Xun Huan already felt very uncomfortable, but since the moment he saw Wang Ding, Xun Huan suddenly felt humiliated like a sharp sword inserted into his heart.

She suddenly burst through the crowd, flew into the room, closed the door with her hand, and locked it in an instant. There was a banging on the door outside the door. Xun Huan leaned against the door, covered his chest with his hands, and his whole body shook uncontrollably.

Why is this happening? This was something Xun Huan didn't expect. She didn't expect that her family would be so poor, she thought that as long as she didn't want much, she could have food to eat and school uniforms to wear, which was fine. Now I know that all this is an illusion, and the disgusting things that happened today are simply terrible, and continue to push her broken heart into the bottomless abyss. Dad once said that in addition to life and death, everything else in this world is a sideline. However, today, Xun Huan deeply realized that if he didn't even have the minimum ability to survive, it was really undignified, and life was better than death.

I don't know how long it was, but there was silence outside. The debt collectors watched the excitement and dispersed.

Xun Huan opened the door and looked at it, and after confirming that there was no one, he quickly closed the door again.

We are all simple, free, and individual individuals! Our parents' careers have nothing to do with us?! Now that I look back at this sentence, it's ironic. Even eating is a problem, and there is no freedom to talk about, and every minute is a rhythm of starvation. Today, this living humiliation will follow him for the rest of his life, the vicious face of the debt collection, the sharp words that are unbearable, the people who watch the fun...... Every breath of the scene will make Xun Huansheng late in minutes, and on the bloody wounds, the spectators do not forget to sprinkle salt crazily. It's terrifying, what did I do wrong, Xun Huan raised his head and asked Cangtian speechlessly?

Cang Tian did not respond, and the lonely wall looked at Xun Huan coldly. Repeatedly, "Hey, I can't help you."

Xun Huan took out the sentence he wrote today, tore it to pieces, and threw it in the air.

In the middle of the night, Dad called the door outside the door, and Xun Huan opened it mechanically.

"Dad, why do you owe someone else money for rice and oil, today, that aunt came here to quarrel."

Dad didn't speak, he sat there with his head bowed like a child who had done something wrong.

Xun Huan took off the watch on his wrist, handed it to his father and said: Dad, I don't want to wear a watch, you sold the watch, can you take it to pay back?

Dad was stunned for a moment, and then said timidly: Xun Huan, don't worry. Today, the foreman told me that he would pay me this year's wages in a few days.

Xun Huan paused, and after a long time, he had the courage to spell out a sentence from his chest: Dad, you are so old, so tired, so poor, why did you give birth to me, don't you think I am a burden?

Silly boy, why are you a burden? How good it is to give birth to you, you have life, I can finally be a father, and I can enjoy the obligation of having children. Wouldn't that be great?

But no matter how good it is, we all have to live. Xun Huan suddenly became so sensitive, now she is so scared that her family will reach the point where she can't afford rice.

Xun Huan, don't worry, I'll borrow it tomorrow.

Xun Huan didn't want to speak anymore, in this situation, no matter how many words he spoke, it would be futile. She climbed onto the bed and stared at the ceiling in a daze. Dad was lying on the bed in his clothes, and after a while, there was a loud snoring sound.

"What should I do?" Facing the night, Xun Huan asked himself nervously for the first time.

Do you want to spend your life like this? So poor that you don't even have money for rice? What's the difference between that and living like a pile of cannon fodder?

After dawn, Dad had already made breakfast and put it on the table to wait for Xun Huan, and the egg in the noodle bowl was exuding an attractive light. Xun Huan put the eggs in his father's bowl and said: Dad, you have a very hard day, let's give you eggs, don't cook noodles for me tomorrow, I'll just drink some porridge.

Dad's nose was sore, tears were rolling in his eyes, and after a long time, he said slowly: Xun Huan, don't be like this, the salary on the construction site is year-end, and we will have money immediately. Last year, it was because there was a lot of rain and there was nothing to do. This year is different, the weather is good, I do the work of two people, and the money will be more.

If you have bad weather next year, a snow disaster. Is that not alive? Xun Huan didn't tell his father what he thought. She just told him lightly that after receiving his salary, he remembered to save the money and go to school after paying off his debts.

At the gate of the community, from a distance, Xun Huan saw Wang Ding standing there.

Xun Huan was stunned for a moment, then turned around, she changed the direction of travel and made a big circle. I turned around from the front door of the neighborhood and went to school.

Xun Huan thought as he walked: They are right, I am under such conditions now, being friends with him is a toad who wants to eat swan meat, and the two of them will never intersect, so why should I waste my time and mind on an unrelated character. With my own conditions, and now in such a situation, I don't want to change my fate, and repeat the fate of my father or mother when I grow up, what's the point?!

