In the evening, the snow became heavier, and the cold wind blew unscrupulously, and I played in the snow for more than an hour, and I don't know if my mother has returned? When I was tired of playing, I pulled my legs and walked home, and when I opened the door with my hand, I shouted into the house while opening the door with my hand: Mom, are you back? Mom, I shouted a few times, no one answered, shouldn't it be like last night, I couldn't help but be scared, I dragged the wet pink bunny slippers, looking for my mother in every house, when I came to the fire room, I pushed open the door and looked, I saw my mother standing in the middle of the room with a bloodless face, with a white rope around her neck, her tongue stretched out, her feet hung in the air, I didn't look close and I thought my mother was standing on the ground, I was very afraid of this scene, this scene seemed to have been seen on TV, I suddenly felt unprecedented fear, my body couldn't help but move out, slammed open the door and ran out, crying and running to Li Xiaopang's house, shouting loudly: Aunt Li, Aunt Li, you go and see my mother, my mother is not moving, Yuqing, who was cooking dinner in the house, heard someone calling for herself, couldn't help but stop what she was doing, looked up and said to her husband who was watching TV: "His father, it seems that Ruoruo is calling me, Xiaohui quarreled with Lin Jie again last night, you open the door and take a look." Li Ping listened to his wife's words, got up from the warm sofa, and replied: You cook first, I'll go and see what's going on, Uncle Ping just opened the door, and saw me appear in front of him embarrassed, with tears on his face, trembling and standing in front of his door, which is very distressing, I saw that it was Uncle Ping who opened the door, so I couldn't help but pull him to run to my house, Li Ping looked at Ruoruo who was pulling himself, "There is a bad premonition in my heart, if something will really happen to Ruoruo's family, if this child is well-behaved, it will not be like this." "I was running hard, and when I looked back at Uncle Ping, I found that he had stopped, and he said seriously: Child, slow down, something happened at home, can you tell Uncle Ping? Looking at Uncle Ping, who looked serious, I said tremblingly: Uncle Ping, if you are afraid, if you are so afraid、、、、、、、 if you are so afraid, if you are so afraid, don't be afraid, there is Uncle Ping, and slowly tell Uncle Ping what is going on, he used his big hand to hold my little hand that was cold and red, giving me unlimited strength, I sorted out my mood, looked at Uncle Ping with tearful eyes and said: "Uncle Ping, if you play outside for a while just now, you are tired, so you plan to go back to the house to find your mother, but you find that your mother is motionless in the fire room, hanging coldly on the pillar of the fire room, If you are afraid, you will go to find Aunt Li. Uncle Ping listened to my words, his body trembled, at this time, he was more convinced of the premonition in his heart, bad, if Xiaohui hung on the pillar, motionless, could it be that Xiaohui committed suicide by hanging his neck, he suddenly came back to his senses, and shouted at Yuqing in the house, Yuqing, Yuqing's 、、、、 is not good, Xiaohui committed suicide, go and call some people to help, Yuqing in the house heard this, hurriedly put down the work in his hand, ran out, and said: His father, is it true? Why can't Xiaohui think about it so much, the hard-working Xiaohui, Aunt Li is sad for her mother, did her mother really commit suicide as Uncle Ping said? No, they must be lying, my mother is just asleep, I broke free from Uncle Ping's hand, and retorted, you lie, my mother just didn't move, he just fell asleep, I forgot to be afraid for a while, rushed to the fire room, hugged my mother's dangling feet, cried and begged my mother to wake up quickly, Mom, don't sleep, come down, Mom, don't sleep; Come down、、、 come down、、、 if you have to write obediently today, Mom, come down、、、 if you beg you, okay? No matter how I called, how I pulled my mother's feet, she didn't react at all, Li Ping looked at the crying villain, his heart hurt, he didn't know how many times he scolded Lin Jie in his heart, he stepped forward, picked up me who was tired of crying, and comforted: Ruoruo is the most well-behaved, Ruoruo, Uncle Ping hugged you and went outside the living room to dry your shoes, okay? I didn't speak, let Uncle Ping carry him and walked in the direction of the living room, as soon as I arrived in the living room, Aunt Li came in with a dozen people, and asked Uncle Ping with a worried face, "Dad, Xiao Huizhen went?" Others also asked, Li Ping, doesn't Xiaohui have a chance to save it? Regarding their question, Li Ping responded sadly and indignantly: "Really, Xiaohui is really gone, I checked it just now, there is no hope, she hanged herself, so pitiful." I dimly heard the conversation of Uncle Ping, maybe it was because I was tired of crying, I fell asleep in Uncle Ping's arms, Li Ping saw the sleeping child in his arms, sighed, poor child, good home, this Lin Jie is such a bastard, he carefully put Ruoruo on the bed, and calmly said to the neighbors in the house: Brother Zhang, please take a few people to put Xiaohui down from the beam of the fire room, help Zhang Luo, I will go and get Lin Jie's bastard back, this is a life, he is happy, after speaking, he left quickly.

