In the summer of Dalian, no matter how hot the sun is, the air is always so refreshing!

Every night, I will accompany Su Ying to the beach of Donggang, listen to the light waves together, and watch the white sails return together!

I have a very fulfilling life now, and I study stock futures trading in the company with Mr. Liu during the day. In the evenings, I review and study at home by myself.

The most difficult thing to surpass in the investment market is the greed and fear of human nature. The reason is that all profits are paved by many losers, and in financial speculation, it is necessary to violate many inherent concepts of human nature to face complicated things with reverse thinking, so in the process of fierce conflict between old and new ideas, some human weaknesses that are usually hidden very deeply will be exposed.

At this time, only by abandoning our obsession and completely changing our way of life, learning, thinking, and behavior can we reach the realm of comprehending the inner laws of things and cultivate the correct concept of trading.

In particular, the thinking level of trading, from the operation of main funds, trading volume changes, monthly contract rebalancing, long and short counterparty positions, and the methods used by different tools such as stock index futures or over-the-counter options hedging, etc.

"Hello, is it Mr. Chen Hongyi, please come to ** hospital, your friend needs your help."

This weekend, I was resting at home when I suddenly received a strange phone call.

Teacher Liu is gone. Very suddenly!

He just had a heart stent surgery a few months ago, and he has not fully recovered, and this weekend he was originally recuperating at home, but he didn't expect the bracelet to fall to the ground without warning and shatter, and his condition suddenly deteriorated!

From the first day I studied with Mr. Liu, and when I heard him tell the story of that friend, I knew that he was talking about himself, and the ups and downs of life connected by the mysterious bracelet in the story have always made me sigh.

But he didn't expect the ending of the bracelet to burst and shatter so cruelly that his life would wither and die together.

He has no children, and his parents have died young, leaving him alone. After he was hospitalized, he left my contact information in my name and arranged everything for the afterlife.

On the day of farewell, I found the bracelet that had been broken into powder, and in a trance, I seemed to see Mr. Liu watching me from a distance. Urge me to keep pushing forward!

I deliberately found a red bag, wrapped the crumbs and put them next to him, hoping that the lucky charm will continue to bless him in heaven!

Looking back on this warm and harmonious, short and warm time, he is also a brother and father to promote my progress and growth, from the simple trading profit and loss, to the personality relaxation from the perspective of the world, have given me a lot of insights and thoughts...

Teacher Liu is gone, and my life will go on.

Due to the fact that the company did not have a complete personnel reserve and organizational structure system before, after Mr. Liu left, we actually became a straggler.

Boss Wang himself is not very concerned about this investment company, and now he has no backbone to sit in charge, and he has no confidence in business development, so he withdrew his own funds and let us a few traders select some customer accounts to operate separately, set their own stop-loss and liquidation amounts, and do a summary dividend once a month.

I took over a $200,000 stock account, a $100,000 futures account, and an $8,000 forex account.

I am good at trend trading, generally using about 30% of the bottom position, 20% of the trend, and 40% of the intraday swing operation.

This kind of band-take-all mode is very testing of concentration and technique, but the yield is really good.

Now there are no technical requirements and no discipline, and I have made the most of the flexibility of my trading strategy. After more than a month of operation, I and other traders gradually distanced themselves from the earnings.

When the end of the month was approaching, several of their other traders, seeing that they could not get high income in terms of dividends, changed their strategies, regardless of whether the account itself was profitable, crackling every day, and using fee rebates to obtain returns.

This method of killing chickens and eggs ultimately affects everyone. The company's profitability and image have been questioned by customers, customer funds have been lost, complaints and compensation have come one after another. In the end, after a period of time, there was really no prospect, and the boss had to dissolve the company.

The world has left us bruised all over our bodies, but it is also possible to grow wings from the wounds!

The clients I used to operate the capital account, they were very satisfied with the rate of return, and although the cooperation with the company had been terminated, their trust in me was still there, so they found me privately and hoped that we would continue to work together.

There are many drawbacks to this method, and the rights and obligations of both parties are not guaranteed in a real sense at the legal level. However, at this stage, I have no better choice but to accept this situation and wait for new opportunities.

