(Girls' Literature)

When the first rays of the morning sun shine in. The tears on his face are still dry. The body is weak and weak. I watched with my eyes wide open as the dark night outside the window lit up little by little. The cold night was long. I never knew it would be so sad to wait for dawn.

Yan Yi beside him moved. But suddenly there was silence.

I know. He woke up.

But he didn't get up for a long time. He lay motionless. I don't know if it's because I'm ashamed to face it or something else. I struggled to sit up from the couch. Struggled to find clothes scattered all over the place. One by one, it is put back on the body.

I was silent the whole time. Yan Yi on the couch suddenly couldn't help it. One rolled over and sat up. Snorted. "Tilt your face. I will be good to you for the rest of my life. If this oath is violated. So I won't die well. ”

I stared blankly at him. But they don't know what to say or do. What's the use of swearing these poisonous oaths now? The heart is dead.

Yan Yi turned over and came down. Hold my shoulders tightly. Pull me closer to him. Said eagerly. "Tilt your face. I really don't know what happened last night. I didn't mean to. Do you want to blame me too. ”

I looked at him calmly. He said with a sneer. "I shouldn't blame you. General Yan Yi said it well. A sentence is not intentional. Is there no harm to others? I never knew you were such a person. ”

After speaking, he didn't wait for his reaction. I turned away coldly. I was very disappointed. Is it too deep to rely on and expect from a person? So where there is a trace of harm. I felt pain and I didn't want to live. It is the depth of hope that leads to disappointment.

"Ling Qianyan." Yan Yi's voice sounded angrily behind him. Before I could turn around, he strode over and pulled me toward him. The overwhelming kiss fell fiercely again.

I was completely out of control. Kicking, punching, biting in anger. Yan Yi's cheeks. I scratched the blood on my arms and necks. I'm like an angry little beast. He had to let me go.

One is free from his confinement. I ran away. But he stumbled and stood on the ground and fell directly to the ground. Yan Yi wanted to come over and help me. I shuddered and screamed. He stood still.

Teeth involuntarily fight. I don't know if it's cold or scared. Tears flowed unconsciously from his eyes. But he still gritted his teeth word by word. "Yan Qingjiu. You bullied me like this, just because I still have affection for you. Then we will never be related to each other. I don't know you anymore. ”

The rage almost burned me. I never thought about it. At this time, such a painful sadness will be inflicted on me by Yan Yi himself. Even if he didn't mean to. I also swore that poisonous oath. But I still can't forgive him.

"Don't you think about it." Yan Yi's eyes widened. Almost tearing the corners of my eyes.

I chuckled. Unconcerned, he slowly stood up and walked out the door. This matter is not something that he Yan Yi can control.

Yan Yi caught up. "I told you not to think about it. Now Da Ling, I still do the master. You are now in the same bed with me. Do you still expect Jun Mochen to want you? You ......"

I turned around and waved it over without hesitation. I used all my strength. His face tilted to one side. Eyes wide in disbelief.

I said word by word. "Don't force me to hate you."

Yan Yi froze in place. Until I walked out the door. He didn't catch up. I breathed a sigh of relief at the same time. Tears also welled up violently. Fell all over the face.

I stumbled along the road with tears in my eyes. The people who walked by on the long alley from time to time looked sideways. I walked forward regardless of it. What am I afraid of now? Could there be anything more embarrassing than last night?

I'm taking it one step at a time. I almost couldn't stand up and fell. Barely holding on to the wall on his side to support his body. I leaned over and gasped for air. It was as if something was pressed on his chest. Heavy. It almost blew the body apart.

It's almost clear. The weather is getting warmer. At this time, it was only morning, and it was already warm. I raised my face in the sun. The tears on Ren's face slowly evaporated.

Jun Mochen. Brother Linyuan.

Now the mere thought of the name is a knife twist. I don't see you again. I like the gentleman who is clean and can stand in front of you with dignity. Instead of the dirty Ling Qianyan now.

There was a long delay on the road. It was already noon when I got back to my room. I just fell down on the couch and didn't want to move.

Fingers touch the placket. But he got up from the couch violently. I walked to the stove and boiled a large bucket full of water. Take off your clothes and take a bath.

The hot water is still a little hot even if it is mixed with cold water. But I didn't know it. After a while, the skin on his body was already burned. I finally couldn't help crying in the rising mist.

Rub the skin vigorously on your body. There are still traces of last night's love on it. Spots are all over the body. This mark of shame made me almost die of shame. I don't think I'll ever be able to go back to him.

I don't know how long it took. The water is already cold. Sitting in it cold and shivering. But it still can't withstand the pain in my heart.

I unconsciously sat up from the water. I put on my clothes and walked back to the bed. But I saw that the bed on which I had just lay was crumpled. Suddenly, in a panic, he ripped off the top layer of the list. then lay down with confidence.