When I woke up this time, it was also dark night, the air in the house was very cold, the family was shuttling, they were busy helping my mother with the funeral, my eyes did not have a trace of focus, as if everything had nothing to do with me, the god of death did not hear my call, and my mother did not come back to life because of this, doesn't it mean that God is the savior? Why did he cruelly take his mother, I got up from the bed, curled up at the head of the bed, buried my head in my arms, sat with my hands on my knees, petite and pitiful, I couldn't hear what others were saying, not that I couldn't hear, but I didn't want to pay attention to it, I was only immersed in my own world. Mom's funeral hall was in an uproar.

"Sister Zhang, Xiaohui is so pitiful; How could you not think about it so much, this let the 'vixen' succeed. "Yuqing looked at Xiao Hui, who was dead, and felt that she was not worth it, she died, and the man ran to find Xiao San, and her life was sad!" Such a man is really inferior to a pig and a dog, she is dead, poor Ruoruo, Ruoruo is still so young. The couple called Sister Zhang took over. Yuqing forgot to glance at Sister Zhang, her expression was gloomy, and she said, If this child is estimated to be waking up soon, I will go and take a look, you can help in the mourning hall, it's good. Go, you can rest assured that I am here, Sister Zhang replied briskly.

Yuqing bypassed the mourning hall and came to the bedroom, shouting, "Ruoruo, wake up?" I'm your Aunt Li. "I heard Aunt Li call me in the house, I didn't react, she screamed again, Ruoruo, Aunt Li came in, said, she turned on the light in the room, the light in the room appeared, so dazzling, I didn't speak, curled up as usual, my heart seemed to be emptied, Aunt Li thought I was scared, worried while asking and walked to me, Ruoruo, don't be afraid, there is Aunt Li, she came to my bed, like a mother, helped me dress, carried me to the living room, her warm embrace is undoubtedly my greatest comfort, Aunt Li didn't want me to see the tragic situation when my mother died, coaxed me and said, Ruoruo, I will take you to my house to play with your brother Haoran, I nodded solemnly, when she carried me around the mourning hall, my peripheral vision saw several women grooming and dressing for my mother, my mother was like a puppet at their mercy, very pitiful, looking at her dead gray complexion and purple lips, my heart twitched, a thing called liquid kept slipping from the corners of my eyes, suddenly I seemed to be a lot precocious, Aunt Li saw me crying, she was anxious, and hurriedly coaxed: "If you don't cry, Ruoruo is the most well-behaved, she tightened the strength of her hand, hugged me tighter, suddenly, I don't want to go to Aunt Li's house, I just want to stay by my mother's side, don't let them touch her, with such thoughts, I began to act, I pricked from Aunt Li's arms, wanted to go down to stop them, Aunt Li asked when I tried to break free from her arms, Ruoruo, do you go down, I whimpered and said: Well, I want my mother, I want my mother, you let me down, Aunt Li is a scoundrel, so she had to put me down and lead me to my mother, I shook off her hand, I rushed up and used my little hand to push away the people who were washing my mother, shouting, "Get out of here, don't get my mother, don't get my mother, get out of the way、、、 get out of the way、、、。 Everyone didn't expect me to have such a strong reaction, they were shocked, and they all looked at me with sympathetic eyes, "Yuqing, let's hold Ruoruo away first, let's freshen up Xiaohui." "One of the older old women spoke, this old woman seems to be some relative of mine, I only heard my mother call her third aunt, I heard her ask Aunt Li to take me away, I was anxious, I glared at her, at this time she looked like a bad person in my eyes, did not let me stay with my mother, she ignored me, continued to groom for my mother, Aunt Li listened to her words and wanted to listen to the holy decree, wanted to come and pull me, she said gently and kindly, "Ruoruo, good, go and play with Brother Haoran, let them wash with their mother, and dress up their mother beautifully, Luckily? She looked at me expectantly, facing Aunt Li's kind face, my heart couldn't be ruthless, I didn't wait for her, and there was no tendency to leave, we were in a stalemate, at this time, came in a person I didn't want to see the last time - Lin Jie, my affectionate father, and there was a person behind him - Yu Fang, the hateful third party, the culprit who killed her mother, from the moment she came in, the people around her talked about her, the shameless vixen, and the face of the door, Aunt Li scolded, Xiao Hui really raised a white-eyed wolf, Yu Fang was calm and calm, she didn't care about the ridicule of Biren, slowly approached me, and said gently, "Ruoruo, be good, come to the third aunt and ask them to wash their mother." "Looking at her ugly face, I feel so disgusting, if it was before, I would still believe her words and recognize her as the third aunt, but now she is not worthy, she has lost the qualification to be my relative,

