(Girls' Literature)

Xiao Ziling followed me all the time. When we stepped into the house. A dull atmosphere pervades every corner of the room. Lan'er on the bed closed her eyes. There was no trace of life in the gray color. Like a mummy that has been asleep for many years.

I walked over slowly. Squat down to be level with her. The hand had already held her hand in the palm of its hand.

"Lan'er. Lan'er—" I called her name softly. After a long time. With a soft hum from her. The closed eyes slowly opened. The cloudy eyes shone a little brighter the moment they saw me. But it soon dimmed.

"Sister... Sister—" she gasped. Calling me intermittently. The hand was also withdrawn from my palm.

I hurriedly leaned over. The moment her fingers touched my cheek. The facial expression suddenly became a little painful. With a tilt of her head, a mouthful of blood was already running from her mouth. A shocking red dripping splashed onto the mattress. It makes people feel uncomfortable to watch.

I hurriedly took a handkerchief and wiped the corners of her mouth carefully. and planned to call the imperial doctor for her. But she shook her head again and again. I saw her struggling to sit up. I hurriedly pressed her shoulder. Motioned for her to stay. Then he took the pillow and put it on her back. Let her sit on it.

Lan'er's fingers brushed against my wrist. With a distressed face, he said, "This injury..."

I looked down for a moment. He smiled indifferently and said, "Sister is fine." It's just that... Accidentally fell. Girls' Literature" finished. I glanced back at Xiao Ziling, who had been standing behind me silently.

"But—" she wanted to say more. But I immediately stopped: "Don't worry about me anymore. Wait until you're cured. I'll tell you more about each of them. Luckily. ”

See me so persistent. Lan'er didn't say anything more. She put my hand in the palm of her hand. turned his gaze to Xiao Ziling. Panting: "Your Majesty." The concubine wanted to talk to her sister alone. ”

I don't know what Xiao Ziling will think at this time. But when I heard the heavy footsteps getting farther and farther away from me. I know he eventually left.

When the door creaked shut. Girls' literature was updated for the first time Lan'er closed her eyes. The look of pain seemed to be suppressing something. She closed for a moment and opened it again. Steady breath said, "Sister." I've had a very affectionate feeling for you since I met you. There are so many concubines in the palace. And I just like to be close to you alone. ”

"Hmm." I naturally know how it feels. Like every time I see her. We were the same people. There is nothing wrong with this feeling.

"You play the piano better than I do. The female red is also more delicate than my embroidery. I also sing a lot of songs that I can't sing. Sometimes I really envy you. She coughed twice. Blood stains popped out of her mouth. I wanted her to stop talking. But she persevered.

"Although you are a concubine. But I know you're not happy. It's like although I got the emperor's favor. But I couldn't get into his heart. I didn't really know him. ”

I quietly listened to her evaluation of Xiao Ziling. I know it's in her heart. Xiao Ziling is a perfect husband. He is gentle and considerate. Long and handsome. And also her patron saint. But for me. Xiao Ziling brought me nothing but nightmares. I sighed silently in my heart. Then she asked, "Why are you telling me this?" ”

Lan'er paused. She looked at me confused for a moment. Suddenly burst into tears.

"Because I finally know why I can never see the real emperor. Girls' literature," she said. "Because... The emperor's favorite is his sister. ”

I felt a shock in my heart. Pretended to be stupid and said, "Sister, what are you talking about?" ”

"Sister, you don't have to hide it from me anymore. Actually, the fight started when you started teaching me some weird things. I should have realized it. She reached out and wiped away her tears. He sniffed hard and continued, "Although I don't know what happened to you and the emperor. But I can tell. The emperor loves you very much. Whenever it's midnight. I can hear the emperor's whispers in his dreams. He said he was sorry for Ah Yuan. He regretted what he had done. And every time he woke up from a dream. Girls will touch my cheek very carefully. Hold me tightly. It's like I'm going to disappear at any moment. Sister. You probably won't even know. The sparkle in his eyes every time he listened to me sing those songs. That's something I can't touch in my life. ”

I bowed my head. There was complete silence. That's why I taught her. It was because I wanted to make her happier. But now it seems that it has hurt her deeply. I also don't know how to apologize to her. I don't even know how to tell her about my past with Xiao Ziling.

Lan'er seemed to see what was on my mind. She patted the back of my hand. continued: "You don't have to blame yourself. I didn't blame you at all. Opposite. I also want to thank you for not saying it. Let me enjoy a good happiness. ”

"You have a good rest. As long as you're cured. I promise you that you will not appear in front of Xiao Ziling again. I'll leave. ”

"Nope. Sister. "She rejected me without thinking about it." Actually, you don't have to comfort me. Although those imperial doctors don't say. The emperor didn't say anything. But I already knew my time was running out. You probably wouldn't think of it. Before I met the emperor. I'm a doctor in the hospital. Lan'er smiled. Her smile was weak. It's like a flower that will wither at any moment.

