Yu Fan, but I'll be back today, let her tutor you and study! As soon as Tan Yufan was at the dinner table, Guo Yingying asked.

"No, I don't." Yu Fan absentmindedly took a bite of food.

"She said she could teach you if you were struggling to learn." Guo Yingying seemed a little unwilling.

"Then you thank her for her kindness for me, you really don't need it."

"What do you mean?" Guo Yingying slapped the table sharply.

"It's not interesting, I just don't want to learn." Yu Fan retorted.

"And how exactly do you plan your future?"

"I didn't plan much! It's good to be alive. The girl replied stubbornly.

"I think when you come home from school in the evening, let her catch up on your English." Guo Yingying put down her chopsticks and looked at Xuanfan.

"Are you kidding me? What time did you come back from the study hall? Still want to catch up on English? She pushed her glasses impatiently.

"Tan Yufan, what do you mean? Do you want to go to university? If you don't want to get on, just tell me. We'll stop tomorrow and go to a technical school. Don't spend my hard-earned money all day long and still mess around at school, there is no point. ”

"Who told you I was messing around?" She pursed her lips.

"You didn't come back and you didn't study. You see, everyone has a master's degree, and they study late into the night every day. What about you? What are you doing? Guo Yingying chattered.

"What am I doing?" Yu Fan sneered, "I study at school for more than ten hours every day, and I really don't want to study anymore when I go home." ”

"yes, that's why you're supposed to be that bad. You lack a reason to get good grades. Guo Yingying gritted her teeth and said.

"Yes, I'm just bad, and you don't know that I've always been bad. Yu Fan said fiercely.

"I think you have this ability, just go to a third-rate school." The woman's face flushed.

"yes, you shouldn't have expected much from me in the first place." She threw her chopsticks and walked to her room.

"Stop, is this the way you talk to me?"

"I've done my best, what else do you want me to do?" The girl roared hoarsely.

"What else do I want from you?" The woman sneered, "Like I'm forcing you?" ”

"Isn't it? Don't you just want me to learn to sleep only four hours a day? But I can't! Large tears welled up from her eyes.

"Why are you so afraid of hardship? If you can't do it, if you can't do it, die, what else can you do? Guo Yingying stood up from the dinner table: "From today onwards, I will never care about you again." Fend for yourselves! ”

She began to whimper quietly.

"Cry, look at what your English test is, you still have a face to cry. How could I have given birth to such an uncompetitive child as you? ”

"Shut up, I don't want an incompetent mom like you." She sobbed violently, and her words were vague.

"Am I incompetent? You actually said that you are incompetent, and I worked hard to pull you up. Looking at your stinky face every day, you actually say I'm incompetent? ”

The woman spoke, grabbing her messy hair and weeping bitterly.

"Do you think it's easy for me to make money?

Do you think your mother's money is falling from the sky? ”

"Did you say enough?" She felt like she was going crazy.

"Are you at work? Are you the only one making money? You think it's not easy for you to live, do you?

Every day when I get home, I only know how to play mahjong, can you be more motivated? The girl howled like a wounded little beast.

"I'm motivated? Why should I be motivated? I'm tired all day, what's wrong with going home and playing mahjong?

Can't get used to it, right? If you can't get used to it, get out of here, live on campus, and don't stay at home. ”

The woman's eyes were red and embarrassed.

"Okay, I'll go, don't get in the way of you, I'll go through the procedures for receiving the school tomorrow.

After that, you will be left alone at home, satisfied? ”.

The sobs of the pan gradually became low.

"Why do you have to step on a good home like this?

Can't live a good life?

Be as generous as all mothers......."

"I can't do it, I can't do it, you know? You should be more competitive than your peers, otherwise, you won't have a bright future, you know? The woman buried her head deep in her knees.

"Why do you have to come out of nowhere? I just want to live happily, is it that hard? Tears flowed down her cheeks and down her neck.

"No, I will never allow you to live like me in the future. Every day is so hard, ordinary, and obscure. Even if I die, I can't let you live at such a bottom! ”

"Isn't it good to live like this? I was born with such a life, ordinary. The girl gasped.

"You know the! You don't understand anything! Money talks. If you are ordinary, you can only do the hardest work and get the least salary. If you come out, you can have a lot of money. You'll be very tough when you're alive, and you don't have to look at anyone's face. If you live like me, you might as well die. "The woman's pajamas were soaked with tears.