On the way to the school, there are some adults who pick up and drop off their children. Xun Huan walked in fear, for fear that Leng Buding would rush out of an aunt from behind and ask about those rice and oil money. She tried her best to hide her head very low, and her mouth was almost buried in the collar of the school uniform, the path she usually walked on was felt to be extraordinarily long today, and Xun Huan wished that there was such a stilt that could step into the school.

This morning's morning reading, or the class leader Li in the early years, his English is very good, he has never made a mistake in the exam, I heard that he has never trained English outside.

He also once introduced the study method, listening to the point reader at home for more than an hour every morning and evening, and then slowly accumulating words. Xun Huan didn't have the money to buy a reading machine, so he had to mark the transliteration reading of each word on the book. For example, bird is written as Bode. house is remembered as oyster death washing is recorded as digging Xing......

The squad leader took Xun Huan to read while remembering. When I came down one morning, I remembered the two sides of the book.

Xun Huan secretly made up his mind that he must study hard and be admitted to the public middle school of the four famous schools with excellent results, and he heard that all tuition and miscellaneous fees are waived there.

During the second class, Wu You came over mysteriously.

She whispered to Xun Huan's ear and said: Xun Huan, Wang Ding of Class 54 is on his birthday today, he didn't see you today, he asked me to invite you to celebrate his birthday together.

Xun Huan widened his eyes, pointed to his nostrils, and asked as if he didn't believe it: Please me, it's impossible! I don't have the money to buy a birthday present.

Wu You was angry: People invite you to give you face, who is rare about your birthday gift? What people have in their families is money, their father's municipal government, their mother's discipline inspection committee, and they receive their salaries every month, and they still need you this gift.

I'm not going! Xun Huan was angry.

I thought to myself: Why do you want to go, you live in a community, who doesn't know who is who, a family like yourself, to participate in such a birthday party, that is, to add blockage to yourself and others.

Wu You was anxious: Why don't you go?

There's no why, just don't want to go.

Don't pull it down! Shame on the face! Wu You walked away in a huff.

Xun Huan didn't bother to pay attention to her, and carefully sorted out his English notes. Xun Huan clearly realized that apart from studying, except for reading, there was no other way out for him, and no one could rely on him for a long time. Dad is so old, Xun Huan sometimes doesn't dare to think about the future.

After sorting out the English, Xun Huan took out an Olympiad book and prepared to study it by himself. However, the above topic is really too difficult, and Xun Huan can't find the north. Confused, I was in a hurry. Yang Yanni suddenly patted Xun Huan on the shoulder, and asked mysteriously: You are really amazing, I heard that Wang Ding is going to invite you to celebrate your birthday, the girl in our class, he has never invited you before, why don't you go.

Whoever loves to go will go. Xun Huan muttered a sentence and continued to work on the question. Bian pinched his thighs fiercely, thinking: What is my identity, I don't have points? They were so poor that they had no food to eat, and they went to cling to other people's wind and snow, but in the end, they were not yet, and they were shot to death in the cold wind.

Yang Yanni held her mouth, shrugged her shoulders, and said to herself: I have the intention to plant flowers and flowers, and I have no intention of planting willows and willows. By the way, Xun Huan, we are all training Chinese and mathematics in Shangxuefang, and it feels good, do you want to go together?

Xun Huan turned his head and smiled. Didn't speak.

Yang Yanni stabbed her back with her hand, complaining and saying: I really envy you, you don't have to learn anything. Like me, the weekend schedule is tight, and I don't even have time to eat, I speak in the morning, foreign languages in the afternoon, piano, and dance in the evening. Every time I go to Koto to dance, I sit in my mother's car and eat and walk. My mother recently didn't know which nerve was wrong, I heard others say that girls can improve their temperament by playing the guzheng, and they enrolled me in the guzheng course, my hand, you see, miserable.

After Yang Yanni finished speaking, she stretched out her hand in front of Xun Huan. The five fingers were full of white tape, and Yang Yanni looked complaining.

However, Yang Yanni will not know that there is a little girl who dreams of having a pair of such hands, playing the piano, playing the guzheng, and life flows slowly like a picturesque poem.

However, Xun Huan knew that she had nothing, so she could only let out a long sigh.

The third period is the Chinese class, and the head teacher walked with the wind today. It turned out that the last essay contest in the high-tech zone was announced, and only two people in the entire school won the award, and they won the second prize. And these two winners, in addition to Wang Ding of the May Fourth class, Xun Huan of our class is also among them, the teacher put Xun Huan two words, dragged the elders, and asked everyone to applaud and congratulate, she also added that the gold content of this award is particularly high, and the award will be presented in the multi-purpose hall of Huazhou Primary School on Saturday, and I heard that there is a prize of 1,000 yuan.

