When I was in the Wind Shadow Building, I was used to looking at Xun'er, I was used to watching everything about her, and I was used to following her, which caused me to fall into this fruitless relationship and couldn't extricate myself.

It's just that now, that habit that makes me afraid seems to have reappeared, and every time after dealing with political affairs, I begin to have some vague expectations, hoping that I don't know anything.

"This is the chilled pear soup I cooked myself, you can try it!" Chu Feiyan looked at me with a smile in his eyes, and there was a hint of smugness on his face, "This is the first time I have cooked!" ”

I was interested, so I tasted it, and the taste was ...... Still don't talk about it.

"How?" She looked at me expectantly.

"Not bad!" I forced a smile and said with a clear conscience.

"Really!" Her eyes lit up and she said, "Then I'll taste it too!" ”

I quickly snatched the pear soup and said, "I'll drink it alone!" ”

She looked at me suspiciously, took a breath from my soup spoon, and then spit it out in her mouth, and said with a wrinkled face: "Why is it so unpleasant!" ”

I comforted: "Actually, cooking also requires talent, and your talent is not in this area!" ”

She looked at me and said, "And what is my talent?" ”

"Help me take care of the harem!" I laughed.

"I thought it was!" Her interest was faint, "Now that the women in this palace see me, it's like a mouse seeing a cat, and the palace is also very calm, where is the moment when I can give full play to my talent!" ”

"You want me to give you some trouble?" I asked with a smile.

"Forget it!" She waved her hand and said, "More is better than less!" ”

I know this woman is lonely.

The winter in Wei is much colder than in Yan, and every year in winter, she has to get sick, but today's illness is more fierce than in previous years, and the high fever has not subsided for several nights.

Watching her weaken day by day, my heart began to feel a little anxious, and I really wanted to kill all those incompetent imperial doctors.

Chu Feiyan herself is quite calm, she doesn't seem to be afraid of death at all, every time I get angry, she looks at me and smiles, "If I die, you should burn high incense to celebrate, you are relieved, no one is bothering you!" ”

"Don't talk nonsense!" I scolded, "You'll be fine!" ”

In the evening, I made an exception and didn't leave, maybe I was still faintly afraid that she would really die. We lay under the covers, but we didn't have much to say, and we were both silent in the night, and we could hear each other's breath clearly.

Suddenly, I wanted to hear the cry.

I turned my face sideways, glanced at Chu Feiyan, and asked softly, "Crying?" ”

"Nope!" She muffled.

I reached out and sure enough, I found tear stains on her face, "What are you crying about?" ”

Her voice was softer than usual, "If I die, I will never see my second brother again, I miss him, and you, if I die, you will definitely forget me immediately, I don't want you to forget me!" ”

I said, "You're right, I'm sure I'm going to forget about you right away, so you're going to have to get better soon!" ”

She got up to choke my neck, "If you dare to forget me, I won't let you go!" As soon as her hand slipped, the real person pounced on my chest.

She's so soft.

She immediately struggled to get up, and I bet her face must have been red by this point, and I suddenly wanted to see it. As soon as I stretched out my arm, I wrapped her in my arms.

She was stunned for a moment, and said in a muffled voice, "What do you want to do?" ”

In the night, I said in a hoarse voice: "The belated candle night in the cave room!" As he spoke, he looked up and found her lips accurately and kissed her carefully.

I didn't expect her to push me away, "Don't think you can bully me because I'm sick!" ”

"Why are you bullying you, you are my queen, shouldn't you do it?" I said with a smile, but unfortunately I couldn't see her expression clearly in the night.

"It's different!" She said sullenly, "It's not what I thought, it's not like that!" ”

"What do you think?" I asked her patiently.

"I don't know, but it shouldn't be like this, you don't love me!" She said.

"Maybe we can try to be together!" I said, "Actually, I've been thinking about what kind of life I want these days, I've allowed myself to try to forget about her, I can't promise you that I'm going to forget about her and never think about it, but I can at least say that I'll do my best, I've been used to having you around for so many years, and if you're really gone, I'll be very lonely!" ”

"I haven't loved anyone but her, and I don't know how to love someone, and now I want to be able to try to love you, try to make you happy. I lied to you just now, and I won't forget you! ”

I finished my words in one breath, I couldn't see her expression, I could only wait for her reply silently, I was actually a little apprehensive.

It seemed like a long time later, and just when I thought she was asleep, she suddenly pounced on me and began to pick off my clothes.

She bit me on the shoulder and said, "If you dare to lie to me, I'll ...... I'm going to beat you so that you can't be humane again!" ”

This woman is really ruthless.

…………

Maybe it was because she was busy all night and sweated a lot, but the next day, Chu Feiyan's fever actually subsided, and as a woman, she was also extraordinarily charming.

Our relationship is not very close, but with each other's company, we can fill each other's loneliness, but this relationship is still unfair, and my love for her is still not as good as her love for me.

But she didn't seem to care much, as she once said: "To be able to get a little love from you is beyond my expectations, people, learn to be content!" ”

Sometimes I can't help but be stunned, love will make people so humble, whoever falls in love first, who has already lost, just like I once foolishly hoped to be able to get some charity love from Xun'er.

Love is a feeling, not love is a fact, I can't change the fact, but I hope I can change my feelings.

Not long after, Chu Feiyan was pregnant.

This child made the entire palace and even the entire Wei country happy, and I finally had a reason to send all the women in the palace away, and now, those old horsemen can no longer use the issue of heirs to talk nonsense.

For children, I don't know what the attitude is, it's not expectation, it's not rejection, it's just watching the non-smoking belly grow bigger day by day, it's amazing.

When I became a mother's non-smoking temperament seems to have changed suddenly, even if I tease her, she still loves to ignore me, and she doesn't like to quarrel with me, every time she is really annoyed, she threatens me and says, "The children are listening!" ”

Every time I can only stop fighting, does she not know if she is holding the Son of Heaven hostage to make his father?

The process of pregnancy was very difficult, and every time I saw her painful appearance, I also felt very distressed. Sometimes when I see her contentedly touching her bulging belly, I think of my mother, what kind of mood did she feel when she was pregnant with me, did she look forward to my birth or disgusted existence?

The child was born without torture, but fortunately, everything went well.

The birth of a child is also more meaning for our life, life is no longer lonely like a pool of stagnant water, and more things have begun to affect my nerves and affect my mood.

I will be angry because of the child's naughtiness, I will be happy because the child is smart, I will be worried because of the occasional illness of non-smoke, and I will be sad because of the occasional residual love, maybe others can't understand, sometimes I have a mood of joy and sorrow, how is it not a kind of happiness?

I am an emperor and an ordinary man, I may not be a good husband or father, but I at least try to do my best and make my wife and children happy.