His brow furrowed.

"Forget about the speculation."

He looked straight ahead.

"Take these to the police."

He glanced over his head at me, trying to suppress the unhappiness in his tone. When he opened his mouth, he seemed to want to say something more, but he couldn't say anything.

There was a moment of silence in the car.

When I arrived at my house first, he put me at the gate of the community.

"I have to go back today."

I nodded.

"Go back and drive slowly, stay safe."

Seeing his red taillights disappear into the night, I turned around and entered the community.

There was no word for a night, only boundless loneliness and regret.

Over the years, I have gained a new understanding and commentary on friendship, and I have looked down on many of the hypocritical and useless emotions in the world. Especially the night was quiet, the surroundings were quiet and peaceful, and in the hazy moonlight, the evening breeze blew away the thick fog that dispersed in my heart. I was able to follow my thoughts and slowly put them in order and order.

In the past, I was afraid of being alone, I always felt that I was surrounded by strong enemies, and the crisis could strike back at any time, I was lonely, boring and monotonous, and I did not want to be ruthlessly abandoned by the world.

But now I've changed, and I often like to be alone.

Many people seek allies or partners throughout their lives, thinking that they can be invincible and safest. But who knows that some of the deadly dangers and injuries come precisely from your dearest and most trusted allies or partners.

There are also many such bloody lessons in history, such as the Trojan War triggered by a woman. And now this situation is even more common, such as with me Xiao Han, she used to be my most trusted and beloved friend, and she also planted the dagger in my weakest place without hesitation and mercy.

What about Aunt Zhang? Who was she betrayed? Destiny?

I kept asking questions on that night, exhausting my imagination, and even wondering if Aunt Zhang's note with a warning connotation had completely betrayed her. But only Zhang Ruolei and I had read that note, and I remember it quite clearly, because of that note, he couldn't sleep all night and smoked two packs of cigarettes in the living room.

The smoke of cigarettes filled the living room, and as soon as I opened the bedroom door, the smoke rushed towards my nose and almost choked me out.

He told me it was fine, but when I opened the door, I saw a gloomy and horrible look on his face.

He's not going to spend money on a human life.

Not at all.

But at the beginning, I was naïve and naïve to think that Huaihai would not abandon his wife and children, he should be like all men who have stolen fish outside, tired of birds returning to the forest, and he will still return to the arms of our mother and son when he is romantic and ridiculous enough, and that is his home. And shouldn't the word home have a fatal and ultimate temptation for all human beings?

But he ran away in his prime and has not returned.

Otherwise, Zhang Ruolei revealed this matter to others? I stood at the window, gazing at the void for a long time, hoping that a god would enlighten my wisdom, that the deep and distant night sky would purify my mind, cleanse my soul, and give me some mysterious power of clarity and clarity like a newborn baby.

In my hometown, the legend is a child's

When the Celestial Spirit Gai'er is not completely sealed, they can see unclean things, those ghosts and ghosts that wander in the night, even in front of an adult's eyes, they will turn a blind eye. It's not intentional to ignore it, it's really invisible. They have long been messed up and filthy by the world. If you can't have complete purity, you can't see what is pure.

Only an unpolluted soul can directly see and perceive all the beauty, ugliness, good and evil in this world.

All beauty and ugliness, good and evil, are hidden before them.

If you want to see ghosts, first of all, you must have no ghosts in your heart.

Otherwise, the demon in your heart will force you to admit that there are no ghosts in this world.

Because only when there are no ghosts in the world, can the ghost in your own heart not be recognized and peeped through. You can be at peace with that.

How many of our hearts have more than just a ghost in their hearts?

Zhang Ruolei called and said that the newly hired nurse was very professional and might have to come over in a while.

I said no, the old lady just came back, you accompany her more, we will come to a long time.

He paused, and the two remained silent on the phone. They all know that some things are like spoiled milk, but no one wants to be the first to admit it.

How many vulnerabilities and soft threats will humanity have?

Self-deception is also one of them. We are willing to deceive ourselves even though we know it, only for our poor heart to be a little better, even if it is only for a moment, and then our broken heart will be overwhelmed by even greater sorrow.

But man is still very pathetic, pitiful, contemptible, cowardly, willing to deceive himself.

It's just a little bit of unattainable luck.

What if?

What if he turns back?

What if I really misunderstood him?

What if he didn't do that?

What if I don't find someone more suitable than him?

What if I pass the test this time?

What if tomorrow I am developed?

......

said goodnight to him, hung up the phone, and the long night seemed to have just begun. Under the cover of night, all evil is about to be initiated. What is covered by the bright lights is nothing more than a poor and boring and empty heart.