"Do you think you can be happy if you keep spinning like a spinning top every day? Do you think money can bring you real happiness? Abandon your loved ones and the beauty along the way. Working non-stop like a machine, without emotions of its own, without likes and dislikes. Is such a life worth pursuing? ”

Yu Fan seemed to have put all his strength into spitting out such words.

"Hmph", the woman sitting on the sofa smiled, "such a life is not worth pursuing.

So what kind of life is worth pursuing? Tight clothing and food, unable to take care of food and clothing, poor and poor. Who doesn't want to live indifferently and peacefully, is it possible? It's not like a machine to work, so tell me, what do I eat?

Yes, to walk in this world is not only to survive, but also to live.

But is it easy for ordinary people to live?

Just being alive wastes all your might, you know?

You don't understand, what do you understand? Every day, I stand and talk without backache. The woman said angrily.

"So, don't make excuses for me, just do whatever you want!

Said to make up the class obediently.

Tired? It's not just you who are tired, everyone is tired.

Everyone can sleep for only four hours, why can't you? Are you special?

Don't tell me you're sleepy.

Don't tell me that adults need eight hours of sleep a day.

How many adults get eight hours of sleep a day? Guo Yingying shook her head helplessly.

"No, I don't.

Why do they sleep four hours a day when I can only sleep four hours?

What does it matter to me how they want to live? The girl slammed her fist on the desk.

"You don't want to.

Spend so much money on me, and I don't want to, who will I talk to? ”

"You don't want to, isn't that right? I won't make it up. ”

"You don't want to? Who do you think you are? The center of the world?

Will the earth revolve around you?

It's one thing whether you're willing or not, whether you're willing or not. Whether to do it or not is another matter.

It doesn't matter if you don't want to, you have to make it up to me. The woman said arrogantly.

"What do you mean?

It doesn't matter if I want to or not?

Why are you pointing fingers at me in my life? The girl glared at the woman in disgust.

"Why, let me give birth to you and raise you.

If I don't give you money for a few days, you'll starve to death. The woman refused to give up.

"Money, money, money. What else do you have in your eyes but money? ”

"I don't care. You don't give me so much nonsense either.

Starting tomorrow night, I will have a night of self-study.

You honestly came back to me to make up for my English. The woman didn't give her the slightest chance to resist.

"Then I'll go to live on campus and won't come back."

"You dare? I won't kill you! ”

What do you say? Why wouldn't I dare? ”

"If you dare to go to the boarding school, I will dare to go to your dormitory teacher to apply for you to leave the dormitory." Guo Yingying threatened.

"It's unbelievable!" As she spoke, she walked out the door.

"Why are you going so late?" The woman wants to stop the girl.

"Go out for a walk, I want you to take care of it!".

She closed the door of the house as if she were dead, and she took two steps to the downstairs.

The autumn wind blew mercilessly, and the girl was wearing a single dress, which made her shiver from the cold.

"Why are you here?"

"Beichen, why are you?" Xuan Fan asked in surprise.

"Oh, I just finished my class and I'm going home." He Beichen yawned at her tiredly.

"It's so late after school, are you still going to make up for it?"

"Well, what then?

What about you? Why haven't you come home so late? The boy asked curiously.

"Me? I had a fight with my mom. She pursed her lips as she spoke.

"Well, that's the case?

What shall I do?

You have to get up early tomorrow, how can you have the energy to quarrel with her? Ignore her and you'll be done.

Let's go back to bed, it's so late. Beichen reassured.

"Okay, then you should go back and rest early."

Yu Fan waved her hand at Bei Chen, but she didn't mean to go back, but walked to the stone bench and sat down.

The autumn leaves flutter slowly in the evening breeze, and draw a graceful curve in mid-air.

The lights in the house were still on, and the orange light was even more dazzling through the thin glass.

The woman reclined on the sofa with a cigarette in her mouth, and the white moonlight sprinkled softly on the floor.

Guo Yingying looked at Bai Yueguang and gradually became stunned, and the hot soot fell on her wrist.

The woman let out a loud "ah" and hurriedly shook it off, but left a smoke mark on the woman's wrist.

At three o'clock in the morning, Yu Fan came back and gently pushed the door open.

Guo Yingying fell asleep on the sofa, and the cigarette helmet case on the armrest had been filled by her.