She's just a shameless slut, stinky little three、、、、、、、 she wants to take me from Aunt Li's arms, when her dirty hands are about to touch me, I dodge it, rub into Aunt Li's arms, and say, "You're a bad person, you're not my third aunt, you're a bad person." Aunt Li also glared at her unceremoniously and said, forcing other people's mothers to death, why bother pretending, it's really shameless, Yu Fang faced Aunt Li's accusation, and said calmly, "I don't know what you're talking about, Xiaohui's suicide is her business, and I didn't tell her to die, why do you say it's my fault." Aunt Li wanted to refute, but was stopped by Uncle Ping, who had just come in, Yuqing, Xiaohui said a word or two less in the hall, quickly take Ruoruo to get something for her to eat, this child may also be hungry, Yu Fang saw that no one paid attention to her, so she followed behind Lin Jie, Lin Jie, I hate this person so much, from the moment he came in, he didn't say anything, just buried his head, from his face, I couldn't see a trace of sadness, maybe he wanted his mother to die early, it seems that I can't get along in this family in the future, I glanced at him resentfully, Then I went to the kitchen with Aunt Li.

After I walked out of the mourning hall, Yu Fang cried in the mourning hall like a show, she treated others as fools, in fact, who didn't know that she was faking, she was looking forward to her mother's early death, so that she would enter the door of our Lin family, she was like singing lotus flowers, crying about her mother's goodness, "Xiaohui, you are so pitiful, how can you not think about it so much." Her show made the people around her even more disgusted, this woman is really not an ordinary thick face, it is obvious that she herself has forced others to a dead end, but she pretends to be very innocent, she is simply underbeaten, Sister Zhang can't see it, speak, let's go, let this fox spirit cry slowly, hum, Sister Zhang snorted and went to do something else, I occasionally heard the intermittent crying of the mourning hall in the kitchen, I knew that it was Yu Fang's cheap woman, her little hands were clenched very tightly, and she wanted to rush out to beat people, I knew that my current strength was still relatively weak, and I couldn't fight that cheap woman, But one day she will fall into my hands, then, I will call her and Lin Jie life is better than death, Lin Jie is still a little useful to me now, after all, I am still young now, I need his support, at this time I am like an angry lion cub, you can't imagine that a four-year-old girl would have such a scheming, this is all forced to be a scoundrel,. Aunt Li cooked a bowl of fried noodles for me and brought it to the living room table, she said that it should be warmer near the electric oven, at this time Yu Fang and Lin Jie also sat opposite me, to be honest, seeing them sitting together, I felt very uncomfortable, I put away my disgust and hatred for Lin Jie, walked up to him with a smile, took his hand and said coquettishly: "Dad, Ruoruo, I want you to feed." He didn't expect me to be coquettish with him as usual, thinking that I was just a four-year-old girl who didn't understand anything, so he happily took me into his arms, I waited for Yu Fang next to me, and warned her, even if my mother died, you don't want to enter my house, she met my sharp eyes, thinking that she was wrong, how could a four-year-old girl have such eyes, and thought, "What are you Zhu Xiaohui, you haven't been defeated by me like this, why can she be with Lin Jie openly, but she can't, Why is my life so bitter, I died at the age of twenty-four, and I was widowed for 5 years, but Lin Jie was fascinated by me, but you were willing to divorce him, you deserved to die, and now that you are dead, everything about you is mine, your man, your property, your daughter, as for your daughter, look how I torture her, haha! A smug smile spread across her face, creepy.

