When I looked back, it was Rulan standing outside the execution ground, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, Rulan didn't have an umbrella, she was holding a plaque basket in her hand, and said loudly, "The emperor is gracious, can you let the slave maid send my sister and General Yan a ride?" It is not in vain for our master and servant. ”

The official turned around to look at Jun Mochen, but he didn't know what to say, and when he turned back, he let Rulan in.

Rulan came to the front, her face was covered with rain, her eyes were red, and her hair was wet and sticking to her face, and she was as embarrassed as us.

She looked down and took out a jug of wine from the plaque, and I laughed out loud at one glance.

This is the wine made by me and Rulan picking the flowers when the pear blossoms bloom this spring, and named it "Jiao Pear".

I got a total of three urns, Yan Yi naturally had one urn, Rulan and I used an urn, and the remaining urn was reluctant to drink, sealed in the ground, but I forgot.

"Thanks to your memory, if you can't drink this urn of 'Jiao pear', I don't know how long I should remember it, but I don't have to be cheap for you." Although it was a joke, I didn't feel like I was crying when I was talking about it, and my heart was uncomfortable for a while.

Where is the time? Left is nothing more than self-deception.

'Jiao pear' was originally fragrant in the mouth and has an endless aftertaste, but now it only feels bitter and astringent in the mouth.

I pretended to be angry, "Why is it so bad these days, I don't know if the pear blossoms this spring are not good, or if this time is not right." ”

Rulandau, "The pear blossoms are selected by my sister one by one, where can it be?" ”

"No matter how bad the pear blossom is, if it can save your life, it's worth it." Yan Yi, who had been silent for a long time, suddenly said a sentence without a beginning or an end, and I was about to ask him what he meant, but my mind fainted for a while.

He added, "Dump your face, forget Yan Yi, and live well." ”

I realized something was wrong, but it was too late, my eyelids were drooping heavily, and I was sleepy.

I struggled to grab Rulan with my backhand, "You put something in the wine, right?" You...... You ......"

I couldn't catch the words for a long time, I just felt that the light and shadow in front of me were heavy, and my strength was lost little by little, and even the rain fell on my body very heavy.

Although I told myself over and over again that I couldn't sleep, this sleep was life and death, yin and yang were separated, and I would never see him again.

However, his consciousness became more and more blurred, before falling into a dream, Yan Yi's face swayed in front of him, and I heard him say, "Tilt your face, Yan Yi's biggest regret in this life is that I will have time to take you to see the hibiscus ......flowers bloom in the future."

I used all my strength to shout weakly, "Yilang......"

"Yilang." I sat up from the bed screaming, sweating on my back, and I still felt my chest stuffy and suffocating between big breaths.

"Sister has a nightmare again?" Rulan hurriedly took a glass of water and sat on the edge of the bed, wanting to feed me.

I turned my head sideways, avoided her hand, lifted the quilt alone and staggered out of bed to pour water, Rulan came to help me, I pushed it away silently, and walked over step by step with the table.

Only a few steps away, I walked out of breath, and even had some difficulty lifting the kettle, but I was silent and pushed Rulan away over and over again, without her help.

Rulan finally couldn't help sobbing, knelt down with a "plop", walked to my side on her knees, and kowtowed one by one, "Sister, Rulan knows that she is wrong, if her sister has any complaints, just beat and scold Rulan, don't ignore Rulan, Rulan will tell her sister everything, and ask her sister to forgive Rulan......"

She cried pitifully, and her forehead was bruised.

After all, they were sisters who had grown up together, and I slowly drank the water from the cup and leaned over to help her up.

Rulan said cautiously, "Sister, don't you get angry with Rulan?" ”

I said calmly, "I'd like to hear what you're going to tell me." ”

Rulan was stunned for a moment, her face was slightly hesitant, and I said, "What? Could it be that you are tricking me? ”

Rulan waved her hand anxiously and explained to me.

"The events of that day were actually planned by General Yan early in the morning, he didn't want his sister to die with him, but he couldn't persuade his sister. General Yan even ...... begged the emperor, Rulan and the general were locked up in one place at that time, Rulan had never seen General Yan begging for help, but ......

But she begged Rulan again, and Rulan was reluctant to give up her sister in her heart, so she agreed to General Yan...... Sister"

I suddenly felt a blackness in front of my eyes, my body swayed, and Rulan hurriedly came up to support me.

I waved my hand, "He actually begged Jun Mochen for me?" ”

Yan Yi is a man who doesn't ask for help easily, Rulan is just that, but Jun Mochen is a monstrous enemy of the country, but now, he is begging him for me.

I eagerly continued to ask her, "What about the future...... What did he say? ”

"General Yan...... I want my sister to live well...... Forget about him, find a stable person, and have a safe and smooth life. ”

Forget? I smiled bitterly, then this must be the hardest thing that I will do in the past 100 years.

I slowly slid down the table to the floor, tears falling on the back of my hand, heavy and cold.

Yilang, why are you willing to leave me alone in this world?

Suddenly, there was a fishy sweetness in my throat, and I coughed up blood in small mouthfuls as soon as I opened my mouth.

When I woke up that day, perhaps because it had rained, the weather was unusually clear, and the sun was shining brightly all over the house.

