The appearance of Liang Shumei can be said to have temporarily relieved the crisis of Yan Yu's discharge.

But it's not all good.

The next day, Liang Shumei brought Yan Yu to her office.

This room seems to have been carefully renovated, whether it is the environment or the furnishings, the doubt is the atmosphere, trying to create a quiet and comfortable, as if the outside world has been isolated from all the disturbances.

"Just sit down."

The sofa was very soft, and Yan Yu was like falling into a cloud, which was very comfortable.

The sun was shining through the window, and it was blocked by the thin curtain that kept the warmth out.

It doesn't make people feel exposed, but it doesn't make people too ambiguous, even if two people are in the same room and the door is closed, it won't make people feel uneasy.

The creation of this atmosphere also shows Liang Shumei's professionalism, because the whole environment makes people feel safe and private, but does not feel embarrassed, looks professional, but does not have the kind of oppression of being tortured.

Liang Shumei sat opposite Yan Yu, not like other doctors, holding a thick medical record, just holding a small shorthand notebook.

"I came to you today to do a preliminary psychological consultation."

"Counseling?"

"Yes. To put it simply, today is the question that came to you. ”

"What's wrong with me......" The sentence "What is wrong with me" made Yan Yu press in the bottom of his heart, and he didn't dare to say it.

If he hadn't been discharged from the hospital, he would have been detained by the supervision team, and he would have liked to be discharged from the hospital as soon as possible, but on the other hand, he was really aware of his problem.

When he loses his mind and hurts others, Yan Yu really wants to know what the problem is, whether he is really mentally ill as the doctors speculated.

Yan Yu didn't speak, and Liang Shumei also took the initiative to speak.

"Generally speaking, the people who come to me have a clear purpose, and they have some cognitive, emotional or behavioral disorders, and the degree is also different, some are just interpersonal or communication problems, and some are so serious that they can't find self-awareness......"

"Anyway, my plan today is to get to know you first, especially your childhood memories."

"Childhood?"

"Yes, childhood experiences are crucial to the formation of personality, and even affect a person's life, if you want to prescribe the right medicine, you must understand your childhood experience and find the stress point or turning point of psychological disorders."

"I ...... I had a good childhood, and it doesn't matter what I do......" Yan Yu just thought at first that he would follow what Liang Shumei said, through those scale evaluations and the like, but I didn't expect it to be just a chat, and it was still Yan Yu's childhood, which was not very good.

Although he said it easily, Yan Yu himself knew what kind of impact that childhood experience had on him.

At this level, Liang Shumei's words are to the point, childhood not only shaped Yan Yu's personality, but also had a decisive impact on his life goals after growing up.

Liang Shumei looked at Yan Yu, but she was not annoyed, and still said softly.

"I can understand your feelings, but I am a professional doctor, and I will keep everything you say confidential, so you can rest assured."

"The consultation that we are doing first of all has to build trust, your trust in me, this is the most important part of the whole process, if you can't trust me, then there is no need to proceed, I can release you from the hospital immediately."

"But you may already know that in the process of losing consciousness, you have developed extremely aggressive behavior, there is a risk of harming others, this consequence needs to be evaluated, even if I agree to discharge you from the hospital, after you get out, you may be supervised or even temporarily detained and observed, until it is confirmed that you are not dangerous, and then you will be freed."

Liang Shumei really didn't put any pressure on Yan Yu, she was a very competent listener, and she gave people a great sense of security.

But talking about the past will undoubtedly expose Yan Yu to the sun, which is something that Yan Yu will never do as a last resort.

"After building trust, we can analyze and understand the problem, and I can give advice on the problem and guide you to rebuild and consolidate."

"It's going to be a long process, so think about it first."

"How long is it?" Yan Yu couldn't help but ask, Liang Shumei smiled, as if Yan Yu was willing to speak, which was a huge progress in itself.

"Freezing three feet is not a day's cold, and heart disease is the most difficult to treat, but as long as you have confidence, enough trust and a positive and optimistic attitude, it will not be too long, generally speaking, there will be a few months or even longer."

"It depends on the individual's degree of cooperation and receptivity, after all, it is an interactive process, the more you talk, the more you can find the problem, so as to solve the problem."

For such a long time, it is indeed urgently needed for Yan Yu, and only in this way can he hold on until the supervision team removes his suspicion.

"Only know about childhood?" Yan Yu asked tentatively.

This made Liang Shumei frown.

"Yan Yu, if you want to get yourself back, you have to unload all your secrets, if you change to someone else, I will tell him, if you can't trust my profession, I can sign a confidentiality agreement with you, but now it's you, I just want to ask you, what if you lose your mind next time and hurt others?"

