I cried silently all night, a rooster crow at dawn called me out of my sad thoughts, I rubbed my bloodshot eyes, put the suicide note into the pocket of my coat, took the backpack, and knocked on Aunt Liu's door.

Aunt Liu and Zi Yan were both sitting on the bed, looking like they hadn't slept all night.

"Huh? Brother Qin Sheng, you're here. ”

"I know it all." I said indifferently, a trace of imperceptible sadness flashed in my eyes, I hid myself well at the moment, my father said in the suicide note, I can't let Aunt Liu worry.

"What? What are you talking about? Aunt Liu pretended not to know anything and asked me.

"Auntie, I saw my father's suicide note to me in the drawer...

When Aunt Liu heard this, she rubbed her hands unnaturally, and then her eyes were still dodging: "What, Auntie will make you go early." "Aunt Liu still doesn't want to tell me directly.

"Auntie, no need, you tell me, I can accept it."

"Brother Qin Sheng, Uncle Qin and my father are buried in the cemetery at the entrance of the village, my father left two years early, my mother is the household, so it must be buried in the cemetery at the entrance of the village, Uncle Qin said that he misses you, and when you come back, he will see you for the first time, so he also chose to be buried at the entrance of the village."

My tears came down all at once, and my nose was very sour, and there was nothing more painful than that. I broke my teeth and swallowed it in my stomach, this is what Master told me, I gritted my teeth, raised my head to look at the ceiling, and tried to let the tears flow back, but it was useless, my tears could not be stopped at all, and when I raised my head, they would flow to my forehead.

"Let's go, Brother Qin Sheng, I'll take you to see Uncle Qin."

"Hmm... I gritted my teeth and nodded, I didn't want to say too much, I was afraid that my voice would be unnatural, because I was so sad now.

After walking for a while, I arrived at the entrance of the village, today's weather is not good at all, there is goose feather snow in the air, the weather is not very cold, to the side of the electric box, I really saw two new graves that have not been built for a few years.

I knelt on the ground with a thud and kowtowed three times at each of the two grave bags, one was my father, and the other was Uncle Liu, who had been kind to me since I was a child! "Ah!!h I cried loudly in an instant, as if a child who had been resentful for a long time burst out all the grievances in his heart at this moment to confide in his father, unfortunately, my father may never hear it again...

Zi Yan saw me crying so sadly, and also remembered that when Uncle Liu had just died, she cried with me.

At the entrance of Longtou Village, where there was heavy snow with goose feathers, I could only vaguely see two graves, and in front of the two graves there was a man and a woman kneeling, crying heartbroken.

Once upon a time, I also thought about what I would do if my father or master died, but I didn't know that this day would come so soon, and I was not mentally prepared at all.

At this moment, I thought about it a lot, a lot. What's the point of living a lifetime? To live is just a process of waiting for death. My legs were already unconscious, and I was trying to get out of here, I was going to get out of here, I was going to make my own.

Zi Yan looked at me who stood up, and also stood up with a sob, and asked me where I was going.

"I don't know, let's take one step at a time, go out and wander."

"I'll go with you too!" Zi Yan said firmly.

"Okay."

I agreed, and ran home in this snowy weather, the door was not closed, I went in and packed a little bit of my bags and ran back, including the dragon soul ruler and tens of thousands of yuan left to me by my father.

I ran back to the entrance of the village, and saw Zi Yan standing next to the grave, under the backdrop of the university, Zi Yan's tearful eyes became beautiful at the moment, as cute as a slim princess, the thick cotton clothes could not hide her beautiful lines, I walked over to her, "Let's go." Let's go to Tianjin. ”

The decision to go to Tianjin was not something I came up with by myself, but Master once told me how fun Tianjin in the north of Tianjin was, and there were many well-known and delicious foods, such as Goubuli buns, ear and eye fried cakes, even pancakes and fried dough sticks, which were the most authentic in Tianjin. I laughed out loud, and I decided that if I had the opportunity in the future, I would definitely go to Tianjin.

"Well, Brother Qin Sheng, how are we going now?" I put my hand in the coat pocket, and my father mentioned Liu Donghai in his suicide note, and he has been in contact for so many years, and left me a business card, which I took out, and the business card became yellow, which shows how many years it has been.

Take a closer look at the pager number on it, and there is also a landline number, and the end of the number is four eights, it is conceivable how capable this Liu Donghai is. I took out the pager that Master gave me, and transferred it to the human station to call the number.

"Hello? Is it Uncle Tokai? I asked politely.

"You are?" A slightly older voice came from the phone.

"My name is Qin Sheng, my father is Qin Gui, I saw in my father's suicide note, he left me a business card, let me find you if I have difficulties."

"Suicide note? What the? Brother Qin is gone? Where are you?? Liu Donghai's eager voice came from the opposite side.

"I'm right at the entrance of the village."

After a while, Liu Donghai drove over

A crown car came down a person about forty or fifty years old, the crown car was introduced in China in the eighties, but the corrosion of the years, the crown car has no luster, replaced by a thick layer of snow covered on the roof and a little gray paint, all showing traces of time.

"You are Qin Sheng, I saw you when I was a child, and that was twenty years ago, when you were still a little doll."

My father said that Liu Donghai is not only a good friend of my father, but also a business partner, when I was young, my father did some business with his support to make some money, but then he never came to my house, my father usually went to his house or restaurant to eat with him to talk about business, I didn't see him before I was ten years old.

