"Did Qin Hao come to trouble you again?" Ji Shisheng said again.

Mo Nian shook his head: "How come?" She didn't even know where my family lived. ”

Ji Shisheng looked at her and didn't speak.

“…… A friend of mine has passed away. ”

Mo Nian still told Ji Shisheng, "Actually, it's not very right to say that a friend, the relationship between me and him, if there is a friend to summarize, it seems too simple, but in other words, it is either too close or too distant, think about it carefully, it seems more appropriate to describe it with a friend who is polite and familiar." ”

Moreover, Shao Junqing also admitted that he was his friend.

"That's a friend."

Ji Shisheng said lightly: "Friends are not a simple relationship, this word can be used to describe many relationships. ”

"Really? I didn't even know it before. ”

Mo Nian said honestly: "From before to now, I only have one friend. ”

Most of the time, she doesn't know how to describe her relationship with others, only like Xia Linxi, who has given the final word to their relationship, and has not broken her promise for so many years, has given her the confidence to say the word "friend" and will not encounter the situation of being denied by others on other occasions.

"You'll have more friends in the future." Ji Shisheng's tone remained unchanged.

"Are you comforting me?" Mo Nian asked.

"I'm stating the facts."

Ji Shisheng's words changed: "You digressed." ”

Mo Nian then remembered that they were talking about Shao Junqing at the beginning.

"Actually, it's nothing, I don't feel sad in the first place."

Mo Nian thought for a moment before he spoke: "When he died, he died, he also said goodbye to me before, and what he should do has been done...... That's what I thought when I heard about his death. ”

"But even people who weren't his friends were crying."

Mo Nian leaned on the back of the chair and looked at the flowers in the yard, probably because of the cold weather, most of the flowers withered and looked broken, she spoke: "I don't feel like crying at all." ”

"Feel like you're an anomaly?"

Ji Shisheng frowned, and he said, "You don't have to worry about what makes you different from others, everyone is different." ”

"I'm used to this kind of thing, how can I get entangled?"

Mo Nian said in a light tone: "I'm just thinking, what kind of person am I now?" After I lost my feelings, I was numb to others at first, unable to recognize others, and then when you said that I couldn't even find out my feelings, I reacted, I don't know when it started, and I was also numb to myself, I didn't even know what I was like. ”

In the emotionless numb life, Mo Nian lost too many things.

"When I got to my friend's funeral, the thought suddenly came to mind—"

Mo Nian put her gaze back on Ji Shisheng, the two looked at each other, and she said in a puzzled and serious tone: "I think, I should have been sad about this matter." ”

"But I didn't do anything." Mo Nian's words changed.

Despite such a calm tone and such a bland word, Ji Shisheng's heart tightened after hearing it.

Why did it make him so uncomfortable?

Very, uncomfortable.

"Mo Nian."

Ji Shisheng opened his mouth, his voice was slightly deep: "You just have to be yourself-if that person treats you as a friend, he will also agree with me." ”

"Ji Shisheng."

Mo Nian rarely called Ji Shisheng's full name, and she suddenly said, "Recently, why are you so good to me?" ”

Ji Shisheng was slightly stunned, he looked away, and his tone was cold: "Your illusion." ”

"Really?"

Mo Nian shook his head: "I don't think so." ”

Ji Shisheng frowned, and he glanced at Mo Nian: "What do you want to say?" ”

"It started when you knew the kidnappers were here because of you, right?"

Mo Nian said: "You care about me more than before, and you will do things that don't like your style, such as standing up for me to deal with Qin Hao, and now...... You just found out that I wasn't in a good shape, so you turned around from the company and brought me here, and you wouldn't have done that if it had been a few months ago. ”

“…… So? Ji Shisheng took a long time before he spoke.

"Do you feel guilty about being good to me?" Mo Nian asked.

"Why are you curious about this?"

Ji Shisheng asked rhetorically, "Aren't you not interested in other people's affairs?" ”

"I don't know."

Mo Nian knew that what Ji Shisheng said was right, after she lost her feelings, she would not have any interest in other people's affairs, she didn't even know why she thought about why Ji Shisheng was suddenly good to her, why she wanted to know the reason why Ji Shisheng did this, "I just ...... Thought of it. ”

"Maybe it's because that's your business."

Mo Nian didn't avoid his gaze, "In my opinion, you have always been special. ”

It's because it's special that I care about it.

Ji Shisheng always knew that Mo Nian was a straightforward person, but such straightforward words still caught him off guard.

It's just that after reacting, it's more melancholy than inexplicable joy.

“…… yes, I'm guilty. ”

Ji Shisheng did not lie, nor did he avoid Mo Nian's question.

Mo Nian asked, which proved that Mo Nian's subconscious was very concerned about this matter, so he would break free from the shackles that bound his feelings, and push a small amount of curiosity into Mo Nian's heart.

"I regret being friends with you."

Ji Shisheng's tone was light, but his voice sounded a little tight, "If you hadn't met me, you wouldn't have had to live such a bleak life, you should have lived a happier life, if you could, I hope you leave me now, because you don't owe me anything, but I owe you a lot." ”

"I'm not leaving."

Mo Nian said seriously: "I still have something to do, even if I can't help you recover, I have to work hard until the last moment." ”

It was a matter of her decision, and no one could change her will.

“…… I know. ”

Ji Shisheng glanced at her, and in his deep pupils, there were complex feelings that Mo Nian couldn't read, "So I won't push you away anymore, but I don't want you to get too close to me, even if you can't remember those things in the past, I also know that my existence symbolizes your misfortune, even if the source of misfortune is not between you and me, I am still the biggest misfortune in your life." ”

"I hope you don't have anything to do with the past, and that's the best."

Ji Shisheng's last sentence was very serious.

When Mo Nian heard this, he was in a trance for a moment.

A flash of inspiration flashed through her mind, and a question that had been holding her back for a long time seemed to have been answered.

"You have always refused me to have in-depth contact with Ji Qingmo, is this also the reason?" Mo Nian said suddenly.

Ji Shisheng took a breath.

"Is that so?"

Mo Nian asked: "Because he symbolizes your past, and his good memories of me come from your past with me, so you are afraid that he will mention those things in front of me, so you don't want me to have in-depth contact with him and learn more about the past, right?" ”

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