After Xiao Muchen sent away Ghost Cheng, he drove straight to the cemetery outside the city, and bought a bouquet of chrysanthemums when he passed by the flower shop.

Parking the car outside the cemetery, Xiao Muchen tidied up his clothes.

Step by step, he walked inside, with a slight sadness on his face.

Walking to the deepest part of the cemetery, he placed the flower in front of the tombstone and bowed deeply.

"Grandma, I've come to see you."

The photos on the tombstones, the benevolent appearance in memory, have become black and white.

"Grandma, actually, I came to see you today, and I have a little more to discuss with you."

"I want to continue to fulfill my dreams, but I don't know if I can do it."

"You have always been the most supportive of me in the family, no matter how willful I am, you always look at me with a smile and tell me not to be afraid."

"When you left, I hated myself for not being able to stay with you in time and not being able to see you for the last time."

"But the last words you left for my parents were not to blame me, and asked me to do what I wanted."

"Every time I stand on that stage, I always have a lot of images in my head, and I get scared and timid. It's like a lingering nightmare, and I haven't found a way to restrain it. ”

"When I go back, I don't even know what I need to face."

"But for the sake of obsession, for the sake of my brother who once fought side by side with me, I will not give up."

Ghost Cheng's words made Xiao Muchen figure out something, no matter how many high-sounding excuses he found, even he couldn't convince himself.

Xiao Muchen stood in front of the tombstone for a long time, said a lot of words, and said all the thoughts in his heart one by one.

He thought about it for a night, and understood that he would definitely not stay in the same place for too long, so he didn't do a live broadcast in the past few days, so he calmed down and thought carefully about his current situation.

Putting aside the flashy hustle and bustle, he still likes that arena.

Even if he can't face himself, he wants to try.

If this can bring him different feelings, it will be even more good.

Xiao Muchen stayed in the cemetery for more than two hours, and when he came out, his clothes were already wet with dew.

But he didn't care, he knew that his grandmother was the one who loved him the most.

Whatever he does, as long as it is what he likes.

It is precisely because of this that he feels so much guilt in his heart.

When leaving, the moment he turned around, Xiao Muchen turned his head again and took a deep look.

This place, he will come often in the future, otherwise grandma will be very lonely by herself.

I don't know what I thought of, Xiao Muchen went to Handa on the way home.

Just glanced at it twice, Xi Nuan went home to rest and didn't come back, and his interest in this place suddenly decreased by half.

Seeing the people coming and going outside the school, there are still a lot of delicious food, but he just can't lift his spirits.

I took out my phone and saw the familiar number, but I couldn't dial it.

There is something awkward in his heart, flirting with others, and irresponsible things, he really can't do it.

Once he decided he wanted to get back on that ring, it was already clear that he was going to be running around and taking on a lot of the responsibilities he had before.

Going against the grain, I don't know how far I'll go.

But he had to try it once, and even if he failed, he would feel better.