Liu Donghai was wearing a suit jacket at this time, with a big beer belly, but his appearance was not bad, I knew by looking at his face that Liu Donghai was a person who could be trusted, with a wide drum and a rich face, he was a rich and noble person, but there was a black gas on his forehead, and I was afraid that he would encounter something unpleasant in the past few years, but I didn't mention these to him. Because, I'm not in the mood to say that right now.

Liu Donghai wore a pair of gray cotton pants on the lower half of his body, and a pair of cotton slippers under his feet, which had a great sense of disobedience with the suit on his upper body, which showed how hurried he came out. Maybe it's just a coat and it comes out.

"Where is my eldest brother Qin?" Liu Donghai greeted me, and before I could speak, he eagerly asked where my father was.

I subconsciously turned my head and told him with my eyes that my father was buried there, and that the grave belonged to my father.

"Ahh Whining! Liu Donghai immediately sobbed and ran to my father's grave, but on the way he tripped because of the slippery ground, and he knelt there with a rolling belt, and others would feel funny when they saw it.

"Big brother! How do you say that you will leave, I haven't seen you for five years, how many times have I been looking for you at home before, Sister-in-law Liu said that you traveled abroad with Brother Liu, and it will take a long time to come back, I didn't ask anything, I didn't expect it. I didn't expect that... Could it be that this one next to it is. Brother Liu's? Whining! Brother Liu. I... ”

After crying for a while, as soon as Liu Donghai came, the atmosphere fell into sadness again. Ziyan and I couldn't cry anymore, we just stood quietly and watched, and I felt so tired at the moment.

got into Liu Donghai's car, Liu Donghai asked us where to go, I said let's go to Tianjin, Liu Donghai has been doing business all year round, going south and north, naturally knowing the way. Without saying anything else, I drove to Tianjin.

The distance of 1,300 kilometers will arrive in one or two days under normal circumstances, but Liu Donghai can't drive continuously, and he has to rest and rest after driving for a few hours, and we have to eat halfway, and it is in winter, and the ground is very slippery, so the journey that can be reached in two days took four days.

I haven't been in a good mood these days, Liu Donghai found a hotel, and changed into a new clothes, I have to say, this is completely different from the image of Liu Donghai I saw at the entrance of the village four days ago, people rely on clothes and horses to rely on saddles is this reason.

After resting in the hotel, I told Liu Donghai to go out for a walk, Liu Donghai nodded, and told me not to go too far if I was not familiar with life.

Liu Donghai opened two rooms in the hotel, I lived in an ordinary two-person room with Liu Donghai, Ziyan was a woman, it was inconvenient, so she lived alone.

After going out, I felt dizzy, so I picked up the snow on the ground and wiped it on my face, shook my spirits, and continued walking.

I walked aimlessly for two hours, my hands were frozen stiff, I didn't know what I was going to do at the moment, I just felt that I was abandoned by the whole world, I was a child that no one wanted, abandoned by my master, and I came home full of joy to get the news that my father had died a few years ago, and I was not born to my father, which was really unbearable for me who had just turned twenty years old.

At this time, I walked to a bridge with a wide river underneath, the Hai River.

I don't know why, but I had a year of seeking death in my heart, and I jumped off the bridge a few meters high.

The feeling of weightlessness in mid-air made me enjoy it, and I was very relaxed in this moment, which was about to end.

The winter in the north is also very cold, and there are already several layers of ice on the Haihe River, but I jumped very high, so this layer of ice broke up directly.

I hit my head on the ice, rendering a wisp of red under the ice, and when I fell in, I made a splash of water, and the water was so biting that my legs and feet were cramping and I couldn't use my strength as soon as I got in, so I didn't want to resist anything, and I was bent on dying.

The place I jumped into was very deep, about two or three meters, and seeing my head slowly sinking, someone suddenly shouted: "Someone, someone committed suicide!" This man shouted in pure Tianjin dialect... My hearing became blurry, and the sound of running water filled my ears。。。。。

My life is coming to an end.

When I woke up, I found myself lying weakly on a hospital bed, with a tube in my nose and a thick bandage on my head. It was as if I had a long, long dream.

The first person who noticed me woke up was a nurse, and the nurse shouted outside, and the patient woke up.

I thought it was Uncle Liu and Zi Yan when I walked in, but it turned out to be a soldier in a military uniform, exuding an indescribable majesty, in short, this feeling is irresistible!

"Young man, why are you looking for death?" The soldier asked me in a magnetic Beijing accent.

"I... My father is gone. Master.. Don't want me anymore. I replied weakly.

"It's not promising, there is nothing in the world that is more important than life, if it weren't for my army party today, I'm afraid you would have seen Hades!"

When the soldier said this, there was a hint of rebuke, which made me feel a little frightened.

I remember that four or five days ago, I made a hexagram at home, I met a noble person in the southwest, and Tianjin is in the southwest of Harbin, so I met a noble person, a person who gave me a third life.

"Okay, don't talk about you anymore, I see that you are in good health, you can still survive after soaking under the water for so long, it's really fateful, are you interested in joining the army with me?"

"Soldiering?" I asked puzzled, I used to be very obsessed with soldiers, because I think the soldiers are very handsome, this is the real man, but I don't dare to think about this kind of admiration over the years, so I put it in my heart, it can be said that being a soldier is one of my dreams in this life, and the second dream of mine is to be filial to my master and father, but this wish has been disappointed.

"Good sons and daughters of China, serve the country as soldiers, don't commit suicide if you are a man, and die a glorious death on the battlefield if you want to die!"

This soldier said a word very simply, but it awakened the blood that had been buried in my heart for ten years, and I didn't know how long ago I started to be very enthusiastic about hot blood, and every time I heard someone mention it, I felt very excited.