She imagined the color dragon, that kind of smug god flashed, quickly regained her calm, and said to Lin Jie, I will go home to see the little braves, and come over to help tomorrow, before leaving, she did not forget to look at Lin Jie affectionately. When I saw her walk out of the living room, I got off Lin Jie's lap and said, Dad, I'm going to drink water, and left his disgusted embrace, now I'm not rare, he's just a meal ticket for me, how can I be with the murderer who killed my mother. I stared at the direction of Yu Fang's departure, and snorted, I want to take my mother's place, it's not so easy, as long as I Lin Ruo is in one day, I won't let you get your wish, but unfortunately I still can't stop it later, Lin Jie sat on the chair like nothing, and talked with Uncle Ping, who was in charge of his mother's funeral, and started to be stuffy, and people who didn't know thought he was very sad, the more he was like this, the more I felt that he was hateful, and the word "dad" didn't mean anything to me, from the moment my mother died, He is just a stranger to me, I feel that my future life is like a war, every step is terrifying, if I don't learn to be smarter, I don't know how to die, between Lin Jie and Yu Fang, where should I go, I keep telling myself; I can't be defeated by grief, I have to brace myself to deal with the demons at home and abroad, while I was pondering, Lin Jie interrupted my reverie, he pretended to be a loving father, and said, "Ruoruo, come and sit with my father, and be warm." Without saying a word, I went over and sat down by the stove, and when he saw me sitting down, he went and fetched me hot water to wash me, and though I was unwilling, I had to endure it, 、、、、、、、and after a while, I went back to my cold nest, and fell asleep, completely forgetting my fears and insecurity, and slept until dawn.

Chapter 4: My World Has Collapsed

The snowflakes in the air are still fluttering, the sky has just dawned, I vaguely heard the sound of "suona" blowing in the living room, and listened to the older generation of people say: "After people die, their families should ask Taoist personnel to do things for the deceased, surpass their souls, and let them ascend to bliss as soon as possible." "In this regard, I seem to have some doubts about those superstitious sayings, if there is really such a spirit, why do good people have a short life, but bad people have a thousand years of harm, and a good person like my mother is cruelly taken away by God. As the day passed, it was almost dawn, and there were many people in the house who came to mourn, most of them were neighbors and distant relatives. Today is the day of my mother's burial, I was called up very early, to welcome the guests who came to mourn, the snow outside, and the plain filial piety clothes I wore echoed, I dragged my petite body, standing at the door, to everyone who came to mourn in return, most of the people who came were very strange, I had not seen before, they all looked at me with sympathetic eyes, and even some women gently hugged me and turned it over, although their arms were warm, but they could not warm my heart, it was always so cold and cold, The snowflakes whipped my cheeks, which had long been known to be red, and that was not enough, the bitter cold wind allied with it, and it also made my heart ache, piercing, and the pain was unbearable、、、、、、

