Chapter 49: Return to Chang'an
Sacrifice is sometimes the most fearless, but it is also the most useless, such as Yang Huai, who was thrown into a mass grave by the jailers after he was sentenced in prison, and no one cared about the truth he held in his hands, for example, the current Tang Changyu.
It was freezing cold, Tang Changyu woke up in a warm room, Tang Changyu's eyes were blurry, and his head was splitting, he felt that he had slept for a long time and had a long, intense dream, which is why his body was so sore. Tang Changyu lay quietly for a while before struggling to sit up, and the unfamiliar room was empty.
The miserable white snow was stained red with blood, the red was so dazzling, abrupt, fell to the ground, the princess of the painting brocade who was dead, Liuning desperately and poignantly shouted, one scene after another recalled in Tang Changyu's mind, Tang Changyu's heart hung in his throat, Liuning was not by his side, and shouted anxiously: "A-Ning." Anin. ”
Tang Changyu's shout did not call Liuning, but Liubin hurriedly ran in.
Tang Changyu seemed to see hope, grabbed the placket of Liubin's clothes, and shook him, looking very anxious, his eyes were full of worry: "A-Ning, how is she, where is she." ”
Liubin patted Tang Changyu and calmed him down: "A-Ning, she's in the next room." Tang Changyu's hanging heart was instantly put down, and he was about to run out, but was stopped by Liubin.
Tang Changyu raised his eyes to look at Liubin, his face was not very good, gray and gray, his peach blossom eyes were full of anxiety and entanglement, as if there was something to hide, it was difficult to speak, Tang Changyu's heart that had just been put down was suspended again, and a bad premonition was abrupt, and he tried his best to make himself appear calmer: "Say it, A-Ning, what's wrong with her, is something wrong with her?"
Liubin sighed, and the things that should be faced have to be faced after all: "A-Ning, she is pregnant with your child, but due to the tiring travel and the cold snowy night, you have experienced such a fierce battle again, and she has been stimulated a lot, so she miscarried." In this matter, you are a sinner, and I am also a sinner, if it weren't for the ...... to send Yun Qing here."
Tang Changyu was like a thunderbolt from the sky, he was hit hard, he gasped, he couldn't believe that their first child, the crystallization of their love, was gone like this.
Liubin tried to comfort Tang Changyu, but he didn't know what to say, at this time, any words were pale, at this moment, his heart hurt as much as Tang Changyu, she and Tang Changyu were silent together, for a while, Liubin said in a low voice: "Go and see her, Yun Qing is there to accompany her." ”
Tang Changyu's steps were heavy, every time he took a step towards the next room, his heart was like being pricked by a needle, his heart was so distressed that he was going to be numb, the pain on his body was completely infelt, Tang Changyu's feet seemed to weigh a thousand pounds, he blamed himself thousands of times in his heart, and cut himself with a thousand knives, but he couldn't make up for the damage to Liuning.
Tang Changyu kept blaming himself, he hated his carelessness, he should have noticed that there was a time when Liuning vomited inexplicably, and sometimes Liuning, who had always been picky about eating, would be willful picky eaters, he shouldn't ignore the tired look that Liuning had already written on his face.
He really damned it, Tang Changyu pushed open the door that seemed heavy.
Liuning slept on the bed, calm and peaceful, Yun Qing was sitting next to Liuning, the night was late, but Yunqing guarded Liuning without blinking, without the slightest sleepiness, Tang Changyu knew that Yun Qing was now guarding the torment and pain in his heart, roughly the same as himself, Yun Qing blamed himself, if it wasn't for himself, it wasn't that he insisted on coming to Turkic, it wasn't that he didn't refuse Liuning's request to accompany him, maybe none of these things would have happened......
Yun Qing saw Tang Changyu walk in, and stood up suddenly, but he was speechless for a while, and he didn't know how to face Tang Changyu, so he could only lower his head and stare at his toes, and the atmosphere was a little embarrassing for a while.
Tang Changyu understood Yun Qing's current mood, but he didn't blame Yun Qing and Liubin for anyone's thoughts, he knew that they were also sad and sad, and he also blamed himself for guilt, and didn't want to worry about them anymore: "Yunqing, you and Liubin can't be blamed for this matter, it's all my fault, I want to accompany A-Ning alone." ”
Yun Qing heard Tang Changyu's forgiveness, and felt a sense of relief, and her heart was still sad, but the fierce test of conscience was diluted a little, Yun Qing nodded, quietly exited the room, and carefully closed the door.
Outside the door, Liu Bin was standing there, he knew that Tang Changyu would definitely replace Yun Qing after he entered, he was waiting. Seeing Yun Qing turn around and go out, the two looked at each other, Liubin opened his arms to Yun Qing, his eyes were gentle, and he didn't say anything, Yun Qing threw himself into Liubin's arms, closed his eyes, smelled the unique smell of Liubin's body, and felt slightly relieved.
Liubin hugged Yun Qing tightly, he knew that these days, Yun Qing had a hard time, she was too tired, but she stubbornly refused to say, she had endured too much pain that she should not have suffered, Liu Bin was distressed, knowing that all Yun Qing needed now was such a hug, a hug that could give her strength.
