I thought that I was wronged, I could really ask for benevolence, and then I also learned to use various means, at the beginning those means will be very happy after they succeed, until later numbness. Why? Life is short, and we stupid humans have to hurt each other for some petty gains, and enclose each other in prison.

Where will the past and the present be, and a pile of grass in the barren land is gone.

The Great Wall is still there, who saw Qin Shi Huang at the beginning?

However, for the sake of the generals at that time, for the sake of the Great Wall, we will do whatever it takes. We hurt others, we are hurt by others, and we fall into a vicious circle.

A few years ago, the palace fighting drama was particularly popular, and there was a saying in it called the harem struggle, which was unpredictable and treacherous. In fact, it's not just the harem, everyone's life is not like this.

The heroine in the palace fight drama often has a simple embrace, but later blackened. In fact, the world may be black in the first place, and if you are too white, it will be easy to become a target, so either make yourself black or make everyone white. The latter is more difficult, and white is always rare, so it is easier to be targeted.

At that time, I was thinking, why do people become bad, why do people become bad, become bad, maybe just to survive better, or simply survive. You have to understand those who will do whatever it takes to survive, and at the same time have the means to protect yourself from harm.

In the face of their own interests, people can leave everything behind. If you want to look awesome in the world, you have to learn to kill the fools around you first.

The course of life is really not easy, and a passage from Mr. Yang Jiang circulated on the Internet, saying that it is difficult to be a man.

In this materialistic world, life is really hard enough.

You want to be an honest person who has no quarrel with the world, and people will use you

, bullying sails,

If you have a little talent and moral character, people will be jealous of you and exclude you.

If you give in generously, others will infringe on you and harm you.

If you want to protect yourself, you have to be on the defensive.

If you don't want to fight with others, you have to have nothing to ask for in the world, and at the same time, you have to maintain your strength and be prepared to fight.

If you want to live peacefully with others, you have to deal with them first, and you have to be prepared to suffer everywhere.

When I was young, I didn't understand it, and when I did, I didn't know that it was good to not understand. I don't understand, it's because I haven't suffered so much in life, there are still people to rely on, there are people who are reliable, and I don't need to think, calculate, think so much, and I don't need to plan anything for myself or others.

After understanding, the heart is full of holes, and the person has been in the vicissitudes of life.

Having said so much, I actually followed the foreigner to the airport bus, he led me to get on the same bus with him, and I wanted to ask the driver or the person in the same seat after I went up, if I got wrong, it would be in vain.

In this journey of life, there is no return, there is no way back, sometimes wrong is wrong, sometimes one wrong step is wrong, every step is difficult, and there are many mistakes.

The bus started, and the foreigners began to be my tour guide, he was actually very easy to get along with, and the Chinese language was slippery, and I was in a foreign land, and I was really lucky to meet such a companion, and the little episode on the plane just now was not enough to worry about.

Along the bus, there are large sections of idyllic scenery, long and empty land, sparse buildings on both sides, and I can't see one for a long time, and there are fewer cars on the road, and only one of us is driving on the long highway for a long time. The sky is really like washing, the air is good, nature matches the most beautiful colors properly, and when you put your eyes in, you are reluctant to come out, and even want to go on this journey like this.

(End of chapter)