Two or three hours later, the guests who came to mourn were almost gone, only some neighbors remained, they stayed to help bury my mother, my mother was buried on the small hill opposite my house, where the land is fertile, the mountains and rivers are beautiful, in fact, the feng shui treasure, as soon as I pushed open the door, standing in front of the door, I could vaguely see my mother's cemetery, I was also present when my mother was buried, when I saw them holding hoes and making soil, little by little to sprinkle on my mother, I knew that I couldn't see my mother anymore, my mother will always grow in the ground, I can no longer hear her call me Ruoruo, I can't hear it anymore, I don't know why, I didn't stop their impulse, but more calm, since my mother was buried, I rarely saw Lin Jie, he casually got me food, and went out, sometimes he came back at night, I guess he went to find Yu Fang's cheap woman, no, it was almost dark, he came back, standing alone at the door, staring into the distance, was he looking at his mother's grave? I guessed, "Snort coldly in my heart, everyone is dead, what's the use of repentance?" Isn't this what he wants, he is really a fake man, and people who don't know him still think that he is sad about the death of his wife, and he looks depressed all day long, which makes people sick. He saw me sitting in the living room, pretending to be a loving father, turned around and asked, "Ruoruo, are you good today, are you hungry, can Dad cook for you?" I didn't answer, he felt bored, walked towards the kitchen, and after a while came with two plates of home-cooked food, placed them on the dining table, and said with a smile, "Ruoruo, go wash your hands first, Daddy Lamp went to bring up the seaweed egg drop soup, I answered mechanically, well, I am disgusted when I see his ugly face now, my mother is dead, he is still happy, I got up from the chair, walked to the bathroom, washed my little hands, and when I came out, he was already sitting at the dining table, looking at me with a gentle face, waving to me, "Ruoruo, Sit down next to Daddy. "Hearing him call me, I reluctantly walked towards him, then sat down, began to eat, to be honest, he cooked okay, but there was one less person in front of the table, my heart always felt empty, there was no mother's home, it was very deserted, I couldn't feel a trace of warmth, during the meal, I didn't look up at Lin Jie, just picked up the rice in my bowl, suddenly, my spare eyes saw a pair of chopsticks in front of my eyes, there was an extra piece of meat in the bowl, I knew that it was Lin Jie to pick up the vegetables for me, he said, "Ruoruo, don't patronize the meal, Eat more food, Dad knows that Dad's food is not delicious, so he will just take it and make you delicious food another day. "I would have been very touched by what he said before, but I know that at this moment, he would like to get rid of my oil bottle.

After finishing the meal, Lin Jie put away the dishes and chopsticks, and then came to the living room to sit down, he picked me up, he said, "Ruoruo, Dad can find you a new mother, let her make food for Ruoruo, play with Ruoruo, okay?" "Hehe, life is really sad, this is his purpose, I thought he was willing to cook today, it turned out that he wanted to let that slut enter the door, he couldn't wait? Mom's bones are not cold, but he is busy looking for a woman, he saw that I didn't answer for a long time, his expression was a little disappointed, "A person like him, his conscience has long been eaten by dogs, how can he be lost, I think he cares about other people's opinions, and wants to use children as an excuse for his sins." ”

I thought he was disgusting, he broke out of his arms, and he didn't speak, he shook his head helplessly, at this time, his phone thought about it, and it beeped, he didn't answer directly, but walked out of the living room, I guess it was probably the slut's phone, he didn't want me to know, and after a while, he came in and said, "Ruoruo, Dad has something to do, you go to Aunt Li's house to play for a while, Dad will come back as soon as he finishes his errands, and then go to Aunt Li's house to pick you up, okay." I knew I couldn't stop him, so I nodded and followed him out.