We all live so poorly, and the world is the same. But each of us has spent all our lives trying to stay here for a second longer and possess more.

Many people put their lives on the line for this, and many people who take risks make others pay for their lives. We have seemingly sound laws, but there are many things and many people who cannot be judged and tortured fairly.

Many people have become more and more perverted because of this, and they even complain that it is the fast-paced life and the widening gap between the rich and the poor that make them unable to help themselves. They are enslaved by the demons of their hearts, living in the middle of great pressure and desire all day long, trying to survive in the cracks. was abused by life beyond recognition. Don't expect them to get out of the way and find their way or their original intentions.

They are all mourners who are attracted by the beautiful song of the snake-faced banshee, and when they are awake, they are already human

Pass on the edge of a cliff. Each of them had the sword of Nasdaq over his head. The life of licking honey on the knife edge makes them excited, twisted, and behave strangely and unconsciously.

People's hearts, fed by desire, fear, and pressure, are blood-devouring and crazy.

Early the next morning, Zhang Ruolei came early, of course, bought breakfast, he can always make a woman feel intimate and considerate. I should be grateful, but I despise myself for being able to lose my sense of proportion in the face of such a small favor.

"Have you eaten it?"

"Nope. Together. ”

I went into the kitchen and got the cutlery, and the two of us sat down at the table.

"How was the old lady last night?"

He took a bite of the frost fruit fritters, took a sip of soy milk, and put down the soy milk cup.

"It's okay, I'm still looking for Aunt Zhang."

He didn't lift his eyes up at me when he said this.

I'm a little out of appetite.

"Not really. I would like to think, let alone people who have lived together for more than 20 years. ”

I stood up, took my utensils to the kitchen, and turned on the faucet, which was pouring water.

"What are you doing? That's all there is to it. ”

I responded to him while washing the dishes.

"Maybe I've had too many things these days, I don't have a good rest, and I'm a little angry, so I can't eat anything."

He followed me in.

"Otherwise, you won't go to the company today and rest at home for a day."

I stopped what I was doing and thought about his suggestion, feeling a little shaken in my heart.

"However, when you are alone at home, it is easier to be cranky."

I turned on the faucet again, as if I had made up my mind.

"Forget it, let's go to work. It's a bit of a thing to do, and time can pass a little faster. ”

He didn't say no, and went back to the table to clean up the rest of the things.

"Actually, there's one more thing I'd like to discuss with you."

"Hmm."

I placed the bowl on the stainless steel drain rack, and the water from the freshly washed dish trickled into the sink.

His mouth was still chewing, and his eyes were tilted in the direction of the living room, as if he was wondering how to speak to me. I dried my hands and took off my apron.

"Actually, I have something I want to discuss with you."

"What's the matter?"

I smiled at him.

"You speak first."

"No, you go first."

"Why are you like that? You speak first. ”

He swallowed the last bite of food and bypassed me to wash his hands. I pushed him and said, "Go, go to the bathroom and wash your hands, wash your hands in the kitchen, there's only detergent here." ”

He turned a deaf ear to my words.

After washing his hands and rinsing his mouth, he faced me.

"You speak first, ladies first."

"Uh......"

I groaned and glanced up at the living room clock.

"Forget it, there are a lot of things in the company, and Aunt Zhang's affairs have delayed us for many days. Let's talk as we walk along the road. ”

"It's fine."

The two of them left, today is Wednesday, we came out not late, there was a small jam on the road, and it was smooth to say.

Or did he speak first.

"Hurricane reps will come today."

"Today?"

I tilted my head to look at him. It's really, long overdue

Get used to his suddenness. I turned around and sat down.

"You've made up your mind?"

He didn't speak, his hands controlling the steering wheel with ease.

"Does your dad know?"

He remained silent.

"I just don't know, do you?"

"If my dad asks about you......"

He stared ahead, unfinished.

I didn't answer that.

"Will you sign up today?"

"No, it won't. It's a big thing, and the leaders at the provincial and municipal levels are very concerned, and to be honest, it's hard to ride a tiger if you want to withdraw now. ”

"Isn't this difficult posture of riding a tiger caused by yourself? What's more, aren't you just happy to see such a situation? ”

This time it was his turn to answer the question.

"Do you think we are born as human beings, how many things can we do from our hearts?"

"At least this matter, if you hadn't insisted on doing it at the beginning, the situation would have been different now. At least it won't be hard to ride. ”

"By the way, what are you going to tell me?"

yes, what am I going to tell him? Have I thought about it? Was it impulsive or carefully weighed? What will Zhang Ruolei do after listening to my proposal? Will he be thunderous or will he fall into his arms, will he also have this intention?

For a while, I hesitated, not knowing if I would regret it in the future once I said it.

(End of chapter)