The first thing I said was to Rulan, "What about Yan Yi?" ”

Rulan sobbed and told me that when Yan Yi had already been executed, she suddenly felt a chill emanating from head to toe, from the inside out.

I was silent for a moment, but suddenly I screamed and went out to find him.

At that moment, the despair in my heart was overwhelming, I would never see Yan Yi again, I could no longer hold his hand, and he would never be by my side again.

Rulan stopped me desperately, "My sister can't go out, my sister is seriously ill, and it will be even more difficult to get better if she goes out and catches the wind." ”

I remembered the glass of wine, raised my hand and slapped Rulan in the face.

When Rulan followed me, my mother had passed away for half a year, and life was already sad, and my brothers and sisters in the palace were not close, so I regarded Rulan as my sister, and I didn't care about the courtesy of the master and servant.

I'm afraid of the dark, and I often share a bed with her, and even she makes her little angry, and it's not new for me to coax her, even my grandmother said, I don't look like Rulan anymore.

I've never treated her badly, and this is the first time I've done anything to her.

Rulan froze, the tears in her eyes wanted to fall but couldn't fall, Chu Chu was pitiful, but I was unmoved and turned away.

It was also from that day on, I had nightmares every night, and the scenes of that day were in my dreams again and again, and in the end, Yan Yi was held by someone, and the executioner's big knife fell high, but I couldn't go to him anyway to help him block the knife, and when the big knife fell, I also woke up suddenly.

Never so desperate.

When even my mother died, there were only me and my grandmother in the palace, and I accompanied my mother to the final trip, but my father was having fun with other women, and the news sent by the queen was blocked by the queen one by one.

Despite this, he still calmly dealt with the aftermath of his mother's concubine, and kept his father and his concubines out again and again in silence.

But at that time, I was not as hopeless as I am now, as if my heart was cold.

Rulan was so frightened that she burst into tears, and she couldn't say all her words, "Sister...... How...... Why are you vomiting blood again......"

I leaned limply on the leg of the table, unable to say a word.

Rulan cried and ran out to find the imperial doctor.

When the imperial doctor came, it was Jun Mochen who followed him, I didn't say a word, I didn't even have the intention of chasing him, I just slowly closed my eyes.

After diagnosing the pulse, the imperial doctor said, "The girl's illness is not serious, but she is drenched in the rain and occasionally feels cold, so she will be cured by taking a few doses of medicine." ”

Jun Mochen said, "If it's as simple as you say, then how can you vomit blood?" ”

The imperial doctor respectfully bowed, "Mourning is greater than heart death, girl, this is a heart disease, and there is nothing we can do about it." ”

The hall suddenly fell silent, and for a long time, I could only hear him say very lightly and slowly, "Your heart disease has always been only Yan Yi." ”

I was stunned, and looked sideways at him, his whole face was hidden in the shadows, obscure, and at that moment I had a different kind of emotion in my heart.

The maid Pin'er came in and knelt in front of her, and said respectfully, "Your Majesty, the girl's medicine has been decocted, do you want to bring it in now?" ”

"Bring it in." After thinking about it, Jun Mochen suddenly added, "Prepare a few more bowls." ”

I remembered the last time I was sick, and he brushed twelve bowls of medicinal juice, because he was afraid that I would blow the medicine to the ground again.

However, I won't be there now, Yilang bends his knees and begs for help, desperately trying to let me stay this life, and I will never waste it at will.

I will listen to him and live well, but forget him, but I can't do it.

Jun Mochen was surprised when he saw me obediently taking the medicinal juice from Pin'er's hand and drinking it without even taking a big sip of the candied fruit.

Not to mention him, even I was surprised.

I used to be very afraid of bitterness, but I didn't touch the slightest bitterness in my food.

I remember when I was a child, I occasionally felt a cold, I refused to take medicine no matter what, as soon as I smelled the bitter smell and avoided it far away, the mother held the medicine bowl and followed behind her and said, "Gongya, come and take the medicine quickly, the mother concubine has candied fruit here......"

I looked at the candied fruit in my mother's hand, and then at the bowl of black medicine, but finally avoided it.

……

The medicinal juice brought by Pin'er was thick and extremely bitter, but it was sweet in the mouth at the moment.

As the saying goes, if you are bitter in your body, you will not feel bitter in your heart.

He was silent for a moment and said, "Actually, you don't need to eat this medicinal juice if you are so afraid of bitterness, I ordered someone to cook brown sugar ginger water......

I glanced at him coldly, and his unfinished words were so stuck, and I put the bowl in the maid's hand, and returned to the couch, facing the wall.

I won't forget that the order was given by his Jun Mochen, and now he is here to behave again? It's ridiculous.

Furthermore, what medicine can be more bitter than the heart?

I don't know when he left, I just didn't want to see him, but I fell asleep unconsciously, and when I woke up it was night.

After that, Jun Mochen never came to me for a long time, and the piano, chess, books, and ink treasures in the room were turned upside down by me.

It's just that no matter what, I feel as if a piece of heart is missing, empty.

The whole person has become like a walking corpse, he doesn't know how to eat, he can't sleep, and he lives a nightmare all day.

Those days were dog days, and it was the hottest time, but I always felt cold.

This scene lasted until the autumn, and although the illness was cured, the person lost a lot of weight.