Although it was dark outside, but under the reflection of the snow, you can still see the afterglow walking, he walked in the other direction, and walked alone towards Aunt Li's house, it was very cold outside, I lowered my head very low, so as not to be attacked by the wind and snow, when I walked to the door of Aunt Li's house, I wandered, like a little beggar walking in front of the door, very pitiful, a knock on the door, made me vigilant, I don't want people to see my embarrassed look, at this time, a ray of light shot into my eyes, I knew that the door of Aunt Li's house opened, then I heard a soft voice, "Ruoruo, why are you here?" I knew it was Aunt Li, she walked quickly, took my little hand that was frozen red, the temperature on her hand flowed into my heart like an electric current, warm, Aunt Li is a good person, when my mother didn't die, she treated me very well, I am very grateful for everything she did to me, Aunt Li saw that I didn't speak, and muttered in a low voice, "This Lin Jie is really not, Xiaohui just went, he was in a hurry to find Xiao San, how could he bear to let Ruoruo be at home alone、、、、" I followed Aunt Li into the house, just stepped into the house, Li Xiaopang walked towards me with a smile, He was like a different person, he didn't laugh at me or bully me. On the contrary, he was very good to me, which really flattered me, he said, "Ruoruo, come and I'll take you to my room, I have a lot of snacks in my room, and my mother said that good things should be shared with everyone." When I was stunned, he took me to his small room, his room was very warmly furnished, with light green curtains, pure white walls, a pair of butterfly specimens hanging on the wall, and a small desk in front of the window, which was full of snacks, potato chips, biscuits, melon seeds, white rabbit toffee, and a lot of variety. He happily picked up a few White Rabbit toffee and handed them to me, "Ruoruo, give it to you, I'll give it to you for dinner." I took his candy and looked at him with a puzzled expression, "Li Xiaopang, did you take the wrong medicine?" Why are you being nice to me, I wonder if you're playing tricks on me. He hurriedly argued, "No, my mother said, I can't bully you, treat you like my own sister, I admit that I used to love to bully you, but please believe me, I won't in the future." Looking at Li Xiaopang like a little adult, I couldn't help but smile, this is the first time I laughed after my mother died, I said to him, "Li Xiaopang, let's make peace, he was very happy, paused and said, "Ruoruo, and don't call me Li Xiaopang in the future, call me Brother Haoran, understand?" ”

This kid really has to look at Long, and asked me to call him Brother Haoran, how awkward, I won't do it. I looked at him and said, "This is not good, I think it is very appropriate to call Li Xiaopang, you are so fat when you sleep." He pouted and muttered in a low voice, I'm not that fat, we ate snacks in the house, played for a while, and when we were about to go out, Aunt Li came in, and before I saw anyone, I heard her voice first, "Hao'er, what are you playing, let Mom see." "Mom, I'm not playing anything, I'm eating potato chips with Ruoruo." Li Xiaopang replied to Aunt Li's words, Aunt Li was always so gentle, she held me with her left hand, took Li Xiaopang with her right hand, and said, "Let's go, let's go out, dry our hands in the living room, look at the two of you, your little hands are frozen." ”

Aunt Li's living room is very warm, heating is installed, the lights in the living room are also very bright, the layout is warm, Uncle Ping saw us come out, immediately beckoned to us, "Ruoruo, come to Uncle Ping." I showed a sincere smile to him, I know that Uncle Ping and Aunt Li are good to me, probably I am sympathetic to them, Uncle Ping is from our town, he has been an orphan since he was a child, helpless, and he barely survived by relying on the relief of the villagers, and at the age of sixteen or seventeen, he went out to work with the elders in the town, and later made money, met Aunt Li in a foreign land and fell in love, and finally got married and settled down in the town. Aunt Li is also an orphan, and I heard that she has a long-lost sister who has not been heard from so far. The house is warm and harmonious. Li Ping looked at his wife, knowing what she was thinking, and a smile appeared on his face, "Yuqing, you and I are people who have the same disease, I know what you think, you see Ruoruo, I just lost my mother, Lin Jie has that attitude, no matter whether he asks, it's so late, and he is still messing around, let's take care of this child more in the future; Haven't you always wanted to have a daughter, if this child is obedient, we can treat her as our own daughter? "Okay, okay, or his father understands me, Uncle Ping's family is a good person, listening to their words, I was so moved, tears like a broken embankment, slipped through the corner of my eyes, saw me crying, Uncle Ping and they panicked, Aunt Li hurriedly held me in her arms, thinking that I missed my mother, and comforted, "If you are obedient, don't cry, Dad doesn't want you, you still have your Uncle Ping and Aunt Li, don't cry." Li Xiaopang pulled a tissue from the coffee table, gently wiped my tears, and said like a little adult, "If you don't cry, Brother Haoran will protect you." "Brother, what a warm word, in fact, Li Xiaopang, who is one year older than me, doesn't know why, when he sees the people in front of him crying, he will feel sad in his heart. Li Ping and his wife looked at their sensible son and smiled at each other, these two children are really like a pair of brothers and sisters.

At twelve o'clock in the evening, I was still sitting, I was waiting for Lin Jie to see if he would leave me, Aunt Li and they looked at me stubbornly, there was no way, so I had to accompany me to wait, but as a result, Lin Jie did not return overnight, and I was completely abandoned by him.