Thinking of the pain that night, Li Hansheng still has palpitations, and the pain of ten thousand needles in his body seems to have reappeared on him after two years. That night, he was woken up by pain several times, rolling on the bed and screaming, fortunately, his grandparents were there to take care of him, rubbing him with wind oil essence, plus his physique was good, he finally survived, took back one foot to the ghost gate, and returned to the world.

He touched the scars on his body the size of a dozen little fingers, and even three on his head, but the guilt and self-blame for the day's events disappeared a lot. "Lin Zi shouldn't be sad. She is the daughter of a big boss, and there is always no shortage of friends around her. And I'm a child of a poor family who doesn't have any new clothes to wear after the Chinese New Year, how can I be a friend if I am not a person from the world? ”

He remembered that at noon on the day of the sixth grade of elementary school, he was eating a large amount of tofu that he had brought from home to school, when he saw Lin Zi walking in front of him.

"Li Hansheng!" Lin Ziqiao stood in front of him and looked at him happily.

"Hey! Linzi, why are you here? Li Hansheng was full of surprises, he never dreamed that Lin Zi would actually come to see him.

"I promised you to come and see you. By the way, Li Hansheng, why did you get thinner again? Lin Zi shook his head proudly, flicked his high ponytail, and looked down at the lunch box in his hand, which was slimy, "You just eat this?" What is this? ”

Li Hansheng's hand holding the chopsticks paused, "This is tofu, in fact, the dish this time is not bad." ”

"It's not bad, I can't see what the dish is, how can I ...... the dishes that are usually worse" Lin Zi blurted out, consciously gaffeting, "I don't mean anything else, I was thinking that you should eat better, you were white and fat when you came back, and now you are thin again." ”

"It's okay, I know you care about me. We are a small mountain village, and we usually eat small vegetables grown in the field, not much oil, and rarely eat meat. Li Hansheng took a big bite of rice, "Today's dish doesn't look good, but it's really a good dish." ”

"By the way, how did you find it, have you eaten?"

"Today is my aunt's birthday, her family is in this village, I asked her to find it. I'll go over for dinner later. Lin Zi was in a low mood, looking at the ground, her feet were grinding the leaves on the ground one by one, and she felt that Li Hansheng seemed to be a little different from before.

In fact, that aunt usually doesn't have much contact, so she doesn't have to come over, but when she learned that this aunt was from the same village as Li Hansheng, she thought that she would take this opportunity to come to see him, so she asked for leave and came with her grandfather. Why does the imaginary happy reunion feel a little awkward?

"Oh, I'm not far from her family, it turns out that your family and hers are relatives." Li Hansheng also felt the abnormality of the atmosphere, but he didn't know what to do. ”

The leaves on the soles of her feet were completely crushed, and she raised her head, "Li Hansheng, then I'll go back first, and I'll have dinner later." ”

"Oh, then I..., be careful on your way." Li Hansheng was a little at a loss, he wanted to say that he would send her back, but he changed his words. I'm going to have class later, and if I send Lin Zi back, it will be miserable if I'm late, and he makes excuses for himself in his heart, not admitting the inexplicable cowardice in his heart.

Lin Zi's expectant eyes dimmed, turned around, and waved his hand, "I know, it's okay, you can continue to eat." He turned around and walked outside, his slow pace slowly getting faster and faster, and there seemed to be a sad smell in the air.

"Lin Zi......" Li Hansheng felt something, but he didn't shout after all, looking at the little back who was walking farther and farther away, he suddenly felt that the food in his hand was tasteless. Swallow it in large gulps and don't waste it.

Could it really be so embarrassing for time to meet friends who had such good relationships again? Or maybe there were other reasons, but he didn't want to admit it.

......

"Alas!" Li Hansheng came back to his senses and sighed. It's already happened, it's useless to think about it, Lin Zi must hate me to death now. Go to bed early, tomorrow I have to go to the New Year, my body curls up in a ball, and I force myself to sleep.

The next morning, Li Hansheng had breakfast and was about to go out to pay New Year's greetings. I saw Li Li walk in and asked casually, "Hansheng, do you want to come to my house to play cards in the afternoon?" ”

"Huh? What happened to your face? Li Li blinked, thinking that she had seen it wrong, took a few steps closer, looked at Li Hansheng's face carefully, and stretched out her hand to touch it, "Hansheng, what's wrong with you?" The face is so bad? ”

"Nothing." Li Hansheng took a few steps back, avoiding Li Li's outstretched hand, "Is there anyone else with you?" ”

Li Li watched Li Hansheng's dodging movements, and a trace of gloom flashed in her eyes. Since Hansheng was bitten by a mountain bee that time, he has been lukewarm to them like this, although he has not said the slightest word of blame for them, and he still plays with them as usual, but resists all intimate actions. She knows that there is already a gap between them, they can't see or touch, but they are in the middle, and maybe it will be difficult to eliminate them in this life.

"Reiko also came over, plus me and Komatsu, there is a shortage of you." Li Li put down her hand, took out a handful of melon seeds from her pocket, and knocked them up, "Then I'll go back, you come directly to my house in the afternoon, and we'll wait for you." ”

"Okay." Li Hansheng quietly watched Li Li walk away with melon seeds, and rubbed his face fiercely with his hand, "I had a nightmare, is your face so bad?" When I picked up the mirror, I was startled to see a haggard face in the mirror, with drooping eyelids, blank eyes, and wrinkled skin like orange peel. Pour hot water quickly and rub your face with a hot towel repeatedly. Looking at myself in the mirror, my complexion finally improved, so I picked up the gift and walked out the door.

The sky was blue, the wind was not as strong as yesterday, and the faint sunlight was shining down, warming his body. On the road, people often staggered with festive faces, and from time to time they heard the noise of firecrackers.

Li Hansheng's heart flashed Li Li's gloomy eyes, embarrassed to let go, and he was a little hesitant in his heart. In the first few days after being bitten, he was tortured by pain every day, and he really hated his partners for standing by, especially the relationship between Li Li and Li Xiaoling, one is his third cousin, and the other is a young sister with a good relationship. The so-called greater hope, the greater the disappointment, and he was indeed deeply hurt. But when he calmed down later, he also knew that it would have no effect for them to rush up, but they would be besieged together, and even glad that they fortunately didn't rush up, otherwise life and death would be unpredictable.

Thinking like this, he played and talked with them as usual, as if it was no different than before. But the estrangement has already appeared and erected the moment they are watching, and it will not disappear as thoroughly as one thinks. It's like this with them, and it's the same with Linzi, if there is no opportunity to break it, you can probably only drift away in the future.