"......" Now it was my turn to be completely speechless. I couldn't find any words to comfort her. The only thing that could be done was to hold her hand tightly. Girls' literature is updated for the first time to express my apologies in silence.

There was silence between the two for a moment. Half an hour later. Lan'er spoke again: "I want to ask my sister to promise me one thing. ”

"You say." Her gaze was already a little glazed. The face is also a little worse than before.

"After I die. Please ask my sister to help me take care of the emperor. May I. There was eagerness in her eyes. It's hard to refuse. I didn't answer her. Instead, they turned their gaze elsewhere.

She said it easy. But the gap between me and Xiao Ziling couldn't be stitched at all. After the broken mirror is reunited, there will be a crack on it. Not to mention two people.

Lan'er hesitated when she saw me. She asked again. I think this is probably the last thing she wants in this life. I can only nod in agreement.

When I opened the door. Xiao Ziling just turned around. I blessed him. The diameter goes outward. No one stopped me. No one asked me where I was going. I made it all the way to the Yanbo Temple. Push open the heavy door. It's a different place than the last time I saw it.

The white walls were covered with my portraits. I think this should have been painted by Xiao Ziling later. Raise your hand without a hand. A painting fell before my eyes with a thud. I rolled it up and took off another pair. Until I finished the room full of portraits. The scrolls on the table had been piled up into a small mountain.

I flipped through the dresser again. Girls' literature has a white jade at the bottom. I recognized it as Xiao Ziling gave it to me at the beginning. On this day, I sat in the Yanbo Hall for a day. Wait until the death knell in the palace rings. I walked out with everything I had.

By that time, it was already the early morning of the second day. The sky seemed to be affected by the breath of sadness. A dark and dreary patch. There was not the slightest light.

The funeral music in the palace has sounded. I walked step by step on the bluestone slab with something in my arms. Ignore the strange stares of the people around you. Listen to the sound of mourning music. I came all the way to the mourning hall. There are already a lot of concubines dressed in plain colors gathered here. I paused. Hold your head very high. Raised his foot and stepped into the threshold.

It's a long way off. But the arrangement of the vegetarian still stands out in the dark. The large character "Dian" is pasted on a white cloth in the center. A nanmu coffin is placed in the center of the entire mourning hall. Pure white silk fluttered in the wind on both sides. On both sides of the road kneeling were all concubines. And right in front of the coffin. A figure of a man was standing motionless.

I probably heard movement. The surrounding concubines all raised their heads in unison. His gaze turned straight to me. I walked slowly forward with a blank face holding the things in my hand. After walking all the way to the man. Look at him and don't look at him. Straight over the brazier. He knelt in front of him and began to throw the things in his arms into the basin one by one.

When all that was left in the bosom was a blank of black ashes. I took the white jade out of my sleeve again. smashed to the ground in front of Xiao Ziling and everyone.

Just listen to the crisp sound of "pop". The intact white jade immediately turned into countless jade chips in front of his eyes. I heard someone next to me gasp. But Xiao Ziling didn't seem to hear it. Until I walked out of the mourning hall. I didn't hear a word of reprimand.

I guess Lan'er should have told him everything before she left. He didn't pay any attention to me. Probably because he didn't know how to face me. It's like I don't know how to deal with him now.

If it was before. I can still hate him like an enemy. But now. When everything that exists is exposed to the sun. How do we deal with ourselves?

I didn't think about it. I believe Xiao Ziling didn't think about it. Not to mention before. Take the days since I entered the palace. He didn't give me a good look. Even these deep scars on my skin are due to Him.

These whip marks look like flesh wounds. But it took Han Xiao a lot of effort. The effect of the potion was straight to the bone. It stirred up all the feelings that I had been missing for a long time. Densely gnawed at every inch of my bones. It hurt so much that I wanted to kill myself by hitting the wall right away.

Soak in a medicinal bath for a few days. The wounds on his body are no longer as shocking as before. But the pain remains. I gritted my teeth. looked at Han Xiao with an indifferent look. I can't wait to go up and tear apart that slightly gloating face.

"Don't look at me like that. I don't get the bracelet for a day. You have to suffer like this every day. "Even knowing that the threat didn't work for me. But she deliberately added some potion to the barrel. The pain that had just been relieved came back to the top.