Chapter 21: Gloomy and sad
Although Liu Ning didn't think that Yang Huai would appear here in such a way and under such circumstances, he thought that this was a good opportunity to take advantage of. Liu Ning watched the light in Tang Changyu's eyes being cruelly extinguished by himself, and the spirit of the past was gone, like a child who had lost his cherished toy, looking at Tang Changyu's already reddish eyes, a sense of guilt and self-blame came to his heart.
"Aning, do you really want to go with him?" Tang Changyu's weak voice broke into Liuning's ears, and Liuning was silent.
"A-Ning, let me ask you one last time, are you really not going home with me?" The sadness that Tang Changyu tried his best to suppress poured into Liuning's ears, and his bottomless black eyes stared at Liuning.
Liu Ning didn't dare to look up and look directly, and said in a low voice: "I'm sorry." A tear fell to the ground, and she couldn't count the first few words she said sorry today.
Tang Changyu groped and took out a jade pendant from his arms, Yang Huai smiled disdainfully, Tang Changyu rubbed the delicate patterns on the jade pendant, as if he was talking to himself sadly: "A-Ning, I looked for you in Turkia for three whole months, and waited for you in Chang'an for three months, after so much, we finally got together again, I once thought, when we go home together, I will give you this jade pendant again, now it seems that there is no need, today, everything between you and me is like this jade pendant." ”
Liu Ning finally raised his eyes to look at Tang Changyu, only to see Tang Changyu drop the jade pendant in his hand on the hard ground, and it was smashed and shattered, shattered, Tang Changyu stepped on the fragments of those jade pendants without any expression and walked outside, and when he passed by Yang Huai and Liu Ning's side, he just glanced at the two of them lightly, and there were too many feelings between these eyes, which made Liu Ning unbearable.
After Tang Changyu left, Yang Huai grabbed Liuning's hand very excitedly, but was coldly thrown away by Liuning, and Liuning asked very coldly, "Why are you here?" What exactly do you want to do? ”
Yang Huai didn't care about Liuning's current mood fluctuations, he could understand Liuning's current mood, and just said patiently: "A-Ning, I didn't leave at all after sending you into Chang'an City that day, I have been following you and trying to protect you, I see that you are not doing well, I am here to pick you up and return to Turkic, didn't you say that you want to go back to Turkic?" Come with me......"
Liu Ning didn't answer Yang Huai's words, but asked coldly, "Why did you lie to me?" ”
Yang Huai was stunned and didn't react for a while, and then Liu Ning said coldly: "You told me that Changyu had been looking for me for a month and left, but he just said that he had been looking for me for three months!" It's obviously three months, why are you lying to me! It's because of you that we missed it! That's why so much has happened between us! Brother Yang Huai! Why are you lying to me! Why! ”
Liu Ning's emotions began to collapse as she spoke, it turned out to be a question, but the crying became thicker and thicker, she had never cried in front of Tang Changyu, and he had never been as fragile and helpless as she was now, she kept all this sadness to herself. Yang Huai then remembered the lie he had said, he didn't expect that what he said would indirectly cause so many things to follow, if he could go back to the beginning, he would never leave Liuning because of his selfishness, so he would not let Liuning suffer so much.
Yang Huai stretched out his hand to hug Liuning, he never thought that he would see such a vulnerable Liuning, he was distressed, and wanted to give her warmth and support, and not as an elder brother, but was pushed away by Liuning with all his strength, Yang Huai seemed to feel that Liuning would never forgive himself again, Yang Huai would not excuse his guilt, some things had to be said after all, although now was not a good time for him to wait.
Yang Huai said weakly: "A-Ning, after so many years, don't you understand? I like you, I love you, I selfishly want to keep you by my side, I don't want to see you have a bad life and be wronged, I want to take you away and fly high to do what you want to do, I am not qualified to say such things when you are happy and happy, but now you are not doing well, I don't want to be your brother, I want to be with you forever, the two of us are childhood sweethearts, I have wanted to marry you since I was a child, I want to protect you, I will rely on you in whatever you do, this love is no less than that Tang Changyu's, am I wrong? ”
There was no warmth in Liuning's cold eyes, her soul had been taken away by Tang Changyu, even if the injured body was incomplete, she would not give up. At this time, she was not in the mood to listen to other men say sweet words, and there was no one other than Tang Changyu who could heal the pain in her heart.
Liuning pushed Yang Huai out, she was very confused now, she just wanted to be alone and quiet, Yang Huai was obediently pushed by her, he said that Liuning would follow whatever he wanted, and he did it all the time. When I was young, I thought I was young and ignorant, but what about now? Whether it is to surrender for Liuning, because Liuning's words and his former friend Jingli turned against each other, he desperately rescued Liuning in the fire, and has been silently guarding on the way to the battle, rescuing the dying Liuning under the cliff, in order to save Liuning, I don't know how much labor was sold in exchange for precious medicinal materials, how could the cold-faced general who was invincible in the past ever live such a day, and all this is for his obsession since childhood, the childhood sweetheart Liuning.
Yang Huai has long forgotten when Liuning walked into his heart, only remembering that he had just been rescued from the pile of dead people at that time, the smell of disgusting carrion corpses could not be left behind, the whole city was washed in blood, he had no parents at a young age and lived in a cold and impersonal world, that was the laughing and cheerful Liuning walked into his life like an angel, in the days when Liuning was there, seeing her smile, Yang Huai always felt extra warm and happy, as if he could temporarily forget those dark pasts and get closer to the light step by step, That's when he vowed to do something in the future, protect her, and only smile at her alone.
Yang Huai was pushed out of the door, the door was slammed shut, Liu Ning sat down against the door, put his head on his knees, hugged himself tightly with his arms, in this cold night, but he couldn't feel a trace of temperature, Liu Ning said to Yang Huai outside the door: "Brother Yang Huai, I'm sorry." Liuning doesn't remember how much I'm sorry I said today, "I'll go back to Turkic, but if I'm with you, I've always regarded you as my own brother, and it's come to this, I won't hold a grudge against you, you go, I want to stay alone." ”
There was no sound outside the door, but Yang Huai did not leave, but sat in front of Liuning's door, listening to the low cry that was extremely suppressed inside. Liu Ning picked up pieces of broken jade pendants and held them in his hands, the fragments cut through Liu Ning's palm, but Liu Ning didn't feel any pain, and the bright red blood flowed down the damaged patterns, leaving a beautiful but dazzling trace on the jade pendant.
No one slept peacefully this night, whether it was inside or outside the city, everyone in this story was in different places, tasting the joys and sorrows of Chang'an City alone.