In this way, I started a valet bank management at home alone

It was a grey experience that put me in a corner of the world wandering alone. There is no label or role of social identity, nor is there an opportunity or occasion to engage with public relations.

This situation makes me especially embarrassed when facing Su Ying's parents.

It's been exactly a year since I first met Su Ying. From street encounters to thousands of miles of dating to hospital room recognition, after so long of contact and understanding, we decided to make this relationship a reality.

I met Su Ying's parents at the banquet for her grandmother's 80th birthday, and she took me to the banquet and introduced me to all the relatives.

"What do you do?"

"How much do you spend a month?"

"What's going on in your home?"

"Are you ready to buy a house in Dalian?"

"Will you end up in Dalian or will you go to your hometown?"

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At the dinner table, her seven aunts and eight aunts took turns to understand everything about me from all angles.

I was embarrassed to answer all kinds of questions, and I was embarrassed to hide my emotions.

I know that they have no ill intentions, and I am not qualified to complain, because this is the reality of society, and this is the way life is.

Coming out of the hotel, Su Ying and I walked around the streets.

"Do you regret it?" The atmosphere at the table was very oppressive for us, and she was afraid that I would have a burden on my heart, so she asked me.

"No, there's nothing to regret about it, it's just that the reality is more complicated than I thought, and I'm thinking about what to do."

I know that we can't back down now, life has put pressure on us to stand up stronger.

"That's good, in fact, their problems are fine, you don't have to mind."

"I don't mind, they're right, these are the realities that you and I have to face and consider."

"Do you have any great ideas?" She looked at me expectantly.

"There are some immature ideas, although it is difficult, but I still want to try it." I considered my answer.

"Is there anything I need to do?" Her spirits suddenly lifted and she asked with fighting spirit.

"I don't need it for the time being, you can help me stabilize the rear."

"It's as simple as that?"

"It's as simple as that, give me two years, and I'll give you back a thousand suns!" I stood up and spoke to her in a firm tone.

"Hah, that's great!" She jumped up happily and pounced on me, leaving a deep kiss on my face.

The moon slowly rose from the branches, and the lights of the streets became brighter and brighter, gradually merging into a line, a net, and a painting in its eyes. And we are in the center of the painting, hugging each other, never separating!!

Back to my humble rental. Su Ying washed her face and lay on the bed.

"I'm not going back today." Her voice was soft, with a hint of nervousness.

"Did you tell your parents?" I asked.

"I don't have to tell them, I'm going to make my attitude clear." She seemed to have a bit of a gamble.

"Silly boy, there's no need. You go to bed early, I'll make an order tonight. When you make money, you can change to a bigger house. I walked over and took her in my arms and smiled.

"Won't you have a hard time?"

"It's okay, everything will be fine, trust me."

"Hmm." She nodded slightly, obediently took off her clothes and got into the bed.

Tonight happened to be the first weekend of each month, and the market was doing well under the US non-farm payrolls data, so I adjusted my mood and sat down calmly in front of the computer.

I stayed until 4 o'clock in the morning, when the U.S. market gradually closed, and I earned $8,000 in a $10,000 account, and after deducting the handling fee, the customer could give me more than $3,000, which is close to 20,000 yuan. I closed my position, closed my computer, and sat down in my seat exhausted.

There was no light in the house, only the faint fireflies of the street lamps in the distance, shining through the window lattice on Su Ying's white and serene face, with a faint luster.

I didn't feel sleepy at all, and I looked at her and the simple and vulgar room stupidly, and a sudden sadness swelled up in my heart.

I stayed up all night and earned 20,000 yuan, but at this time, the unknown customer made more money in his sleep, this inequality of social value is determined because of my weak foundation and background, and I don't want to be like this forever.

"!" I gave myself a clear slap in the face.

"What's wrong with you?" Su Ying asked inexplicably with her hazy eyes.

"It's okay, there was a mosquito just now, you can continue to sleep!" I stood up and pretended to be nothing.

The sky outside was already faintly bright, and I walked to the window and saw a golden ray, shining through the light gauzy mist, rushing into the distance without hesitation, sownting towards this splendid world!

I secretly vowed in my heart: I want to change this fate, I want to fight for a better life!!