Searching for Memories (Part II)
"Luo Sihan, maybe what you said is right, I will regret that I remembered those things when I think of those things, but that is also my choice, I will not give up, even if it will make my heart ache in the end, life is better than death, I will never regret it," Cong Xinyue looked at Luo Sihan squarely, and did not avoid Luo Sihan's eyes full of pain.
Luo Sihan lowered his head, a deep sense of powerlessness welled up in his heart, and after a deep sigh, he slowly raised his head to look at the sky, muttering to himself, "This is fate, you used your life to create a beautiful world for her, but she didn't want to stay, I tried my best to stop but still couldn't stop her from wanting to remember you, it seems that I can only say I'm sorry,"
Cong Xinyue stared at Luo Sihan and listened to him muttering to himself. It wasn't until Luo Sihan looked back at himself that he spoke, "Say, what's the truth?" ”
"You go find a person named Mu Yachuan, she knows everything," Luo Sihan shook his head helplessly, "I only know a few things, she knows everything,"
"I understand," Xin Yue thought of another question, "Then why do I have amnesia, you always know this,"
"You don't have PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) caused amnesia," Luo Sihan pointed to Xin Yue's brain, "Your memories were deliberately hidden,"
"What do you mean?" Xin Yue seems to understand, but she doesn't seem to understand.
"It's just someone who used a trick to lock up your memory, do you understand?" Rosham drew a circle in his head.
"You mean memory impairment? Someone has set up memory impairment for me through psychological suggestion? Cong Xinyue finally understood what Luo Sihan meant, but the news was so incredible that Cong Xinyue could hardly believe it.
"Yes, it was that person who deliberately used this method to block all your memories of him in order not to make you sad because of his departure, he hopes that you can live happily all the time, instead of living in sad thoughts every day," Luo Sihan didn't know what to say in order for Cong Xinyue to understand that person's mind.
From Xin Yue's frowning, she was sure that Luo Sihan was telling the truth, but if this was the case, then it should be her lover who sealed her memory, but why didn't she feel it at all?
"You mean the person who sealed my memories because he loved me and was afraid that I would be sad about his departure?" From Xin Yue's recollection of her dreams during that time, she was always in heartache and sadness, but after waking up, she didn't remember anything, and she couldn't understand why she was so sad in her dreams.
"Yes, are you willing to fulfill his wish and stop looking at that memory?" Luo Sihan asked Cong Xinyue again, with a hint of request in his tone.
"If what you say is true, I think I have to get that memory back, the person who loves me, in order to make me live happily, sealed my memory, if I don't find anything, I may really be able to live like this forever, but now that I know, I can't live without knowing what to do," Cong Xinyue wanted to know who the person who loved him was, what kind of person he was, why did he leave him, and under what circumstances he set up a memory disorder for himself.
"From Xin Yue, have you really decided?" Luo Sihan finally confirmed again, "No regrets? ”
"No regrets!" From Xin Yue's gaze was strangely firm.
"Okay, I suggest that you go to see Mu Yachuan and then find someone who is at the same level as you who can hypnotize, and maybe there is a chance to help you unlock the memory barrier that person has set for you," Luo Sihan pointed to Xin Yue's brain.
"I see, and you're always this guy and that guy, what's his name?" From Xin Yue, she felt that Luo Sihan should no longer hide his name.
"His name is Moxi, and there is another name called Liang Ze, Moxi is Liang Ze's second personality, and later merged with Liang Ze and became the main personality that occupies that body," Luo Sihan briefly explained the relationship between Moxi and Liang Ze.
"Which one do I like?" From Xin Yue asked.
"Mo Xi, you and he also have a daughter named Mo Xiaoxia," Luo Si Han smiled at Xin Yue.
"Kid? I still have a child with that guy? No wonder I always dream that I have a child by my side," Xin Yue nodded as she thought.
"I'll take you back to your own house and see, maybe you can think of something," Luo Sihan decided that since he had already said it, there was no need to hide it anymore, and if no one could unlock Cong Xinyue's memory, then it wouldn't hurt to let her know a little more about her past.
Luo Sihan took Xin Yue to the small building where she and Moxi lived. The two of them only realized a problem when they got there, neither of them had a door key. From Xinyue, because she lost her memory, she didn't know that she had such a house, let alone know where the key was. In the end, Luo Sihan could only use his ability to slid the door and pick the lock, and pry the door open.
"I don't know if you have any anti-theft devices, it would be a big joke if we were caught as thieves," Luo Sihan muttered as he picked the lock.
"It's okay, didn't you say this is my home, I forgot to bring the key, it's okay for someone to pick the lock, you can rest assured," Xin Yue looked around, and felt that there was indeed a familiar feeling that she couldn't speak.
When Luo Sihan pried the door open and the two walked into the small building, Cong Xinyue immediately stood in place in shock, many scenes in her dream were exactly the same as here. From Xin Yue, she felt as if she was in her own dream. From Xin Yue no longer paid attention to Luo Sihan, and walked around and watched. The kitchen, the sofa in the living room, the bedroom on the second floor, the bathroom, every place is so strange and familiar. Obviously, I don't have any memory of this house in my mind, but I feel familiar from Xin Yue.
When Xin Yue opened the innermost bedroom, the red sheets that suddenly caught her eye suddenly flashed in her mind the appearance of a couple of men and women getting married, but she couldn't remember what the man looked like. Could it be that I was here to have a wedding with that man? From Xin Yue's slightest impression, the buzzing voice in her head sounded again when she tried to think about it.
This time, Cong Xinyue tried to ignore the voice that made her dizzy, and wanted to find memories through that voice, but suddenly a giant cockroach-like animal appeared in Cong Xinyue's mind, which made her open her eyes in fright.
"Are you okay," Luo Sihan saw that Cong Xinyue was sweating with fright, and immediately stepped forward to help him.
"It's okay," Xin Yue calmed down, "I now believe that the person who set me up with memory impairment must be someone who knows me very well, otherwise he wouldn't know that I am most afraid of animals like cockroaches,"
"Did you see cockroaches?" Luo Sihan asked curiously.
Xin Yue nodded, "It seems that I really need to find a professional to help me really solve the memory disorder in my brain,"
To Cong Xinyue's surprise, Xue Mufeng quickly arranged a prison visit. From Xin Yue, she could go to see the person named Mu Yachuan early the next morning.