1,000 dollars! Xun Huan's eyes widened, and he quickly calculated in his heart: Isn't that possible to buy five hundred catties of rice? Counting like this, Xun Huan's heart blossomed.

The head teacher then read Xun Huan's work "The Sand Picker on the Roadside" in the class, and the teacher said that Xun Huan showed his deep affection and pity for the working people with a kind of caring tenderness. The action description and detail description are very in place, and every word and paragraph contains strong feelings, which is a rare good article. At the end, the head teacher asked Xun Huan to talk about his creative experience.

Xun Huan bounced up from his seat and said slowly: Actually, I don't have any creative experience, I wrote about my own father, and I also expressed my deep affection for him. He worked two jobs a day, and in order to get a few extra wages, he was busy until two o'clock in the morning before he returned, when the cold wind ripped his skin, the cold rain soaked his back, and the machine wore out his fingers...... He never cries out about being bitter or tired, he is like a wind-up machine, running non-stop. Although he is old and ugly, has no money and no house, but he really works hard and lives hard, he has always been very sunny, and he often reassures me, he says that he will raise me responsibly and will not live me on the streets......

Xun Huan said a lot in one breath, and couldn't help sobbing at the end.

The head teacher was also unable to tear up when she said this, she gently wiped her eyes with her hand, choked up and said: Applaud Xun Huan's father, this amazing working people.

The class burst into thunderous applause.

Xun Huan was very moved. This is the first thing she feels most dignified in her years of elementary school. The first time, so many people applauded her, the first time, so many people looked back at her gently, and the first time, the head teacher said that she was the pride of their class......

It turns out that as long as a person is a little better, he can reap money and honor. However, in the past few years, why did I get mixed up as if I didn't wake up?

At this time, Yang Yanni snuggled up affectionately and gave her a big thumbs up.

Xun Huan felt extremely warm.

In the evening, the PE teacher asked the football students to still practice below.

Li Zaonian and Dundison rushed out of the classroom frantically as soon as they heard the bell for the end of class. Xun Huan wondered, whether boys' enthusiasm for football is born like this, and they feel that they have the gene of football in their lives. Fall in love with football. I heard that they played until 7 p.m. yesterday and then moved to the court of the Municipal Party Committee's family courtyard until 10 p.m.

"Xun Huan, do you want to go out with us tonight to play football?" Li asked Xun Huan in his early years.

How did you get in, didn't they have to swipe the curfew to get in?

Rest assured, we have access cards.

Whose access card?

Are you going to play or not? What is the use of caring about access cards.

I...... I...... Xun Huan was embarrassed, she just wanted to learn from everyone. I'm afraid that I will come home late and worry my father.

I'm not going! Xun Huan lowered his head and tried to keep his voice to a minimum.

"Dead virus, I don't have a sense of class honor at all, and you won an award today, and you are not motivated at all." Li Xinyu ran over and was counted.

Xun Huan did not speak. Since yesterday's incident, Xun Huan knows the truth of people's soft-spoken words, and he will no longer be as stupid as he used to be to compete for superiority.

All she can do now is practice well.

When you get home, you should practice well at home.

Seeing that Xun Huan was silent, Jiang Shuangxi came over and asked jokingly: I heard that Wang Ding asked you to play football in the open space of the city government last night, but you ran into a gray nose, is there such a thing?

Xun Huan woke up like a dream, it turned out that he didn't come to see my jokes, it turned out that he just came to play football with me. When Xun Huan thought like this, he suddenly felt a little better.

However, when she secretly looked at the opposite court, she couldn't find Wang Ding's figure, and Xun Huan suddenly felt as if something was missing.

A heart is very uncomfortable. How can he feel this way again, Xun Huan pinched his thigh again and warned himself: Xun Huan, if you don't work hard, you are not worthy of being friends with Wang Ding in this life.

Xun Huan did not directly answer Jiang Shuangxi's question. With such a family background and such conditions, she doesn't want to involve herself with Wang Ding too much, in that case, she will be very tired.

Xun Huan kicked the ball seriously, stopped the ball, and kicked it into the goal. The phone rang inappropriately when Xun Huan scored. Wu You said on the phone: Xun Huan, you killed me, Wang Ding said that I didn't invite you, I didn't complete the task, he was going to reward my Barbie doll for being in the soup, and said that you can come over now.

Xun Huan made an excuse and hung up the phone quickly.