Inside the door, Tang Changyu sat quietly on the edge of Liuning's bed, he tried his best not to make a sound, he didn't even want to make a sound of breathing, he didn't want to disturb Liuning's sleep, he knew that it had been a long time, and Liuning had never rested like this.
Tang Changyu took one of Liuning's hands and interlocked her fingers, he remembered that Liuning said that he liked him to hold him like this the most, he was very warm, very secure, and he would not be afraid wherever he went. At this moment, Tang Changyu secretly swore in his heart that in the future, he would use such a posture to keep Liuning by his side and never let him be hurt at all.
I don't know how many hours have passed, Tang Changyu has been maintaining this action, looking at Liuning's sleeping face, his eyes are full of distress, his hand holding Liuning's hand has long been numb, but he is still motionless.
It wasn't until the day was about to light up again that Liuning woke up, and the miscarriage and injury made her physically and mentally exhausted, and she was in a coma for nearly a day, still suffering from a big injury and a very haggard appearance.
Liuning looked at Tang Changyu who was guarding her, and suddenly had a sense of happiness for the rest of her life, but the strange pain in her body made her dare not be uneasy, she recalled the bloody roof, remembered the colic in her abdomen, and the bubbling red blood, as if she suddenly understood something, and asked tentatively: "Changyu, what's wrong with me, why, I am in so much pain." ”
Tang Changyu lowered his head, he thought that he could cover up this question quietly, but he forgot how smart Liuning was, how could he not notice his abnormality at all, and Tang Changyu didn't know that all his sorrow, distress and self-blame were written on his face, and Liuning read it clearly.
Seeing that Tang Changyu didn't answer, Liuning struggled to sit up, and approached Tang Changyu little by little, Tang Changyu looked at Liuning who was persistently looking for the truth, so difficult, but still reluctant, she was always like this, Tang Changyu gently circled Liuning into his arms, and his voice became bitter: "A-Ning, our first child, it's gone." ”
Tang Changyu didn't hear Liuning speak, he only felt that the person in his arms trembled slightly, as if he was trying his best to suppress his sadness, but he couldn't control it, even if she was as strong as Liuning, she was still a woman, a child, and a woman's eternal weakness.
Tang Changyu could feel that the clothes on his chest were wet with Liuning's tears, Tang Changyu caressed Liuning's back, which was a rare vulnerability that Liuning showed in front of him, Tang Changyu looked at the usually strong Liuning and cried into tears, and couldn't help but redden, and tears fell.
The two of them didn't continue to speak, hugged each other and cried, but Tang Changyu knew that he couldn't fall down at this time, he was Liuning's only spiritual support, so Tang Changyu quickly controlled his emotions, patted Liuning's back lightly, and kept wiping Liuning's tears.
Liu Ning began to try her best to suppress her crying, biting her lip tightly, she didn't want Tang Changyu to see herself like this, but she was also a human being, she couldn't bear such sorrow, and the sobbing voice gradually became louder, one by one, making Tang Changyu's heart twist like a knife.
Tang Changyu was distressed, and the scenes of the happy life of countless families of three that he had imagined had come to naught, Tang Changyu hugged Liuning until Liuning was tired of crying and fell asleep in Tang Changyu's arms.
For several days, Tang Changyu couldn't count how many sad days and nights he had, Tang Changyu, Liuning, Liubin, and Yunqing were all immersed in the grief of losing this child, and no one dared to mention the child's matter in front of Liuning, until Liuning's body recovered a lot and was able to move on his own.
The four of them returned to the inn not far from Yumen Pass, where the accident occurred, but they didn't expect that this place had been razed to the ground, the traces of the fire had not disappeared, and someone had destroyed the corpses.
The purpose of the four of them returning here was to build an empty grave for the unborn child, but they did not expect such a discovery.
After the tomb was erected, the four of them stood in front of the tomb, and when they returned here, Tang Changyu and Liuning had to face another thing that made it difficult for them to escape, Princess Huajin.
A few days ago, the sadness in their throats diluted their thinking about this matter, but now they have to face it, where to go next, neither of them knows whether their fate is still in their own hands.
"Changyu, let's go back to Chang'an, no matter what we have to face." Liuning's attitude is very resolute.
"I'll go, you stay." Tang Changyu was naturally reluctant to stay in Ning and return to the Longtan Tiger's Den with him to face unknown dangers.
"Changyu, don't, even if you want to protect me, there are so many emperors around my brother, it is impossible for them not to report back to the emperor, I can't escape the blame for the death of Princess Huajin, I can't be alone, not to mention that we have long been a community of destiny, Changyu, believe me, I can accompany you to face everything, I promise you, I won't let you worry, this time, I will stand behind you and accompany you." Liuning looked at Tang Changyu with a far-reaching and gentle gaze.
"Okay, let's go back to Chang'an together." Tang Changyu replied, we are in the same boat through thick and thin, so let's go through it together.
A-Ning, this time, I will definitely protect you.