Chapter 17: The Pain of Birth
Liuning and Liubin were speechless all the way, Liuning stopped and stared at the palace gate when he walked to the gate, this courtyard is deep, carved beams and paintings, undercurrents are surging, love and hate entanglement, and he has nothing to do with himself again. Liuning only stayed for a short time, then got into the carriage with his brother, and slept all the way.
Liubin's mood is also extremely complicated, his brows are furrowed and uncomfortable, watching his sister pretend to be asleep, but there is a hidden uneasiness in his eyebrows, which is very distressing. Liubin never thought that he had been idle so far but he had not been able to gain the trust of the emperor, those who were born and died on the battlefield, those blood and tears that were shed during the fight, in front of the country, there was no friendship between the monarchs and ministers.
This is not the most heart-wrenching thing for Liubin, he is not the person who is reluctant to be prosperous and rich, but he is just annoyed that he can't protect his sister and brother, let alone give his beloved woman and unborn child a stable home.
Liuning's heart is even more mixed at this time, there is anxiety about the future, guilt for his brother and sister-in-law, resentment towards the emperor, and more reluctance to Tang Changyu.
Liuning has not spoken, has been avoiding the current result, but feels that the carriage is too bumpy, and the shaking Liuning's heart hurts like a pinprick, and tears are about to fall out.
Liubin called softly: "Sister." Liu Ning could no longer control the pain of being born, don't look around, don't let her brother see her tears, but her voice was low because of choking: "Brother, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for you, and I'm even more sorry for my sister-in-law, I want you to be displaced from me, I'm sorry, I'm sorry ......."
Liuning kept repeating that she was sorry, she was sorry, Liubin shook her head with advantage and helplessness, her sister could only make herself more sad like this, and she cheered up and comforted: "A-Ning, don't say it, we can't do anything about this matter, Qingqing will understand us." ”
Liuning didn't answer again, he got out of the carriage and rushed to the direction of the prison, just to want to look at Tang Changyu from a distance, Liubin didn't follow him very interestingly, he went back to Liufu first, he didn't know how to tell Yun Qing about this, he didn't want Yun Qing to follow him all the time in dire straits, and he didn't know what the fate of the two would be in the future.
Liubin walked into the Liufu with heavy steps, Yun Qing, Zhao Nan and Mingfu looked and waited at the gate together, watching Liubin with a sad face walking slowly, his heart also became heavy, the early autumn wind swept the fallen leaves, a little cool, and Yun Qing in Liubin's eyes looked even thinner at this time.
Liubin took off his cloak and draped it on Yun Qing's body, and said in a very distressed and reproachful tone: "Why are you standing in this cold wind and waiting for me, you are all going to be a mother, and you are so ignorant!" With that, he led Yun Qing to the house, and his domineering strength tightly clasped Yun Qing's five fingers, as if he wanted to connect the two people and never separate again.
Yun Qing obviously didn't expect Liubin to react like this, so he could only take him away, leaving Zhao Nan and Mingfu at the door, so they looked at each other on the ground.
Yun Qing was taken back to the room by Liubin, Liubin closed the door tightly, and kissed Yunqing's lips fiercely without waiting for Yun Qing to react, the two of them relied on each other's lips and teeth, handing over each other's warmth and lingering, Liubin's eyelashes trembled slightly, and the tears slipped quietly, Yun Qing felt a trace of saltiness at the corner of his mouth, and opened his eyes in surprise, only to find that Liubin had already burst into tears, and the tears dissolved in the skin, and even fell on the hearts of the two.
Yun Qing may have vaguely understood that this affectionate kiss contains bitterness, maybe something is going to happen, Liubin's originally radiant peach blossom eyes are now full of decadent confusion, Yun Qing was tightly held in Liubin's arms, feeling his powerful heartbeat and gentle strength, waiting for Liubin to speak first.
Liubin and Yun Qing suffered from the separation of the two places in the past, even if they were unwilling to separate from Yun Qing again, he couldn't let Yun Qing face the unknown danger with him, not to mention that he couldn't give Yun Qing a proper name, not to mention that they already had children.
Liubin's voice was hoarse, full of too much sadness and helplessness, and he sighed: "Qingqing, I'm sorry." ”
Although Yun Qing is a weak woman who only understands poetry and songs, she does not know how to dance knives and guns, but her tenacity and perseverance are no less than anyone else, Yun Qing hugged Liubin hard, gently caressed Liubin's broad back, and was as gentle and meticulous as a child, signaling Liubin to continue.
Liubin understands Yun Qing's thoughts, but he will be more distressed because of Yun Qing's sensibility and strength, he thought that he could have peace overnight in Chang'an, but he didn't want to be more in front of the two in the future, and it was still a day of gathering less and leaving more, Liubin's voice became deeper and lower: "Qingqing, A-Ning and I are going back to Turkic, this is the emperor's will." ”
Yun Qing may have thought that there was no name of his own in this will, but he still forced a smile, holding the last glimmer of hope, looking at Liubin with innocent eyes, and said happily: "It's okay, I can go with you, it's okay to go back, Turkia is our hometown......"
Before Yun Qing's words were finished, he was cut off by Liubin: "I can't take you back." ”
This was expected, but in the face of the truth, Yun Qing still couldn't accept it, although she couldn't be Liubin's nominal wife, but they had already decided that each other was the only lover in their lives, Yun Qing didn't understand why Liubin just wanted to blindly protect him, instead of letting the two face it together, so he asked puzzledly: "Why?" ”
Liubin didn't seem to want to explain these chaotic things in the court, and in the silence of the two, Yun Qing hugged Liubin again, and said with a slight cry in his voice: "Why don't you want to tell me anything, I don't want to live only on your protection, I want to share everything you have with you, I know, you may dislike my lowly status, I'm not smart, I don't understand the complexity of your officialdom, but I'm your wife, I know my ......"
Yun Qing still didn't finish his words this time, and was interrupted by Liubin's kiss, this kiss was tactful and long, not as dyed with a strong parting meaning as before, but it became more and more bitter, Yun Qing and Liubin shared this bitterness, tears fell uncontrollably, and said vaguely: "I want to be with you, I want to be by your side forever." ”