If, I mean, if I didn't get most of the shares of the Zhang family, would you still want to marry me?

If, I mean, if it weren't for Xiao Han, would you really be with me and really fall in love with me?

If, I mean if, everything is if.

What a pity that life has no ifs.

In my life, love is an insincere joke. It was with Huaihai at the beginning, and now it is still with Zhang Ruolei. I thought he was true to me and really loved me, but I didn't expect the end result to be the same.

I never doubted him, those love words in his arms are still in my ears, and they are still hot, but people and feelings are cold first. No, it's probably never hot.

If he calculated early in the morning that he would use Huaiping as a bargaining chip one day, then he and I have never really been hot.

When night falls, the cycle repeats, love and hate, and the same may be true.

When I went out, I thought I was still hesitating alone, and I didn't want Zhang Ruolei to wait outside the door early. I glanced up at him and walked straight out, he following behind me. When I went downstairs, he went to get the car, and I went to get the car, and he followed, and pressed it on my hand.

Say you know how to drive? You can't do it.

I sneered: the weasel gave the chicken a New Year's greeting.

I continued to pull the car door.

"If you don't listen to me, you'll never see Huaiping."

I looked up at his face in the darkness, and the moonlight hit his face, casting his huge, hideous figure on the ground, and he was waving his teeth and claws at me.

"You're despicable."

I slammed the door shut and locked it.

Zhang Ruolei took me to get his car, he skillfully sensationalized the car, and after a while, the car was firmly on the road.

That night, the two were speechless. The two of them lay on the same bed, but like a pair of familiar strangers. In the past, there seemed to be endless words, and now that I think about it, every punctuation mark that was said in the past was pathetic, pitiful, ridiculous, and lamentable.

People don't know the truth, and they can still live their lives.

Once a person knows the truth, it is difficult to deceive himself.

Tossing and turning couldn't sleep, got up, sat on the sofa in the living room, and then ran into Huaihai's room to sleep, lying on his bed, imagining what he looks like outside now, thinking of him, his heart is warm and bright like the white moonlight outside the window.

I want to cry too, and then I think about it, for whom to cry! For Zhang Ruolei? For myself? For Huaiping? Or is it love that can't be sought? Stupid past and present for yourself? I don't even know who is sincere to myself and who is hypocritical to myself?

I don't have the strength to cry, and I have no reason to cry. I put my hands on the pillow and stared blankly at the ceiling above my head. Scene after scene of the past, one old man after another, flashed in front of my eyes like a movie film. Those fragments, whether warm, or fierce, or lingering, or lonely, real, vivid, flesh and blood, are all serious, I take them seriously, and I take them seriously. Why, after all these years, would someone suddenly tell me that all of this was false?

I sighed, rolled over, and caught a glimpse of a dark figure flashing by the doorway, and I was so frightened that I was completely sleepy, and I turned and sat up

, and then look closely, the door is empty and silent.

I was a little scared.

"Zhang Ruolei?"

I tried to whisper to him.

The next room was dead silent, and I held my breath and didn't hear him snoring.

I moved forward, all the way to the edge of the bed, trying to call him again.

"Zhang Ruolei?"

He still didn't say yes. My hair brush was covered with white sweat.

Could it be that there are people in the house? No, it won't!

I tiptoed out of bed and hid myself by the door, it was pitch black.

"Zhang Ruolei."

I shouted.

Only then did I hear the footsteps of a person "knock knock" running all the way from next door.

"What's wrong? Plum! Plum! What's wrong? ”

He slept sleepily and stared in a daze, and ran out of me like a fly without a head.

I ran towards him.

"Zhang Ruolei."

He hugged me in the dark.

"What's wrong? Having a nightmare? Where have you been? I heard you call me, but when I touched it, you weren't with me. ”

I huddled in his arms and trembled.

"Zhang Ruolei."

I whispered, "There may be someone in the house." ”

As soon as he heard this, I could clearly feel his arms tightening. He caged me tightly in his arms.

"Don't be afraid. There I am. Don't be afraid. ”

I hugged him tightly, my heart was pounding out, my throat was dry, and my mouth was muttering to myself.

"Zhang Ruolei."

He dragged me all the way to the button of the light next to the door, and the light came on all at once, and the whole hall was empty, and the light and brightness brought me a sense of security, and at the same time quickly brought me back to reality.

I let go of him, and he stood still. To break the embarrassment, I walked towards the floor-to-ceiling window.

"I really felt like someone was there."

As I spoke, I lifted the curtains, and two huge pots of green outside the curtains stood silently.

"How is that possible?"

I say.

I ran into another room, the kitchen, the bathroom, and it was empty.

