Manuscripts may be stopped for a longer period of time.

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I'm sorry to break my promise to many people.

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I am an incompetent writer and an incompetent daughter.

My dad and I often had conflicts because of my writing, and he thought that I should have a decent job, a good future, and be decent and generous to people and things, but I didn't like that.

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I've always hated my dad. He was able to educate me about every mistake for a long time, and he taught me for hours at a time, and I didn't like him very much.

He's a Virgo who strives for perfection and demands the best in everything, but I'm not the one who likes to be the best.

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I used to be angry with my dad a lot.

My dad didn't let me write a manuscript, I wrote it secretly, I wrote it blindly, I secretly bought a mobile phone when I was a child and secretly wrote a manuscript, and secretly went to an Internet café (not to play games, or to write a manuscript on word, which was never published) Later, my dad found out, he scolded me a lot, and when he was most angry, he scolded disobediently, sometimes scolded me for livestock, scolded me for being a scumbag, and scolded me for being a pig and dog.

I hate him very much, and I have low self-esteem, I think his scolding is right, for a long time, I have always felt that I am a scumbag, but I still want to write a manuscript, I try to tell myself that when I have done something but still can't do it, I have to learn to forgive myself, but I have never really forgiven myself.

When the holidays were approaching, I thought every day that I wouldn't go home, I would go home later, I didn't want to be educated by my dad.

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Finally home.

My sister secretly told me that my dad had just been diagnosed with a heart attack and told me to go home and not be angry with him.

I was silent, speechless.

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In fact, I know that he is for my good, he doesn't want me to stay up late, it's not good for my health, he doesn't like me to cry, it's not good for my health, he hopes that I will be good in the future, but I don't have anything to make him proud.

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There really wasn't a thing that made him proud.

Every one of my relatives' children is very good, with the best grades, Chinese painting, calligraphy, football, gymnastics, piano, guzheng, dancing, and singing.

It's just me, as the eldest sister in the younger generation, cowering and doing nothing.

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I really want my sister to lie to me.

My dad will still be the same as before, as long as I am at home, he will educate me, talk to me for a long time, don't let me stay up late, don't let me play with my phone for a long time, don't let me do this and that.

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My sister just told me that he saw the signing contract I had written in hiding, and he said to my sister, it's good to know.

I was silent again.

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I'm sorry, but I want to try not to make him angry during these times, I just want him to be happy.

Maybe I won't be writing for a long time, I just want to make him happy.

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I'm sorry, I'm an incompetent writer.

Disappointed everyone.

For a while before, I doubted myself, I knew that I was going to give the manuscript an ending, but I couldn't write it, my thoughts were very messy, so I stopped, I promised everyone to update it for the New Year, but I'm sorry, I broke my promise.

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Above..

An unfilial daughter, an incompetent writer's self-talk. Degree of literature