"At home."

I say. "Can you give me a cup of hot water, I'm a little cold."

One policeman motioned to the other, and someone poured me a cup of hot water.

"Thank you!"

I took it, the cup was a little hot, I kept changing hands, and the heat of the water in the cup came up murderously, blurring my eyes.

"Who can prove it?"

"There should be monitoring in the community, it can be adjusted, I didn't go out all night. No one has proven it. I'm home alone. ”

"But Zhang Ruolei said that he was with you last night."

"It wasn't all night, and then he left, and his dad called him and asked him to come home and get ready to pick up his relatives."

"What time did he leave?"

"I didn't look at my watch when he left, and it was about the second half of the night, less than two o'clock? Or a little more than two. ”

"What is your relationship with Zhang Ruolei?"

What relationship?

I don't know, I don't know how to answer.

"What's your relationship?"

I was a little cramped, and I lowered my head and took a sip of water. The water was a little hot, and my hands trembled, and when I shook, the water splashed out a little.

"Lover."

I say.

"What?"

"Lover."

I raised my head, and my voice lifted a little.

"Improper sexual relations, broken shoes, lovers, friends, bed partners."

The man looked at me and was silent.

"What is your relationship with Su Bai?"

"College classmates."

"Does she know about your relationship?"

"I don't know if she knows. But I think she probably knew. ”

"She called you last night, what did you all say?"

"Didn't say anything. She asked me to be her bridesmaid. ”

"Being a bridesmaid?"

The policeman looked up at me.

I took another sip of water, and it cooled so quickly that it was lukewarm.

"Yes. But she has a group of bridesmaids! ”

"But she told me that the bridesmaids had released her pigeons."

......

After asking, checking the transcript, coming out, and signing. Su Mu was still waiting outside, as soon as she saw me, she wanted to fight with me, she cried so much that her voice was hoarse, her voice was hoarse, at first I only knew this word, but now I suddenly understand how vivid this word is made by the ancients.

She pointed at me, the fat on both sides of her cheeks quivering, and she could barely shout anymore, but she still had to.

She didn't seem to have much to do but shout, but to get angry.

"Why let her out? Pull her out and shoot, this slut, slut, slut. will only seduce the gentlemen. ”

She was out of breath, as if she would lose her breath or faint directly in the next second.

I glanced at her, and Zhang Ruolei stopped her desperately. I glanced at Zhang Ruolei again, and the eyes of the two met in a short battle through the air, but they looked around without saying a word. I turned my head and walked out, but Su Mu came up from behind like a she-wolf who had lost her cubs, she was defenseless, she reached out and grabbed the hair on the back of my head, and took me down, and it was too late for someone next to me to pull it again, she kicked me in the stomach.

That kick was too hard, I only felt the pain in my heart, the pain was almost out of breath, Su Mu was quickly pulled away, she was still cursing in a dumb duck voice, I only felt that the world was spinning, cold, and dizzy. The surroundings are clear and blurry, and the sky is spinning.

I still wanted to stand up, I didn't want to be too embarrassed, Zhang Ruolei shouted at me: "Meizi." ”

I turned my head in his direction, but I couldn't turn around.

"Zhang Ruolei."

My voice sounded like a dream.

"Zhang ......."

Tears came down my face.

It hurts so much, I don't know why it hurts so much. After that, I felt dizzy and dark in front of me, I frowned, closed my eyes and eased for a while, the pain intensified, not lessened, and then I felt hot magma-like things flowing out of my body.

Is the day coming? Is it the day of the great aunt?

I put my hands on the ground, stood up, and staggered.

Zhang Ruolei rushed over desperately, my face was pale, as white as a piece of white paper, and my hands were cold.

He took my hand and asked, "Meizi, what's wrong with you?"

I looked at him, and there was another colic-like pain in my body, which made cold sweat trickle down my forehead.

"I'm bleeding."

I was so angry that Zhang Ruolei asked, "What?" ”

I said, "I'm bleeding." ”

He didn't speak, he unzipped his down jacket, he touched my thighs, and then picked me up and ran out, Su Mu chased and scolded behind, but there was only the sound of the wind whistling in my ears, and everything became distant and boundless.

In his car, I put my down jacket under the car. He asked me what I was doing while driving.

When I looked at him, I must have looked horrified. I said pad, otherwise this car will be so dirty that you won't be able to drive it again, and I'm still bleeding.

He looked back, and I couldn't see his expression.

He didn't speak, just clenched the steering wheel. People and cars flashed intermittently outside the window, and the sun came up, spreading everywhere in the world, like broken gold, it was really beautiful.

I love the sun, I love the cold. In winter, the hands and feet are always cold, and they are not hot. On weekends, sometimes I lie on the chaise longue in the south-facing living room, basking in the sun like a cat, and my whole body is warm and my bones are about to be crispy.

