Chapter 138 It's all because I care

Cheng Xian looked at the strange Iman in front of him, and couldn't believe his eyes. How did Iman become the way he is now? In his heart, Iman is simple and carefree, and he is a Xiaoqiang who can't be killed. But her current appearance, except for suspicion, is malaise.

All this must have been instigated by Yan Guangchen, and if he didn't see him for a week, Iman must have hid in Yan Guangchen again. Looking at Yan Guangchen standing motionless in the rain, he really has a taste of love saints. Cheng Xian was a little impatient, but his eyes were as firm as ever.

"Manman, you don't believe me, do you?"

Iman looked at Cheng Xian's serious appearance, and only smiled bitterly in his heart. For the person of Chengxian, how much trust you have, how much destruction you have. No matter how determined his eyes were, they couldn't hide the calculations in his heart. Although Iman couldn't see these calculations, she could still feel them to some extent.

Therefore, Iman once again suppressed the anger rising in his heart, as if saying to himself: "Since Qingyang's death, I have been feeling guilty. I was wondering if I hadn't been so willful at that time and couldn't help arguing with Qingyang, then he wouldn't have to die. Every time I wake up from a nightmare, my heart feels like I'm being pricked by a thousand needles. I will never forget what Qingyang said when he died. He never blamed . I was even afraid that I wouldn't be able to take care of myself. ”

At this point, Iman choked up again, "But, in the end, I found out that it was you, and it was all because of you. The first thing you did when you returned home was to kill my Qingyang. Cheng Xian, how the hell did you do it? You don't have nightmares every time. Isn't it that everyone who is good to me, you hold a grudge and want them to die! ”

"You say I wronged you, then you tell me if it's okay, you say Qingyang didn't kill you, you tell me if it's okay!"

Iman's begging made Cheng Xian unable to face her in an instant, and he had long known that whether he admitted it or not, this matter would be fatal to Iman. But for Iman's sake, he couldn't admit it. He made up his mind to hide it, and in the face of Iman's begging, he relented.

"Manman, I also had no choice, I didn't mean to. I've been feeling guilty every day for the past four years. Every time I wake up, I'm sweating. I don't say it, I'm just afraid of hurting you. Manman, you believe me......"

If it was really Chengxian, in fact, Iman had already guessed that it was Chengxian, but she refused to believe it. So after Yan Guangchen told her the truth, she ran all the way to Chengxian to ask for an explanation, regardless of the wind and rain. Although she hated Cheng Xian, how much she hoped in her heart that all this had nothing to do with Cheng Xian.

However, Cheng Xian admitted! Cheng Xian's admission is that for Iman, he has lost even the idea of continuing to live in the end. The thoughts that had supported her all the way through the rain collapsed in an instant.

is such a city display, still trying to talk about trust. Trust, that's what someone like him deserves to talk about.

Iman's whole body couldn't help but tremble, and he couldn't tell whether it was anger or despair. This feeling of near-numbness devoured Iman's perception like a poisonous snake, gradually enveloping her all.

Iman was so tired, so tired that he didn't know how to move on with his life. Qingyang is dead, but she has been with Qingyang's murderer for so long. I even liked him deeply and even married him. I don't know if Qingyang will laugh at her obsession while looking at Iman in the sky.

Cheng Xian completely felt the feeling of losing in the end, and with it came unspeakable heartache. "Manman, I didn't mean it, fourteen years ago, it was because of that bastard boy in Qingyang that you ignored me. I recognized you when I returned home. I see that he makes you sad, and I can't help but want to...... Manman, I really didn't mean to. We've been together for so long, don't you know who I am? ”

Humanness? What a ruthless person Cheng Xian is, he can even take the life of an innocent person. It's clear that you don't even like it, why are you so ruthless!

Iman's heart was filled with resentment, and tears poured out from his eyes like the rain. Even the words that came out were trembling, "Actually, you wanted me to die at the beginning, if it wasn't for Qingyang, it would be me who died." ”

"No, I never thought like that, I was just too impulsive, Manman, I have cared for you so much in the past four years, don't you feel the slightest feeling?"

Cheng Xian's eyes were still so deep, but in his eyes, Iman couldn't see himself. Cheng Xian's words became more and more ethereal, and he was getting farther and farther away from her. Iman couldn't remember how Cheng Xian cared for her. I can't even remember the bits and pieces of being with Cheng Xian clearly.

