The small town of my hometown is still as quiet as that.

Hometown timidity. When I walked out of the county bus station and walked home with my suitcase, the closer I got, the more I could feel the tension.

Don't get me wrong, it's not because I'm so good at playing, I miss my relatives and friends when I touch the scene, and I'm so emotionally rich that I can't help it before I see each other - purely because I'm afraid.

Of course, if you know the background as well as I do, you'll be scared too.

My home is special because it's next to a prison. The prison is so famous that almost everyone forgets the origin of its name and its jurisdiction, except that the daunting place is ten miles from the county seat.

There is a street behind the prison built on the ruins of the brick and tile factory, which is the sequelae left by the brick and tile factory to dig the soil and settle the villagers, the whole back street is only 300 meters long, and the two opposite portals are dim and mottled all the year round, and from time to time exude a cold and damp atmosphere. My home is here.

The backstreets have produced many characters in recent years. A drug lord, two drug addicts, two robbers, one who runs a casino, one who watches the casino, and a flower sister bustard's mother. There are also an endless stream of street fighters and school bullies who thrive later.

One of the two robbers was 14 years old and was admitted to a juvenile class as a habitual offender; Another 16-year-old is not yet an adult, robbed his uncle and uncle of the motorcycle at night, stabbed him twice and took away thousands of dollars, and did not forget to kick it, blaming that relative's uncle and the general knowledge of juniors made it very difficult for him to start; He was later sentenced to fifteen years.

As for opening a casino, the two cousins who watched the casino were even less of a problem, and they were caught and released after being released, anyway, they were close to home, and they didn't delay eating at all when they got out of prison.

However, the two drug addicts are actually a little regretful, they are both extremely smart, and even the landlord was not their opponent back then, but unfortunately one overdosed on drugs at the age of 20 and "died young", and the other was forcibly detained in the field because of too many relapses, and it has been a long time since I saw him.

It's not that I'm noble, I'm clean and washed in such an environment, I don't get out of the mud and I don't do bad things. Actually, the real reason is because I am at least 5 years older than all of them, and we are not in the same era of stormy times.

If you count from the day the big drug lord in the alley was shot, it was not too late for me to become the first brother in the alley, and I started to help them get ahead and attend parent-teacher conferences, even though I was only a sophomore in high school that year.

And I'm only 26 years old this year, which shows how early these bastards became famous.

The limit of fate is that the tribulations you see are nothing more than a projection of the fragility of your heart. Looking back on the turning point in my life that evolved from a misunderstanding that was ridiculous, I feel emotional.

It was the last half semester of the third year of high school, and as the boss of the No. 2 Middle School, I joined the boss of the No. 1 Middle School and the boss of the vocational high school to go to the old family of the technical school to discuss "management issues". Dozens of young people wrapped in machetes wrapped in newspapers stood unscrupulously in the old-fashioned tube building, fighting and scolding, the kid heard the news and hid quickly, leaving only a 60-year-old grandmother stationed at home, provoking dozens of households up and down the floor to show their heads to watch the excitement.

I was smoking outside to see the terrain blocking the boy's retreat, when a ragged old man came over with a honeycomb coal flatbed truck. There is a semi-open small slope in front of the door, the old man has accelerated three times in a row and has never pulled up, seeing that he is really helpless, I quenched my spit, grabbed the newspaper with a squeaky nest, and then accelerated to help him push.

Who would have thought that this old man couldn't control the speed of the car after pulling it on the ground, and the body shook one by one, so that I lost my fulcrum and fell to the ground with a pop, fell a dog gnawed on the mud, broke two front teeth, and the bright machete also fell to the ground with a clatter, and the audience was silent. Whether it's the little friends who went to help with me, or the melon-eating people in the corridor, I don't understand what it is like for a gangster boss with a machete to break his teeth and help others; Looking at the flattery of the old man who bent over and grabbed him, I had the heart to die at that time, and all the cruel and murderous images in the first half of my life have since come to naught.

The joke spread and I was disheartened. After that, I reduced my social activities and reviewed my homework at school with peace of mind, but as a result, I was admitted to a second university.