Actually, Xun Huan really wanted to go to the birthday party, how lively it was. However, Xun Huan also knew that he couldn't even afford the cheapest gift, and he would definitely look out of place when he appeared at that birthday party so coldly.

"Dead virus, can you concentrate on playing football, do you want Wang Ding to go." Li Xinyu was in a daze when he saw Xun Huan kicking a ball, and immediately ran over and teased.

Jiang Shuangxi also came over to join in the fun: Wang Ding is the idol of all the girls in the school, and he is a god-like existence. The family background is good, the looks are good, the study is good, the personality is good, the taekwondo is better, cut, I really can't think of anything wrong with him.

Suddenly, Jiang Shuangxi strangely approached Xun Huan's ear and said jokingly: Xun Huan, do you worship him a little?

Xun Huan immediately glanced at him and said: Where am I qualified to worship him, I can't even buy a mirror at home, I don't have the opportunity to look in the mirror, I don't know what I look like, how can I have time to worship him.

Li Xinyu heard Xun Huan say this, and laughed on the football field.

Jiang Shuangxi whistled to the sky and said: It's rare for you to have such self-knowledge.

Xun Huan looked at Jiang Shuangxi's contemptuous expression, and knew very clearly: If you don't work hard, you will only be more miserable when you grow up, no different from garbage, if you don't force yourself to work hard, tomorrow will be a repeat of the fate of your father or mother.

Xun Huan did not attend the rehearsal of the awards ceremony on Friday night, because it was too late and there was no bus there, and it was a long detour to get the bus. The rehearsal doesn't end until late, when the buses are out of service.

Therefore, on Saturday morning, when Xun Huan appeared in the multi-purpose hall of Huazhou Primary School in a school uniform, the head teacher praised her for being sensible and knew how to wear a school uniform to receive the award. In fact, how did the head teacher know that Xun Huan had no other clothes at all except for the school uniform.

At the beginning, before receiving the award, the students and teachers of Huazhou Primary School performed a beautiful song and dance performance, Xun Huan sat in the first row with the head teacher, exquisite dancing and perfect singing, so that Xun Huan felt that the whole person was boiling, versatility is really a good skill, Xun Huan secretly made up his mind that he must practice the dance moves he learned at the court meeting at home. Once a woman dances, it is really more beautiful than a painting, and her graceful dancing posture is like singing a smart song, constantly turning and turning. Xun Huan watched it so seriously, and envied them for being so good at singing and dancing.

When receiving the award, Wang Ding stood on Xun Huan's left, although Wang Ding was not short, but standing beside Xun Huan, Xun Huan felt as if he was two centimeters taller. Maybe these two months have been long again, Xun Huan shrunk his neck embarrassedly. Wang Ding turned his face and asked Xun Huan: Why didn't you go to my birthday party yesterday?

Xun Huan didn't know how to answer, so he didn't speak.

Wang Ding urged: I hope to receive a suitable reason, otherwise, it is very impolite.

Xun Huan had no choice but to tell the truth: I'm really too poor to have money to buy birthday gifts.

After Wang Ding heard this, he looked disdainful: Do you take money so seriously?

Xun Huan nodded.

Wang Ding let out a slight snort from his mouth and muttered: I didn't expect you to be such a coppery girl.

Copper smell? Xun Huan suddenly felt funny. Isn't it too funny for people who don't have a penny in the same pocket and even have to pay for rice on credit to talk about copper smell.

Xun Huan said carefully: I really want to live a little coppery, Wang Ding, you don't know, I am so envious that I can live in a sea of copper.

Wang Ding's eyes showed even more obvious disdain, and it did not kill the self-esteem in Xun Huan's heart. Instead, it made her understand more deeply: it is impossible for two people with completely different living environments to have the same three views. Just like him and her now, the Tao is different, comparable to the opposite.

Therefore, when Wang Ding used that disdainful look to kill Xun Huan in seconds, Xun Huan didn't want to discuss it with him anymore.

After the district leaders took the stage one by one, it was time to give out the awards. Pinching the heavy 1,000 yuan, Xun Huan repeatedly held 500 catties of rice in his hand.

After winning the award, there was a short interview with the reporter of the evening newspaper. When the reporter asked them how to spend the bonus, Wang Ding didn't think about it, and said very proudly: The 1,000 yuan bonus will be donated to Hope Primary School.

Xun Huan didn't dare to answer, and he couldn't tell reporters that he was going to exchange the thousand yuan for 500 catties of rice, Xun Huan didn't know if it would be embarrassing to say it like that.

However, the reporter still expects Xun Huan to be able to tell where the bonus goes. Xun Huan was forced to be anxious. Panic: I want to keep myself and spend slowly.