My name is Xu An, female, born on January 1, 1994, 22 years old this year, my father said that I am very good at picking the day, and I ran out of my mother's belly on New Year's Day, which is the most festive day of the year, and my arrival is joyful.

Everyone said that my life is very good, and I will be rich and rich in the future, and my father heard this and specially found a professional to tell my fortune, and it is said that I was a very virtuous and respected monk at that time, commonly known as 'God Stick'.

God, oh, no, the monk said that my life is a sign of great wealth and nobility, and what makes my parents happiest is that the monk said that I will be safe and happy all my life.

Yes, peace and joy.

What parent doesn't want their children to be like that for the rest of their lives?

I was the meat that fell from my mother's body, the treasure of my father's heart, and the daughter they had been waiting for for seven whole years.

By the way, I forgot to mention, I also have an older brother, and since the day I was born, my brother has had a disease called "sister control", and he is terminally ill, and there is no cure.

Dad gave the monk a large sum of money, and spread his hexagrams, eager to let everyone know that I was a blessed girl, and for a time the monk became famous and resounded throughout the country.

It's just that the signboard of this high monk was completely smashed twelve years later, and it was the Xu family who made him famous all over the country that smashed his signboard.

That's my dad.

The reason is very simple, the Xu family suffered an indelible blow, and my life has changed dramatically since that day.

On May 8, 2009, I will always remember that day, a fire that burned everything, my home, my loved ones, the 'good life' that I was proud of since I was a child.

I watched the fire devour the roof, the curtains, and the floor like a hungry wolf, and the men's cursing mixed with my mother's helpless cries crept into my ears, and I watched the man's filthy body pressing against my mother's body, and his mouth kept saying crazy words.

"He ruined my life, and I ruined his home."

"Xu Shiwen, aren't you very capable? See? I played with your woman, and I want to play with your daughter to death. ”

"Don't blame me, blame your father, and your good brother who is praised by the world, the men of your Xu family, one is more ruthless than the other, no, you have no heart, the Xu family has no heart!"

"They ruined you, they were the ones."

Those filthy hands touched my body, tore my clothes, and every man's move, every word, was like a sharp blade cutting through my flesh······

Even today, in 2016, that scene is still like a nightmare, eroding my life day and night.

My name is Xu An, born on January 1, 1994, I am 22 years old, my mother died in a fire many years ago, and since that day, I have no father and no brother.

There is no heart either.

I've lived seven years haunted by nightmares, like soulless puppets by day and lonely ghosts by night.

I'm fed up with days like this, I want to escape, I want to be free.

Even if the road ahead is thorny, even if one step forward is the abyss, even if this incomplete life is exchanged for a period of freedom and happiness, I am willing.

On March 10, 2016, on this day, I returned to Beicheng, the city that gave birth to me, raised me, destroyed me, destroyed me, and destroyed me.

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February 13, 2017, in the eighth year of amnesia.

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