"You know the consequences!"

I'm not talking about questions.

He sat in his chair and didn't look at me or speak.

"Why?"

I walked over and sat across from him.

"There must be a reason, even if some are bitter, if you don't tell me, how can I ......"

I want to say, how can I help you? But then I thought about it, I was really ashamed, what could I help him?

I had to look him in the eye and he started smoking again, and I noticed that he had been smoking more and more often lately.

The two of them were silent for a moment, and a large cloud of smoke rose in front of his eyes and me.

The Buddha said: Don't say, don't say.

Everyone has something in their heart that they can't say.

I shouldn't be reluctant, but we've been together for so long, not to mention that all the preparations for the wedding are going on in an orderly manner.

Huaihai also came here this afternoon and re-determined and finalized many details with us.

Interestingly, none of the things he wanted were quite what I wanted, which meant that a lot of his work and work went down the drain. I'm also quite embarrassed, thinking about accommodating him, and thinking about how many times I can get married in my life?

Zhang Ruolei saw my hesitation, he can always see through people's hearts better than me. Even if that heart is tightly wrapped in human skin, flesh, and blood, he can always see through the little Jiujiu in the other party's heart before me.

When Huaihai left, his face was depressed.

I blamed myself a little because of this, Zhang Ruolei laughed, saying that I was stupid, can't I see it? He's not planning a wedding for the two of us, he's planning a wedding for himself.

"To yourself?"

I was amazed.

"Who is he going to marry?"

Zhang Ruolei continued to scold me for being stupid, saying didn't you see it? Those are Xiao Han's tastes.

I suddenly came to my senses. Don't say it, if you think about it, it's really true. I sighed that Huaihai was a kind man to me, but Xiao Han was a long-term and persistent person.

He once abandoned his wife and children for her, he did not hesitate to be in prison for her, she took away so much money from him, and wasted so many years of his time, he could not have hatred and resentment against her.

It can be seen that people really love someone like being caught in a Gu, and there is really no reason to talk about it. Just like me and Zhang Ruolei, there are also many people who say the rights and wrongs of the two of us behind our backs, and there are actually people who say that I am an old cow eating tender grass, and that Zhang Ruolei is young after all, and I, an old woman, are well-informed, and a chick is not played with by me?

God knows between me and Zhang Ruolei, who of the two of us is worthy of being called a "chick".

This is also unspeakable, it is unspeakable that Zhang Ruolei and I have no way to publicize it to the outside world.

However, it's not about yourself, it's about yourself, and who can really do it as if you don't move?

I took the cigarette he had just lit.

He protested at me with his eyes. Protest is also ineffective.

I said in my heart.

"Pumping so much? Don't want to die? ”

"The chairman of the family is an old man, and he has smoked and drunk all his life."

"The mountains are up, we can't compare. You are a mortal, I still want to leave your good body, good seeds, and good children

Have children with me. ”

He smiled ambiguously at me.

"Want to have children with me?"

I gave him a blank look.

"You tell me the truth, is there something wrong with our loan. I know that our company has a bank loan in its name, and the amount is not small, is there such a big deficit? Or do you just want to sell your assets, get rid of your debts, and then leave the family away? ”

Zhang Ruolei looked at me in horror, I really hate his eyes, every time this look shoots at me, it makes me feel like an idiot again, and says a stupid thing.

"Don't look at me like that!"

He looked down and smiled.

"I didn't expect that your imagination is so rich."

I tried to refute, but I couldn't find the words to refute for a while, so I just didn't say a word there.

"That's a violation."

He said.

"I'm not going to do it. Selling state assets or something, I haven't thought about doing such a big thing. ”

I clutched my chest.

"You are really my living ancestor, so what are you going to do? The investment company you're talking about is unreliable. You don't know that there are similar financial predators in the world, and they really call them cannibalism without spitting out bones. Don't talk about you. Originally, there were two major switch giants of electrical appliances, Chint and Delixi. Delixi that goods will not sell their own industry, and now Delixi is not domestic at all. Only Nan Cunhui's fool insisted on national capital and national industry, and was unmoved in the face of huge interests, and it is precisely based on this that CHINT is still standing. ”

"Yo-ho."

Zhang Ruolei's language is narrow.

"I did my homework."

"Don't talk nonsense. In short, I don't agree with the Hurricane taking a stake. For so many years, the old Zhang family's industry has been steady and steady, and the municipal government proposed to go public, but we didn't go on it, aren't we afraid of other capital intervention? Why let a foreign-funded enterprise with a bad heart pick up ready-made? ”

He sat and shook his broken boss chair, which was really a good thing, and there was no sound in such a way of shaking. Zhang Ruolei's eyes looked directly at the void, his gaze was deep and long.