"What's wrong?" Zhang Ruolei followed, "Dazzled, right?" Or are you having a nightmare? ”

I shook my head, "No." There must be someone. ”

He came over and tried to pat me on the shoulder, but I didn't know a trace of it, and he threw his hand into the air. Then I felt like I suddenly remembered something. I looked up at him suspiciously, then turned around and walked straight to our room, and just as I reached the door, a man came out of it. When I saw it, it turned out to be Xiao Han.

I was so angry that I trembled, and I turned my head and glared at Zhang Ruolei angrily.

"What do you mean?"

I couldn't help but shiver, like a leaf falling in the autumn wind.

"It's too much of a deception, isn't it?!"

Xiao Han was silent, I couldn't see Zhang Ruolei's face, and I didn't intend to judge his joy and anger. But I saw that the eyes of the two of them were entangled in the air, as if there were many words that could not be said in front of me, and as if there were already too many words, the two of them had already passed on the secret.

"I'm not interested in seeing you flirt with me."

I ordered an eviction.

"Please leave."

I turned around

Zhang Ruolei stretched out his hand, "Give me the key to my house, it's no problem to marry you, you tell me what you want from me, and I'll give it to you." Except that you are no longer welcome here, and she is no longer welcome. If you show up in my room uninvited for no reason, don't blame me for calling the police. I'm not afraid of cold. ”

Xiao Han still didn't say a word, and Zhang Ruolei had already turned around to find his own clothes to wear. After a while, he stopped dressing, he was in front, Xiao Han followed closely behind, and the two of them walked out of the room one foot after the other.

As soon as they left, I slammed the door shut, and I choked with nausea. I knew that I wouldn't have to sleep tonight, and I knew that this place was not suitable for long. I flipped out the phone number of the real estate agent overnight to see that it was too late, so I went online and put the house up for sale.

I have made up my mind in my heart, as long as Huaiping returns to me safely, I will take him away and fly away, this house can be sold for a lot of money, I have saved some savings in recent years, all my money together, any second-tier city in China can make our mother and son live remarkably.

The Zhang family, the Su family, and Xiao Han, I can't afford to wade in troubled waters, and I don't want to do it again.

The land of right and wrong, just stay away. Grievances and hatreds, I don't want to delve into it anymore and care about it again. I just want to reunite with Huaiping now, and the whole family will leave this place with all the shadows, start over, and start all over again.

Just thinking about it, Zhang Ruolei went and returned, and when I saw that he was angry, I didn't fight anywhere.

"What are you going to do? Didn't I understand enough? ”

He didn't speak, so I stepped forward and pushed him away, pushing him all the way to the door.

"Get out!"

I yelled uncontrollably.

"Get out of here."

He was pushed by me, his hand was pushed to the side, and a black enamel ornament fell to the ground with a crisp sound. He grabbed my wrist with his backhand.

"Can you trust me? I didn't give her the key. ”

My blood was pouring up, I was mad with rage, and my two hands beckoned to him indiscriminately.

"It's me who gave it, I'm the one who gave it, okay? I gave it. You roll. Aren't we still unmarried? I only promised you to marry you, did I promise you anything else? Why are you doing this to me? Zhang Ruolei, I treat you so much, I take you as my day, I want to grow old with you. Why are you doing this to me? ”

I sat on the ground crying, tears streaming down my fingers.

Zhang Ruolei squatted down and hugged me, he hugged my head tightly, and then held my face, his lips came to me, I hid, and he pulled my face to his face again.

"Look at me."

He shouted at me.

"Look at me."

I closed my eyes tightly, I didn't want to see his face that I once knew so well.

He grabbed me by the shoulder.

"Plum!"

He was crying.

"Why?"

He took me into his arms.

"Why did we get to this point between us? It's not what I want. ”

He's still cheating, he's really good at acting. I got up from the ground and ran to the door, emptying the contents of my bag with a thud

Come on, I'm crying and picking up that pile of bits and pieces.

What about USB flash drives? What about the USB flash drive?

"Where's the USB flash drive?"

I cried and shouted.

Yes, here it is! Here it is!

I held the silver metal USB stick in my hands trembling.

"Look at what you've done! Are you and Xiao Han really afraid of retribution? It turns out that you have premeditated, and you told me that you don't know Huaiping's whereabouts. You say you love me. It's all fake. What the hell did you do with Huaiping? ”

I pounced on him and grabbed him.

"Give me back your son! Why are you messing me into this game? Zhang Ruolei, I curse you, you can't get true love in this life and this life, and the woman you love the most will never be with you forever. ”

"Plum!"

Zhang Ruolei roared.

"Are you crazy?"

He was furious.

"I slept with her because I knew she had hidden the old lady's ashes. Why don't you believe me? I'm for you, really for you, I love you! ”

Zhang Ruolei's tears rained down.

(End of chapter)