After feeling that You Meng didn't want to grab his hand so hard, Vinegar Tan continued what he hadn't finished saying just now.

"Because I have been reluctant to speak, and gradually I have become unresponsive to external stimuli.

Mr. Vinegar and Ms. Tan took me to see a psychiatrist full of anxiety.

The doctor said that I had severe PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) and advised my parents to change my living environment.

My mom soon decided to leave with me and went to Xiamen to open a new company and laboratory.

It didn't take long for my dad to completely hand over everything about the family company, leave the family business, and follow in my mom's footsteps to the city where you and I could meet.

After living in Xiamen for two months, I finally started to speak again.

After getting the doctor's permission, I started going to kindergarten again.

In the new kindergarten, I had a very happy time, all my classmates were very nice to me, and no one would point a finger at me.

I quickly made a good friend Li Limi, who later talked about everything.

She later asked me why she came to Xiamen, and I was naïve at that time, thinking that to be a good friend, I had to tell the truth, so I told her the real reason.

Since then, I have no secrets with Li Limi.

What can be said should have been represented in the past.

But sometimes, a person's psychological shadow may not even be aware of herself.

When I was a child, I was very skinny, like a boy, and when I used to be in kindergarten in my hometown, I basically rolled around with boys.

I ran faster than the boys and climbed higher than the boys.

My mom used to have an individual gymnastics room at home, with all kinds of rings, horizontal bars, parallel bars, trampolines and a playground, and I often brought my classmates to play at home.

After arriving in a new city and a new kindergarten, I probably subconsciously began to refuse to play with boys.

My mom also found out that from that time on, I was very resistant to having physical contact with boys, and I couldn't hold hands with kindergarten children, and I couldn't be boys.

Because the stress response after trauma is more intense, and it will turn the horns.

My psychiatrist told my parents that I was the kind of child who couldn't educate about frustration, and that I had to try to follow my heart, because if PTSD happened again, it was very likely that I would never get out of it.

The doctor's words frightened my dad and my mom, and neither of them dared to mention the incident to me again.

It's the kind that doesn't even dare to enlighten.

My dad and my mom, especially my dad, felt guilty about me because the incident happened in the house that my dad was renovating, and everything was up to me, basically I did whatever I liked.

This is also why, the later painting style of our family is becoming more and more bizarre.

My dad always makes me happy and how to come, reasonable and unreasonable requests will be met by my dad, as long as it is not a life-threatening thing, no matter how outrageous the request is, he will support it unconditionally.

My dad's only appeal was for me to stop getting into the nitty-gritty.

As for my mother, seeing that I didn't want to play with any boy, she felt that I definitely didn't let go of my heart, and she wanted to enlighten but didn't dare to say it directly.

In the end, she 'transformed' herself into a 'face control' who drooled at all kinds of handsome guys all day long, and pulled me to take reading beautiful men all over the world as the ultimate ideal of life.

Before I graduated from kindergarten, my mom would joke with me all day long, encouraging me to knock down my handsome male classmates.

Seeing that I didn't show much resistance to what she said on a whim, she joked more and more as if it were true.

I kept shouting that I wanted to read all the beautiful men in the world, but I was actually not interested in any boys.

Until—

Your appearance.

I don't immediately slap you when you hold my hand.

If you kiss me, I won't punch me directly.

I was glad I was there.

Maybe my psychological shadow will disappear automatically after meeting you.

Perhaps, knocking down a boy is really the same as what my mom said, it's always that simple. When Vinegar Tan said, "Until you appear," he blushed to the base of his ears without warning, and almost got stuck.

"No wonder you were shaking the first time I held your hand, it turned out that you were trying to resist the urge to hit me." You Meng didn't want Vinegar Tan to see that his emotions were fluctuating so much, and after trying to calm himself down, he tried to pick something that could make Vinegar Tan shift his focus.

"How is that possible? I never wanted to hit you.

I was so excited.

Well, that...... I've said all this, but what I really want to say to you is ......

I never knew if I was complete or not.

At that time, I liked you so much, and because I was a little crooked by my mother, I always had the idea that I might fall on you at any time.

But if I really threw you down so indistinctly, I would definitely have wronged you.

At that time, I felt that I could wronged myself, but I could never wronged you.

So I wanted to figure out what happened as soon as possible.

Was it the man's sister who was talking nonsense, or was my dad comforting me when he said the attempt.

I think it's better to ask a doctor for this kind of thing.

On the day of the return to school in the third year of junior high school, I took Li Limi and went to the hospital.

I want to find out whether the person at that time committed a crime or an attempt.

I was a fool at the time, and I hadn't started studying medicine yet.

I don't even know what department to go to for this kind of thing, so I think that Aunt Li Limi are all doctors, and any one you ask should be able to answer my little questions.

At first, I was looking for Li Limi's aunt in surgery.

It's the Director Wu Jianguo who you want to fight in the end.

Because of Li Limi's relationship, her aunt wrote me a consultation record very patiently and in detail.

At the end of the question, after knowing my true appeal, Director Wu said that she is a surgeon who does not understand these things and does not perform surgery in this area.

This kind of demand of mine, even if I go to the gynecological imaging department, is a rare need.

If you are more often exposed to such situations, you should go to the medical aesthetic department.

Director Wu suggested that I go to the medical aesthetic department for a check-up, saying that this is a very small thing, so I don't have to worry, and said that she can directly help me make an appointment for the repair surgery, so that if necessary, the examination and repair can be done together, and I will have to go to the hospital several times.

At that time, I was eager to figure out this matter myself before taking the initiative to confess to you, so I really asked Li Limi's aunt to directly make an appointment for me to do the repair surgery. When Vinegar Tan now thinks about his behavior pattern at that time, he feels that the painting style is a little strange.