I don't know what was going on in his mind, but now I feel more and more that there is something inexplicable between me and him. I can't tell you what it feels like, and I can't really describe what it is. In short, it makes me feel uncertain. Sometimes I feel that I am very close to him, and sometimes I feel that he is 108,000 miles away from me, and no matter how hard I try, I will not be able to reach him.

I hate that feeling.

But he just kept his mouth shut, and let me use eighteen kinds of martial arts. I really didn't expect him to be a hardliner. I was angry and ignored him, and he came over and hugged me and coaxed me, but he only lightly told me that there was no need to worry, that nothing would happen, and that it would not affect me.

He promised to give me the best marriage and life possible.

"In the future, we will go abroad and have a few children. At least three, otherwise one is too lonely, two is too little, at least three, two boys and one girl, no, no, no, all three must be boys, so that you will be the core of our family. ”

He's a real drummer

Moving, no wonder his cousins and brothers and sisters eventually defected. But the uneasiness in my heart was not dispelled by the beautiful prospect he had dictated. They haunted me like poisonous snakes, and refused to leave for a long time. I also tried to ignore or try to drive away all the thoughts that I had and didn't.

But I don't know why, the more I want to ignore it, the more I want to drive it away, the uneasiness is better than before.

One day, the day I came back alone in the night when I didn't draw lots. At night, by his side, I had an unusually clear dream.

I dreamed that he was covered in blood, and his eyes were full of bright red blood gushing out of them like springs, and I ran over and he waved goodbye to me.

When I got up, I became more and more uneasy. There are thousands of speculations and possibilities in my mind, and one moment I will come up with such a conjecture, and the next I will come up with a different idea from the previous one. Every idea I thought was traceable when it first came to me, but after a while, I rejected it entirely, thinking that it would not be true.

I think I'm going to be exhausted by these thoughts.

I became a constant observer of him in the dark, walking and eating.

Could it be that he messed with the mafia outside? Domestic gangsters? He kept me a secret like this, could it be the affair he caused in the past? Which big man's little wife did he sleep with? Let the family know? That's why he was in a hurry to get the money and run away? But he is not so selfish, because of this little thing, he only cares about himself, his relatives, others, and no one cares.

And Aunt Zhang's headless letter, what does it mean? What does that mean exactly? I feel like I'm going crazy with all these things.

I even thought of the possibility that Lao Zhang's family was a spy or not.

To be honest, I couldn't think of any other possibility.

I was looking forward to marrying him, and I now pray every day that day will not come so soon. At that time, I felt that I was selfish, I didn't love him to the extent that I loved Huaihai back then, I was with Huaihai back then, and he told me that the moon was square, and I would believe it. There are only him and his son in his eyes and heart.

But now, I don't know why, am I a degraded function of love? Or do you really not love Zhang Ruolei that much?

I'll think a lot. Wonder, what if the situation is even more dangerous than I imagined, what will my mother do? What to do with Huaiping? I didn't think about what the entire Zhang family and Zhang Ruolei would do. I made a wrong decision in the first half of my life, and this time, even if I am not famous, of course, I am unlikely to be famous, but at least I don't want to die in the world or leave a stench for thousands of years.

My mother's side I once tested her tone, she is old, her homeland is difficult to leave, she and Zhang Fusheng husband and wife are not the same, she is an ordinary mother who has never seen much of the world. Her life's thoughts and wishes are nothing more than the safety of her children and the return of fallen leaves to her roots.

Yes.

Compared to fame, she is not like other mothers. She just wants me to grow old safely and steadily, even if I am destitute! At least

No......

It won't be like Huaihai. How much did Huaihai's parents worry about him later? How much did it take? Although it is not an outsider.

But my mom and I both understood. Up to now, Huai's father has complications of diabetes, and Huai's mother has been paralyzed early. It's good to catch the old couple and now they are looking forward to their son coming out, and there is a close person to take care of them. But if I really have an accident, my mother has three longs and two shorts, who will take care of her old people?

Those relatives who can't be beaten?

I'm afraid it's no fun.

Zhang Ruolei didn't infect me with restlessness. From time to time, he persuaded him, saying that I was the emperor and not in a hurry, and the eunuch was in a hurry, and he said that there was a tall top when the sky fell. I also said that I was likely to be nervous and anxious before marriage, and I was very suspicious and worried. He also joked that if a man like me were a man and left in ancient times, he would definitely be a tyrant.

I was not convinced, and asked him why he said that.

He said you think, why are tyrants so suspicious? No one can believe it, there is nothing to worry about eating and sleeping, no one is their confidant, and no one is suspicious. But he didn't dare to expose his suspicious character in front of others, so he had to be brutal and use brutality to warn the people around him not to betray him.

I blinked, and felt like I was going to jump into the little hole he had dug again.

(End of chapter)