There were no surprises that night.

It's just that my back hurts so badly that I lay down and fell asleep.

I don't know if it's because tomorrow the baby is going to be forced to leave my relationship, I had a nightmare for the night.

In my dreams, I kept dreaming that two little children, a boy and a girl, were crying and shouting to me, "Mom, don't abandon me!" Mom, don't leave me behind! Mom, help me! ”

I shed many, many tears in my dreams. I kept chasing these two children, but the more I chased them, the farther away I got from them. The farther away from them, the more scared I became.

It was a long, long road, and I kept chasing, chasing, and although I chased farther and farther, I never gave up and never stopped.

It's just that later I got more and more tired, and the scene in front of me became more and more blurry, and I didn't remember much about what I dreamed about after that.

When I woke up, it was already light.

My pillow was so wet that I had really cried all night.

Wu Peiming, who was in the next bed, didn't know if he was worried that something would happen to me at night, or if he was alone and widowed in the same room, he was embarrassed to wear loose clothes, but he slept in clothes, and he didn't even get into the bed. On the contrary, I took off my coat and lay down under the quilt without scruples in the autumn clothes and pants that Wu Peiming bought for me yesterday.

I carefully dressed and got up, but I still woke up Wu Peiming.

After Wu Peiming waited for me to finish washing, he saw that it was still early, so he took me to the restaurant to accompany him to breakfast.

I thought, I've got to go on an empty stomach. But people accompanied me to the operation, so it's not good to let them accompany me on an empty stomach. I agreed.

During the meal, he told me jokes all the time. I knew he was distracting me and hoped I wouldn't get too nervous about the next surgery.

I'm grateful to him, but to say I'm not nervous, not sad, that's a lie.

It's just that people are dedicated to me, so I have to pretend to be a smile on the surface.

After Wu Peiming was satisfied, he accompanied me to the hospital and sat at the door of the operating room with the fathers-to-be who did not want to be fathers.

I followed the nurse into a slipper change and walked into the waiting area for surgery.

In the waiting area there was a long bench on which sat two very young girls. The nurse motioned for me to sit down behind them, and then left.

The two girls seemed to know each other, and it was not the first time that they had had an abortion.

One of the girls, in her early twenties, asked another girl who looked to be seventeen or eighteen, "Why are you so careless?" How many times has this been you? Looks like it's been more than half a year since I last met you here, right? ”

The girl said shyly: "Just like this, my menstruation is not accurate, and the safe period may be miscalculated!" So how could you be so careless? ”

The girl said: "Where am I not careful, I just want to get pregnant on purpose!" But he still met someone unladylike, and he was forced to get married even if he was pregnant with his child, so what else did he do! ”

The two girls spoke very lightly, as if what they had taken from their stomachs was not a small life, but a casual object.

My heart is indignant, why some people can't keep their babies even if they want to, while others can kill their lives so easily.

Soon the two girls were called in by the nurse and entered operating rooms 1 and 2 respectively.

It's okay to save me from seeing them in the eyes.

At this time, two more women came, both looking like they were in their thirties, and one of them was holding a plastic bottle in his hand.

They sat behind me.

The woman who didn't hold the bottle asked the woman who held it, "What is this in your hand?" Why didn't I? ”

The woman with the bottle said, "This is my second baby, and the previous baby also stopped suddenly, and so does this one." So the doctor asked me to do another baby's placental villus chromosome test at my own expense, and this bottle will be handed over to the doctor later, and the placenta will be put in it for testing. ”

When I heard her say this, suddenly the resentment I had just felt dissipated. I cast a look of pity at the woman with the bottle, I was so uncomfortable to lose my first child, she had a second child, how painful it must be.

At this time, the woman who didn't hold the bottle suddenly cried out: "Then why didn't the doctor prescribe one for me?" My baby is also in place! ”

"Usually it will be prescribed when the second fetus is stopped, and when my first fetus was stopped, the doctor didn't prescribe it for me." The woman in the bottle said.

"I'm the third child." The woman who didn't hold the bottle said this, and it startled me and the woman with the bottle.

They both looked back at me.

I smiled at them.

The woman who didn't hold the bottle continued: "I had a son from my first child, and now I'm six years old, but I'm quite healthy. But isn't it now that both parties are only children and can have a second child? I was pregnant with my second child last year, and the fetus stopped. This year, the baby was stopped again. ”

The woman with the bottle said, "Maybe the doctor didn't prescribe it to you because he saw that there was nothing wrong with your first baby." This is a genetic problem. By the way, you have a son, and then both births stopped, so painful, are you still ready to continue? ”

"Yes, I want a daughter." She said it firmly, happily, not at all like a mother who had been hurt twice.

I thought to myself, being a mother is strong, that's how it should be.