Liang Shumei seems to see Yan Yu's kind nature, he really doesn't want to hurt others anymore, but he can unload all the secrets?

It's hard to do.

Even Lin Xiaoyu, Yan Yu never revealed the secret in her heart to her.

Although this Liang Shumei is very professional, it is indeed difficult to tell all the secrets in her heart to a stranger.

"When does it start?" Although it was a little difficult, Yan Yu finally made his own decision.

Liang Shumei was not as excited as she imagined, as if she had seen such a scene too many times.

"You can start when you're ready, it's actually a process of talking, and talking can relieve and release stress, which is a very good choice for you."

Yan Yu nodded, agreed, and thought for a long time, but didn't know how to speak.

Because he didn't want to remember those days, but now that he thinks about it, the most memorable thing is his mother's hands.

"My mother is having a hard time...... Her hands are the hardest and most powerful tool when she is working, but when she soothes me, they become warm and soft......"

"I can't remember anything too early, it's all bits and pieces, I just remember one winter, it was very cold, dry, and the wind picked up in the middle of the night, and she went out to look for firewood......

"When she came back, her hands were covered in blood, and I was terrified......"

Yan Yu's mouth was a little dry, like taking a mouthful of super glue, and he couldn't continue for a long time, Liang Shumei listened carefully, didn't record, and handed Yan Yu a glass of water.

Moistening his throat, Yan Yu continued: "At that time, I was still young, and I didn't know what to do, but my mother wrapped her hands by herself. ”

"She told me that she had been bitten by the snake in the pyre, and I didn't think much about it until I grew up and realized that in the winter, the snakes were asleep, and they wouldn't bite......"

"I don't know what happened that night, but I remember that she was in a mess, not like she was bitten by a snake, but more like she had a fight with a bear......"

"Later, whenever I saw the malicious smiles of the men in the village, I would always think of that night and feel like they were all bears......"

Yan Yu paused slightly, and asked Liang Shumei, "Can I smoke?" ”

Liang Shumei still smiled: "Smoking is not good for your health, but you can smoke if you want, in this room, you can try to choose a way that can make you comfortable, you can sit if you want, you can also sleep on the sofa, or on the small bed over there." ”

Yan Yu took out the cigarette that Hong Dafu left for him, lit one, took a few puffs, and felt a lot of peace in his heart.

"After that, I had a wish in my heart that I could grow up overnight...... I don't need friends, because those kids could be the bear's cubs......"

"Later, my mother locked the door at night, and she wanted to put the sickle on the side of the bed, but she was afraid that I would hurt me by touching it, so she put a rolling pin next to her."

"That rolling pin is like my mother's hand, I can't forget it, I wonder how desperate it is to be so weak and helpless that I can only rely on a rolling pin to protect myself......

"What kind of rolling pin?" Liang Shumei seemed to suddenly become interested, or just to evoke Yan Yu's deeper memory.

"What kind of rolling pin?" Yan Yu was stopped by this question.

He took a few puffs of cigarette and snuffed out the cigarette butt, trying to wipe his face, but almost wiped the gauze off his face.

His hands have nowhere to go, like a child who can't do an exam.

The image flashed in my mind, sticky blood dripping from the rolling pin, and there seemed to be a dozen fierce beasts outside the door, rudely ramming against the thin door.

The mother pressed her back against the door, looking at the young Yan Yu with tearful eyes.

He seemed to reach for the rolling pin, but could no longer remember what had happened.

Yan Yu is like a wisp of smoke, constantly torn apart in these pictures, and the memory is like a flash light during a photograph, only for a moment, leaving an impression, but unable to remember any details.

He closed his eyes, feeling pain, but he didn't know where the pain came from.

When he opened his eyes, he was lying on the hospital bed inexplicably, and Liang Shumei was sitting next to him, writing something in his notebook.

"I ...... What's wrong with me? What happened? ”

Yan Yu wanted to sit up, but his head was a little swollen and painful, and he subconsciously raised his hand, but there was a tingling pain, almost pulling the needle off, and his hand was handcuffed to the bed frame.

Ma Youliang and a few comrades were guarding outside the door, and they also walked in quickly at this time, but Liang Shumei raised her hand and signaled them to go out.

She walked in front of Yan Yu and said to Yan Yu: "It's nothing, you are too nervous, the psychological pressure is too great, and you faint all of a sudden, this kind of thing is not uncommon." ”

Although her dress had not changed much, when she bent down to check the needle on Yan Yu's hand, Yan Yu saw it clearly.

There is a very obvious strangulation mark on her snow-white neck!