Full of resentment, after all, it was replaced by a sentence, "Chengxian, Qingyang's life is so cheap." I'm going to sue you for taking responsibility for what you've done! ”

Cheng Xian's guilt turned into anger again, and he grabbed Iman's body with both hands, "Manman, how can you do this to me!" I'm all because I care about you, Manman. ”

Or is it because you care? Is it because he cares, or is he simply not afraid to take responsibility for what he does. He said that others were naïve, but he was really naïve. Because of his naivety, Iman suffered a lot, and even lost all his youth.

In the relationship, no matter what kind of contradictions arise between men and women, the conclusion is drawn because they care too much. In fact, caring is an excuse for harm. With this natural protective clothing, even if it hurts to the bones, you don't know it.

"Because you care, you've killed the person who's best for me. Because you care, you go to Xiao San'er again and again. Because you care, you beat me, scold me, and slander me. Or because you care, even if the relationship is gone, you still have to lock me up. Cheng Xian, you hurt me so much! It's so bitter! ”

When Iman said these words, the strength of his whole body seemed to be drained in an instant. Her body was as limp as a puddle of mud, and her whole body was like a fluttering leaf, and even her soul was about to fall.

The fear in Chengxian's heart grew stronger and worse, and he desperately tried to regain Iman's heart. "I know, Manman, I know all the pain in your heart. Shall we do it all over again? Shall we get out of here and go to a place where no one knows and live our lives well? Let him pass all the things of the past. None of us mentioned it, okay? ”

Good no good? It seemed to be a request, but every time he said something like this, he was waiting for Iman's affirmation. How could he ever have given Iman the opportunity to choose for himself? No, never.

Cheng Xian's grip on Iman's body tightened. Iman's pale face grew paler and paler, and the dead silence in his eyes made Cheng Xian feel frightened. He didn't have time to wait for Iman's nod, but instead asked, "Manman, are you uncomfortable?" Obedient, let's go home. ”

As soon as Cheng Xian's hands were released, Iman fell down. Go home, where is her home? Her home was gone four years ago, and since then, it has been just a locked marriage in Chengxian. And this marriage, which never really began, has already ended.

The rain was pouring down, but Iman couldn't feel it. The grievances and grievances between him and Chengxian seem to be disappearing with this rain.

Cheng Xian's heart was like a knife, he could feel Iman's despair and powerlessness, but he never had a chance to make up for it in this life. His tears mixed with the pouring rain flowed down and he couldn't tell the difference. This kind of bitter self-blame made him almost break all his feelings. A heart fell in all its glory, and all of it fell into the rain.

He rarely cried, and it could even be said that he never cried. As a man, he can't cry. No matter how difficult the situation was, he gritted his teeth and endured it. But in the face of today's Iman, who was injured by him, he felt that tears were more painful than bleeding.

Yan Guangchen walked over, with the same sadness in his eyes. He had stood behind Iman for so long, and Iman had never looked back. He fulfilled all of Iman's choices, but he couldn't fulfill Chengxian. Chengxian, it is because of Chengxian that so much pain and misfortune have been created in Iman!

He punched Cheng Xian's body, still feeling angry. Of course, Cheng Xian would not tolerate Yan Guangchen's presumptuousness, and the two of them quickly made a mess, rolling down in the rain, muddy and angry.

On the face of it, they are inseparable from the fight for Iman. However, they were immersed in their anger and unwillingness, and no one noticed Iman, who had fainted in the rain. Is this kind of relationship really a real feeling?

The bewitching woman is leaning against the door to watch the big play at the moment, and she doesn't care about Iman's life or death.

The rain became heavier and heavier, and the water bubbles that had accumulated on the ground joined together and were washed away by a greater force. Along with the dead leaves that had fallen to the ground, they also disappeared. Those sad stories seem to have come to an end with such a heavy rain. Love, hate, infatuation, resentment, all the care and discare will eventually be buried by time.

[When I wrote this, I was almost abused to death by myself. But time itself is cruel, and even if we don't want to believe it, it will still take away the original beauty and leave us with an unrecognizable reality. Everything between Iman and Cheng Xian has come to a low point, but most of this is caused by Cheng Xian's character, isn't it. The following plot,I won't leak it.,It's basically a bland.。 If I abuse it again, my little heart won't be able to accept it. Thank you for your support! The most abusive ones have been written, and I believe that the next one will be much better. Our family Manman will eventually mature. 】