Out of the funeral, the process is very fast. I know that Ah Dong can handle that funeral very seriously. But he didn't, he couldn't stand it, he didn't want more people to know that a good person like Kang Sheng would die so embarrassingly and so miserably.

The knife face cried so much that he couldn't help himself, scolding God for being unfair. God always carries all kinds of pots, this is a man-made disaster, it is the hearts of the people, what is the matter with heaven? But sometimes people feel that there is no reason to talk about it, so they have to complain about it, which can be regarded as an outlet.

Seven days later, I was discharged from the hospital.

Xiao Han sent Zhang Ruolei to prison as promised, and Zhang Ruolei's case became a local shocking case, causing a sensation in the whole city, and making headlines on the Internet.

I asked Ah Dong to hire the best lawyer in the country.

"Xiao Han will invite him for him, right?"

"We please. Xiao Han just wanted him to die quickly. Start with the point of his amnesia, and call him until he is released on medical parole or ------ exonerated from the crime. Give him a psychiatric evaluation. ”

"I thought you really gave up on him."

Ah Dong's smile was a little vague, and I think he has become elusive after Kang Sheng is gone. Sometimes there were only the two of us in the room, and he would have tried desperately to find something to make me laugh or something, but now he seemed even more empty and silent than I was.

The silence is terrifying!

It's like ------ volcano is about to erupt.

He smoked more diligently, and one night I woke up in the middle of the night to see the light in his room still on, the window wide open, and the wind pouring in through the hollow window, puffing the curtain like a balloon. He kept smoking, and I only stood for five minutes, and he drained three cigarettes. He's not smoking the cigarette, he's eating. He swallowed all his anger like smoke in his lungs, silently swallowing those negative emotions and chewing them carefully. Chew and swallow. His whole person resembles a moving tobacco, exuding a strong smell of tobacco. Sometimes even as he approached, Mason had begun to furrow slightly.

But apart from frowning, he did not advise him to quit smoking.

At one point, Mason even climbed onto Adong's knee and asked him, "Have a drink?" ”

Ah Dong put his hands around his waist and asked him, "What did you say?" ”

"Drink some." Mason's tone was like that of a little adult, and it sounded like a childish vicissitudes. "I'll be with you. Uncle Kang Sheng has returned to China, and I will accompany you. ”

That's all we dare to tell him.

"Oh." Ah Dong cupped his little face, disturbed his thin, soft hair behind his head, and pressed it with a wide palm. Mason's fine white skin had a pair of delicate eyes that resembled his father's, and Ah Dong leaned down to kiss him lightly on the forehead, then gently patted him on the shoulder like a brother, and motioned for him to go down.

He didn't tell him anything, leaving Mason puzzled and left a little grievance of being left out.

"Come here." I waved to Mason.

Mason hesitated and threw himself into my arms, but instead of allowing himself to indulge in it for too long, he gently patted me on the back as he did.

"Mom, everything will pass."

He said.

I tightened my arms and wrapped him tighter, his tiny heart thumping through his chest

Jumping, strong and powerful.

Zhang Ruolei's lawsuit has been scheduled for court, and the lawyer met him, but he looked like he had nothing to love, and refused to say anything or cooperate with anything. The lawyer went to great lengths to tell him that if he was convicted, he would be sentenced to death. But Zhang Ruolei raised his eyes and glanced at the lawyer blankly, and then gently covered his black eyes with black eyelashes, and was silent for a long time.

He seemed to be silent with his life now.

Mo said that the world is about life and death, as if the entire universe has nothing to do with him.

The case is not in court, and I can't see him. I wanted to give him a message, but I didn't think I had anything to say. Sometimes I think that it's good that he has amnesia like this, he forgets happiness and sadness, and all the pain in the dictionary of life is the present, and the past has been cleared with one click. I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night, wondering, what if he could now remember all he had come from? I guess he wants to strangle himself!

The lawyer is applying for a medical evaluation from the relevant authorities, but Zhang Ruolei does not agree. And we are not in a position to enforce it.

"I did my best." The lawyer said, "He himself was bent on dying. ”

Who will save a man who is bent on death?

There is a gap in the heart, and it is full of floating corpses from the past.

"Am I wrong again?" After the lawyer left, I asked Ah Dong, "I also killed Gao Tiancheng." If I am willing to do what Xiao Han said, Gao Tiancheng and Zhang Ruolei may not have an accident. Am I not particularly selfish? I looked up at Adong's face.

The latter did not dare to look me in the eye, he opened his arms, and his arms spread out like a big bird.

I'm so tired!

I think.

It really needs such a strong embrace. But his embrace came to an abrupt halt in the middle of the process, and it came to an abrupt and stiff stop like a car that had suddenly broken down.

It is said that someone stayed in the detention center for several years, and he could only be transferred to prison after the trial, and before entering the detention center, he signed an authorization and left all the property in his name to Xiao Han.

This is what Xiao Han wants?

I wasn't stupid enough to run to her for verification.

Hearing that she had taken another high-ranking official, Ah Dong did not give up his efforts, and still gave the lawyer the opportunity to do Zhang Ruolei's ideological work, and the lawyer also brought him a photo of Xiao Han with other men.

