Chapter 122: Secrets can also be shields
Leng Xiang Palace is not very calm at this time, after Ning Xiang left, Ah Ming took the initiative to talk to Ruoxi, since the misunderstanding was eliminated, there was no more mustard in his heart, so he naturally opened his heart and accompanied Ruoxi to scold the ladies and princes in the court very seriously. Ruoxi was very sad in her heart, but she didn't know it, she just held the sesame sauce sugar shortbread and ate it vigorously, Ah Ming was afraid that she would eat it badly according to this eating method, so he kindly ate the rest of the food for her.
Full of wine and food, Ruoxi said that she was tired after talking for a morning, leaned on the side of the bed and gasped, squinted her eyes, and just saw Ah Ming's ten fingers as long as ghost claws, the day before yesterday she took the opportunity of his bath to cut off half of it, and the half that fell off was still crooked on his fingers, looking like a funny clown, he couldn't help but laugh, and took out scissors from the small box at the head of the bed and stuffed it to him, "Go cut it yourself." ”
Amin obediently took the scissors, squatted in the light by himself, and cut off his long nails. Ruoxi was panicked, looking at his focused expression, and couldn't help but ask curiously, "Ah Ming, how old are you this year?" ”
"Eighteen." He continued to cut his nails.
Eighteen, so young, from this silent face, I can't tell that Ah Ming is only so young, Ruoxi sighed, "You just said that you were here at the age of thirteen, so how hard you should have lived all these years!" Ruoxi flickered her eyes, rolled over, and lay flat on the bed, not knowing where she was looking, "When I was thirteen years old...... Well, it's been relatively easy, at least, it's much better than you. "At the age of thirteen, she was with her husband on the Xinglin Mountain, unrestrained, and the man who was obviously not smiling seemed to be a different person, and often told jokes to himself in a good temper, although she rarely cooperated with him to laugh, but as long as he saw her smile a little, Mr. smiled more happily than her.
At least...... She was still loved by someone at that time, and she didn't lose her freedom so completely.
The sound of Kazkaz cutting his nails stopped suddenly, and Armin looked back at Ruoxi, who was barely visible on the bed and barely saw a human figure bulging, "Don't just pity me, you are a year younger than me, hurry up and call brother." ”
Ruoxi snorted, "Call your brother?" I don't. I have an older brother. ”
Amin was stunned for a moment, "Then why haven't I seen your brother come to see you these days?" Or does he not know that you are suffering here? ”
Ruoxi smiled bitterly, shook his head, and didn't care whether Ah Ming could see it or not, so he continued, "My brother and I were separated when I was five years old, and he was thirteen years old when he was thirteen. Counting, if my brother is still alive, he should be twenty-six or seventeen, and I don't know if he has married a daughter-in-law, it is best to have a few more little dolls and flow the blood of our family. ”
Ah Ming listened very carefully, noticed the weakness in her tone, and quickly comforted her and said, "Of course I will live." ”
"How do you know?" She chuckled softly.
"Of course I know, if you think about it, even a person as thick as you has grown so big, your brother is so much older than you, how can he not know how to take care of himself? However, how did you and your brother get separated? ”
"You know...... North Hell? "For a long time, these two words have not come out of her mouth, at first glance, there is still some sour and sad in my heart, the pain of breaking the country is engraved in the bone marrow, and it is impossible to ignore and forget.
Ah Ming's hand holding the scissors shook, and the blade cut a white scratch on his fingernail. "Of course I did."
"Yes, you are a native of the Great Qi Kingdom, of course you will remember the Northern Underworld, that is your pride, but for me who grew up in the Northern Underworld, it is not only a shame but also a disaster." Ruoxi blinked, the cold liquid slipped from the corner of her eye, she didn't wipe it, still lying on the pillow with her feet facing the sky, but her eyes didn't know where it fell. "My family, my friends, my partners, all died in the smoke and fire, maybe my brother and he...... It has long been a handful of scorched earth under the broken rubble. ”
Ah Ming gently put down the scissors, his newly cleaned fingers were still a little unable to adapt to the bare feeling, he subconsciously walked to Ruoxi's bedside and gently wiped away the tears in her ears with his hand.
"The Great Qi Kingdom is obviously the enemy who destroyed your hometown, but you are here as a palace maid and serve those executioners, and you are ...... in your heart Uncomfortable, right? He said it softly, as if he was afraid of frightening her.
Ruoxi shook his head stubbornly, tears flew to the back of his hand, cold and cold, but with a stinging temperature, Ah Ming looked down at her smile with her eyes closed and barely pretended, and felt very uncomfortable.
"There's a sentence I've never said to anyone else, even Ning Xiang, and I haven't mentioned it to her, but I really want to tell you now." Ruoxi smiled, grabbed the hand that helped her wipe away her tears, his fingers didn't have such long and obstructive nails and felt reassuring to the touch, she grabbed his hand, as if to give herself a silent encouragement, "I stayed here to see with my own eyes how this invincible Great Qi Kingdom fell apart little by little, and fell into the same tragic fate as the Northern Underworld." ”
She opened her eyes slowly, shining and moving because of the tears in her eyes, the water in her eyes interpreted as strong and courageous and indomitable, Armin stared at the look in her eyes, slightly vibrating.