"Then you're in a good state of mind. I really don't have a baby, it's not good to explain to my in-laws, if I were in a situation like you, I would definitely not give birth. I really don't have as much faith as you, and my heart is tired. ”

The woman who didn't hold the bottle laughed, I thought she would comfort the other woman with something, but she didn't. She turned straight back to me and asked, "What about you?" Why did you hit the baby? ”

"I'm also in a car, too." I don't want to talk too much, so I don't bother to talk to them about twins or twins, so I just say that.

"Alas, there are a lot of such things now! I'm 52 days, how many days are you? "The mom with the bottle interjected and asked me.

"I've been in the ninetieth day for more than 90 days."

"Huh? You're going to induce labor in this situation, right? The mother who didn't take the bottle exclaimed.

At this time, the nurse called me into the operating room. I smiled at them and followed the nurse inside.

As soon as I was lying on the operating table, a nurse suddenly came to me with a piece of paper and asked me to sign it.

She said that my baby is more than three months old and usually needs to be induced, but my baby is not developing at all and can try uterine curettage. However, the baby has been in it for too long, and it is very likely that it will not be clean at one time, and it may require two curettage surgeries, so I must sign this notice.

People are lying on the operating table, like fish on a chopping board, and I can't sign it?

I obediently signed it, and after the nurse gave me a needle through the vein, I started to get confused.

I actually saw Old Man Meng.

He said to me, "Girl, you are cold in your heart, and you are angry and angry, but you are missing a reason for your outbreak. The calamity has come early, but your nobles have not arrived, I am afraid that you will not be able to escape. ”

I was angry and shouted at him, "Why do you see me saying that? ”

Old Man Meng smiled and said: "Girl, you have a catastrophe within the year, if you are emotional, you can turn the catastrophe, break your fate, and have no worries in your life." If you are not emotional, it is fate, and it is also the will of God. However, you must abandon your own anger, otherwise it will be impossible to recover. ”

What was I just going to say to him? But suddenly I saw He Yong coming over.

As soon as I saw him, I cried out and ran after him.

I said to him, "You know what? Our baby can't be saved, can't be saved! ”

He didn't pay attention to what I said, he just said to me vigorously: "You are not emotionally emotional, you are not emotionally emotional, you are not emotionally emotional...... me"

Yes, I really don't have feelings for you. It was an accident this time, but that doesn't mean I don't love the baby, at least they have half of my blood.

Forget it, I thought he was the same as me. Regardless of whether the two of us love each other or not, but the baby has his share, knowing that the baby can't be saved, he will always be as sad and sad as me!

But no, then forget it, don't see each other again!

I turned my head away from what's the use, but two little babies pounced on me, and they were very cute.

I was about to lean down and touch their little heads, but I heard them complaining, "You have abandoned us, you have abandoned us, you have abandoned us......"

"I didn't, I didn't, I didn't......" I yelled and ran away.

At this time, I saw Wu Peiming in front of me, and he called me over and over again: "Zicha, Zicha, Zicha......"

I answered a few times and wanted to walk over, but I found that there was still a distance of about 100 meters between me and him.

Where is he still calling me: "Zicha, Zicha, wake up, wake up, wake up......"

Wake up?

What do you mean.

I rubbed my eyes, and when I opened them again, I felt so heavy on my eyelids and dizzy. What I saw was the ceiling of the hospital.

Wu Peiming is right next to me.

It turned out that I had already finished the surgery and was wheeled to the rest room.

Wu Peiming smiled softly at me and asked me, "Does it hurt?" ”

"The strength of the anesthetic doesn't seem to have passed, but now it's dizzy, and I don't feel the pain."

I struggled to get up, and he lifted me up and sat me down, but he wouldn't let me get out of bed.

He said that the doctor had just told him to wake up again.

I didn't listen to him, so I had to get out of bed. As a result, as soon as my feet hit the ground, I felt lightheaded and fell down all of a sudden.

The nurse next to me saw it, hurriedly ran over, helped me up with Wu Peiming, turned his head and scolded Wu Peiming: "Didn't the doctor tell you that the anesthetic hasn't been over yet, and you have to wake up again before you can go to the ground!" ”

Wu Peiming smiled awkwardly.

I suddenly felt embarrassed, and he was scolded.

The nurse and Wu Peiming helped me to a chair and told me to sit for a while before leaving.

When I sat down, my mind was filled with the strange staccato fragments I had seen during the surgery.

I don't know if it's because the anesthetic hasn't been completely related, so my brain is not very clear, so I actually asked Wu Peiming: "Third brother, do you think that my heart is cold, and my anger is deeply buried, and I will never recover?" ”

"Huh?" Wu Peiming looked at me in surprise.

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