Swollen eyes like walnuts. As soon as he closed his eyes, Jun Mochen's face was full. Tossing and turning.

Sleep on the left.

Jun Mochen said. "Gongya. Why should you let yourself be so wronged? I have already lost to you in this country. If you want. I'll give it to you. ”

He was always so infinitely tolerant of me. Since being pampered by him. I don't like anyone anymore.

Sleep on the right side.

It was I who cried angrily and pushed him. But he was silent. It wasn't until I fell to the ground with all my strength that he gently took me into his arms.

Although I kept reminding myself to hate him. But the moment I saw him. I realized how much I missed it. All the hatred vanished in an instant.

When lying on your back.

I remember every meal he cooked for me. I remember every hug he gave me. I remember every vow he made to me. He treats each other with tenderness bit by bit. It's exactly what I want the years to be quiet.

But. Now. What are we going to do.

Now that I feel guilty about Jun Mochen, I hate Yan Yi. Fang Yi's words returned to his ears. I always felt that he wouldn't be unaware. But he deserves that. As if pitiful. It makes me sick.

I just fell asleep. Sleep from night to day. When he woke up, he looked at the top of the tent with his eyes wide open, and his mind was blank. Until he fell asleep again.

I just want to fall asleep like this. Don't ask about the world.

In the evening. When I woke up again, I saw a man sitting in front of the couch. Prolonged lethargy. Everything in front of me was gray. It took a long time to see the person clearly. Feilan's sister-in-law.

I haven't seen her in a long time. I remember that the last time I called her was Yan Yi......

I turned my head away indifferently. Is she still going to be Yan Yi's lobbyist? Only this time how could I forgive him.

Fei Lan sat down behind her. He sighed softly. "The girl looks so good. But it was also ill-fated. If you are born in an ordinary people's family and marry a good person, it is just fine. But he was born in the emperor's family. This is a twist and turn. I feel distressed when I hear it. ”

I looked intently at a small acacia flower carved into the bedrail. Eyes blinked. It's just a wet patch.

"The general did go too far this time. Is it just that the girl is going to abandon the people of the city because of this? We're still waiting for the princess to give us a peaceful and prosperous world. ”

The eye blinked again. Tears fell out of his eyes. I've picked it up now. I couldn't put it down anymore. But although I was pushed to the position of heir by Yan Yiqiang. But in the end, it's just in name.

Where is there a princess like me? What kind of princess am I?

Seeing that I was indifferent. She said again. "General Yan Yi was assassinated. The princess doesn't ask. The Chen army attacked Song Fusheng's capital. Song Fusheng asked General Yan for help. The general is not saved, nor is it not not saved. Did the princess really ignore it? ”

Yan Yi really has a way. This time it's not genuinely emotional. But it's going to use Ling Guo to implicate me. It's just that what do I care about now?

I closed my eyes and said. "Sister-in-law is finished? If you're done, go back. I'm going to rest. ”

"Princess ......"

What else did she want to say. I interrupted slightly. "Feilan's sister-in-law is also a woman. should also know that the martyr does not serve the second husband. Although she is not a fierce woman, she is not at the mercy of others. Sister-in-law, please go back. If you don't have anything to do, you don't have to come back. ”

Feilan sighed again before leaving. The eyelashes blinked. I always feel like I should plan something or think something. But after a while, he fell into a deep sleep again.

Water and rice do not come in for a day and a night. I actually started a fever. I lay in a daze. It feels like a furnace. Straight burnt dry mouth. It was like a fire in his throat.

I wanted to drink water, but I didn't have the strength to get up. A dry throat coughed. I lay on the edge of the bed and coughed violently. I was coughing so hard that my throat was about to cough up blood. The body also started to shake coldly, and he couldn't stop it.

It's been a long time since I've been sick like this. They all said that the illness came like a mountain, and I believed it. It's as if all the illnesses that I haven't had before have come out together.

I lay groggily in bed for a day. But no one cared. I couldn't speak anymore.

I forced myself to get off the couch. I just feel top-heavy. The kettle is placed on a round table in the room. Originally, it wasn't a long distance. It was a very difficult time for me to walk. Legs are squishy. One foot deep and one foot shallow, as if walking on the clouds.

I drank three glasses of cold water in a row. I feel very comfortable. The burning sensation in his throat was alleviated a lot, like a long drought and a rain.

I staggered back to the couch. I casually glanced out the window only to realize that it was dark again.

I don't know if I can see the sun tomorrow. Maybe it's better to just die silently and unknown. In this way, you don't have to face Jun Mochen. Don't have to bear the hatred for Yan Yi. You don't have to...... It's been so hard to live.