I haven't been back in this familiar and unfamiliar environment for a year, and I can't afford to be paid for protection money by a new street boss.

Fortunately, it was a smooth arrival home.

Father is old again. Since he was transferred from an accountant to a janitor three years ago in the factory, he has never smiled again; This change of identity strongly stimulates his self-esteem, and whenever he looks at the place where he has worked all his life, his eyes always show a melancholy and confused look, and he can't figure out why he is honest and honest all his life, but in the end he doesn't even give him the opportunity to retire with dignity.

In fact, he just doesn't understand the logic of this magnificent era, and anyone who sets foot in the air will be abandoned by the times, which has nothing to do with IQ talent and diligence. It's like a boat in the waves, no matter how hard you row, you can't resist the wind and tide! Heaven and earth are unkind, and all things are just dogs.

"Dad, I'm back", the street figure staggered, I stared at his gray hair, the corners of my eyes a little wet.

"Oh, I'm home so soon," he looked up.

"What is this for?" I gestured to the tool in his hand.

"It's nothing, that faucet on the street is leaking, I'll fix it."

We used to have only one communal water tap in this neighborhood, but after the water was brought into the house, this faucet was idle, but it has been running water, probably because it has been in disrepair and has recently started to leak. He has been a good person all his life, and this kind of thing is unshirkable.

"I'll come," I stopped, handing over the suitcase in my hand. "When will Mom come back".

"She is working overtime today, we will cook first, and wait for her to come back and eat together."

"Where's my brother?"

"I just had a holiday today, and it's time to be back soon."

I cleaned up the faucet and went home with him to ask as we walked. As before, we neither say hypocritical words nor transgress the rules of our identity; The friendship between father and son is as light as water!

"Dad, let him pass the past, I'm starting to earn money now, and there is a great opportunity for future development, so I don't need to worry too much about my family's life in the future."

I enlightened him. Going out for a year has taught me a lot of things that I hadn't felt before. In life, setbacks are inevitable, and lows are inevitable; Loneliness and loneliness are just stepping stones to success, people who have experienced the peaks and valleys, as long as they are patient enough, can stand the grievances, and keep the bottom line, everything will pass; Behind the hard work, there will be a double reward from the heavens; Life will not abandon you, and fate will not abandon you. Just like Xi Murong said: Whether it is poetry or song, people or hearts, they are the most moving when they are the simplest. Wading through the river, thousands of hibiscus. The poem is simple, and the heart is simple.

"Hey, it's okay, I don't have anything, you save the money you earn and keep it for your future daughter-in-law. You have to really have a heart, in two days accompany me to the city, buy a ring for your mother, the year before last you worked for the first month of 400 yuan salary, I bought a ring for your mother, but the Spring Festival mahjong was lost when it was lost, she was not happy for a year, I looked at it and felt distressed, this year the Chinese New Year and then buy it back for her, we make her happy and happy", he should be and.

"Yes, no problem, why don't we go to the city together as a family and buy something for the family, to be honest, I gave a bonus of 200,000 yuan this time, and you don't have to worry about your brother's tuition and living expenses, you and your mother should enjoy happiness for a lifetime." I'm a little emotional. I have achieved nothing all these years, and I have not contributed to my family, and during these silent days, they have said nothing, but their sad eyes have gradually dimmed their brilliance. I know the grievances and disappointments in their hearts.

The next day.

"Dad, Mom, how about this?" In front of the Chow Tai Fook counter, I asked, pointing to a sapphire pendant necklace on the counter.

"Hmm," Dad didn't say a word, but there was a sparkle of affirmation in his eyes.

"It's not pretty," Mom leaned over and glanced at it, turned and walked away.

"Mom, take it and try it", my brother encouraged him.

"Well, take it out and take a look", I also beckoned to the waiter.

"Oops, my skin is too dark to look good on this", my mother objected directly with strong words on the side.

"Dad, bring it to Mom and try it, money is not a problem." I looked at my hesitant father and knew he definitely wanted to buy it.

"Big brother and sister-in-law, is it possible that your son is filial, you should accept their heart, and others want to come." The waiter took out the jewelry box while bewitching the side.