"No one is good for a thousand days, and no flower is red for a hundred days. You're right, Great Qi Kingdom...... It's not a fortified fortress, they have annexed a lot of small countries over the years in order to open up their territory, although they always use the means of killing to avoid revenge, but Daqi has made too many enemies, and the situation of the fox wolf is a dangerous situation that he will face sooner or later, don't worry. What you want to see, sooner or later will come true. "Amin spoke very slowly and seriously.
Ruoxi smiled, "Even if it's to comfort me, you don't have to be so disobedient, right?" You are a native of the Great Qi country, and when the Great Qi perishes, you will become a wild ghost with nowhere to return. The taste of the country ruined and the family is too uncomfortable, you ......"
"Hehe, do I have a place to go now? Ruoxi, you know, I don't have a home for a long time. Amin smiled sadly, and there was sadness and sorrow on his vivid face that she was unfamiliar with. Such a quiet morning is really a good opportunity to confide in your heart and tell your secrets, people's hearts are the size of fists, and if you hide too many things, it will be unbearable.
No matter how mature and sophisticated he is, he is only a young man who has just turned eighteen. His heart is lonely and lonely, but at the same time it carries so many secrets that he can't breathe.
"I have two older brothers and a younger sister, although there are many brothers and sisters, but the person who gave birth to me abandoned me too early, my mother died of illness when I was very young, I can't remember what she looks like, I only heard the old mothers talk about it, she is a very good-looking beauty." When he recalled his mother, Ah Ming's eyes showed a misty look of yearning for the first time, Ruoxi felt a pain in his heart, and he couldn't help but tighten his strength when he held his hand, wanting to pass on this encouragement to him.
Amin pursed his lips and shook his head and smiled, "It's okay, because I don't remember, so it won't be so uncomfortable." ”
"Where's your father? Why doesn't he care about you? ”
"My dad? Hmph," his expression changed, from sadness to resentment, "it's all his fault!" If it weren't for him, I wouldn't be locked up here. He lives like pigs and dogs all day long. ”
"Ah Ming...... "Ruoxi was a little worried about him, when he just mentioned his father, his eyes burst out with bone-chilling coldness and murderous intent, how could a son hate his father so much?" Perhaps, he also has his difficulties, how can there be a father in the world who wants to frame his son? Doesn't people say that tiger poison doesn't eat children? ”
She tried to comfort him, but it backfired, and Ah Ming spat on the ground fiercely, "Yes, tiger poison does not eat children, but he is the beast that is not as good as a beast!" He won't kill me, he won't kill me because I am still useful to him, he wants to torture me slowly, and he wants me to obey his words, but unfortunately, even if I die, I will not fulfill his wish. ”
Ruoxi stopped talking, patted his back gently, this child has survived in this dark and damp place all the year round, which has seriously affected his body, although he is very tall, but his body is thin and afraid of people, Ruoxi doesn't dare to use force, afraid that if he makes a lot of effort, his small body will be reimbursed. However, listening to the meaning of what he just said, it seems that Ah Ming's father is also a person who works in the imperial court, otherwise he would not have such a great ability to lock him up in this place. But what does he mean by what he has always said will be useful to him? He was only thirteen years old when he was imprisoned, so what impact could he have on his father at such a young age?
"You can't imagine it, he's actually afraid of me." Ah Ming suddenly laughed, and a strange smile bloomed on his little face that had not subsided with anger and resentment, making people feel cold all over his body.
"Because, I have the power that he has always wanted and feared, and if he gets it, his so-called ambition will be realized, and conversely, if this power falls into the hands of those who are hostile to him, it will become the most powerful weapon against him for a long time." He smiled, laughing so happily, as pure and natural as a child who had just seen the beauty of the world.
Gently raising his hand and covering his mouth, Ah Ming looked at her in surprise, Ruoxi shook his head gently, "Don't tell me what it is, Ah Ming, it is too important to you, not only your bargaining chip against your father, it is also your life-saving umbrella, it is by relying on it, you can live to this day, don't tell it easily, keep your secret, use it as the most solid shield from yourself, and live strongly." ”
Tears rolled out of her eyes all at once, without the slightest warning, Ruoxi was the first time she saw a man who could occasionally shed so many tears, like beads of broken threads, fluttering down and touching her hand. Armin softened from crying and lay on her pillow, whimpering and choking.
While caressing his back, he muttered in a low voice, as if to hear it to him, and as if to speak it to himself.
"Don't believe in anyone in this world, except for yourself, people have the instinct to seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, today will be loyal to you and swear to the sea, the Ming Dynasty may be able to give you the most fatal knife, this is a sentence that my father used to tell me before his death, I didn't take it seriously, and when I really understood its meaning, I have paid a terrible price for it. Now I give you this sentence, I hope you are not as stupid as I am. The moment the tears fell, she heard the sound of her heart breaking.