But Zhang Ruolei didn't have any blank eyes, just swept the photo indifferently, indifferent.

The lawyer came back and said he was really indifferent. Give it up! The parties all gave up.

A month later, Zhang Ruolei was transferred to the detention ward. It is said that he was addicted, and like a child suffering from anxiety, he put his fingers into his mouth one by one and gnawed wildly, and one finger was even gnawed by him until his bones were exposed. But his whole portrait has no pain nerves, and it is numb like a stone that has been eroded by wind and rain for many years.

When he went to the doctor, he asked, "Doesn't it hurt?"

He stared blankly and blankly ahead, refusing to say anything.

Later, the doctor referred him to a psychiatric department, but he did not cooperate with all the tests. Detention center side

He was very responsible and arranged for him to do a full body examination. It was going well, but he quit when he had to draw blood. Zhang Ruolei suddenly went crazy, but fortunately he was wearing heavy handcuffs and leg irons, Rao was so, he refused to give in. He tried to hold a nurse hostage, shouting "Kill me!" Kill me! Kill me! ”

It sounded like it came from hell.

Like from hell.

Until someone pressed him tightly to the ground, his face pressed against the cold marble floor, and his whole face was distorted, but he kept shouting, and kept shouting.

The situation was reported by the same level, and the police felt that something was strange after knowing it, and then launched a further investigation, but found that there was nothing suspicious, and the final conclusion was that this person was bent on dying quickly, after all, there was no love in life, after all, the tone of death had already been determined, and instead of worrying every day, they were counting down to the loss of their lives, so it was better to have a good time all of a sudden. According to the analysis of psychological experts, the reason why he tried to hijack the hospital staff was to let the prison guards deal with him very affectionately and kill him one by one.

In this world, the most terrifying thing is sometimes not people who are not afraid of death, but people who are bent on asking for death or begging for death but can't.

After that incident, he refused to even see his lawyer again, and it is said that he was like a walking corpse all day long, and in the high-walled and iron-barred detention center, he was isolated not only from his body, but also from his heart, which was riddled with holes, desolation and haggardness. Or, his heart, which preceded his body, has long since been annihilated.

People who have no heart either live a chic life or a desperate life.

He's the latter, we all know it.

However, if this is the case, does he have a good reason to take the life of others?

Alas! Maybe I will never have the opportunity to ask him this question again in my life, and if I do, he will not give me the right answer.

How can there be the right answer in life?

He is a wise man.

I'm not.

I'm still trying to match a correct answer to every thing I can't figure out every day, how stupid!

I should learn to let go.

After my divorce from Huaihai, I often went to the monastery to find refuge in my soul, why did I forget all of this now?! How long has it been since I've been there?

That day, I went alone again, made merit in the temple, and asked Master to help me build the ashram in a few days. I clasped my palms together and asked Master: If you are not from the same family or have the same surname, can you bathe in the same Dharma rain and benefit from the same Dharma ceremony?

The old mage, who was old, with a deep but powerful voice, smiled and told me: "Whoever you have in your heart can surpass whom."

But I won't tell Master that the first person who jumped out of my heart at that moment turned out to be Xiao Han. I want to kill her, and then do a great service for her.

It's true that I want to kill her, and it's true that I want to make up for the debt of her life after she dies.

It's true!

How contradictory life is, how deep the pain will be.

I turned my back and gently wiped away my tears. But the tears bloomed directly into my heart like flowers, and my whole body was wet, as if the sun could not dry it.

The Dharma is scheduled for a week later, it is said to be a good day, and the temple itself also has a grand puja, which is an auspicious day, with thousands of merits, and I went through the names of those people one by one in my heart like a movie: Xiao Ye, Zhang Ma, Su Bai, the second elder of the Zhang family, the owner of the small inn who stayed by the old lady's side and never married, Kang Sheng......

The past flashes in the past, and the old people are no longer there. The world is lonely, they are all so ruthless, just leave me alone to end up in a carnival, to deal with many helplessness and hidden diseases in life, to be beaten by fate, helpless, they just watched quietly in the sky, do you guess they will occasionally or together, and then pointed to me who lost his soul in the world and said: Look, that person, is abused like a dog. How many rounds do you think she'll be able to join us?

On that day, the sun was fine, and the light and shadow fell into the branches, and the shadows of the trees were once again sketched on the ground. The temple draws beams and columns, the eaves corridor is majestic and solemn, and those ancient Buddha statues in each hall are either low eyebrows and lowered eyes, or angry eyes King Kong, or flowers are silent, or thoughtful. They silently deal with generations of people who have the same scars, the same desires, the same attachments, and the same fears! Watch them indulge in it, reaching out to themselves in vain and longing for redemption.

I guess they really want to say out loud to the believers who are kneeling before them reverently: Only they can save themselves! Wake up!

However, if there is hope in the heart, who would really want to fight with all the evil bayonets in this world against themselves!

The main method is a virtuous and respected old monk, with a red and white face, a white beard covering his face, and a monk's robe that moves in the wind, and he has his own appearance of birth. As soon as I stood in front of him, I suddenly felt that all the thoughts in my heart had taken refuge, and my heart was no longer like a mad elephant, and I was like an ape unlocked. I bowed my head and folded my head, and next to me stood Adong.

(End of chapter)