"I really want to go and soak up the sun."

I say. Zhang Ruolei turned his head to look at me, didn't say anything, he held my other hand with one hand, and kept rubbing.

What's the use?

Have you ever loved me?

I felt blood gushing out of my body, and I never thought that there was so much blood hidden in my so thin body. I felt a little light, Zhang's car was very warm, but my hands were still cold, and I felt that life was being lost from my body little by little in some form, as if I saw the end of my life.

I think of Xiao Ye, Su Bai, and in the lonely twilight and night, they feel that their lives are being stripped from their shells little by little, how unwilling, how nostalgic, how reluctant......

"Am I going to die?"

I wanted to ask him, but I grunted my throat and didn't ask anything.

He honked his horn violently, and his hand holding my hand became tighter and tighter, and his palm was full of sweat. I tried to earn it, but I couldn't, and he held it tighter. I cried, why did you remember to hold my hand at this moment? Why did you let me go without even a discussion like Huaihai? I thought you loved my ......

Zhang Ruolei honked the horn frantically, and his mouth was full of dirty words.

Was he in front of Su Bai when he died? Is he in a hurry? Is the child in Su Bai's belly his? Did he know that I was pregnant, and did he deliberately not stop Su's mother......

I turned my head sideways, I don't want to know the answer, if, I mean if, if I really have three long and two short this time, does it matter what the answer is?

I think of my mom, I don't think I've been to see her in a long time. I was afraid to see her, and as soon as I saw her, she would ask me, what about Huaiping? Will you still ask me endlessly: Is there anyone? The age is getting older day by day, and my mother is getting older day by day, and there is no one to take care of her, so if my mother leaves one day, she will not be at ease.

"Here we are."

Zhang Ruolei squeezed my hand, I turned my head and looked at him, he was so good-looking, he loved me, he must have loved me, I closed my eyes.

Zhang Ruolei tightened his hand again.

"It's almost there, Meizi."

His tears flowed out, were they crocodile tears? No, I don't think so, it's not pretending, I know him, really.

I looked at him and smiled weakly, Zhang Ruolei glanced at me and asked me, "Is it still bleeding?" ”

I nodded, and immediately shook my head, and he glanced again, then turned around, his hands firmly on the steering wheel.

There is no parking space, he hugged me, there is always a little north wind in the northern winter, and when I run, it hurts people's skin to death, Zhang Ruolei kept saying to me: "Meizi, it's almost here, it's almost there." ”

I watched him run out of breath, and watched the sweat on his head condense in the icy air, steaming from his forehead until it disappeared.

"Don't run."

I said weakly.

He looked down at me, still running wildly.

"Zhang Ruolei," I said.

"Meizi," he bowed.

I grinned.

"I love you."

Tears flowed down his cheeks again.

"Plums."

"Say you love me too."

"I love you too."

"It's not without any woman ......"

I gasped: "No woman ......"

"yes, Meizi, it's actually true."

He was crying.

"Don't leave me."

He ran, he looked down at me, "It's here." ”

The security guard of the hospital saw it first, and then ran out of the medical staff, he shouted something, the voice was empty and distant, and quickly dissipated in the noisy crowd and scattered space. I really want to reach out and grab his voice in my own hands, even if he really runs away with another woman one day, spread out the palm of his hand, I can hear him, he said, yes, plum, it's actually true.

I knew what he was talking about.

I was placed on the operating table and wheeled into the emergency room.

"Oxygen, monitoring, needle."

It's messy, it's so tired, Huaihai, are you about to come out? Huaiping, where are you? I want to meet you. Zhang Ruolei, if I have three longs and two shorts, I don't have anything else to entrust you, you help me take care of Huaiping, I only have this one unfulfilled wish.

I miss Huaiping, at that moment, unforgettable, unforgettable.

"What operating room is it?" The doctor asked.

"Number 5."

Someone replied.

"Ready."

I closed my eyes, the sound of footsteps was so loud that I couldn't sleep, I tried to open my eyes, but I found that my eyelids were so heavy that I couldn't pick them at all.

Three hours later, I was pushed out, and before I came out, the doctor asked me, "What's your name?" ”

"Plums."

The doctor looked up to the nurse and said, "It's okay, it's sober, it's okay to push it out." ”

Out of the door, the nurse shouted, "Meizi family." ”

The sound is loud.

No one answered, but Zhang Ruolei's familiar old face quickly appeared in my field of vision.

"Are you alright?"

"Miscarriage, a little too much blood, the palace is cleared, it's no big deal."

The nurse confessed. When I entered the ward and changed the bed, he picked me up, and his voice was tight and astringent, and he said, "It's light." ”