"Don't" Mom is far away, I know it's the price that causes the distance.

"Dad", I handed him the necklace and motioned to walk over.

"Come, put it on" It's rare for Dad to be tough once, and he can't help but say that he will pull Mom back.

"Oh, hey, don't," Mom Ai Ai muttered quietly, like a little daughter-in-law. But the heart is definitely sweeter than honey. I've never been romantic in my life, and now it's really hard for them to show affection in front of my brother and me.

My brother and I looked at each other and laughed silently.

"Brother, do you remember when we were young, we came home from school and ate White Rabbit toffee together? Every time you put the sugar in your mouth and then give me half of the big one, and you eat the half of the small one, then I feel so happy, just like today."

My eyes moistened, and suddenly a warm current rushed through my body. It turns out that the moment you are attentive, family affection is always by your side, even a subtle gesture or a thoughtful word can make everyone's heart closer and warmer.

The days at home are always idle, which gives me a lot of time to think and remember many things, such as life and love.

"Hey, how are you doing?" On the third day home, I called Su Ying.

"Well, I'm fine, what about you?"

"It's okay, it's idle to go back to your hometown,"

"Oh, it's cold, you wear more clothes," she said for the first time.

"Well, I'm all lying under the covers, you should wear more clothes, it's colder in the north," I lazily reminded her.

"Hehe, you don't know, we have a heating here, and if you wear too much, you will panic." She was starting to get angry.

"Okay, I didn't say it," I chuckled. I have known her for a short time, and I only have two opportunities to meet, but every time I chat with her, I feel sweet, and the thoughts in my heart linger like silk.

"It's almost the New Year, I have some souvenirs here, do you need to send some to you, give your parents a taste", I was playing Xiao Jiujiu in my heart, and wanted to make friends with my future father-in-law and mother-in-law.

"Ha, even if you have a conscience, remember to send things to my parents."

"It's okay, it's a little bit of my heart,".

"Hey, no, I haven't told my parents about you yet, how do you explain this? Are you trying to do something", she reacted suddenly.

Hehe, you've finally got your brains open, I thought to myself.

"Wouldn't it be over if you just told them, and you can also give your relatives a try," I said.

"Oh, no, don't worry about them," she said again.

"Why don't I send more of them, send them all some for the New Year, and give them a mention by the way." I pretended to make up her mind.

"What?" She froze.

"Mention me", I blushed.

"So what's the relationship between the two of us?" She suddenly lowered her voice and asked me nervously.

"What do you say?" I sat up nervously, and even had a little anticipation.

"Are we talking about it? I feel like it." For a long time, Su Ying summed herself up. "Alright then, I'll tell them so"; She seemed to make a decision calmly.

"Of course, we are," I said to her with a long sigh of relief, slowly reclining back into bed.

In the long river of years, a lifetime is not long, it is a kind of luck to meet a beloved, when love comes, you must know how to cherish, the eyes are raining for her, but the heart is holding an umbrella for her, this is love.

It's hard to get back in the morning. The Spring Festival is getting closer and closer, and I'm still so idle.

"You're about to be a senior, what are your plans for the future?" On the hillside, my brother and I chatted while climbing the mountain. I'm five years older than him, and my brothers and I have been very compatible since we were young. And because my parents are inactive in education, my younger brother discusses many things with me.

"My school is not very good, my major is average, and I don't have a clear career goal yet, but I follow a few senior brothers in school to do some part-time training work, and it's no problem to find something to transition after graduation."

"In terms of career, there is no urgency, more experience in the society, and there are suitable opportunities. I'll go to Shanghai first to lay a foundation, and if I have the opportunity, my brothers will work together. ”

"Well, I think so too, it's more important to improve your abilities. Solve problems when you encounter them, brother, this is what you taught me when I was a child, and I have always felt that it makes sense."

"Okay, you can count it in your heart, and tell me anything about us at any time."

"Good".

How to go on the road of life requires not only thinking, but also balance. Thinking is to understand oneself and know how to choose the path to take in the future; Balance is to reasonably allocate people's limited energy to the right place, which is called accumulation.